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3/5

This day was so incredibly life changing for me in so many ways. Let's start my day out where I talked to two men, Michael and Earnest. Michael is the important character here, he opened my eyes up to life. I met him at a soup kitchen type event they hold every Sunday at the church we are going too. My friend Wes and I sat next to him and started chatting with him about life.. what are dreams and aspirations are, what we want to accomplish. So on and so forth! He told me that the formative years are very important for a child, and if that's what I want to teach I better not screw it up and only do positive things, which he knew I wanted to do. We got onto the topic of the Golden Gate Bridge and he told us about a movie about people who try to jump off of it to kill them selves. He told me he was one of those people that once tried to kill himself. But was talked off the ledge. When I asked why he did that, he told me that he was terminally ill with brain cancer and had 3 months to live. I was fucking stunned, I didn't know what to do with myself. At this moment in time I realized I'm an unappreciative fucking person that needs to take life more seriously, I need to get off my ass and get things done. I couldn't help but break down after he left and he wished me the "best of luck in life". And it certainly didn't help I had this racist black man try to fight me for no reason at all. I went outside and talked to my friend about fate, something I should most certainly look into. Because I also think god showed himself to me today. When I was in mass the man was talking about god or Jesus making 5 loafs of bread and 2 fish into 4,000 loafs of bread for people. When people still didn't put their trust into Jesus he told them why are you doubting or complaining? I just fed all of these people and can easily feed more if need be. It made me realize I need to put my trust into him more as a person and let him guide me throughout this life, cause it clearly isn't working out for me too well right now. After all of this life changing shit I had the opportunity to have a shitty burrito from a taco stand, then visit fruitvale station where oscar was gunned down by a cop for no reason. We did a very small hike to see a beautiful view of the city of Oakland and are some Thai food, which wasn't my favorite but it was OKAY. Ready to see what tomorrow holds cause today was freaking awesome! We out!

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3/4

Longest. Travel. Day. Ever. Dude, I left my house at 1:00 EST, said goodbye to my cousin and the rest of my family.. then left Rhode Island for the adventure of a lifetime to Oakland, California! This long haul was a 7 hour trip which included my first trip to Wahlburgers, as well as my first trip to In and Out Burger! Too many burgers in one day! Really made me shit my pants when I was on the plane! Cheese fries from in and out burger suck, I wouldn't advise them to my worst enemy. They sucked so bad, the burgers were good though. After a long day of travel I was about ready to sleep. After waiting an hour for the vans they transported us to a church where we would be sleeping! But the fucking gates were locked and it took us forever to get in. It was kinda annoying but this trip isn't about me, it's about serving people and god! I can't wait to see what the next day holds for us. We out!

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3/3

This was one of the most interesting days ever. I decided to go to an event in Boston for no reason, really late. I wanted to actually crash it just to piss the owner of the event off. When I went to the event I realized there was tons of people in the lobby, got super bad anxiety when I saw everyone staring at me and kept moving. I did a ouija board again, well kinda.. ya see my friend Was super drunk and he said he was seeing demons, apparently it's a regular thing for him. He condemned my friend to hell which is horrifying and some of the biggest talent on the event were there. They just looked at him like he was insane. He kept telling me that if I didn't stop then people would end up being sent to hell. Which is horrifying. I hope I'm safe cause that would suck. When I went to leave, I got mobbed by fans which is cool but kinda scary at the same time. I didn't know what to think at all man. It was a good feeling though I guess? I guess it means I'm doing SOMETHING right! After that I drove rory home and then prepared for my adventure to Oakland California.. which I will explain in other entries! We out!

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3/2

So this past weekend I went to my first rave and got absolutely hammered. While running past the line we didn't realize security was standing at the end and my friend decided to pee on the sidewalk.. in front of them. They asked us if we had anything to drink and decided that we were way to intoxicated to go in. Which we damn well were. So I decided to go on a mission to get in. So I snuck in line, shielded myself from security and when I got to the front without my wristband they asked me why I didn't have one. I made up a bullshit excuse that I was cold and didn't realize they were handing them out. Then successfully got in. So now it was successfully sneaking my really drunk friend in the event, he got kicked out of line 4 times and had to buy new clothes at cvs. He then proceeded to slide his way through the line and somehow make it into the event. I don't know if I'd ever go to a rave again but I do know it was a fucking adventure, which I love. I also befriended many people, like the ones in line that successfully shielded me away from security, then when I got inside they still wanted to talk to me and bought me drinks for some reason.. probably cause I snuck their friends in. So a big fuck you to BHOB, we owned you bitches! That's all I have to say for now. We out!

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2/20

Completely forgot to journal for the past 5 days so this might be a little longer than usual. I haven't really done anything productive over the past 5 days but sit around and realize how shitty my life is compared to my other friends. I'm a college student, barely surviving school, just pushing along trying to make it to the next day. My other friend is living in LA right now, hundreds of thousands of people know who he is, and he's making good money. He's doing everything I want to do, living the life that I want to live. But here I am sitting in a shitty dorm wondering when my next assignment is due because I'm too lazy to get up and check for myself. I'm so bored with the same shit everyday. I sit there wondering what my life would be if I decided to take broadcasting more seriously and pursue a career like that, rather than become a teacher. Which, I wouldn't mind doing. I just hate the concept of having to go to school to become a teacher. I'm living the life my parents want me to live, and not the life that I personally want to live. And it sucks. I hope one day I can be truly happy with where I am in life, until then, I won't be and I'll continue to struggle with the everyday life of being a sheep of a college student. Because that's exactly what I am, a SHEEP. Society tells us that we have to go to school to become successful, but you really don't. I'm starting to realize more and more that there's more opportunities out there for me, I'm just scared to chase after those opportunities and go against the grain. I want to be my own person, I want to do something that nobody has ever done before. But, I don't want to take the judgement and harassment that'll come with it. The constant ridiculing I'll get if I decide to do something a little different than the average person. Life is tough, but as my grandfather says "nothing in life is meant to be easy". It could also be a lot worse, at least I can say I have my health, my family, and friends are healthy.. etc. But for right now, I'm trying to find my happiness. On the outside I seem like a happy person, but anyone who knows me well knows that I'm not myself and I really need to take the time to figure out what direction I want to go in my life. I want to be happy, I want to make others happy. But I need to make myself happy before anyone else. I know in the end things will work out, it'll just take a lot of time and effort. I just want to prove people wrong. 2017 has been an interesting year thus far. Let's see what each day has for me. We out.

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2/15

Another boring and mundane day. I realized I have a lot more support than I thought but I honestly hate school. I wish I could do all the things my friends do and live the life that they live, but I know it'll never work out for me. I just have to continue to go through the motions in hopes that I can live a regular life and get an average job. But it's truly amazing how many people use me to try and get my friends, it's honestly sickening. The amount of dumbass text messages i get in a day is also repulsive. Some of them just spam my phone until I block them. I don't understand how someone can invade someone's privacy and do something like that. My dms on twitter are open for a reason, use them you dirty fucks. At my event today we had the Winter Olympics but barely anyone showed up, so hopefully that can change soon. Back to a busy week tho! Also I found it funny that this girl tweeted at me and said she got hit, when I know she didn't because if she was hurt she would've called an ambulance.. apparently it was her boyfriends boyfriends cousin. Whatever the fuck that means lol! That's about it though, there's 2 hours left in today so if something entertaining happens I'll write a follow up post. We out.

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2/14

Not really sure what to say about this day. I'm currently typing 2/14 on a toilet because I'm shitting out all of the disgusting Donovan food I've eaten that's making me fat. I had my 8am class and I actually showed up, didn't pay attention to a word the lady said. Following that 8am class I had a meeting with a guy named Nate, he's been trying to restore my faith in the lord but I've kinda been blocking out what he says. I think my convo with him made me actually rethink everything I'm doing with my life. When I was actually listening to what he was saying I felt so much happier with myself and wasn't as stressed. So I guess I'm going to take what he's saying into consideration. I want to my 4:00 class and nearly slept through it because the old fart doesn't even know how to teach. Realized after that class I have a 4 page paper due at 10am, which I completely bullshitted and it came out horrible. 12.5 font and 2.5 margins, if I don't get caught she's a moron. I continued to put it off as my friends and I made fun of people on TinderSocial like idiots. That's about it though. Another day, another Nickel. We out.

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My year

I have nowhere to vent about all the shit I’ve done without anyone seeing and I don’t want to actually write cause I’m a lazy prick. To start off my year I ended up celebrating in a 5 star hotel called the W, I got fucking hammered, we destroyed the hotel, took booze from the rooms and had a bomb ass time. I went to Chicago with my friends for an event and met a ton of fans that I didn’t even know liked me. I’ve drank or smoked almost every single day this year and it’s been absolutely ridiculous. I watched the Patriots win the Super Bowl and the day before that got chased down by a crack dealer. It’s crazy to think that I’m doing all this crazy shit with my life and people are still sad/depressed. I want to change that, I want to make sure that whatever I do with my life I’m making a difference, and making sure there’s one less sad person in this shitty earth. I’m going to make a difference, I promise.