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*scrolling tumblr* hmmm. i agree with the sentiment of this post, but the phrasing feels off to me. it doesn’t really have that Reblog factor, you know? *scrolls* oh good, a post that just says “i jerk off till my penis scrweam” . i better reblog this

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i see it so i See it I see Thart with me EyeBals

when i see it i Look at it Put my eyes on it with My sightballs I look with my look balls and see It so in front of me

i see it with my eyedbarls

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It's called hard sci-fi because it's not as easy

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There is a standard media depiction of a "healed" person. Someone who has Gone To Therapy. I've noticed this in a few works recently. We often see them at the end of a story, maybe in a "ten years later" epilogue. They speak in a soft, serene voice. They have Accepted what they cannot change. They have let go of a lot, including most of what we see them actually care about in the story itself. They are Happy, At Peace, in some non-descript way. They bare little resemble to the person we were actually shown. They bare little resemblance to any person. We were shown, as we usually are in stories, an agent, a desirer, someone becoming. Now they have Become. And they look back on all that silly becoming as something childish that they have moved past. Fire, you know, fire is for children who don't know any better. To be Healed is to have your fire rightly extinguished; to not even miss it.

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listen to me, really. I am holding your two hands tenderly in mine. being part of a privileged group and benefitting from systemic exploitation without meaning to is not the same thing as being an inherently trash person who makes the world worse by living it in. that's not what that means. I'm telling you this for two reasons, 1) so you can chill the fuck out and be at peace with yourself without feeling like you're draining the universe of value, and 2) so you don't go onto oppressed people's posts about systemic privilege and exploitation and react like they've just told you that you, personally, should not exist because you're a man who lives within the vicinity of a supermarket that sells chiquita bananas. you're just gonna have to put some trust into your own brain and hold on to both the ideas that you're on one of the dominant sides of a set of global scales of injustice and that you don't have to shrivel out of existence about it. it can be difficult to reconcile those ideas at first, but it's completely possible and worth doing. if you don't, then you start constructing a worldview where you believe that either you have a civic duty to self destruct or you start vehemently denying that these systems of oppression exist, both of which are Bad and Not Good. peace and love x

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lem opinion hour over see everyone in another month

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also just lazy to take that kinda shortcut tbh like you can have everything you think cis people automatically have Right Now you literally just have to put the work in. do u think cis people aren't also gender miserable most of the time. gender fucking sucks none of us are having fun so let's stop pretending any of it means anything and let's start going on group walks or some stupid gay bullshit

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i don't think it's bad or wrong to want to be cis BTW but i do feel like it's a huge waste of time and energy.

i want to not be disabled but too fucken bad, i have to love and care for my disabled brain and body. there is no option for not having compassion and acceptance. when i deny my disability and try to act abled, i suffer and my disability is immensely difficult to deal with. the more i spend time doing the annoying, frustrating, sometimes exhausting work of caring for myself unconditionally, the easier life gets.

would life be easier for me if i was abled? maybe. i don't know. i'm not abled. why worry about it? why spend time on that shit when i can spend it finding ways to make my current, disabled life better?

it's okay to be trans. fully and genuinely it is 100% fine to not be a cisgender person or look or act like one (whatever that means). it's okay to love your body even if it isn't doing what you need it to. it's essential to love it, actually

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i wonder how many trans people who say they want to be cis actually mean it literally. cuz every trans person i've met who says that is someone who utterly despises themselves, is intensely self-isolating, rarely interacts with other trans people, and idealizes perisex cis bodies. i've not managed to meet anyone yet who says that shit and doesn't have (and attempt to enforce) deep-seated transphobic views that they've twisted around so much in their head that they've found a way to make it a self-validating pity thing.

when i think about that in the context of trans denial and self-hatred, it makes me more sad than anything, bc i feel it's just... an attempt to emulate the cis perisex experience and the power that it brings. somewhere along the line it stops being about that individual. and the heavy implication becomes that there's a Right Kind Of Body to have, and the agony of not having that kind of body entitles the individual to enforce their idea of what the Right Kind Of Body is.

you want to be cis, you'd give anything to be cis, but what does that actually MEAN?

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I get that this is mostly a me thing but seeing so many posts making fun of "holy blood cannibalism pomegranate deer" style writing just makes me sad ;-; . guys that's a lot of people's first stab at poetry that's hobby art that's a vulnerable thing to post those are passion projects...

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i love watching TV shows that absolutely suck and being like "this would be so good if it was good"

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getting to know my mutuals and followers: if you had to sing karaoke on the spot RIGHT NOW what would your go to song be reply in the tags

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Bad post. BAD post^

First off, whether we like it or not, if a shirt is ethically made it should absolutely be $40. Let's get that out of the way. Now, "ethically made" is a broad subject; maybe what we lost the plot on is overproduction of merch and larger acts who can afford to produce ethically/not outsource refusing to do so. I'll believe that; I don't think we need 10 color variations of a Taylor Swift Eras Tee or a bunch of not-great reprints of My Chemical Romance merch sold at Hot Topic, sure. If you care about ethics in production and clothing consumption, cost is less of an issue at scale than the actual waste involved in its production. But I looked in the notes of this post and saw the names of artists who are not this big, and almost no one was adding the caveat of "I'd be willing to pay $40 if it was ethically produced." That's a miss, and EVEN THEN–that criticism is really only relevant for the largest possible acts, perhaps only for artists who have multiple revenue channels (like say, pop stars who are releasing makeup lines, a movie, etc. Even the biggest rock & hip-hop acts are usually just selling music & merch.) I'm not even mentioning actual streaming revenue here because only a tiny, top fraction of artists, even those with hundreds of thousands of monthly listeners, make sustainable money off streams. People simply don't believe a t shirt for a band, ANY band, is worth $40, and assume an artist loses their credibility when they ask that much. That, I must say, sucks ass.

Why? Well, it bums me out that this isn't common knowledge for people who enjoy music, but I'll do my best to explain what my musician friends have been trying to get people to hear for years:

Let's assume we're talking about someone who isn't Taylor Swift, let's assume we're talking about Ethel Cain or Sufjan Stevens or something, both of whose names appeared in the notes of that post. Those are well known indie artists, and while they probably make decent money on album sales, there's a threshold for independent artists where math gets complicated: to tour midsize venues and pay everyone involved takes significant overhead. You're working with many more people for not a lot of additional money; tickets are limited, you can only play so many shows or reasonably expect to charge so much. Merch is one way to mitigate that, but in addition to overhead for merch production, artists deal with massive merch cuts at the venue level–up to a minimum of 20% not including taxes. If you're doing a midsize venue tour as an artist on an indie label, and are charging $40 a shirt, that is reasonable. Consider JUST the markup for overhead on shirts, no other factors, and you're down a cool $8 from $40, to a more reasonable $32. Assume it costs about $8 a shirt to produce screen-printed limited run merch and you're down to $24. Split that $24 between 4 band members, a manager, a bus driver–do you see the picture? If you don't, I'll remind you that among other things, most artists and people who work tours do not have health insurance; most of them work a few hours a day and then are hemorrhaging money for the rest of the tour as their bus burns gas, their equipment needs repairing, there's food to buy.

So no, we did not lose the plot when you were asked to pay $40 for a t-shirt. We lost the plot when employers stopped paying people a living wage, so that $40 is something a person making minimum wage would have to work half a day to afford. But that does not mean you are personally entitled to a cheap t-shirt; you can choose to support an artist you like by buying a t-shirt, an album, or you can hold onto your money. Blame record companies and streaming services who make it virtually impossible for anyone but the most wildly popular artists to break even on their tours or music releases, if you want. But maybe consider scrounging up even a crumb of class consciousness & solidarity for the average working artist, especially if you're streaming their work daily for pennies on the dollar.

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Alcoholic. Kind of mood. Lose my clothes. Lose my lube.

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>"nobody's gonna help you in the real world!!"

>go outside

>love and support in many places as long you have the courage to ask for it

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being gay in the early 2010s was crazy people would walk up to you and say "did you know neil patrick harris is gay" and that would be the whole sentence

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*quickly unsheathes and resheathes my sword*

*half of your shirt falls off in tatters, becoming a crop top showcasing your beautiful belly*

you're welcome

*disappears before the scraps of fabric have hit the floor*