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After a long day of work, Mina desperately wanted a meal that she hadn’t made on her own.  Maybe it couldn’t beat home cooked food, but the small diner seemed promising enough.  Pushing open the door, she watched as the host turned around to greet her.  “Hello,” she paused to bow her head slightly, “just one please.”

His finger’s ran across the buttons of the cash register to ring up the customer. He had went home for the week to Seongnam since a large group of the school was on break. He hands the customer the receipt and their card and bid them a good day. He sighs and checks to make sure they have enough menus for more customers. He looks up as he hears the bell attached to the door ring. “Welcome,” he says with a smile on his face, “How many in your party”? 

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With a small smile etched into her face, Mina did her best to seem relaxed.  The tension in the air was enough to choke her, but she didn’t want the other to see that.  She wanted them to have a nice, friendly conversation.  She wanted to hang out with her best friend again without the nagging thought that Miyeon was uncomfortable.  “Of course I was!  We can’t just not celebrate your birthday,” her voice was completely sincere, hoping that her friend would recognize it.  “Did you like it?  I was worried that it wasn’t exactly your style or something, but I had to get it as soon as I saw it.”

It was a relief when Mina turned her attention more towards that dog than on her, leaving her able to try and gather what thoughts were swirling in her mind as she absently unpacked the dog’s belongings. Miyeon didn’t want to lose her best friend. Her actions weren’t showing it at all, but that didn’t mean that she didn’t want to try– she just couldn’t think of anything she could possibly say to make up for months of silence. She couldn’t erase the thought that Mina only wanted anything to do with her out of pity, or just to drag her along and drop her again, this time with the same malicious intent as everyone else. “It’s fine. I’m not the boss of you.” Miyeon shrugged. It wasn’t as if she’d even know the difference. Just like at home, she planned on staying in with the door shut, barely emerging unless desperate needs called. “Oh, you were serious… Yeah, I guess so. That sounds fine to me.” Once again, the uncomfortable silence filled the room again, and she was running out of tasks she could use to distract herself from it. “Uh, and thank you for the gift. I wasn’t expecting it.”

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As the other stepped away, Mina turned her attention completely to the dog.  She tried to ignore the thickness in the air, the strange feeling that sat in the room.  She missed the days when the two would fill the silence with laughter, and tried to think of a way to get that back.  “I’ll actually be spending a lot of time in the room.  I hope that’s okay.  I need to relax for a few days, I think.”  She looked up with a small smile, stepping away from the dog and moving to her side of the room.  “Oh! And I just remembered that I owe you a cupcake.  Are you in the mood for one?  I can go grab something for us from the cafe.”

The awkwardness that filled the room was yet another reminder to Miyeon that she’d be better off giving up. Trying to force a normal conversation was just a waste of their time and energy, and they’d be better off just pretending that each other didn’t exist. “Thanks, I’ll remember that.” Her words seemed ingenuine, because well, they were. She never asked for help from even the people she’d trusted the most, and Mina was no different. “Yeah, she’s much more gentle than Bruno.” She stepped back to start unloading the dog’s belongings, leaving the idol with space to play with Ciccia as she pleased. “Um, yeah, that’s it though. Just letting you know so you don’t get startled at night or something. Though you’ll probably be more out than in, I’m assuming. I don’t know what else you want me to say, so. Enoy your trip.”

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Mina just continued to smile at the other, not sure where they were in their relationship right now. She had thought that things were positive, but she couldn’t be certain.  Maybe rooming together on some random trip wasn’t going to be healthy for them, at least not this early on, and she didn’t want to do anything to upset Miyeon.  Her mind flashed briefly to her conversation with Sunnie, but she was sure to remove it very quickly.  There was no reason to be negative right now.  “If there’s any way that I can help, though, just let me know,” she stated softly before turning back to the puppy.  She seemed a bit more relaxed now, and Mina took that chance to reach out and pet her, “What a sweet baby, oh my goodness.”

It was no surprise to her how willing Mina was to go along with the ordeal, but the next person couldn’t possibly be that easy. A cute dog being involved did work in her favor somewhat, but Miyeon couldn’t forget that she was on a trip run by and populated by people that loved to hate her, and she had no business being there in the first place. If anything, they’d let the dog stay and kick her out. Imagining the worst possible scenarios came natural to her, after all. “Thank you, but I think I’ve got it. No need to get yourself involved in my mess. I’m just letting you know so we’re on the same page. No surprises.”

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“This is,” Mina paused, eyes widened and cheeks puffed out as she examined the small animal before her, “the cutest dog I have ever seen.”  Her tone of voice was completely serious as she leaned in closer, not wanting to frighten the pet but endlessly amused by it.  She wanted to scoop the pup up in her arms and hold her until they returned home, but she knew that wasn’t exactly logical. Tearing her gaze from the pug, her expression shifted to smile at the owner, “Don’t even worry about it, Miyeon.  There’s no way that she can get in my way.  I’ll even help you take care of her, if you need it.”  She hoped that this would be a simple way to show that she didn’t mind rooming with the dog, nor did she mind rooming with Miyeon herself.

“This is Ciccia,” Miyeon answered, absently rubbing at the pug’s stomach to help calm her. She knew it was inevitable that she’d have to explain her uninvited guest to whoever she’d be boarding with, and though it did help that it was someone she already knew, it didn’t make it a conversation she wanted to hold. “Minhee has Bruno. We couldn’t leave them with someone… I don’t think they’re even used to us that much yet. She’s quiet. I’ll keep her in here with me so she’s not in anyone’s way. I have training pads, but I’ll still have to walk her at night so she can get out. But she won’t be in your way.” Or we, more appropriately, but she refrained from reopening those wounds.

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The other’s opinion brought out a grin that made her cheeks ache, so happy to hear that Jahye enjoyed her work.  It wasn’t a song for L:OVELESS, so she wasn’t very considered with how people would respond to it, but she did need it to at least sound decent.  “Okay, okay,” she nodded her head, taking in her friend’s advice.  The problem she had started with was the transition, and if she could figure out how to fix that, it seemed like it would be perfect.  “Give me a minute.”  Turning back to her computer, she spent the next few minutes fiddling around with her music program.  Listening to the section of the song once more, she returned her attention to the other, “Okay, how about this?”

“It’s good, it is unique but like all songs that would be people who won’t like it. And it’s refreshing, most songs nowadays resemble each other a bit too much, this. This is great.” Jahye was honest, and tried to be as logical as she could. And any compositor had to think about the audience that would receive the song. She heard Mina talk, nodding along. “That can work but tried to not like tame it too much because then the nice beat will fade away. You can do that and see if you like it if not, maybe lessen the effects. But it’s good as it is.” The girl liked the beat and in all honestly she was proud of the song itself, it was pretty awesome. “It only needs a fluid transition.”

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Now she was definitely confused.  It was one thing to not recognize her, to not recognize one of their songs, but he hadn’t even heard of the group?  Although it made her sound like she was bragging, everyone on campus knew who they were.  It was difficult to walk around without someone asking for a quick photo or an autograph, and even those who weren’t necessarily fans of their music at least knew their name.  “Really?  You might be one of the first people I’ve met who hasn’t heard of us yet. That sounds completely egotistical, but everyone seems to know us on campus,” she gave him a small smile, as if to show that she wasn’t upset by it in any way.  In fact, she was more interested than anything.  “Hang on, I’ll play one of our title tracks,” she replied, opening up a new folder and picking their first hit, You’re Pitiful.  This time, a music video popped up on her screen to accompany the song, and she smiled fondly at it as soon as the song began.  “Oh, absolutely!”  Mina turned to him with a bright grin, eyes crinkling slightly as she did so.  All of the stress and work that went into her career always paid off in the end, especially when she saw the tens of thousands of fans showing their support.  “I love it more than I can put into words.”

Hearing that she got to perform them brought a smile to Chanso’s face. It was good that she was able to share those songs with the world around her, especially with how good they are. L:OVELESS? Huh, he hadn’t heard of that, at least he didn’t think so. It must of been an idol group or something? At least from the name that’s what it sounded like. ‘’Unfortunately the name doesn’t ring a bell, however I’m assuming that it’s a group you’re in?’’ he asked, raising an eyebrow to get confirmation from the other. ‘’However, what I can deduce is that you’re quite popular around the campus, right? I mean it would be a shocker with those types of songs. Perhaps I’ve heard one of your songs before, do you have one that maybe is more popular that I might of heard of?’’ At this point he was feeling a little awkward, he hoped that he wasn’t insulting her because he didn’t realise who she was, or what L:OVELESS was. ‘’But regardless that’s great. It’s really interesting to meet someone who’s in this kind of situation, is it everything that it’s made out to be?’’ He had heard from a few friend of friends that they were trying out for different companies to become idols, their account of the situation wasn’t very good if anything, but it depended whether or not Mina was with a company, he didn’t really know anything about that yet.

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As she watched his reaction to the second song, she felt a lot less nervous.  While the first had been a last minute composition for class, this one was professionally done.  She could remember the hours of labor that it took to make sure it was just perfect and ready for their album, and it almost made her feel exhausted all over again.  Still, she found herself excited for the next album, ready to feel relive that form of stress.  “Thank you!”  She replied with a bright grin, eyes crinkling slightly with her smile.  He seemed like he might be a fan, if he knew who she was.  If he enjoyed both songs, he would certainly find interest in the rest of them.  “Yes and no.  I write them for fun, but it’s also my job,” Mina explained, pausing to let out a small laugh, “I perform quite often, actually.”  The idol didn’t mind his questions, always willing to talk to others about her career.  "Those are my groupmates. Technically my friends, yeah, but more than that.  Have you heard of L:OVELESS before?” As egotistical as it sounded, she couldn’t imagine that he hadn’t.  They were very popular on campus, and the whole school seemed to listen to their music.  But maybe he was an exception.

Looking at them it was clear to see that whatever Chanso was saying she was happy about, which was a joy to see. He enjoyed making people happy, especially after the song he had just listened to, it was deserved. ‘’Ahh, nice to meet you, Rhee Mina.’’ He replied to the other in front of him. Looking over to Mina’s computer he saw that she had opened a folder, possibly a folder that housed all the songs that she had made? It was definitely a possibility. A smile crossed his face when she handed him one side of the headphones to listen to the song. It was a very nice song he had to admit, maybe even better than the one he had listened to prior. ‘’Yes, I like this one. It’s very good.’’ He noticed that the song had more than one person on it, perhaps it was others that were doing the same major as her, perhaps friends maybe. When the song had finished he handed the headphone back to her whilst nodding. ‘’Yes, that was a very good song. Do you write them for fun? Do you ever perform them? I noticed that there was more than just you on the song, are they friends?’’ He was feeling quite noisy at this point but he hoped that Mina didn’t mind, since she had allowed him to listen to the songs in the first place.

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The two were never going to be satisfied.  They ran around in circles until they got tired; Mina trying to find hope in her relationship with Miyeon and the younger slamming her back to reality.  “Okay, okay,” she let out a defeated sigh, not wanting to hear anything else that Sunnie had to say about her friend.  It wasn’t like she expected anything different, but it still made her upset listen to the insults. “I’ll figure it out.  I always do... eventually.”  She had nothing more to say on the subject, especially after the ‘brutally murder’ comment.  It was in her best interest to just keep her mouth shut and take care of the issue on her own.  That being said, she was certainly willing to store the leader’s advice in the back of her mind, ready to use it as a backup plan.  Glancing down to the other’s handiwork, she put on smile once more, “It looks amazing.  I don’t know how so much talent can fit in such a small girl.”  There was a pause before her gaze fell back on Sunnie, “And speaking of your wonderful accomplishments, I was talking to your mom yesterday about a little celebration for your graduation. And Luna’s too, of course.  Just a small party at the cafe, maybe.”

So much for not trying to kill Mina’s hope. She’d almost feel bad, almost, if it wasn’t for the fact that she was 100% positive that she was right. “You’re not getting it. Whether she’s giving you trouble or things are fine, just being associated with her is a threat to the group. That reputation is going to linger over her head until she finally gets the picture and quits the fame whore thing. Sorry, modeling.” Though Sunnie could tell that the other’s words were sincere, she still wasn’t confident in the situation being handled properly without her intervention somewhere down the line. But still, she couldn’t hover over Mina’s shoulder at every moment of the day. Not everything was in her control, as much as she wanted it to be, and she just had to accept that. Signifying that she was done with the discussion, she rubbed her hands together and held them in the air briefly before returning her attention back to the pleated skirt. “If I were you, I would have gotten rid of her completely before we debuted. But it’s a little late for that now, so… Do what you want. Just make sure that whatever you do, I don’t have to brutally murder you for ruining my life.” She forced a smile on her face and let out another deep breath. Happy thoughts. “Ah, this looks nice– I might make one for myself.”

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Sunnie’s words were harsh, but maybe it was exactly what Mina needed to hear.  She tried not to wince at her group mate’s tone, not wanting to be scolded once more.  “No, I wouldn’t do that.  You know I wouldn’t.  If it threatened the group, I wouldn’t waste my time.  But at this point, the only thing that’s at risk is my own feelings, and I can let that happen.”  Maybe she shouldn’t be sharing this with the other, but she didn’t have anyone else to talk to about it.  “If any of this could hurt the group, if there’s any chance that it will, I promise you that I will give up.”  Her tone was serious, and she was making a promise to both of them.  No matter how much Miyeon meant to her, the group meant more.  It had to mean more.  “I think that I have this under control.  And if I don’t, you’ll be the first to know.”

Sunnie let out a deep sigh again. This was starting to go around in circles, both with her warnings to stay still and their current discussion, reminding her of exactly why she didn’t waste her time talking about feelings and problems. “I’m just saying, it’s stupid. You’re risking everything that we’ve all worked for just for one person. You need to remember that we’re a group and we’re all held accountable for one person’s fuck ups. Unless this potential– whatever is worth losing your whole career over, then don’t waste your time with her. Your hope is stupid and you know that I’m right.” She had to stop herself from saying any more than that, knowing that if she continued talking, she was bound to start getting nasty with her words. “Look, just think about what I’m saying. It sucks to have to drop people that you care about but you knew what you were getting into when you signed up for this. If she can’t understand that, if she has a problem with that, then she needs to learn to get over it. And either you need to handle that or I will.” She raised her eyebrows at her last part– they both knew that if Sunnie handled it, it would only get more ugly than anyone wanted.

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“Sorry!”  Mina froze, not wanting to risk it.  She knew that Sunnie’s threats were quite real, and she didn’t feel in the mood to be stabbed with a pin.  As much as she loved the younger, she spent a lot of time being terrified by her.  A small smile still etched on her face, she thought about the advice she had just received.  Maybe she was being a little too optimistic, but she couldn’t help it.  She had always been a dreamer, and this was no exception.  There was a chance that everything would work out in the end, and she was going to cling to it.  “Don’t make me feel bad when you just gave me hope, Sunnie.  Let me be hopeful.”

“Stop moving!” Sunnie hissed, holding up another one of the pins as a reminder of her previous threat. Even with this little heart to heart, she wasn’t opposed to resorting to violence. Of course she was right– if she wasn’t sure that she was right, she wouldn’t have said anything at all. She was tempted to roll her eyes at Mina’s blind optimism, since she still was positive that the situation was only going to go south and end badly for everyone involved, but she wasn’t going to build the other up and then tear her down all within the same breath. She gave her warning, and if Mina didn’t want to listen, that wasn’t her problem. “Except you kind of can, but if that’s what makes you feel better, then knock yourself out.”

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Mina couldn’t help the grin that formed at the other’s words, hoping that he was right.  If she had more time on her hands to dedicate to her school work, she wouldn’t be as worried, but with schedule filled to the brim, she couldn’t help her nerves.  All that mattered was that the song was finished, and her peer enjoyed it, so things were looking up.  “Thank you so much!  That really means a lot.”  She paused, realizing that he actually didn’t know who she was.  It had been a while since she had to introduce herself to someone on campus, and it was actually refreshing to have the chance, “Rhee Mina.  It’s nice to meet you.”  Turning back to her laptop, she pulled up one of the files saved in a folder labeled ‘2:14 AM’.  “Uh, okay, this is one of the songs I’ve worked on,” she clicked a song file and waited for L:OVELESS’s Asulhae to start playing.  She wondered if it was a song he would recognize, knowing it wasn’t a title track.  Maybe she should have picked Day by Day instead...

It was very interesting, listening to the piece of music. It was very good, quite different in fact. Different in terms of what Chanso would usually listen to that is. Being a music major sounded like fun if Chanso had any thoughts on it. However, seeing as you would probably have to do things like this, it might not be fun to everyone. Although if people are taking music composition it would be stupid of him to assume you would not be doing anything about music composition. Perhaps it’s a good thing that he wants to stick to literature and things of that nature. ‘’Well if it’s for your final then if I may so say myself, I think you’ve got top marks on it. They would be stupid to not give you a good grade for this piece of music.’’ Especially if she wrote all the music and lyrics herself then they would be a fool to not give a passing grade at the least. ‘’You mentioned that you wrote a lot of your own music, I’m assuming that means you have more than one song. Any chance I can have a listen to them?’’ He questioned to the person in front of him, cocking his head to the left ever so slightly. Wait. That could wait for a moment, he hadn’t even introduced himself. ‘’Maybe it would be best to introduce myself. I’m Ku Chanso, it’s nice to meet you.’’

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“You’re right,” she let out a sigh, shoulders slumping forward slightly before she re-positioned them. She hated admitting that Sunnie was right about this, just like she usually was about these types of things.  It would be for the best if she let Miyeon go, but she couldn’t bring herself to actually do it. The other meant too much to her.  At the suggestion that she leave things be for a while, she visibly perked up, “Ah, that’s actually a good idea.  Maybe things will be fine this time.  But if it gets bad, I’ll do something about it.”  That sounded like the best option, and it was even better when she repeated the idea.  If she did something right away, she might regret it.  But if she hung on for a little bit longer, tested the waters, things might go their way.  “You can’t always pick your friends, you know?”

Sunnie only shrugged again in response, a faint frown forming on her face. She wanted to take offense to the statement, but she really was in no place to since it was the truth. She was quick to drop people, even if it was mainly out of short-term spite and for the sake of theatrics. “If just being in the same lineup as her makes you this anxious, then you don’t need to keep her around. I’m not saying this to be mean, I’m saying this as honest fact. Our lives are stressful enough, we don’t need more people adding to it.” She took on a gentler tone, hoping that it would get across that she wasn’t just being mean– that it was her advice, what she would do, and probably was the right thing to do since it was what she would do. “It does, if she’s making it to where you can’t do your work. I’m not saying drop her first thing, I’m saying drop her if she keeps causing problems. If things work out for you two, then fine– I still think it’s stupid to be friends with someone that risky, but what do I know.” Who was she to judge, after all, when one of her closest friends just spent a year in jail? It wasn’t going to stop her, but she couldn’t just not acknowledge her own blunders where they applied.

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Mina sat still, silent as the younger’s advice washed over her.  It wasn’t possible, not for her.  She couldn’t just walk away from Miyeon again.  She needed a friend, and the idol just wasn’t the type of person to turn her back on someone like that.  “It’s not as easy as you’re making it seem,” she muttered, fingers balling up into balls to express her discomfort with the suggestion.  “I’m not like you, Sunnie.  I can’t just leave someone like that.”  Mina knew that this could end terribly, but some small part of her didn’t think it would.  She hoped so desperately that everything would work out, but her group mate didn’t seem to be on the same page.  “You know that the group is the most important thing in my life.  I’m not going to jeopardize all of our hard work.  But that doesn’t mean I have to ruin a friendship because of it, does it?  I mean, maybe we could work something out and end all these problems.”

“Ignore her like you’re supposed to. Then the drama is over. If she tries to continue it, take her down before she can take you down. You’re about equal. People’ll believe anything about a rookie, but they’ll also believe any claims about her trying to ruin another career just as quick, and it helps that you’re likable and she’s not. Make some long, heartfelt note full of hints and she won’t bother you again.” She shrugged, her answer sounding far more simple than it actually was– for Mina, anyway. Sunnie had no problems with cutting people off and dishing out the same or worse bullshit than she was receiving. She’d worked too hard to get to where she was, and she wasn’t going to let one unhappy person mess it up. Not to say that Mina didn’t work hard, but she had too much of a heart, and that was clearly what the issue was for her. “You don’t have an obligation to help out every fucked up soul on the planet, you know. That’s not your job.” Her voice grew stern towards the end of her statement, hoping to hint that L:OVELESS should be her priority and not some friendship– and if that was the case, that Sunnie would put an end to it in the worst ways before letting it ruin the entire group.

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“Ah, wonderful,” she gave him an even bigger smile, happy that he had found nothing wrong with her composition.  Sure, his opinion probably wasn’t a professional one, but she would take it anyway. Gaze falling on the program pulled up on her screen, she made a few small tweaks before looking back at the other.  “Uh, yeah, kind of,” her words were followed by a laugh, a little surprised that he didn’t know who she was.  It was a bit of a relief, knowing that there was someone on campus that didn’t already know more about her than she did herself.  “I’m a music composition major, and an artist.  I write a lot of my music,” she replied with a small shrug.  Running fingers through her hair, she gave him a nod, “Yeah, you can listen again.  It’s for my final.”

Strange? It didn’t sound anything like that to Chanso. Having said that, it wasn’t like he was an expert in music or anything like that. ‘’No, I don’t find it strange at all, I don’t really know that much about music but I listen to a lot and it sounds really good.’’ He replied, a bright beam on his face. ‘’The transition? Sounded good to me, I like the tempo of the song, it’s really nice.’’ Turning his body around to fully face them he directed his attention towards the computer that she was operating. ‘’Do you do this a lot?’’ he asked, a peculiar look on his face. He had to assume that they were some sort of music major or something like that. Maybe they just liked music that much? Chanso didn’t really think that to be true though. ‘’If I may ask, what’s it for? Are you a music major?’’ If she was a music major it could possibly be a project of some sort. ‘’In fact, can I listen to it again?’’