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these sleep problems are killing me dude why can't i sleep 😭😭

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James: What's you lots favourite childhood memory? Sirius: The day Walburga almost used the Avada on me but missed. Sirius: She hit Orion instead. Regulus: Oh I remember that. Mine's the day mother hurt herself after breaking that vase. Regulus, smiling: And then tried punished us for it. Sirius, grinning: Oh yeah that was good— Remus: My favourite childhood memory is my back not hurting for more than ten minutes. James: James: I shouldn't have asked... Peter:...Should I say mine now?

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i had to meet up with *them* again and i can see them talking shit about me on their phones to eachother

like bitch stfu i've been polite and kind

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i love my besties

letting me call them so late (for us) and keeping me company while my hallucinations are going wild (bpd induced hallucinations)

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lil update!!

i have permanent housing

going to therapy

sold $165 worth of crochet at kaiga con brisbane

my baby is happy (my lil boy landon (cat))

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hai :3 life update for moots? (am asking all my moots :p) (am too scared to go off anon T-T)

it's perfectly okay to stay anon <3

finally have permanent housing and getting back into growing my business next week !!!

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Friendly reminder that Regulus drank a horrible pain, thirst, and hallucinations inducing potion moments before he was dragged under water by dark dead creatures so he was probably relieved when he actually died because the pain was over

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Call me Regulus Black cause boy, do I have daddy issues

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last full day in this house, been yelled at for putting my portable aircon on while i'm packing so i don't pass out lmao

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one month until my birthday and 2 and a bit weeks until i'm kicked out 💀🙃🥴

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how are you doing? /genq

terrible, just got screamed at for eating a piece of left over pizza cause i was about to throw up 💀

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to my friends,

zeil, grey, apollo, atomic, bray, lore, ambrose, emily, willow

thank you for always being there for me

i love you guys, even if you don't see this

(not a suicide letter just emotional)

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so i'm getting kicked out

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crying rn bc my friend go me meaningful gifts and my family got my gift cards (not ungreatful just upset cause im easy to get a meaningful gift for)

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happy holidays to those taht celebrate! i'm currently drunk and high and i want to make sure that everyone, mutuals or not, know that they are appreciated in this time. i've never had a good relationship with christmas as ive had to prepare everything for my family after my brother was born, and it wasn't fun. no i genuinely hope that everyone has the best holiday that they can, wether you guys celebrate it or not. i love you guys so much <3

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i'm so exhausted from fighting off this cold i just wanna sleep it's too hot

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sobbing

14 year old James who moved on from his crush on Lily to be absolutely besotted by Regulus Black.

15 year old James who managed to finally get Regulus to like him back, maybe even love.

16 year old James who pocketed the marauders map and put on his invisibility cloak to go meet Regulus in the depths of the night.

16 year old James who never told Sirius or his friends about him because Regulus was not yet ready to face his brother.

16 year old Regulus who falls deeper into the trenches with the absolute void that was James. He couldnt help it, James' whole presence required you to be absorbed within him.

17 year old James, spending his days worrying about how to talk to Sirius about him falling in love with his brother.

17 year old Regulus who is forced to join the death eaters by his family.

17 year old Regulus who loves James so much, that he doesnt have the heart to watch James hate him for what he has become.

"Obliviate"

18 year old James who feels a bit concussed as he went back to his dorm from the astronomy tower at midnight. He doesnt even remember why he was there in the first place.

18 year old James who gets enamoured by Lily Evans yet again and this time, its reciprocated.

17 year old Regulus watches as James and Lily spend their days filled with happiness.

Regulus drowns at age 17 with his final thoughts being that of James. Now nobody knew of what once was and could've been.

18 year old James, who has never really even talked to Regulus, feels his heart hollow at the news of him dying. He wonders why. Maybe its sympathetic pain, it was Sirius's little brother after all.

And that was all he was.