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another gabi braun edit I made!!!

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another gabi braun edit I made!!!

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GABI EDIT !! ☆

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GABI EDIT !! ☆

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not to be dramatic but i’m literally still thinking about chapter 111 of snk, especially nicolo’s reaction in particular.

like, i’ve seen a lot of people say they appreciated his violence because it was a “human reaction” to being confronted with the person who killed the love of his life, but also it wasn’t just violence, it was extreme violence. towards a child. seeing that it was a child who was responsible for sasha’s death should have had at least some impact on the way he reacted…but it didn’t. as opposed to the way jean & co. responded, who even while literally watching sasha die on the floor a few feet away from them, restrained her and didn’t use violence at. all. 

you might say, “but jean shot at her!” like yeah. he did. but i don’t think it was out of anger as much as it was the fact that she was armed and had just killed somebody, and his first instinct was to take whatever action necessary to keep other people from being killed, or even worse, from causing damage to the airship and crashing it (which was a possibility given how gabi was ready to go on a rampage up there). however, the second she was unarmed, they didn’t harm her, no matter how much pain they were in. and they were probably a lot closer to sasha than nicolo was, let’s be honest.

which is why i have so many feelings about what nicolo did…because i don’t think it was just a human reaction. it was a marleyan reaction. the fact that he didn’t even hesitate to not only smash a wine bottle against a child’s head, but then to pin down a twelve year old girl and beat her in the face, as a fucking adult man, says a lot about the environment nicolo grew up in as a privileged marleyan who was raised to view eldians–even children–as sub-human creatures, and whose violence against them was dismissed as “no big deal” or even encouraged. he grew up seeing marleyans inflict extreme violence on eldians without any form of consequence or moral issue, so this was normal to him. and that is why i hope it’s addressed later and gives the paradis characters even deeper insight into the environment in which gabi and falco were raised (as well as some other marleyan-eldians they knew four years earlier). things are different on marley–a lot different–and even though nicolo apologized and felt terrible for his actions in chapter 112, that doesn’t change the fact that his first reaction was extreme violence towards children, and that he didn’t hesitate at all. and i’m pretty sure there’s a reason for that.

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CLEARING UP AND EXPLAINING SOME THINGS THAT PEOPLE TEND TO MISUNDERSTAND ABOUT GRAY, JUVIA, AND THEIR RELATIONSHIP

(warning: spoilers. It's also gonna be some LONG ass shit lmao. Sorry for typos in advance)

I heard a lot of people hating Gruvia for things that they misunderstood (or just straight-up dismiss/ignore) about the ship, and so I thought I'd clear up and explain some of those here because I just think all this hate towards the ship is unnecessary especially when most of their reasons of why they hate the ship aren't really valid or reasonable.. I mean, yeah, you can dislike and hate it all you want, we all have different preferences. But the level of hate Gruvia gets for reasons that are already proven false and untrue is just unbelievable. Like people saying Gray is somehow "controlled" by Juvia, or that Gray has "Stockholm syndrome" when Juvia never even tried to kidnap Gray... And worse is when people start to spread misinformation and slander the ship, spreading hate and negativity towards the ship for reasons that are again, proven to be untrue.

[ GRAY'S BIG TSUNDERE ASS ]

Gruvia is not one-sided, it's just that Gray's a big frickin Tsundere and that he refuses to show affection, so he may come off as cold to her sometimes. Although later on he realized that he should accept his feelings for Juvia rather than pushing her away and trying to run away from his own feelings before he regrets it, so now he has become less of a Tsundere and is trying to become a better person for her (but still a Tsundere lmao)

[ GRAY'S PAST AND CHILDHOOD TRAUMA ]

Gray does not dislike nor hate Juvia, even from the very beginning after they just met. Hell, even right after their fight in their first meeting. After their first actual meeting, Gray even helped her, saved her, made her happy, and even smiled with her. He wouldn't have done all that if he disliked her. He wouldn't have said he has no problem with Juvia joining the guild if he disliked her. He wouldn't hang around with Juvia inside and even outside the guild if he disliked her. He wouldn't have worried and felt bad about her not passing the exam of he disliked her. He wouldn't have carried her running away from danger even though she already said she can run away by herself if he disliked her. He wouldn't have agreed to going out with Juvia, which clearly meant as a date to her, if he disliked her. He wouldn't have lived with her for half a year if he disliked her. He would have agreed with Juvia leaving him alone if he disliked her, but instead he hugged her, thanked her, and cried on her arms. He wouldn't have sacrificed himself for her safety if he disliked her.... I can go on and on for hours with this honestly. But the point is, he clearly doesn't dislike nor hate Juvia. He even said he's grateful for having Juvia always by his side.

It's just he didn't wanna get too attached to her. He has always thought ever since as a child that it's his responsibility / fault whenever someone he cares for dies. He blames himself for it, consciously or unconsciously, and puts the burden upon himself. He feels like whenever he gets too attached to someone, they would leave him and when that happens it'll be his fault. That's the reason why he seemed cold to her sometimes, it's that he doesn't wanna get too attached to her, afraid that she would just leave him like the others...

"I'm going to avenge my mother and father!"

"I wasn't... able to do anything..."

"It's your fault, Gray." (Lyon)

"It's my fault that Ul died 10 years ago"

"No matter how much time pass, it won't change the fact that it's my fault Ul's dead!"

"I lost both mother and daughter..."

Him trying to push Juvia away by being cold to her is most likely something he did unconsciously, since he himself wasn't really sure about his feelings for her and having the fear of loosing his loved ones before, at least when it was just starting. But as we already know, his attempt of trying to not get too attached to her wasn't successful. It didn't have any chance of being successful to begin with since the reason why he didn't want to get too attached to her and why he had developed the fear of loosing her in the first place is because he's already attached to her from the beginning. He was the one to save her, worries about her a lot, cares for her, protects her, and spends a lot of his time with her, which made him even more attached to her. Which explains his expression at that one recent official Gruvia art which some fans didn't like... He looks like he feels like he shouldn't fall in love with Juvia, but he really just can't help it.

And when it actually almost happened, when Juvia almost killed herself for him, it finally became clear to him what he feels about her, and he realized that it was stupid and cowardly for him to try and avoid Juvia and his very own feelings, because of his damned childhood trauma. He could've lost all the chances he had with her forever, with all those efforts she spent on him all be put in vain. And now that he realized this, that doesn't make the fear of loosing her disappear. It can't be erased just like that. But instead of avoiding, hiding, and keeping his feelings like before, he's trying to improve and be a better person for her that can protect her no matter what.

[ THE LOVE POTION THINGY IS NOT CANON ]

The episode about Juvia buying potions made her look bad for some fans. It was not in the Manga. It's not canon. The part where Lucy expected Natsu to confess (which was seen in the same episode) is canon, since it is from the Manga. But the part where Juvia buys love potion and uses it to try and get Gray is not in that chapter, nor is it in any chapter in the manga, meaning it's not canon and is an anime-only part. Well personally I found it quite funny, but some fans really hated Juvia on that one.

[ JUVIA IS NOT A YANDERE B*TCH ]

I saw a lot of people referring to Juvia as a "yandere" and portraying Juvia as such.. Juvia is NOT a yandere girl who will kill you if you reject her and shit. If anything, she's the opposite. She can NEVER hurt Gray. She'd rather kill herself than hurt Gray. When she thinks she's making Gray uncomfortable, she immediately apologizes. When she thought she disrespected Ul's death anniversary by saying it should be a happy day for Gray because it's their anniversary (she didn't know it was Ul's death anniversary at first), she felt very sorry and disappointed in herself. The reason she couldn't approach him at the start was because she didn't want to make him and his friends uncomfortable, and because she isn't used to socializing with other people (add the fight with Phantom Lord which caused the guild a lot of trouble, plus how people always disliked and pushed Juvia away). Basically, Juvia has, or at least had social anxiety. At first, she couldn't approach Gray because she was extremely nervous. Juvia also wasn't as bold as she is now towards Gray at the start, she was shy and was shown to even stutter a lot trying to express her thoughts to Gray and the guild members. Yeah, she becomes extremely mad when someone threatens Gray's life, but that's just like Natsu being mad when someone threatens to kill Lucy. Or Gray being mad when someone threatens Erza's life. Or Mira being mad when someone threatens her siblings lives.. But Juvia didn't even actually kill Meredy (the one who did threaten to kill Gray), but instead even became friends with her! A yandere would do the total opposite. I think that if Gray ever rejects her, she wouldn't even be mad at him, but would probably be very depressed and think a lot about what she did wrong.. She was even willing to give up on him in Tartaros Arc, when she had to kill Gray's father, she thought she doesn't deserve to love him anymore after what she did so she was willing to finally give up and leave him alone... When yanderes are the kind of people who'd go as far as to kill every other person close to you just so they can have you for themselves...

But Gray himself does not want her to leave. Even though he seems annoyed with how Juvia is clingy towards him and all that, in reality, he doesn't want her to leave. He hugs her and says "thank you" to Juvia for being the one to "kill" Silver, saving his father and finally letting his father rest in peace, so that Gray didn't have to kill his father himself. Silver himself wanted to die and even thanked Juvia for that so I don't really understand why people hate her because of it. And if Gray disliked or hated Juvia, he definitely would have agreed about her leaving him alone.

The main reason why Juvia acts like this is because she's trying to show her love for others that she wasn't able to show before, since she was always rejected, avoided, disliked, and even hated by others. She's always pushed away by others. So now that someone (Gray) didn't push her away and showed care for her, she didn't want to miss the opportunity of finally feeling loved and being able to share her love.

And Gray, together with the guild, accepted her. She wants to feel loved and accepted, so she's trying all her best to not be seen as someone gloomy or unlikable that others used to think she is. She does things that she thinks would make them happy, she does things that she thinks would make them accept her. But since she never really knew how to interact with other people before she joined the guild, and the people she used to be with were toxic as hell, she comes off as awkward sometimes. But she's growing, together with Gray and the guild, she's growing.

[ THE LOVE RIVAL" THING IS JUST FOR COMIC RELIEF AND WAS NEVER SERIOUS ]

She may say "Love Rival!!" when someone's getting close to Gray, but it's only put as comic relief and she was not actually serious about it. Even Lucy, the one whom she always calls her "rival", never took it seriously. If Lucy did, she would have never approached Gray ever again, or hated Juvia for it. If Juvia was really serious about her so called "threats", they would have kicked her out of the guild long ago. Plus, she may act like that, but in reality, she cares for and is willing to sacrifice for her friends, including Lucy. And Lucy herself knows that. Even Gray knows when she's just joking around and even called her out for joking at serious times.

It's sad that people say that they are concerned about Gray and Juvia "forcing" herself into him when they don't really actually think about and consider what Gray is actually feeling towards her.. Gray loves her, she loves Gray. Just let them be happy. Gray has lost too much, at least let him enjoy being with Juvia.

Anyways, I'M NOT FORCING YOU TO LIKE THE SHIP, WE ALL HAVE PREFERENCES. But I'm just trying to make you understand both characters, their relationship and development a little more. Well, this is mainly just from my perspective tho. Especially with all the hate this ship gets and how misunderstood both characters are and the things they do. And if you got to this part, thanks for reading all of this lmao this is my first time posting something like this in Tumblr, I hope it wasn't that confusing.

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these parallels go hard

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Birds of a feather

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Натланцы для оформления в аске, в котором я отвечаю за Кэйю. :"3

Капитано идет розовый. 💅

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So yeah it's August 24 in my country and like I felt forgetting something when I literally just remembered It's Kanae Kocho's bday🌷🌺🌸 ( ͒˃⌂˂ ͒)

HAPPY BDAY TO OUR CUTIE PATOTIE WOOKIE TALL STRONG FLOWER HASHIRA KANAE KOCHO 🌺🌷🌸🌹

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The Sanekana Ship is valid

Sanemi and kanae in the manga

Their first appearance together in the manga is in chapter 168. Sanemi disrespects oyakata sama (the master) during his first pillar meeting and kanae tries to calm him down.

(Look at her hand)

If you have read the light novel it is easier to understand kanae's concern and why she tried to calm him down.

Sanemi and kanae in the light novel : The Wind's Telltale signs.

The novel focuses on the friendship between masachika and sanemi and also on how sanemi became the wind pillar.

Kanae has known sanemi since before he became the wind pillar.

In the novel, masachika takes sanemi to the butterfly mansion to get his wounds treated and kanae is the one who treats his wounds.

Despite sanemi's cold and rude demeanor kanae understands that he's actually a very kind and gentle person.

After the pillar meeting :

Everyone except giyu scold sanemi for being rude to oyakata sama (the master). This is sanemi's first impression on the pillars (except kanae ofc) kanae is disappointed because she knows deep down sanemi is a kind person.

Sanemi and kanae : KNY fanbook

In the KNY fanbook, there are a few pages where we get to see what each pillar thinks of the other pillars.

Basically, sanemi only talks to shinobu because she's kanae's sister.

Next we have, Gyomei himejima basically confirming the ship. Note that gyomei was not wrong about obanai and mitsuri having feelings for each other. He even confirmed that shinobu and giyu like talking to eachother.

Since he was right about obamitsu and giyushino, sanekana fans also think that he's right about sanemi liking kanae.

Sanemi and kanae : The 'coin' moment in episode 25

In this episode, kanae gives kanao a coin and tells her that she will change TOO when she falls in love.

Note that Kanae said 'too' here

So does kanae have someone she loves? So maybe that person is sanemi

Sanemi and kanae : similarities

Sanemi and kanae are both of the same age. They both lost their families to demons. They are the older sibling who care deeply for their younger sibling.

Sanemi tells genya to quit the demon slayer corps because he wants genya to live until he's old.

After kanae's battle with Douma, kanae tells shinobu to quit the demon slayer corps and live like a happy normal girl

Sanemi and kanae in kimetsu gakuen

In kimetsu gakuen, Sanemi and kanae are always seen together and it's adorable!

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every time i remember gruvia's double suicide i wonder how i'm not constantly talking about them rather than nalu. the emotional complexity between gray, the depressed guy who secretly thinks everyone hates him including himself, and juvia, the depressed girl who knows most people hates her (due to her past with phantom lord) but still manages to find the one who taught her to see the light in things - literally!! stopped her rain and all.

and then their beautiful progression where juvia proves her devotion, not only to her newfound love, but also to fairy tail as a guild - her newfound family. and gray slowly but surely has to face his past, in multiple ways, and slowly but surely juvia manages to chisel her way into his icey heart. and from that point there's some turmoil when juvia indirectly "kills" (releases) gray's father, her doubting her right to love him, gray telling her basically that if anyone were to do it, it had to be her, and that she freed his father rather than killed him.

and then the progression of acceptance - juvia staying strong and determined to keep loving the guy who never thought love was for him, and him slowly accepting her, even when he doubts his own power to protect her from any harm that could come their way

and then!! the horrific fate!!! them getting into a situation where they have to kill the other to get away from the situation alive, and juvia, who practically never stopped loving him, automatically wanting to sacrifice herself, knowing that gray, who might seem distant and cold, never could kill a guild mate. so she decides to take her own life, for his sake, but oh!! the plot twist!!! gray thought, like, the exact same thing! he only knew that juvia had to come out of this alive, but that there was no way she'd kill him, so he kills himself!! he can't imagine a future without her!

and then, after blacking out (thinking they're dead) gray wakes up, to his dismay, and he sees that juvia kept him alive, even as she herself was dying!!! so heartbreak and demon mode and he goes to kill natsu for being END and all that

but then the story progresses and they're both alive, and gray reluctantly admits that he wants juvia to himself, and then in the hyq we learn that he's working on himself to become a lad worthy of the love juvia has to offer, and that she's his will to live and his entire past present future and that they're rawdogging it in his dreams. kinda.

anyways i love them and i think i'll die, that's all, thanks for reading

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No but seriously why all the warriors in Claymore are women is both because they are easier to control due to less power hungry due to how they are raised in a misogynistic society but also it's a commentary on how women are changed, abused, and then tossed aside by the people who abused and changed them because they no longer have any use. They have self hatred drilled into them because it's easier to control them that way. In Those who Rend Asunder episode arc we have four warriors who are trouble makers. One is consistently defiant and is slowly coming out of her self-isolating mindset due to human connection (Clare), one of them is actively finding dirt on the association and learning of ulterior, world-shattering motivations (It is implied she knew it even then (Miria)), another is very care-free and actively helps other claymores see themselves as human and therefor less likely to be controlled (Helen), and the last one generally just causes problems and strife within the group (Deneve). These four are sent on a mission that they weren't expected to come back from. It doesn't matter how well they preform in battle, they are causing trouble and are influencing others to change and think for themselves. Also commentary on how women should act. Miria should stay in her lane and not snoop around and think for herself. She should simply follow orders and coordinate with her team, which is her strength. She should not step out of that box. Helen shouldn't be so loud and boisterous, and simply use her limb-stretching ability to the organizations benefit. She shouldn't bring other warriors up. She shouldn't connect with those around her. Focus on your job. Deneve shouldn't be so herself. She speaks her mind and is blunt, but women shouldn't do that. Stop causing problems and just keep to yourself. ALSO THE THING where people desire their bodies and see claymores as a sort of exotic find, until they see their scars. Unattractive, othering. Something to be sick by. Scars forced upon them by men, using them as experiments for some war.

I love Claymore I love women

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One thing I think I just realized is, in addition to being dissatisfied with how stories deal with Toriel’s grief compared to Asgore’s and Asriel’s, and how I don’t see many instances of Toriel and Asgore’s quarrel being addressed in a way that satisfied me… I don’t think I see that many AUs that quite get the responsibility Asgore feels… right.

Yes, I’ve seen several that portray his grief, depression, and how badly he doesn’t want to be in this position well, even if it’s disappointing how not everyone seems to be aware of what you learn about him in a Neutral run where you’ve previously killed Flowey. A lot of people can get aspects of his characterization very well, the broken man, the goofy dad, the intimidating monarch. But I think the reason I don’t see people capture the weight of his responsibility quite as well in fanfics and comics is… well. Oddly enough it’s in the way the monsters treat him.

It’s not just the fandom that has issues with idolizing or demonizing characters. It’s also the Kingdom of Monsters themselves–and they all idolize Asgore. Yes, he’s a very grounded and compassionate individual who invites his subjects to share all their problems with him, and who Papyrus insists will just let you pass through the Barrier. But he’s also a bit of the subject of a cult of personality for his subjects. When they say he’ll absorb seven souls and become a GOD, it’s not an expression of his arrogance, but rather their own adoration. While out-of-universe the Angel is generally agreed to be either Asriel or Chara(or us), in-universe I wouldn’t be surprised if Asgore was considered the Angel.

It’s not long now. King Asgore will let us go. King Asgore will give us hope. King Asgore will save us all.

Yes, individual monsters may want to collect a human soul for their own individual wants and desires. But it’s only the capture of a human soul, or using a single soul for their own benefit, that they really aspire to. (With the exception of Toriel, who wants no souls, and Flowey, who is Flowey.) Of those area bosses who earnestly try to take just one soul, Papyrus and Undyne both want to hand you over to Asgore, and Mettaton wants to protect humanity FROM Asgore. Literally everyone in the Underground seems to fully believe that Asgore will be the one taking all the Souls and fulfilling his promises, and all are content. (Again, barring Toriel, MTT, Flowey.) No one seems to ever doubt he’ll do as he says, even his ex-wife, and no one’s greedy to take the power for themselves or take the burden of being a savior for themself, except his kid who has both a God Complex and a Savior Complex.

With Chara, and with Asgore. They take a person and turn them into a representation of something More than any singular person could ever be. And then in the worst route Chara does it again, to themself. Asgore is freedom and salvation and retribution itself, and everyone including the woman who was once married to him agrees and reinforces the role. Chara is the feeling of a number going up, and the fandom agrees and reinforces the role.

And I dunno. There are fics and AUs where Asgore never lost his kids and always remained an affable, friendly guy. There are AUs where Asgore is the main antagonist and an awful villain with few redeeming qualities. There are fics and AUs where Asgore gets to recover in a post-pacifist setting. But I’m not sure any fics or AUs have ever quite captured how everyone else just talks about the guy, for me. Toriel is simply ‘intimidating’. But Asgore is a GOD.

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Susie doodles and a suselle where I was listening to once more to see you by mitski and it rlly shifted the energy of the drawing I think😭

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HI SUSELLE FANS i offer this