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Sometimes I am talking to someone and we're both like "oh yeah, I like this thing", but they have never read 26181929 fanfiction about it, have never thought about lore of this thing every night before sleep, have never found a way to connect every song with this thing, never felt like this thing is only thing that will make you feel alive. They just like it. Which is fine. But confusing.

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your discord pfp and your tumblr pfp are locked in a room together. what happens?

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youre not “bad at art” you just need to find a character to latch onto to where you draw them 1 million times and you improve dramatically

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boo

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In a strictly blorbo way, not to be taken otherwise...

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i want to shake many young women and say you can grow in private. and what i mean by that is that you don’t have to publicly self-flagellate when you don’t know something or when you say something a little insensitive or whatever else. you don’t have to report your Bad Thoughts and Ignorance to the crowd who waits to judge you. you do not have to pay penance. you do not have to issue public statements. nothing more is gained from burying yourself in shame than you could gain by thinking “oh i don’t know about this” and looking it up real quick, or thinking “hm, that wasn’t how i want to behave, i’ll do different next time” and then moving on with your life. no need to choke yourself with it.

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fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

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back in college i interned for a summer at a start up magazine that went no where and i had to write wellness articles or some shit. and i wrote the line, "everyone has experienced heartbreak at one point or another" and my editor like circled it and said "don't assume everyone has the same experiences as you" and i was like ???? so then i did a test and in the next article i wrote a line that said "you probably remember [X concept] from your college health class" and she approved it without comment. so apparently in her world, going to college is more universal than heartbreak.

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i love hc-ing nico as the possessive type because look. you just can't blame the guy. lost his mom and dear sister when he was 10. lost his best friend who was probably the first to know who he was and accepted him wholeheartedly for it. spent years pining over his crush who he'd never had a chance with. and that isn't even just it— the guy tried so hard to convince himself he was unlovable because of parentage and his sexuality. because he was too off-putting to others. because he thought he was too broken to ever make a change in his life.

and i can just imagine how this would show in his relationship with will. of course he tries his darnest to not take it too far that it's unhealthy— but it definitely shows even in the little things.

whenever they cuddle nico always grips will a little tighter and little closer (little spoon will hear me OUT) than he probably should. he likes to buy shirts in his style but are in will's size not just because they're oversized but he likes seeing will wear them when they're not something he'd usually wear because he loves the impression it has on people. he always loves it when will uses his shampoo and body soap because it's not that he smells like nico, he smells like he belongs to him. always going a little overboard when they make out, putting lots and lots of hickeys and bite marks and bruises on will's skin because he wants to mark something that's his and he's gonna make sure everyone will know about it.

tldr; nico knows what's his and he's definitely not afraid to show it

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tags by @fincheswings

whats crazy is that you're kinda right. i know that will IS the confrontational type— he knows where he stands and he doesn't take shit (will & nico's interactions in BoO)— but i ALSO know there comes a time where he becomes reluctant to speak out for himself because again. fear of abandonment.

and with that fear of abandonment comes with crazy levels of commitment— to the point where he may not be able to tell whether it's actually. healthy or not. will literally jumps after nico in the river styx because. well. nico did it.

i love hc-ing nico as the possessive type because look. you just can't blame the guy. lost his mom and dear sister when he was 10. lost his best friend who was probably the first to know who he was and accepted him wholeheartedly for it. spent years pining over his crush who he'd never had a chance with. and that isn't even just it— the guy tried so hard to convince himself he was unlovable because of parentage and his sexuality. because he was too off-putting to others. because he thought he was too broken to ever make a change in his life.

and i can just imagine how this would show in his relationship with will. of course he tries his darnest to not take it too far that it's unhealthy— but it definitely shows even in the little things.

whenever they cuddle nico always grips will a little tighter and little closer (little spoon will hear me OUT) than he probably should. he likes to buy shirts in his style but are in will's size not just because they're oversized but he likes seeing will wear them when they're not something he'd usually wear because he loves the impression it has on people. he always loves it when will uses his shampoo and body soap because it's not that he smells like nico, he smells like he belongs to him. always going a little overboard when they make out, putting lots and lots of hickeys and bite marks and bruises on will's skin because he wants to mark something that's his and he's gonna make sure everyone will know about it.

tldr; nico knows what's his and he's definitely not afraid to show it

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Someone was asking in a thread what kind of people could work for ICE right now.

I think it's a good time to remember that the image above are the people who put children into gas chambers.

When I was little, I asked what kind of person could work at a concentration camp.

The answer to both questions I think is "normal people who have accepted the dehumanization of another group of people."

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yuri's your yaoi :P

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glow in the dark boyfriend

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baby will solace awwwwww awwwwwwwh awwwww

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“Nico reached into his own pocket. He touched the bronze coin he always kept there — a keepsake Will had given him as a token of his dedication. He wondered if Will’s commitment would always be that durable.”

He wondered if Will’s commitment would always be that durable.

CUNT HES LITERALLY IN HELL FOR YOU

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asfagajjahaakala so i read your fic Purple, Blue, and I Love You SO long ago and i loved it so much but i didn’t know you had a tumblr!! i just re-read it and oh my god. it’s gorgeous. like jaw-on-the-floor, forgot-how-to-breathe, eyes-glued-to-the-screen gorgeous. you have this incredible way of balancing lyricism and intimacy. the way will’s golden warmth is described in colour and texture and taste, and then set against nico’s darkness, his quiet want, that sharp edge of something deeper underneath… it’s sexy, yeah, but also so emotional. every line feels intentional.

and personally?? this hits SO hard for me because i have such a thing about the bruises. the way you describe them, not just as marks but as colour and contrast and something almost sacred… like. adfahajshajakak. the colours throughout this are actually insane. lemon drops, daffodils, deep purple-blue. it’s all so vivid and specific and visual, i could see it.

and THEN. “he looks like a sin.” that’s it. that’s the whole thesis. that line is tattooed in my brain now. it says everything about desire and awe and hunger in just a few words. it’s brutal and beautiful and perfect.

also the ending?? the perfect cooldown. soft and smug and disgustingly domestic. they’re both feral and in love and i adore them. i adore you. thank you for feeding us so well.

that fic was an interesting exercise for me b/c i was trying to force myself to practice being descriptive within it. i have a tendency to abuse dialogue to move scenes along sometimes, so i was trying to force myself to not do that as much as possible, if i could.

it was really fun for me to play in that space of color symbolism tho because Will is so clearly a million shades of yellow and gold and bright orange but Nico, in my mind at least, exists in deep purples and wine reds. so for him to be able to bruise Will up a little bit, it's claiming, on a couple levels, at least in my mind.

ALSO AKDHSKDSGUS oh my god. HI shakespeare. astronomical and obsessive fan of your socialites AU. even bigger fan of your prose. i also very much have a thing for bruises. your fics where Nico gets the shit knocked out of him training and Will takes care of him and then "takes care" of him? OUGH. Incredible. 5-course meal.