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180th Day

Hi Beyb :)

Happy 6th monthsary ! I know we been through a lot of fights lately and thank you so much for not giving up on me. 

Wala nako ni giblog para mag drama , it's for you to know why I'm acting weird lately. 

I know I've been so bitchy these past few days because you've been a very insensitive boyfriend as well. You tend to do things that I don't like. Yes I've been acting a pathetic jealous girlfriend lately but I think it's normal, siguro dra nka matingala pag di nako mag selos dba! Well I just hate it when someone is flirting with you or you flirting with others. You may think it is just a friendly gesture but having the hormones of being a woman can't stop us being jealous. I hope you understand. It's okay to be friendly but at least know your limitations. 

Beyb, seriously maulaw nako sa imong family. Maybe you haven't felt that feeling that you were being compared to someone and they like her better. Maka'insecure though I know kaputi lang jud iyang lamang sa akoa but the thought na nakuha nya ang kiliti sa imong family makes me feel like a loser. I'm telling you this because it's is for you to know ngano maulaw nako sa ila or why i hate that snake so much! Hehehe Well, wala man ko kabalo sa exact relationship nnyo dati that's why it made me think that "why felt that way in the first place, she belongs in the past anymore ,bad thing is that shes trying to intrude the present which I'm not letting to happen" Well just saying ... 

Maybe you're wondering why I'm acting like this and saying like this because somehow I'm slowly knowing you better and I'm afraid one day we'll end up everything in a not so good way. Yes, sometimes i feel like giving up. I get tired too, dealing with this sh*ts but this feelings keep me holding back. 

I've been holding on because somehow I still believe in us, i know you also get tired too because I'm too stubborn to handle. We've come this far it usually happens in a relationship basta magkadugay, magkaliki pud. Maybe better thing to do it just to understand each other. 

Anyway beyb, since gitagaan napd tag chance ni Papa God na tarungon nato ni atung relationship I think we should do it better this time. Can't afford to loose you now, I'm not yet ready for that . Maybe I'm very pissed of with you sometimes but I still love you sooo much that's why I always choose and end up being fine with you. 

Beybee koo, sorry po if super maldita na kaayo ko lately unta mkasabot ka, naa na reason tanan Beee nevertheless I love youuuuu ^___^ More months to come :) Muamua

PS. Giiingun nako na tanan para bagong simula atong ika'6month half way a head nata for a year bya which I dunno if makaabot ba ta pero unta mkaabot jud! Lablab Beyb <3 :*

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I miss us

Hey Beyb! How are you? You okay? Any news? How are we? What happen to us? You still love me? Those are some of the questions I want to ask but I'm afraid to know the answer. It's not supposed to be like this. It's not us! Where is my beyb? Please come back! You don't have any idea how it kills me when we're sitting right beside each other yet no one is talking. How it pains me you saying those three word w/o meaning it. You don't have any clue How I miss the person in front of me. What happen to us. You used to wake me up in the morning w/your texts and calls but now where are those? You used to inform me every place you go but now you don't even mind telling me. You used to be careful of hurting/ making me feel bad but now it's like your daily routine. You used to be so naturally loving and caring but now you're just doing it wbecause you have too. Maybe right now I can't let you go. I'm still giving this relationship a chance. I'll eventually get tired and if that day comes there will be no regrets. I did my part.

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I don't want a perfect person, I just want someone to act silly with, someone who treats me well and loves being with me more than anything.

Hey Beyb! Uhm it's already 12 in the morning soooooooooooooooo 

HAPPY 3RD MONTHSARY!!!! Isn't amazing??? isn't it surprising??? isn't exciting?? HAHAHAHA bitaw, yea seriously Happy Monthsary Beybee koo :) Thank you sa pag antos sakong kabuang ug ka'moody and I hope you'll never get tired of me. 

Uhm, what more to say? But honestly Beyb, I don't usually blog about this stuffs and all but I don't know ' why I'm doing this one now .Maybe I just felt an over flowing happiness that I could not express it by saying to you personally that's why I choose to blog it. (pero ang tinuod maulaw ra jud ko muingun sa imo sa personal,LUL :p ) Seriously Beyb, this blog is just intended for my thoughts and ideas but since you came, it's like I wanna include you in everything I do in this site, maybe because you're that special that's why ( o ayaw kaayo ka'flattered , dako na samot imung ulo. HAHA)

Well Thank you for making me the happiest girl for the past 3months and I wish to still be that happiest girl for the next monthsssssss to come ( pressure much? HAHAHA) A lot of things happen when you came and it was better. I was happy before but become more happier when you came, I thought I'm done with love but when you came it made me realize the need for it. Honestly I didn't expect this relationship would work this way. I can still remember how we started and I never thought someone or a Devone Jay can change everything. You make my dark days into sunny one. Yes, you're not perfect me either but the love we shared would make us perfect for each other ( oha, naa ka ana? pildi imung mga pick up lines HAHAHA) Seriously Beyb, you set everything so right. Maybe not everything but somehow, you did. 

I know 3months is too early for us to say that everything is so great but atleast with those days we were together was no regret because we made the best thing out of it. There was no dull moments with you Beyb, no boring days and I don't know how we did that. I know that when a relationship is new it is all love , hearts , unicorns and fairytales that is why lovers is still very inlove until such time it last long they got tired with each other worst thing is they break up however I wish it won't happen to us.

Beyb, I know and I can feel that there is still doubt in you when I say I love you but I honestly do. Even me by this time I can't explain how I feel for you, it seems to grow everyday and it's making me so afraid and I know you know why. I know 3months is 3months kung hunahunaon bag-o pa kaayo wala ta kabalo, but let's not think about that lets think what we have now and again make the best thing out of it Thank you for not getting tired of me Beyb. I looooooooooooooooooooovvvvvvee you from here to the moon :) Thank yooooooooouuu for making me happy!! HAPPY MONTHSARY !! :*

  PS. Ayaw kaayo ka'pressure ani ha? It's just me expressing my feelings. Labyuuu :*

--DM♥

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What we all want in life, to travel, fall in love, and be happy.

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With the most unexpected person

Honestly, I'm just bored that's why I'm here again. So thank you TUMBLR for existing. But I got to ask you something,Isn't it amazing how a person who was once just a stranger, suddenly mean the world to you? So it started with ...........

a guy. 

By the end of May I meet this guy, well he's just sooo ordinary, not even my type. I just notice during that night (tambay sa bahay nila Peribot) panay tingin ni guy sakin. Well I didn't put anything with the way he looked at me but something is giving me a clue. But then again me, being so nega when it comes to feelings and everything associated with that I just let it pass by and to think he's just a new acquaintance. After that night, weeks, days passed by suddenly that guy texted me. So it all started there. He's very funny , much more "uto-uto" . And there we start sharing lot of things to each other and I find it so comfortable to share anything to him. The day comes when he started courting me, I hesitated it first to say yes because yes, I know I have trust issues but then I realized why not giving it a try. So there i let him court me but i just give him some heads up that after this it will not be a 100% YES because I need to make sure everything,as we all know falling inlove and falling apart is never easy, never. Then we started dating, we enjoy the courtship. One thing I really like with this guy is that he never pressured me on what our status is. Just go with the flow. I love the feeling that I can really be me when I'm with him. Things go so well with us, he did things that should be done by a courting guy, sometimes he exceed to the expectations which really surprise me. After four months of courtship, well that was almost 5mos (hehe) I told him these ..

October 20, 2013 (@around10pm)

Me: Beyb( opo, may tawagan kami kahit di pa kami, uso eh!hehe)

Uhm, stop na ug court sa ako.

Him: Why?

Me: Stop na lagi, dii nako gusto mag court ka sa akoa.

Him: (with the saddest face ever) Nganu gani?

Me: Basta, tama na pag court gani. Stop na

Him: ....................

Me: OOOyy, haaa???

Him: ......................................

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Me: Beyb ha????

Him: Nganu gani beyb? Nganu?? (sad face)

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Me: Alangan  gusto ka mag court ghapon sa ako maski sugton na taka karon?????? 

Him: ......................................................................... 0_o :X (?_?)

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Me: ^____________________________^

Him: (squeezed me) 

TAPOS NAG YAWYAW NA KAAYO XA AFTER ATO, WITH HIS MOST EPIC FACE EVER !! HAHAHAHAAH :D :D

So there, everything went very well. Until I find something in his fb that well it didn't brought really a big issue but enough to lose a lil bit of trust, I don't want to elaborate it more but we managed to solve it and after that everything is so transparent between the two of us. Right now, I become more comfortable with him, he could be not only my boyfee but also my bestfriend I can say that I'm very happy with him right now but I still have to prepare myself for every circumstances since I'm not a newbie with this field anymore. And him ? he become more clingy, more caring, more showy, more kulet, more pikon, more baliw, and show more love. 

Right now, I don't know what will happen but I have to give not only him a chance but myself also. I've been  so broke with the past relationship so maybe I deserved this. He filled out everything that was lacking with the past. I can say we are happy right now. I'm happy but yes I know this is a very young relationship so I should not be blinded by this happiness,the thing here is that I should enjoy  everything while we have it :)

**Beyb, I won't promise everything ha? I know I'm so hard to understand, so stubborn but you were able to managed that, thank you soooooooo much!  I'll love you the best way I know how, just stay :))) 

Sometimes, the person you really need is the one you didn't think you wanted....

--- DM ♥

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The Mara Dyer Trilogy by Michelle Hodkind  

Mara Dyer doesn’t think life can get any stranger than waking up in a hospital with no memory of how she got there. It can. She believes there must be more to the accident she can’t remember that killed her friends and left her mysteriously unharmed. There is. She doesn’t believe that after everything she’s been through, she can fall in love. She’s wrong.