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What was I Made For | Lee Heeseung

pairing: Non-Idol Heeseung X Female reader (ft. Enhypen Jake and Sunghoon- Both Non-Idols)

warnings: health triggers, abuse mention, early winter celebrations lol

rating: 17+ (might not be comfy for young readers)

word count: 2555

It was like any other day or so y/n thought. Friday morning was a chaotic mess as you so called “accidentally” snoozed three alarms in a row. Thank goodness your sweet yet tired boyfriend was awake and shook you hard just enough to wake you. ��IT’S TIMEEE!!!” he yelled at the top of his lungs. No not this again. “Like I said Heeseung Evan Lee for the last time, it's too early for this and stop trying to act like Mariah Carey. It ain't even Thanksgiving.” "Okay Ms. I slept on the wrong side of the bed". “Oh no you didn't Mr. I love Christmas so much that I skip two whole months." Both of you loved Christmas but Heeseung was on another level. Like who sings carols when it's not even the second week of October, starts hanging decorations when there's still fall leaves hanging on trees, and too much winter puns that brings shivers down your spine when you feel the jokes stirring like hot cocoa.

Yes your boyfriend does all of the above and beyond that. Don't get me wrong you love your boyfriend with all your heart and soul but there were some things that made you two fight every now and then and it wasn't about him celebrating the holidays early. The arguments would be so bad to the point where you wouldn't talk to each other weeks and occasionally months. It wasn't healthy but you guys never really figured out a way to really sit down and talk whenever a huge fight happened. After the long silence it was usually him who apologized and then it was gone with the wind. Thinking of those times you really wish you would be more open minded and say you're sorry first but your stubbornness overtook you. Now that heeseung woke you up out of your slumber it was officially time to get ready for work. You were working as a registered nurse at a local hospital 10 minutes away from your shared apartment. It wasn't an easy job but you have always had compassion for people who were sick so you never complained about your patients or your coworkers.

After you did your morning routine, got dressed, and packed your bag you went to the kitchen to see Heeseung finishing up making your breakfast. “Wow! Hee thank you so much for the feast.” You generally are not the brekky eater but today was that day. “Yeah you're welcome sweetheart. I know you don't like to eat in the morning but just thought it would make you feel better.” Did it in a way yes but in another way no.

Your heart dropped when you thought about that moment you didn't want to rethink in your head. Before you strived to become a nurse you actually had the dream of becoming a singer. You were always listening to music 24/7/365. It got people thinking is that person a music maniac or what. It got to the point where your mom had to take your electronics away in order to focus on your studies. Not having your happy place put you in a dark hole especially as you were dealing with a lot of hardships while in university. It wasn't until your mom made a deal that if you were to change your major to nursing she would give everything back. Heartbroken was an understatement of what you felt as soon as those words fell out of her words. Your dedication to singing and embracing your inner music talents would be thrown away with just a snap of a finger. Although you didn't want to change your future career path at that moment you didn't really have a choice as your life depended on your babies and you didn't want your mom to be disappointed.

Immigrating to a new country was definitely not an easy choice for her and you needed to do what every daughter did follow and trust your mom. After deciding to endure nursing school you finally graduated with your BSN within 3 vigorous years of studying. It was the hardest thing you've ever had to do but with the help of your peers, professors, family, and of course Heeseung, you made it. Of course you still wanted to pursue music as maybe a side job but things got heavy as you've dealt with depression, a friendship breakup and your grandfather passing away but through the help of a counselor and your boyfriend you were able to make it as far as today. However lately you've been having the same doubts you were dealing with in school. You were worried sick that no one would be around when you needed them the most. When Heeseung wasn't around you would lock yourself in the bathroom and cry until your heart throbbed and thought about the worst thing possible.

You finally found your senses and grabbed a piece of toast and was about to head on out the door. “Are you sure that's all you're going to eat? You should eat more.” “I'm fine with just this, besides my stomach will hurt if I eat more. Thanks again for the food, Heeseung.” “You don't need to thank me y/n just doing my job.” “Well I'm grateful to have you in my life. I'll see you after work. Love you.” “Have a great day and love you more.” Both of you share a quick hug and you're at the door in seconds.

When you got to the hospital it was the usual clocking in, greeting your coworkers, getting a shift report from the overnight nurse, and going to check your patients. Since you work in the pediatric unit you loved seeing all of the kiddos waiting to be seen by you. You were delighted to be by their side as you haven't seen them since Monday due to personal problems that you knew not to think of when you were on the job. Well your shift went by so quick you didn't realize it was already 3p.m. It was just one of those days where everything went so smooth and you were excited to hop back in bed. After giving a shift report to the next shift and clocking out you were zooming out of there like a bobsled.

While you were driving you got an unexpected call from someone you never thought to receive a call from. It was none other than your younger brother. You had cut ties from.him as he had never treated you well and oftentimes would abuse you in the worst way possible. He had warned you that if you had ever shown your face to him he would not only hurt you but your boyfriend and possibly the rest of your family. As you didn't want that to happen in any way you moved to somewhere he wouldn't find you or Heeseung you were hesitant in answering the phone call and found it a bit odd that all this time you had his number in your contacts and that he would be the first one to reach out. As you didn't want any risks from happening you swiped right.

“Hello? Who is this?” “Hey y/n it's me y.b.n.” “Y.b.n? Hey. How are you?” “Not well. I need a big favor and you are going to listen carefully or else there will be consequences.” “O-O-OK what is it?” “I got into a huge fight with some ol folks from high-school and urgently need $10000 to cover up the damage.” “$10000? I don't have that much?” “Are you serious right now? I don't need any excuses. You are going to send me that amount by next week or you and your lover are toast." You guys make a bunch so it shouldn't be a biggie.” “Okay I'll try my best and give it to you but please don't hurt us.” “That's what I'm talking about now. I said 1 week so you better not break that promise and you know where to find me.” Before you try saying your last words he hangs up and you're in shock. Your so-called brother who treated you no less of a human wants money for something that he caused. Oh you're in big trouble sister. Not only are you in a huge mess, you got your boyfriend's life hanging on a thread.

You don't know what to do. Your life is all a mess now. It brings you back to the past where all your trauma lies. Family issues were one thing depression and anxiety were another thing and school was the final straw you had back then. If it wasn't for your incredible support system and prescribed medications you probably would not be alive. You didn't want to think negatively after such an excellent day at work but you were hopeless and in need of desperate help. Before crying yourself an ocean you decided it was best to drive safely back home.

When you reached your apartment you didn't see Heeseung’s shoes nor his bright aura beaming so you assumed he wanted to be with his friends as he hasn't in a couple of weeks. You took that time to go to the bathroom and kneel down on the cold tiles. Even after just 15 minutes had passed the phone call was buzzing through your mind and made you a crying mess. Although you were a registered nurse you had monthly payments to be accounted for, your younger brother was the last thing on your mind that you wanted to worry about after all he had done to you and your family. 10000 is not a child's name and money certainly does not grow in trees. Where in the world were you going to get the money within a week?

The last thing you wanted to happen was something horrendous happening to your one and only savior and best friend in the whole world. He was ultimately the number one reason why you are able to breathe, walk, talk, and do the basic things in life after all you've been through. That being said, you didn't want him to carry that extra burden of your younger brother's promise. You decided that you were going to deal with this yourself and only you. Not noticing how long you've been in the bathroom crying you jumped lightly when you heard someone knocking the door. “Honey, are you okay? I thought I heard some crying.” “Yeah I'm okay I got something in my eye and was trying to get it out. I'll be out in a bit.” Shoot Heeseung came. Not wanting to create a scene you decided to wash your face with cold water and touch up your makeup a little bit.

After you opened the door you were greeted by the biggest hug you probably have had in forever. “Oh I missed you so much. Hey, are you sure you're okay?” “I missed you too and yes I'm okay I just had some dust in my eye and was trying to cry it out.” “Well okay then let's eat the chicken I bought for our TGIF dinner.” “Oooh chicken thank you I was starving.” “Well someone didn't listen to me this morning.” “Ok Mr. Know it all.” Before something could erupt you guys ran to the dining table to feast on the chicken. While you were enjoying your drumstick you could sense Heeseung looking at you in a strange way. “Is there something on my face? Why are you looking at me like that?” “No reason but y/n do you have something to tell me?” “No I don't why?” “Bc I received a strange call from someone while I was out with my friends.”

Oh no y.b.n reached out to Heeseung before you even got the chance to explain everything to him. “What? Y.b.n? I haven't spoken to him in ages? Like I told you before we went our separate ways because you know why.” “Well then how do you explain this?” He shows you a text message from your younger brother of the same overall description of the call you've received earlier. Your body trembles and tears are just about to trickle down your face. “I-I-I I’m sorry I didn't want to burden you with all of my family troubles. You have done so much already and I'm sure you're sick of all the mess.” “Y/n no it's no burden. I told you we would get to everything and anything as long as we're together and share all of our problems.” “I know but you don't deserve to live like this. Oh goodness gracious what was I made for. To trouble you in the worst ways possible. Yes, that's what it is.”

Heeseung stands up and hugs you and gives a small peck on your forehead. “No you weren't made for that reason. You were made to stay by my side and be my girlfriend. Your troubles are not even on the list of why you belong in this world. Yn trust me when I say this you are the most beautiful, empathetic, funny, kind, strong, and wonderful woman in the world. I know life hasn't treated you the best but I'll be by your side through thick and thin, best and worst, rain and snow, clouds and sunshine. It might not be the same for you but you are enough no matter what people say. Although we've had our fights in the past and probably will have more along the way but hey that's what we will work on to build a stronger relationship. Never ever doubt yourself on that question again please.” “Oh Hee! How did I ever deserve to be with someone like you?” “I should say the same thing. I wonder what good deeds I did in my previous life to be with someone like you.” “Thank you from the bottom of my heart Heeseung for being there for me since university. If you weren't there I seriously would've never made it alive and well. I know that I have caused a lot of ruckus but I promise that I will do my best to make things better. I love you to the whole universe and back.” “I love you the same too my love.”

“About my brother’s situation I have an idea up my sleeve that can hopefully make the whole situation better.” “And what might that be hmm?” “Uhm that's a secret I'm only sharing it to Santa and maybe some other people.” “Oh and who was the one who said it was too early to celebrate winter when it's not even Thanksgiving.” “Well I guess it's never too early to start the winter cheers.” “Okay then you called it. Alexa, play All I Want For Christmas is You by Mariah Carey.” “HEE! Oh my goodness the neighbors are going to think we're out of this world.” “Who cares at least I'm not the one blasting k-pop 24/7/365 everywhere I go.” “Shut up Bambi.” “Blah blah blah nobi dobi da.” (TBZ gibberish) “Hey how do you know that song?” “I wonder why.” “Go fish.” “Will do with Jake and Sunghoon tomorrow.” “It was a joke hee.”

None of the characters in the fan fiction are portrayed like this in real life. Story is mostly fictional so please do not think that the characters actually act like this. Hate about the idol will not be tolerated by any means and will be deleted asap. Just letting y'all know this has not been proof-read so there will be mistakes here and there.

OMGGGG this is my first ever ff I've written on tumblr. I've previously worked on Wattpad (putitinkookie lol) but never got to really publish a whole lot of writing on there. This story was just a random thought I had on the song What was I made for by Billie Eilish. I love that song so much and wanted to make my own intake of the song through a ff. I don't really know the lyrics so I apologize to Ms. Billie Eilish and her fans for misinterpreting the bop. I wrote the first draft within 2.5 hours and am pretty proud of myself for making it happen heehee. A quick TMI but some (if not most) of the information in the story are what I've dealt with in real life so it took a lot of courage for me to write something really personal. Well thank you for taking the time to read my very first tumblr writing. I hope to write more whenever I can. If you would like to comment, like, and re-blog that would be greatly appreciated. Love you all and have a wonderful day or night wherever you are.

sincerely,

multimediah

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