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Reminders for the Anxious/Depressed Creatives

You’re more than what you make.

Your productivity does not determine your value.

It’s okay to do nothing sometimes.

Not everything you do has to result in a product.

Not everything you make has to be important, significant, or even good.

You can make things just for yourself.

You can keep secrets for yourself, whether it’s not posting some of your projects or not sharing your techniques.

You’re allowed to say no.

You’re allowed to rest.

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see ok heres reason why zoe wont go out with me HYPOTHETICALLY

[] alice likes me and she wont dog alice by going out with me 

[] i dont add anything to her life already so theres no need for me to be involved more

yep

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i just woke up from a weird dream here goes

we had this really cool base or something, and we just needed something to cover up something else with like a special kind of block so we could get villagers for emeralds or something idfk anyway we were working on that (i think it was the robotics people)(it is just a huge square room with a cobblestone staircase going up. storage room with chests etc idk)

i was walking home up to the top from school and zoe, louise, matthew m, elliot, samantha, leilani was there. leilani was like something about her finger and i made a fat joke, something about mountains idk. no one really said anything, louise was like ‘woah what the fuck man’ i was like come on, then no one really said anything. suddenly we were in the van, going down the hill, everyone got out but i didnt cause i was still mad, and it scraped against a car and turned on its side and then i got out and went to the base thing with my emeralds. i was thinking shit like ‘ill show them etc’ i put on some music and started working. the rest of the people come in and they start working too. someone says something and i just repeat what they said in a loud mocking voice. im like ‘fuck off’ (at this point im really reminded of how i was when i liked louise, with the intense jealousy etc imma keep going tho)

shehaab comes up to me to take something off my table, then zoe joins him. i lash out and hit him in the leg. zoe is like ‘woah, what the fuck, dont do that, ever again.’ i look up and she was kissing shehaab. then she says something about infinity or something wtf

jesus fucking christ my mind is just wack

i was reminded of how i felt when i liked louise, the jealousy that i felt within me all that ah jeez. can my brain stop it. i felt bad the entire dream, admittedly it was dream-me’s fault but whatever

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At the pharmacy

Me: wise sage, give me what I need to banish the darkness from my mind Pharmacist: here’s your antidepressants. Me: no curse of mine shall befall you from my dying breath Pharmacist: thank you

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hi guess what im ranting about zoe again who wouldve thought

so we hardly talked at all this week, and then i just stop sending memes bc like why put in effort and we didnt really talk for like 5 days and then at robotics she was all like “i was moving! i couldnt do robotics cause i was moving houses, my entire house moved!” then i was like “o rlly, i moved houses just in the weekend too” and she looked really excited and talked pretty fast idk and i asked where she moved to, she said trafalgar st, she asked me i said manukau rd, she was like “tHATS LIKE RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER” i was like haha yeah its up near ollies’ then she was like do you walk to school i was like yeah i went up and then down past royal oak intermidiate, then she was like oh, what time did u get to royal oak i was like idk, she said ok what time did u get to the lights i was like i didnt walk that way, then she said ok well me and this other kid walk to school around this time so

also in robotics after school i asked her if she was walking up and she was like yeah so we walked home together it was kinda nice but also really fuckin awkward lmaoo

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hi can I just rant for a second here thanks. 

 okay so zoe right i dont know why she asked if she could send me memes, and if i could send her some i dont know what it means, and im pretty fuckin confused bc like i dont think it means she likes me or else i guess she wouldve acted differently irl 

 im so confused lmfao its got me confused af cause i dont even know how i feel xdddddd wtf like i feel like im sort of just forcing myself to feel differently about her, like i think how she likes vines and shit is cool and all like i dont know too many people irl who like them so thats nice but like idk and im just sending memes because she asked me to, as a friend. she does not like me anymore than that until she says so. 

 it just confuses me

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like wtf its just wack man

i do feel like i have weird attachment issues, and that i feel like im just convincing myself that i like her like that, but idk if i really do u kno

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see okay so my dad is considering getting my brother a laptop for school, and by extension im might also be getting a laptop me: in year13 so i wont use it for school a lot. ie i will only be in school for 1 year so the 3 year life span of a laptop wont be at school for a majority my brother: in year10 so the laptop will be in school for its entire life will want to play games n stuff on it im being expected to know what having a school laptop is like, without ever having one so ??

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Tips to Create More Effective Writing

I’m not going to give you any secrets to make your writing just plain brilliant, because, really, there are none. Writing takes experience. Someone just starting out shouldn’t expect to be able to automatically implement advice read in an article. But I am going to present to you some tips that can help you along in your writing journey.

Clear idea. Make sure you have a clear idea of what you want to do with your story. You want to write about pink elephants in tutus? Great! Now what are you going to do with these pink elephants? What is the plot for them going to be? What is their story going to be? What is their conflict going to be? What do these pink elephants ultimately want? Answering these questions and a few others can help give you a clearer idea of the story you want to tell.

Be specific. Don’t give readers bland descriptions. Give them descriptions that let them see what you are describing. Don’t tell readers there are a lot of houses in the neighborhood. Give character to those houses. Are they all the same? Are they different? What do they look like? Do these houses match the personalities of the neighbors? How does your character feel about these houses? And ect.

Word choice. It’s okay to throw in what I consider a SAT word every so often, but you don’t want to do it too much that those words eventually call attention to themselves. So the simpler the better. Word choice is also contingent on the type of book you’re writing. For example, if you’re writing a YA contemporary book, you’re more likely to use the word ‘use’ instead of ‘utilize.’ However, if you’re writing a science fiction book, it isn’t too farfetched to use the word utilize. In the past I read a book that poked fun at using the word ‘edifice.’ The word ‘building,’ this book argued, is much better to use than edifice, because edifice is pretentious. However, sometimes building waters down just what the structure actually is. For example, in When Stars Die, I have Amelia call the cathedral an edifice at least once to keep me from overusing cathedral. Calling it a building would have watered down just how magnificent the structure actually is.

Crisp sentences. If you can convey a single thought with a simple sentence do so. Otherwise, complex sentences can invite confusion. This happened during the copy-editing stage of When Stars Die, where my editor had to point out a few sentences where confusion was evident. There was also one big sentence that I struggled with trying to cut down, and I had to have my PA help me. This required breaking this single sentence down into three simple sentences so that readers could understand what I was trying to convey. Plus, long, wordy sentences are annoying to read, mostly because our modern eyes are not used to them. If you’ve ever read fiction written in the 19th century, you’ll see what I mean by wordy sentences. Even though a lot of stories from the 19th century are still read today, if someone were to write like that, that story would have a rejection letter already waiting for it–unless, maybe, if this story is written as a parody.

Active voice. Using active voice to write sentences creates smoother, stronger writing. For example, instead of saying 'The ball was thrown by me’ it’s more effective to say, 'I threw the ball.’ Less words, too. An active sentence consists, in this order, the subject, the verb, and the object. The subject is 'I,’ the verb is 'threw,’ and the object is 'ball.’ So keep those three words in mind when writing active sentences. Sometimes the passive voice can work, but this isn’t something you want to overdo. This is also a judgment call and requires experience to pull off effectively.

Qualifying words. Using words like very, really, little, rather, and other qualifying words can be unnecessary in exposition. Writing 'She was very tired,’ is weak writing. Instead you can write, 'She was drained.’ Or writing 'He was really, really mad,’ is weak, too. Write 'He was livid.’ So wherever you use a qualifying word, replace that with a stronger verb. Qualifying words in dialogue, however, are okay, but crisp dialogue is important, too. After all, a teen character might not use 'livid’ to tell another character how someone reacted to a character’s actions: “He was really angry that you sent that text message to his girlfriend.” People use qualifying words in dialogue a lot, in any case. But, again, the crisper the better.

Get to the point. Don’t ramble. Find an effective way to state your point using as few sentences as possible and move on. Don't  veer from the idea your character is trying to get across. “I couldn’t stand the way she walked away from me, tossing her hair over her shoulder as she went to his car. Speaking of his car, it was battered, with blue, chipped paint. I wondered if he had gotten it from a junkyard.” The sentence in bold veers away from the point where the character should still be focused on the girl, not suddenly jumping to talking about the guy’s car. It’s jarring.

Avoid redundancy. This takes skill to spot, but reading out loud is pretty effective when spotting redundancy. You only need to state an idea once. Otherwise, this assumes your readers are dumb.

Edit. Being able to ruthlessly edit can take some skill, too. However, here are a few steps that might help: write the book, put it away for as long as you think it needs to be put away, then come back with a fresh pair of eyes and start tearing your story apart. All points mentioned above are things that need to be considered in the editing stage.

Ask Box is closed for now, as I have unanswered messages that I eventually need to get to. But I hope to eventually get to the post about writing asexual characters and another one about tying in sub-plots. Those posts, for now, just require a lot of brain matter that I don’t currently have.

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also i meant to send that bit about the "oh you havent heard?" meme to zoe but idk i guess i was unsure of how she would react so i didnt

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like if u said i liked zoe, i guess i wouldnt necessarily deny it like im pretty sure if u have nervous thoughts about just asking someone what kind of music they like or some sort of small talk then there's something there

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nothing like waiting for your parent to come home and just hearing: "WHO LEFT THIS RIBENA BOTTLE IN THE BENCH" like yeah ur right or "WHO LEFT THE TOILET SEAT UP" because obviously there's no way me, as a human, could forget something ur right i have a perfect memory.

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see the thing about zoe is that we've barely ever talked except for this and last year. she's been in a few of my classes but we just never interacted. like ive always had a small thing for her, but its not the same as it was for louise and its not the same like how i interact with bailey, there's still that constant anxiety when i talk to zoe

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ok so (i accidentally deleted this the first time so this is a little bit weird) im in a room, similar to what i wouldve expected rotorua to be like, but also kinda mixed with tess' living room in wellington. so me, zoe, bailey, jordan, (and some other people) are there chillin' and stuff. fast forward bailey calls the police and gives them a fake call (like swatting a streamer or something but less severe) but then they show up to where we are. (i cant really remember what happened here) fast forward we go to a market thing, with stalls on either side of a pipeline, its really dirty. im with the boys, the girls are ahead and they all have ukuleles, and zoe is way ahead. the girls turn around and start to head back so i yell out to zoe. we see a stall that does etching or something so it looks cool and we get on the news or something sometime around here, i have a Vision. i see me calling out to zoe, except i am zoe. shes holding a ukulele, im holding a ukulele. i hear her name being shouted by my voice. i turn and unable to control my body. she feels something like a warm buzz, and starts to walk back to us sometime around here, tom holland's spiderman is fighting tobey maguires doctor octopus. iron man shows up and tells spidey to not fight. spidey gets kinda mad and accidentally helps doctor octopus. tony stark gets mad and says something kinda mean. fast forward we are chillin' in the room again, and im looking out the window, contemplating something like if i should ask zoe out or not or something like that. bailey sees me and asks whats up, i say, and then zoe walks in. (i wake up and go back to sleep) im driving a low turquoise pick up truck behind someones high black pick up truck. we pull into a large empty parking lot. the black truck turns their back thing into a spa pool, and a bunch of 'cool' people get in. i just lean against mine and talk to somebody. sam comes over and asks me if they can use mine. i dont really want to, but i say sure anyway. they dont even use it as a pool, just for towels n shit

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a year 9 does kinda bad in year 9 why? it must be because he simply isnt suited for learning the way school teaches! it couldnt possibly be because •he didnt pay attention/try •(other reasons) meanwhile me, about to go into year13, arguably the hardest year, is not even considered for getting one. although i could use said chromebook for year13 and then when the year9 will be year11 (ncea lvl1) and results actually matter, he will be able to use it, but OK 600IQ PLAY!!!

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They should teach how to safely surrender to police in high school.

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im sitting in the living room, tess and ramon had a little spat, but at that moment, i just felt something in my heart, like anger but i was so incredibly scared because well i guess i am afraid of conflict and confrontation and also why i tend to not try and disappoint people because im also scared that they will get mad at me. like i saw this one thing and it was like "Just because I said No and they get mad, does not mean I should've said Yes." and like shit man yeah