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It’s 2023, new year, same shit

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I wish I also have that someone who can’t live without me…

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I don’t know why I started re-using tumblr. I just felt like this is some kind of a journal where I can vent out everything, but really, what am I doing?

I’ve been recently asking myself that. Is this the kind of life I wished for? Is this all I can do? Is this all I’m worth it? I don’t know. Do I dare to find out? I don’t know as well. Maybe I’m at this point in my life where I really don’t know what I’m doing and how I’m doing.

But really, do we always know?

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I'm trying to fight for my marriage but I feel like the other party isn't. You may have started to fix everything but HER being in the background STILL, won't fix anything AT ALL.

Come clean.

All or nothing.

That's what it takes.

Start over.

Cut HER off.

Or leave me alone.

As simple as that.

You can't have us both, that's not how the marriage works.

And you girl, know your place. Have some self respect. If this is all you're good for, good luck then. Karma is waving at you.

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Hindi ko alam kung hanggang kelan pero sobra na. i don't deserve this.

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Done with the third! I feel like I'm being inclined to Paris lately. My second artwork showcasing Eiffel tower.

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Starting a new one.. This one is a bit bigger than the first two and as usual, I'm excited to finish this.. Stay tuned..

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My second artwork.. This design is actually chosen by my mom.. I asked Miggy to give it to her first thing in the morning.. ❤️

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So I got this ring, something to wear in the meantime.. But still, I'm hoping I could get to wear my rings again, in time..

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I'd like to think some things are gonna go back to how it used to be but somehow, my inner self is telling me that I shouldn't expect much so I won't get my heart broken again..

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I started doing this last week, Wednesday and finished last Sunday. It was addicting, mind you! Hahaha. Now I want to do more of this. It's also relaxing and I feel a sense of accomplishment as well.

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It was nice talking to my "boss". Somehow, I felt relaxed during the discussion.

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I just thought of doing something new.. Why not post whatever thoughts I have? Keep myself sane? I recently found a new friend, kept talking to her on a daily basis, we definitely connected because of what we were/are going thru, but now, she suddenly stopped talking to me. She suddenly stopped responding to my messages, I don't even know why. She could've at least told me, right? But well, that's life. What more can I do, right?

I want to continue living, for my kids and for my self. Sometimes, I feel like I haven't lived my life for some time. I felt like I'm trying to fit in, trying to fit into someone else's life, rather, everyone. I just wanna be me. And be free. Yep, I'm going thru something (probably the worst right now), but I just realized that I should keep on moving, right? That's it for tonight. Will I update tomorrow again? Let's see.

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Dear self,

You should know when to fight, and when to give up. Pag talo ka na, talo na. Wala na magbabago dun. Isuko mo na. Love yourself muna. Kasi wala na ibang gagawa nun for you kundi ikaw lang. Know when to hold on and when to let go. In time, kaya mo rin. Kakayanin mo!

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Ang hirap pa rin pala talaga. Why do I have to go through this? Bakit ako?

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I’m letting everything go now. Wala na ko magagawa but forgive and try to restore what was lost. Nangyari na eh, di ko na yun mababalikan. Di ko na pwede i-undo.

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Omg!! Stop!!

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