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Remnants of a Healer

Chapter 19 | Synwood Rendezvouz

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"Is this really necessary?" Dan Heng questioned.

It was his first time being in their Imbibitor Lunae form. According to Dan Feng, it resembled his old form. He can't help but to question the attire though, maybe it's too much skin for his liking?

"Ugh, I swear I'm not this revealing back in the day…" Dan Feng whined, "but yes… we have to take this form so they would recognize me." "And if someone tries to deter us on the way?" Dan Heng raised his brows. "…You have my permission to use my powers, do try to go easy though…"

Dan Heng pondered for a moment. He could sense Dan Feng's hesitation. He sighs, hoping nothing would go wrong. Well, they should get going. According to the message he received, he was meant to meet the High Elder's maid at Synwood Pavilion. But should he wait for Stelle first or-?

"Just go… We shouldn't keep someone waiting…" Dan Feng sighed, "I'm sure Stelle will meet up soon enough."

Dan Heng couldn't help but to internally look at Dan Feng. It's clearer now, he thought it was just hesitation, but there was something else. Restlessness, worry… What exactly is hiding in his past? Why does he seem to worry about what the Vidyadharas see through him? Instead of speaking up about it, Dan Heng just nodded away.

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Synwood Pavilion… It would have a much nicer scenery if that cursed tree wasn't there. Dan Feng sighed, even after the Stellaron was sealed, the tree still looked as alive as ever. He shook his head, going back to the matter at hand. Just as expected, the High Elder's maid was waiting for them- for Dan Heng. It's been such a long time since he had to do anything.

"Remember, just tell her that we wish to see the Luofu's High Elder," Dan Feng reminded him. "I know, I do not need your reminder," Dan Heng sighed.

The conversation with the maid, Huanxi, was very serious and professional. Dan Heng wasn't exactly used to it. He remembers, normally Himeko would be the one to deal with this kind of thing with no problem. He shook the thought off, now's not the time.

"I have delivered the missive about the meeting," the maid nodded, "do you have any questions, Master Dan Heng?" "I know all that I wish to know," Dan Heng nodded, "thank you, Miss Huanxi." "You need not address me as "Miss"- I am but one of Bailu's maids…" she shook her head, "then again, if i may be so bold to make a humble request…"

"Ugh…" Dan Feng groaned, "I knew it…" "Something wrong?" Dan Heng questioned. "Nothing… Just play along for now."

Now Dan Heng can't help but feel a bit restless too. What kind of mess are the Vidyadharas in? What kind of things did Dan Feng go through for him to be so distant. But that's why he's here, to see the truth himself, before hearing Dan Feng's perspective.

"…Go ahead," Dan Heng gave another nod. "Before this…" the maid then paused, noticing another person, "oh, who might this be?"

Just then, Stelle came approaching both of them. Dan Feng was a little surprised, he didn't even sense her coming. I guess it doesn't matter, he thought to himself. Dan Heng was honestly relieved to see her though. For a moment, he thought she was gonna miss the meeting.

"Seems I came at a bad time…" Stelle sighed. "I'm speaking with Master Dan Heng, I'm afraid this doesn't involve you," Huanxi huffed, "please take your leave."

That's odd, Dan Heng thought to himself. He didn't think the Vidyadharas would get defensive so easily. Is there something they don't want outsiders to know? He couldn't help but ponder, though he should probably do that later.

"Stelle is a close friend, I've invited her along to bear witness," Dan Heng explained, "please treat her as you would me… Now, what was your request?"

Just then, he could see it- they could see it, both Dan Heng and Dan Feng, the hesitation in her eyes. There's a lingering secret, at least Dan Feng is aware of said information. Though, he wished for Dan Heng to uncover the truth himself. After all, he had given up trying to convince people with his words.

"…Then, I hope you don't plan on meeting with Miss Bailu," Huanxi stated. "Care to elaborate…?" Stelle spoke up, sensing the tension. "Please, hear what I have to say… I have good reasons to be concerned."

Just then, Huanxi began to tell the both of them how Bailu's path to become a high elder wasn't following the usual protocol, and it wasn't even the path she wished to take. Then, she began to explain how it was all because of the stubbornness, hubris, and tyranny of the previous High Elder, Dan Feng. Dan Feng couldn't help but glare the moment she mentioned the Preceptors. Of course the news of Dan Heng's return had spread far and wide. It could be troublesome… But that doesn't matter. The moment the maid mentioned the succession tradition, he's already ignoring her.

"Just remember to stick to the plan, Dan Heng," Dan Feng scoffed. "I know…" Dan Heng sighed.

Dan Feng closed his eyes, beginning to meditate. It was the only way to block out the voices of the people around them. This kind of thing is exactly the reason as to why he always decided to stay at the back of their inner world. Annoying, unnecessary noises. He has always hated them, always pressuring him. He wished he could shut them out forever but… no, he shouldn't. He trusted Dan Heng, no matter what, he'll judge it according to his belief.

"Dan Feng?" Dan Heng's voice reached out. "…Is she gone?" Dan Feng opened his eyes. "Yes," Dan Heng nodded, "I haven't even set my eyes on Bailu, and people are already urging me not to meet her…" "Well… What do you make of it?" "It's suspicious, she even included your tyranny… Is it even true?" "Well, let's just stick to the plan," Dan Feng lets out a sigh, "as I promised, if you stick through it, I'll tell you my story."

From looking into Dan Feng's eyes, Dan Heng knew his descendant didn't plan to go back on his words. Though he could see the lingering feelings brewing at the back of his consciousness; melancholy, regret, anger… so many heacy emotions.

"C'mon, the starskiff's ready…" Dan Heng sighed, knowing there's nothing he can get out of Dan Feng anymore.. for now.

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THIS IS THE BEST THING I HAVE EVER SEEN

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welcome to the Murdersex zine, a zine celebrating all things sex and murder. but um. we don't want to romanticize it or anything so don't make your submissions too murdersexy. we will do extensive background checks on all applicants and if we decide a past work of yours has too much sexy murder we'll have to remove you, sorry. we have limits, you know, we want a tasteful gory spread you could put on your coffee table, and having the Wrong people in it would kill the vibe (and we condemn all killing! wholeheartedly!)

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ten years ago you were so scared of such different things, but you survived them anyway. the same goes for five years ago and two years ago. everything that has ever felt like a hurdle, you’ve passed through. so be afraid, identify your fears, and then allow yourself to remember that in just a little while, this will be another thing that you have overcome.

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i was supposed to go to bed an hour ago dont tell my mom

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this is so beautiful im actually crying!!!!!

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I am going to eat this entire candy cane.

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phainon not existing in the next cycle and him being forgotten at the end of the main story and mydei looking at a statue of someone that looks like phainon but he no longer remembers anything or who he is but he still feels this sense of longing and guilt for this stranger that doesnt even exist

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i cant believe thats his shy face.......baby looks like hes abt to cry again i need to eat him whole uhghhhh

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First thing you see after you zoom in is how you die

How you dying 👀

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From the OP: "If you sit at a desk or stare at your phone all day, this is for you. Here's how to undo the damage: - Banded Chin Tucks - Strengthen your neck flexors and fight forward head posture - Banded Pull-Aparts - Target your rotator cuff and improve shoulder stability - Banded Abduction - Activate the midline of your scapula for better posture - Lateral Deltoid Raises - Build shoulder stability and control - Banded Up-and-Overs – Boost scapular mobility and range of motion These simple banded drills will help you stand taller, move better, and feel stronger - even after hours at a desk."

Some of these are the same or similar to the exercises my physical therapist taught me.

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I think half the motivation Mydei and Phainon have for competing is not about the competition itself, it's about impressing each other. There IS a part of their motivation that is all about the fun and thrill and arrogance and the connection through play.

But another big part is... Flirting. They are just... Peacocking. Making a little mating dance.

And I don't think they are fully aware of that.

It's trying to show off and be like "see? I'm great! Look at me! Keep your eyes on me and my impressive acts!"

It's like when a kid does a silly dance trying to impress you; a cat bringing you a dead bird, but instead they are showing off the titankin heads they chopped.

"oh? You can do that thing? Well see me do this other thing! See? I'm amazing!"

It's half about their own pride, half a hetero guy flexing on Instagram trying to get bitches but all he gets is compliments from his bros. Except the bitches they are trying to get is their bro so it works.

They see the other achieve a great feat and they are half like "oh, he's so hot" half "I must outperform him" half (it's the invisible 3rd half) "now it's my chance to show how I'm a great romantic prospect".

And the competition in question is... Who can stay in the hot baths longer. If they are naked there they will NOT address it.

Really, they are lucky to be gay, I don't think these methods would work on a woman. Or at least any women they know. Maybe Stelle.