mohrgleu

[mohrgleu]

i'm not ready to conclude, unable to halt;

your very being perpetually occupies my thoughts.

indeed, i love you, so profoundly

that it unsettles me.

[mohrgleu]

it's been ages since i've felt this way

for someone other than myself,

transforming all my aversions into affections,

saved for my own mindset.

[mohrgleu]

i'm numb to your words, yet i know

if you were here, speaking directly to me,

i'd be overcome, legs trembling.

currently lost in my thoughts without you near,

i ponder why i should bother

when you're likely not thinking of me.

[mohrgleu]

it's a tumultuous mix of conflict,

confusion, and weariness,

struggling to love myself as i do you.

i question whether my feelings are genuine,

torn between obsession and sadness,

unsure if i'm even capable

of conveying my thoughts clearly.

[mohrgleu]

as i begin to share every thought that surfaces,

you're there, overwhelmingly present,

a hundred thousand times over.

you immerse me in your essence

and my perception of what you could be,

nurturing hopes for you while doubting any for myself.

[mohrgleu]

i'm uncertain when i'll have the chance

to listen to all these voice notes,

feeling like part of me would vanish

if you ever left.

[mohrgleu]

if necessary, i am prepared to implore you

to give it a chance.

[mohrgleu]

i wish to exist unnoticed by all except you.

when i say "me too," know that i mean it sincerely.

however, you managed to betray me in ways

i can't claim to loathe.

despite what you believe are your grave errors,

my care for you remains unshaken.

[mohrgleu]

you've done no wrong by me;

why should i seek to alter who you are?

your declaration of love felt profoundly true.

when i hit my lowest, you were my salvation.

now, all i desire is to reciprocate that remedy.

[mohrgleu]

i've exhausted myself in the effort to understand

how you perceive me.

my conversations invariably circle back to myself.

despite my self-loathing,

i incessantly talk about myself, which i find nauseating.

[mohrgleu]

our perspectives differ;

perhaps not as much as we think.

your principles and my approach seem to diverge,

leaving me uncertain about what to do next.

so, i ask you, please stay.

[mohrgleu]

i've tried to share everything brewing in my mind,

yet i find myself unable to.

it baffles me how i've focused so much on myself for so long.

i'm filled with fear, unsure of the next steps.

[mohrgleu]

i've been torn, unable to reveal the truth.

my thoughts have been decaying within.

every attempt i make to keep going

inevitably revolves around you.

my goal has been to grasp the reasons

behind your feelings,

but it's draining,

trying to show you your true essence.

[mohrgleu]

every three i see reminds me of how long it took for me to fall for you

[mohrgleu]

my words will fill the notes i tried to write off my own mindset

the dreams i have turn to reality because of your power

i visualise and fantasize the horror that fills me up when i allow myself to feel

it looks just like you and that's why you're on my mind all the time

[mohrgleu]

by helping you, i'm helping myself

we don't need fixing, but stability

there's no need for us to be brave

we are so much more than that

and i want to be someone better when i remember who you are

[mohrgleu]

knowing that you might love me

i get so fed up with myself

want to say it back but still, i'm hesitant

i wait for you to come around no matter how late it could be

wish i could be with you every single fifth