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Pigeon photo study in watercolour • #watercolor #watercolour #pigeon #pigeonsofinstagram #sketchbook https://www.instagram.com/p/CdwXKiTsDAH/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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I'm terrible at "cartooning" stuff I've studied from reference, even as I can move their form around in my mind. These three were drawn without models: by then I could visualize some of their proportions and attitudes. But I took the cute goggly eyes from pigeon art I've seen around (esp. @nancychiu whose art I follow), because those natural Sauron eyes don't do justice to how stupidly cute pigeons look. • #watercolour #watercolor #pigeon #pigeonsofinstagram #pigeonlove #sketchbook https://www.instagram.com/p/Cdp1-yIMs7h/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Happy Friday 13th, this is a good luck delivery! ✨🧚🍀✨ • The process is available on Twitch (also @mubiu there) ^^ • #watercolor #watercolour #friday13th #goodluck #goodluckcharm #clover #fourleafclover #fairy #twitch #twitchfr https://www.instagram.com/p/CdfsrwWsV1L/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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TEGN Goblin Knight • swipe for original art by @evenmehlamundsen, and my initial sketches. #evendtiyschallenge #dtiysgoblinknight • Goblins are fun to draw. 😄 https://www.instagram.com/p/CXl7b-WsF0U/?utm_medium=tumblr

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#inktober 1: Crystal 💎 #inktober2021 #inktober2021crystal https://www.instagram.com/p/CU7EyQeIr_e/?utm_medium=tumblr

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210517 #mermay #mermay2021 What do you imagine mermaids live like? I like the idea of them going around with weapons to hunt with, and some instrument to accompany their singing; not wearing clothes, yet being laden with jewelry; and being able to do underwater fire magic. • Wanted to make an HQ scan of the line art before I ruin the thing with irremediable paint :p #inkdrawing #mermaid #illustration #fantasy #chimera https://www.instagram.com/p/CO_YRoEBcsd/?igshid=1lz43ws9ty94o

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#mermay #mermay2021 • Phew! at last, some mermaid ~🧜🏻‍♀️ April was a difficult month for me, and I coped by doodling a lot, almost every day. I was looking forward to Mermay, but somehow managed to not draw anything when May did show its pretty head. So let's keep it simple, and start with a relaxed sketch in my MUJI notebook. :) #sketchbook #watercoloursketch https://www.instagram.com/p/COoOx40BM-l/?igshid=1m8v415b1g8f8

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Kaz is the best friend I made on @thatskygame #skychildrenofthelight • Design elaborated from the basis of the current Days of Blossom 🌸 cherry blossoms suit her so well ^^ • #sketchbook #doodles #watercolorsketch #fanart https://www.instagram.com/p/CM21jM-BXHh/?igshid=1qgarh1nb6etk

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🌙🌆 . #ink #inksketch #inkdrawing #freehand #figure #sketchbook https://www.instagram.com/p/CL80dJ4BfH4/?igshid=1dvmryklf2cht

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"I wanna love me The way that you love me For all of my pretty and for all of my ugly too I'd love to see me from your point of view" #pov #arianagrande • Nap. 😴☺️ https://www.instagram.com/p/CIp9lReBIb5/?igshid=wztci8bwr229

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Rabbit holes and skeletons. • I'd do anything to not do anything. Whatever I'm fleeing, there's a door to open that will keep me distracted. Seemingly productive procrastination. But at least I'm doodling and jotting my concerns and interests on paper again. I skipped photographing the rawer sketches. I try to let them happen but they're few and far in-between, clumsy, and really too vulnerable to expose publicly. Luckily more palatable images keep popping up. • The perpetual issue is how fast they pop up and how quick I move on. I'm an initiator, not much of a pursuer or toiling person. Looking at these sketches and at old drawings, I do have the skills to produce finished, beautiful pictures. Just not the patience. If I put something aside, it's often as done as it's goong to get. Revisiting old sketches feels like watching a children's movie: it elicits memories, but just doesn't have the flavor and power it once had. It rings differently, in dissonance with the self of the present. Reading old diary entries is the same. If the feeling and the mindset that elicited the birth of a piece are gone, changed, or become irrelevant, I can't keep working on this piece, even for the sake of memory. • A few days ago I lost myself in the whirls of Jupiter's clouds and learning about turbulent flow. I've satiated the craving for knowledge that would serve this first sketch, but then my heart moved on. Looking back, just a few days later, I don't find it in me to try and make a complete version. I've moved to some other images, some other interests—drawing is one way of taking information in, but my identity and concerns fluctuate too much, move too fast, for me to keep focus, digest and transcend. • I envy the artists that have a strong identity coursing through their work, who not only carry a piece through, but who also have a consistent output and demonstrate a gradual, sensible progression. • Can I ever tame my erratic tendency ? Can it be tapped into ? • Can I ever take care of paperwork on time instead of buddying up with bunnies? • Last pic is reward for paying attention :) #sketchbook #inksketch #anatomy #turbulentflow #study https://www.instagram.com/p/CIGQxkSBImH/?igshid=1heore093j28e

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What's true? What's right? Where is my voice? Where is my path? • Everywhere I turn I face an echo. Each step forward is a countermove and a new trigger. When think I'm surfacing, I want to ignore that the abyss under me is as deep as ever. • None of it translates into what I draw. What I draw is fragmented shadows of my escapism—but none of the filth I'm escaping from happens in there. "It's dark because you are trying too hard. Dark because you want it to be light." Something is missing in therapy/counseling for me to process my baggage. I don't want to try anymore, but I don't want decades of this agonizing crawl either. Oh how I wish I could just discard the weight like the proverbial spongebag! Or how I wish I could make the venom my ink, and pen out the lingering, putrid effluves of my past... But even for my own eyes I dare not do it. Nothing unpleasant should show. • When my parents divorced, I met with therapists. They had me draw and model clay. We barely talked and I didn't know what I was doing there. But soon enough I would learn that my drawings were saying things: the drawings I made at home would be criticized or weaponized against me. So I monitored what I drew, long before I learned to monitor what I say. Art isn't an outlet for me, it's a straightjacket. I feel the pull of the straps, the restraint, whenever I put pen to paper. • So after choosing to focus on one tool and one medium, and after making myself care less about producing a finished, "legit" piece of art, I must make another counterintuitive move. I must learn to express the ugly, the wrong, the wounds festering behind old bandages I never wanted to touch again. I won't dare to post any of it. Most will be awkward, feel melodramatic, or downright humiliating and shameful; it's a work for my own eyes. But hopefully I'll re-emerge every once in a while, a little more honest, with a fuller picture to offer. https://www.instagram.com/p/CHfT3bKhBA2/?igshid=6m22oacsx08h

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#inktober2020 Unwinding again. Midnight, tired and tense. Starting an all-nighter to finish packing and sorting the trash. Moving: H-36 (or less). Coffee and stress make me feel sick in the stomach, but the flow of random doodling alleviates that, just a moment. https://www.instagram.com/p/CF-pyC3Bf8I/?igshid=iicokrk1a5cr

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#inktober2020 • Unwinding with the scratch of the nib. My head's all clouded with exhaustion, but my worries were suspended for a time when I focused on making this. https://www.instagram.com/p/CF5ZnR8BN1j/?igshid=sruhnezb4nzr

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September is gone already!? Moving places is consuming my days, and I didn't even realize it was already #inktober season 🎃 Art block aside, I do need the wind down from all the discarding, triaging, and packing. The key is to not think too much, just enjoy the flow. . #inktober2020 #inkdrawing #inksketch https://www.instagram.com/p/CF1cSXrBG4i/?igshid=17dq3mx0bsw6d

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200921 Alkonost • Until now the sun has been rising to meet me; now I will have to leave home to see it emerge from the horizon. Some things dog you, others you have to reach out for, many more should be left alone, separate, gone. https://www.instagram.com/p/CFY-4pRhTAt/?igshid=1bwnkgh6vykak

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Woah I'd really do anything to not be doing house-chores.... I'd even put paint to paper. Incredible. #watercolor #sketchbook #selfportrait https://www.instagram.com/p/CEzfrWNBObp/?igshid=1ltz71kk5p06c