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Jesus christ I am developing a limerence, infatuation like crush on a genuine friend, what the fuck is happening to me. And all I wanna do is blurt it out like can you calm the fuck down u don't even really like them just the idea jesus christ.

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The most devastating truth is that u have to believe they love you, that everything could be good, despite the risk that it's not. But that's what makes it so scary. You love me, and yet I want you to turn yourself inside out, allow me to see inside yourself, leaving not even a shred of doubt in my mind that you love me, that everything can be and is good. But we are all at the mercy of the fact that nothing and no one can be certain of anything, and nothing can be proved. All we have is faith, and vulnerability. Life is cruel, and it's the only way to find love.

I hate it. I don't know if I will ever get over it, or if I will ever get comfortable with that risk.

But I want love, and I want to believe.

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If i ever get triggered and feel the need to come back here just remember, life is good!! U have a semi successful education and career going!! Ur family (some) really love and support u!! U have genuine and kind friends who r funny and like u!!! Do not fret, the bad times come and go but they will never bring u as far down as u once were a long time ago!!! Keep going!! There is hope my god is there hope, even went that felt impossible for almost 8 years!!

Ur grandparents r alive rn and they love u and u love them, u have a beautiful and kind best friend u supports u no matter what, u have new friends who u can be real, honest, and connect with, and ur education and career is going well. U need to calm down, and make ur bed. Life is OK even if rn u are freaking out, breathe and reboot as carrie bradshaw wisely once said.

Hopefully u never come back here but if u do then !!! Believe this okay. I am not the best version of me I could ever be, but I am a lot better than I ever have been, and that's worth something.

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Went thru this blogs old post and nvm omg 😭😭😭 it could be sooo much worse why was I such a sad child wtffff like that is so crazy. I genuinely should've been committed into a psych ward like woahhh things might not be amazing but they r good 😭😭🙏🏽 shoutout to pre pandemic years, I was the saddest girl alive

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Can't get out of bed. Been years since its been like this, can't believe how fast it all can get torn down. Embarrassing that I'm here again :/

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“I want to keep the hope of a greater bliss someday.”

— @fakedeepthot

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Can you talk more about why your early twenties are so hard if you’re doing them right? On paper I’m doing amazing (24, about to graduate from my Master’s with a great-paying job, I’ve traveled, I work out, go to therapy etc etc whatever) but I’m EXHAUSTED from the balancing act that is life and it all feels so unfulfilling even though I’m living my dream life and I worked so hard to get here.

Hi :)

It’s like a quarter life crisis. Your ~25–35 age range is filled with a rapid success of identity shifts (depending on your maturity and area). You go from being carefree to feeling the burden of responsibility to being then responsible. Your friend group shifts as people find out more about what’s important to them, as free time becomes limited. You go from things being simple to then becoming abstract. Your goal initially “get a masters and get a good job” is awesome; once you achieve that, now you become responsible for making your own next goal & having to navigate how to create your happiness outside of external measures. For some people, it’s the creation of their own family for others it’s knowing that a partner isn’t it for them etc. it’s creating your own community and having to find the people that fit in with you. Instead of walking into a classroom of people, you now have to build a classroom and see which people walk in and stay.

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cruelty is so easy. youre not special for choosing it

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Hi ana! It's been 11 months since I broke up with my bf but the reason i told was a lie. The truth is I want him to not depend on me financially. He has work but I was paying monthly debt for his motorcycle loan. I always think of him till now. I really care for him but I got tired and broke up through text. I want to tell him the truth. I want to tell him to quit his vices. I chatted him last week to meet me up. I think he was okay with it. But it got postponed this week. I don't know if its still useful to let him know. This issue has been preventing me to move forward. Please help me ana.

When you break up with someone, you should always do so truthfully & with kindness. If anything, a coffee and “it’s been on my mind but I lied about why I broke up with you; I said I broke up with you bc of X but it’s really bc of Y”. Be prepared for him to offer to change for you. Only do this if you’re sure you’re done with the relationship; & you should be. This isn’t a man, this is a project. Also… in the nicest way possible. A man who loves you will never ask you to help him with bills, without a commitment like a whole ass engagement ring. That may be controversial… but know that. A man who loves you won’t expect you to pay for his loans.

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hi ana, I’ve been following you since I was 15 and i’m almost a junior in college now! I always loved your advice about creating the life I wanted for myself and I’ve tried to curate that for myself, but I somehow always feel like something is missing. I feel like I’m yearning for a “soulmate” connection that I don’t know is possible, and life seems dull without it. How do I enrich my life and enjoy it when I feel so lonely? I just feel bored; all my old hobbies and interests have faded away and now I don’t know what to aim for, where to go.

omg hi mjaltling 🫧🫧

A soulmate will come when it’s ready, when you’re ready, to teach you a lesson, or to propel you forward. They aren’t necessarily romantic connections. And trust me, they take ALOT more out of you than you think.

You talk about enriching a dull life. What do you find enriching? What do you like doing? Do you have things you’re waiting on doing? Google “bucket lists” and see what pops up that seems interesting or vivid. Life is too full to pretend that you’ve done the things that will fulfill you, outside of loving someone & being loved in return. International trips, Fasano’s poetry prompts, conspiracy theories, HAVE YOU DONE POTTERY CLASSES, do you have a go-to workout (HAVE YOU FOUND PEACE THROUGH KARATE),

Have you helped someone level up without expecting anything from them? not even loyalty? have you connected with someone irl in the same way those bathroom conversations hit?

You’ll have the right to say you’re bored when you become love, but even then, you’ll glow and radiate with the type of heat that blossoms whatever it touches.for me, physical activity (bike riding, karate, Pilates) something rhythmic, doing that for 6 months will help you see what’s next for you.

What does the child in you who was told “no” want to do?

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life goes something like this: you meet the best and the worst of yourself in other people. you come to terms that you are the universe experiencing itself. you get overwhelmed at 3 am being so close to seeing through the veil. you get what you give. and then, the next morning, you do it all over again, all over again, all over again.

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Web weaving about the untold story in you !

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- the killing grounds

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having to be “mature” at a young age sucks bc you aren’t really “mature-mature” you’re a child playing at a maturity bc you don’t have the foundation to be the bigger person when conflict arrives so what you do is ignore it bc ignoring a problem and being happy about a resolution look the same to your inexperienced eyes. Then you get adults praising you for a development above your peers but you aren’t really developing. You’re stagnant. Your peers will grow up and experience things and make mistakes and grow from them but you will keep yourself in this box, ignoring things ignoring ignoring ignoring until one day you have to face the fact… it wasn’t maturity you had. It was fear. And now you’re an adult too and you make all of your choices based on an emotional risk/costs analysis bc you don’t know any emotion other than fear & you have to start healing from your own childhood by making peace that you weren’t really a mature child. You were just a child who was given too much to carry & didn’t know how to say “no”.

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number nineteen and it still don’t make sense

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literally screaming !!! omg !! [bangs head against wall] I need a xanax