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I wonder how long it'd take people to notice, If I did this, that Oc's aren't OC? Like if I drew Ginny, from Ginny & Georgia, and gave as little info as possible, do you think people would realize? The translation between Real -> drawn is a curious one.

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Brain is brrr-ing

I'm rewatching SPN and S2 EP6 gave me a very interesting idea that i, myself, am unable to do for the lack of willpower.

So Jo, Ellen's daughter, asked dean his first memory of his dad, to which he explains being taken out shooting, bottles on a fence, and "bulleye-ing it" (he shot each one perfectly) and the way his father smiled at him.

Now imagine, we hear Johns side of raising the boys, my intial thought is that in the beginning he would have plently of proud father TM stories but the more he talks about raising the boys and huntin' the less memories he has (because he wasn't present). He's start talking like he reading aloud a report (he's some kind of vet, served twice?) and its because he is, he is repeating from his perspective reports/updates dean had given him, but it's like he doesn't even realize how few memories of the boys he actually has.

like first girlfriend? Most parents can tell you their kids puppy love story by heart (i assume based off what ive heard, these are not accurate stats) and hell they are hunters! so maybe it would be he knows his sons preferred weapon of choice! but he doesn't, he knows what weapon they were required to use in order to kill a monster but he doesn't know what weapon they will without a doubt always try first.

and slowly as this story/interview/whatever continue you stop hear about sam and dean and only hear about his hunts, you only hear em if they helped out (that vamp nest) and its so perfectly easied into that the reader (and assumingly John) dont quite notice the shift from the boys to hunts, I would love to hear John Winchester description of before mary died - day mary died - borderline sewerslidal father - not really functional alcoholic - learning to be hunter father - commanding chief - death story cuz we hear Sam's resentment story, get flashbacks of Dean's life as well as hearing Dean's "my dad is my hero" story.

Did john think of his kids? or was it more like a when they weren't there then they didn't exist but when they were there in front of him they meant the world?

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Listen I just got done watching a bunch of sad dean edits that eventually turn into Charlie and dean acting like siblings, this is not a coherent thought, idk how to get from point A to point DC(dean and Charlie, not a ship) but somehow someway people are alive specifically Mary and John, and Bobby because I love Bobby but he doesn't really need to be alive I just love him, anyways right and idk when or where'd they'd find the time but at some point, maybe dean is taking a break from Sam Oki, Charlie and Dean start hangin out and decide, hey! Let's play music at bars, and Dean plays guitar, Charlie sings, and everyone eventually gets back together, Sam, Dean, John, Mary, Charlie are all taking a trip, maybe a really hard hunt, together and stop at a bar, to which Charlie and Dean get on stage and perform 'set it all free' and I've never listen to how the original song is played, but my niece was watching sing so I mean the way it's played in there, Charlie is hopping on tables, on to the bar, singing, going face to face with John at some part to like show how much she hates him, and Dean is fuckin rockin the guitar, he is just doing that solo part, where the porcupine chick like (accidentally) toss her spikes into the crowd, he is just going and it's great and amazing.

I could list other songs they'd perform

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I like getting people I care about gifts nehehe

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I tried out c. Ai and uh- I thought it would be funny to taunt and bulky him but somehow it turned out like this? (There are some photos missing because I am dumb,also I have 3 more end screen shots so I'll post those seperately since I can't do more than 10)

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Currently my hair is red.

I really don't care enough to tag.

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A part of me really wants to just,

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Stop following me please, you are making me nervous.

And stop liking my cringe x reader posts they are bad!!!

😭

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I am compliant to my depression.

My depression has been with me since I was a child, an infant maybe, it has held my hand though it all.

My depression kissed my knuckles as a toddler when my father cheated on my mother,

Nuzzled me to sleep when he died,

Kissed my eyelids during the time my mother only saw the cheating bastard who had another family,

Cradled me in it's arms as I sobbed begging for an explanation as to why my mother could not love me,

Pressed soft whispered promises into my wrist when I cut them as a form of punishment for sins that I did not commit,

It kept me safe,

Even when everyone I had loved could not love me though it was their job,

My depression kept me company when my mother left before I woke and arrived after I had fallen into slumber,

It wiped away my tears when I had nightmares.

And yet, I am meant to hate it?

How could I?

When it is the only one who cannot and will not leave me.

My depression loves me and I love that it loves me.

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I was told to take the Myer Briggs test every year.

As a way to see how you grow and develop.

Previous years I was INTJ-T with about 90% introvert

One year I got 50-60% introvert and then it immediately shot back up the next.

Then 2 years ago I got INTP-T.

I thought it was a fluke especially when the following year I got INTJ-T again.

But this year I got INTP-T. (90% introvert)

My conclusion? Both fit very well but INTP-T fits just a pinch better.

Although, I have got INTJ-T the most but the description of INTP-T fits better.

My biggest problem is how people depict INTPs.

From what I've seen, it's a "dumber than INTJ".

And I don't know how to react to that or why that is how it is.

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If I ever become like a director, writer, animator, etc

I will always find a way to put Stan Lee in.

I basically grew up watching all his movies. He inspired my artistic side.

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I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her

I wanna hold her hand

I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her

I wanna cuddle her

I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her I wanna kiss her

...

She's my online best friend

...

Ah fuck.

The gay thoughts are back.

:)

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I will never get over people describing love as something gross,

"Disgustingly in love"

"The worst sight to ever see, a happy couple."

Literally amazing I will never get over-

"Ew, I think *gag* I loove you *face of revulsion*"

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I think kenma and yamaguchi would make a cute couple.

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The temptation to cry is strong so is my temptation to draw naked men but the fear of dicks is stronger than that but consider vaginas! But I could just glow stick the dicks but would that make the drawing shit? Doesn't matter cuz I wouldn't post that dick shit here or anywhere.

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Tendou x atsumu?

Hm?