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The End

I don’t like vent about deep deep shit but this right here hits different I have no one to talk to about this and no one really follows this so fuck it but I just lost my bestest fucking friend, a girl that really cared about me it’s unbelievable I don’t feel real right now I can’t feel my body it’s light like a feather, my head is banging, my face is puffed up and red trying not to bawl my eyes out. I had an surprise for her birthday and everything , during times like this she as the only person I talked to, she understood me and my vision she was my number one supporter and at times I didn’t give that back and I feel so fucking bad, I can barely fucking breathe right now she meant so much to me I wanted her to see me bloom man now the last bit of motivation I had is gone and wants nothing to do with me I don’t know what to feel I get sad then I get angry then I just become so numb I apologized a million times I took her for granted I’m fuckinh stupid, I just need a hug man I don’t know what to do with myself I can’t cry I can’t move I can barley even breath I’m in shock, the moment she said she didn’t want anything to do with me I didn’t care about nothing and I mean nothing, I did care about skating music or even the damn game I’m so hurt I don’t know if I can live with myself anymore, I don’t think I even care about my goals or anything anymore I just wanna fucking rot I don’t care man I just don’t now

I’ll miss her everyday and I wish her the best.

17.06.25 4:43pm

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A Urn of Yeelings

Man I haven’t gotten on here in a minute, I’m just a mess my nigga. Been chasing the happiness I once felt back in highschool (not in a weird way) but 10th-11th man I took those days for fucking granted, even my “saddest days” had a bit of light in them. I was really a ungrateful piece of shit hella people cared for me looking back but I was being a bum ass emo nigga being like “omg I’m so hated” not that I gave a fuck but my ego at the time blinded me from appreciating those folks and I’m afraid I pushed them away by my young rebel mindset where if you disagreed, you a enemy, not that anyone couldn’t disagree with me, you could but it’s when I would get checked by certain niggas and I’ll be like you can’t talk to me like that… but i was just being hard headed anyways, i mean like man I would draw, skate, make shitty music and videos and wouldn’t care it was beautiful and not that I don’t do that now If not more than ever I enjoy it but it only makes me happy for maybe 10 minutes max and it’s like okay next thing, i get so fuckingggggggg boreddddddddd to the point I just bike outside and tag shit, even that’s not giving me a feeling no more, I’m becoming numb to life to the point I feel I can’t live it, it’s a weird feeling to feel at fucking 19 I should be in my prime I guess. But that’s just unrealistic who knows man in a few months I’ll probably be the happiest I ever been . Life is just a continuous Tv show that can’t be spoiled.

Anyways, New music soon

14.05.25 2:12pm

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Block.

Imma be honest I don’t think I wrote anything crazy since Tek-Oria.

07.03.25 1:48pm

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Rad just like Caribbean oochie.

01.03.25 11:14pm

Tek-oria outtakes!

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TF YOUS ON?

First thing first moment of  silence for fucking justice skate park

Alright Fuck Dat.

Bro this month has just not been fucking IT! Bad day after bad day and the worst of it my hope keeps getting bought up and getting pushed down by everyone and everything. I tell my mom I need a new computer and she’s like “ain’t no body getting shit your grandma got you a computer last year dah dah” like Bish you know I mean for work right? She swear everything I do is for bullshit like I be in this room and don’t try out new ideas everyday, I get it you can’t sell a dream if there’s no profit but nigga…. And yeah the story deeper than what it is, it’s more so personal shit on my mother’s End but you don’t gotta scold me and yell at me and act like I asked to be in this world to make your life miserable or something, I try my best just any other 18 year old and I guess I fuckin annoy her since I’m “just like my brother”Like yeah okay, sure I’m such A TAKER WOW IM SUCH A USER NOT LIKE I TRY TO HELP OR ANYTHING.

Some of the niggas I know on some weird shit too

Life feels different I go to the YMCA and just think about my sophomore year and be like “damn bro we use to run this fucking bitch” just Yhilling, skating I don’t know what’s wrong with me one min I’m up then another I’m just down anyways fuck that tho, i mustarded up like $320 and about to get some refurbished shit, only gonna have it for a year anyways shit once I get paid I’m investing in a FUCKING M1 or M2. And I still need some better studio  monitors

FUCK!

24.02.25 12:37am

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WORED.

I barley ate anything all day, I have 15 dollars but no ideas what to do with it tbh, I wanna save it but then that’s kinda just fucking stupid and retarded, turned on the tv and was gon watch Atlanta but mama didn’t pay the subscription… so the little joy I had is gone, no one is answering my text, music is stagnant right now. Weird life I’m having.

I would skate but it’s so hot and all my T shirts are dirty hmmmmm, my mother’s not home, somewhere at baby shower in the hood so at least the house is quiet , this shit lame if only I had a car.

01.02.25

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A Single

https://on.soundcloud.com/HvzwKVEXqZAhSefQ7

Dawg this was on repeat for 2 hours yesterday, I love it so much. I was in the studio moving like prime time Pharrell

Bump this shit man! You won’t regret it!

12.01.25 1:17pm

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!

GOAT.

12.01.25 12:58pm

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I Hate Parties

05.01.25 2:47pm

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FUK ‘24

End of the year review, i actually liked the start this was when i was still throwing around ideas in my fucking head weather if this or that should be my first album, made hella demos when I was 17 I loved it I brought 3 mics this year alone, I was active this year. Met Vlad?! In person this year knew him though online rooms since he was 15 though, April was when the idea for Tek Oria was finalized although I been working on that idea ever since 10th grade actually, it’s been reinvented 3 times YRAZY! Summer was lowkey the lamest shit ever i thought i was gonna do so much i mean I did do things but not much as I should of. Fast fast forward this month I begged my mom to drive up north so I could hang out with Vlad for about two days and it worked in my favor, we made LA Freestyle and he has his first video, fun ass trip but that nigga live in the middle of no where it actually make me mad LMAOOO

Would totally do it again but next time I’m bringing snacks this nigha was offering me rasin brand so much you would have thought he was an old black lady, I FUCKING HATE RASIN BRAND!

Came back home, made my last beats of ‘24, I think this year I became so much better at producing it’s not even debatable, next project gon be soooo good I still have niggas who still dreaming and don’t do shit with their lives hating but the music speaks for itself

I give 2024 a dead smack in the middle 5/10

2025 the year of YXL, I don’t care once what that clock hit 12am, I got plans….real real plans

31.12.24 11:16pm

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TEK

Check it out

31.12.24 11:00pm

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WOULDNT UNDERSTANN

Not even from LA but even as a southeast nigga this makes me feel at home.

It inspired this, check it out. It’s dummy

28.12.24 1:27pm

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TEK

First ever album, kinda a surprise I’m not one of those artists to snippet or be like “yall fw this” on my instagram story i actually took time and was prepared to release this when it was hot and ready. I loved telling and writing stories since I was a kid man this album was just a big ass opportunity to showcase that and let my mind form a world, a character and a narrative

My friends fuck with it at first I had that “I don’t care if people think it sucks” attitude but seeing that people don’t think it sucks I can’t lie it makes me feel a bit less chapped in the ass other than that I am drained, thank you to OneNine,Geo Herbs, VLAD?! Even Jose for that bit in Supermall I just love it, until next time, enjoy the album or be a shitty internet critic and shit on it even though you haven’t seen a album produced and written by one person in a long time so you make it seem like a bad thing.

25.12.24 9:45pm

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SHUT DOWN

Pop Out, me first show where my name is actually present and I have a full set HAHHAA Take that Mister Lion R4pe, fucking loser anyways a good and dope time ahead of us, we about to go retarded!

18.12.24 8:15am

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Least Expected!

Craziest battle I watched in years, my homeboy said he wanna know who Asia is for research purposes.

30.11.24 10:15pm

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Tags

Realized I haven’t made a DSYXL Tag in about a year I use to love doing it in 11th grade, lost art of mine for real. Welp more shitty ass tags Next year i believe .

22.11.24 11:07am

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Wow.

Man it really just sucks cause lately I been feeling like life been going so fast yet so slow. Sometimes I feel I need to calm down and let my life flow but then another side of me is like nah I need to work work work then I can relax. It’s really unfair, I have horrible ADHD I Work then I wanna read a book then I read a book then I wanna watch sum then I watch a episode then I wanna go on my computer and make a beat I don’t have inspiration so then I go listening to music then I feel like I’m not expanding my music taste enough so then I deep dive then before you know it, it’s like 6pm and then I get mad cause it’s getting dark and I wanted to skate but now I don’t feel like it cause it’s fucking nighttime so yeah my life just in a loop yet it’s not?, things are a string of getting better but I feel like all I can do is wait.

04.11.24 1:21pm