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busted brand

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busted brand

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i rly like who i am

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Green leaves and naps in the sun. 🐍

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v been trying v hard to stay sane-ish. coping methods, comfort media, stuff to help my identities stay put . but there's weird voices coming from the street/next door and m so so close to an identity crisis . random noise is technically unrelated it just means i can't keep calm . trying to love myself as i am, feel pain i hav in me rn emotionally, and still exercise self control in terms of the enormity of my desires etc etc

scared to shower cos my hairs all matted. scared to socialise cos i can't control my sadism. scared to clean because ill be covered in gross stuff. aware how weak and selfish that all is. noises from outside and i just can't sit still

i need to eviscerate someone but i can't so im trying to hold off the desire to self harm which is like one of the only ways to cope w this stuff and i won't i won't i won't self harm idk what ill do ill shower probably and deal with my hair at least ill be clean and warm that's something . at least ill be clean and warm

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real yearners know its not about getting what you want and real preemptive grievers know its not about making the most of what you still have

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I'm just a girl who wanted a forehead kiss that's all

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me pretending my enormous feelings arent crushing me to death and carrying out routine tasks that are good for my health and longevity

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texted my besties . like as myself (meredith) not just as mmg . being spoke to and acknowledged by them rly helps . told them both the same thing

not like the extent of it just enough for them to witness me existing and kno generally what's up

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People definitely don't realize that I'm nice by choice, not by nature

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girl tied to vibrator while i cut her

girl tied to vibrator while i cut her

girl tied to vibrator. while i cut her.

girl tied to vibrator while i cut her

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Make sure yall praying

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Do You Have Crippling Producer's Block. Maybe You Should Try Reading A Lesbian Murder Poem Over The Beat You're Stuck On.

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selection of leo's best shots across the weekend. source: leothewildcard.

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jacko rly wanted to get the door open

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serving cunt at the eerie lighthouse