my-dearest-diary-xoxo

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

sunday august 24 2025

ghhh was it casual when you said you wanted to draw us as the tv girl pink and blue

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

the way in which u talk to meee have me wishin i were gone

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

also I'm gonna have my period in 3 days so that's probably why I feel like this today

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

I just exist for no reason like literally all I do is rot all day they should kill me already there's no use for me I have no worth I need to be put down before I bring others down for being this pathetic

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

I feel really bad when I think about someone trying to help me with my health

Eventually I'd push them away and make their efforts worthless

I can't let them get close they don't deserve that

Like I'm literally hopeless please don't waste your time

There's no helping me I'm not worth the time bro

I'd rather you drive a dagger through my chest than even think about worrying about me

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

okay I'm gonna write bad stuff,,,

I've been thinking. do I really deserve to be happy

I don't think I'm a good person

I know good and evil are social constructs but idk I can't help but use them

I just feel this pain in my chest when I think about being happy cause like idk.

I don't want to tell anyone about this becayse then they'll worry about me and I'll be a burden and they'll get sad whrn I kill myself

I want people to hate me I want my funeral to be a party I don't want anyone to get sad over me I don't deserve that

my friends are so much cool and nicer and normal than me while I'm kind of just existing for no reason

the world doesn't need some useless waste of space

they'd do so much better without me I swear

the person I used to comfort often already left there's no use for me anymore

can I be put down like a sick dog yet

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

saturday august 23 2025

9:23 pm

my day was really good I played roblox with seb and shy!

but. I still have bad thoughts so I will write them out here okay lemme put it in another post tho I'll talk about good stuff here

COUUGH

so today nothing much happened again

I played arsenal with seb!!

I played dandys world and two "horror" games with shy!!

I love my friendsss

OH ALSO I GOT TWO ARSENAL WINS TODAY!! ISNT THAT GREAT?? 🥳🥳🥳

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

AUGUST 20 WEDNESDAY 2025

HAHAHHA

I WON ARSENAL SIX TIMES IN A ROW

FIRST ONE WAS A FREE FOR ALL WIN TOO

I'M SO FUCKING PRO

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

august 19 tuesday 2025 6:55 pm

life is so good arsenal update

MY BELOVED HEIGHT FRIGHTS IS BACK AAHHHH

also ace pilot and material man are my #1 opps again.

DNI PINK HAIRED FUCK AND BRICK MAN

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

sunday august 17 2025

dude I read a threesome hardcore yaoi comic with two of my friends yesterday AHHHH

okok I said I wasn't gonna take the voice acting seriously and later on in the comic they were like "LOCK IN!! READ SERIOUSLY!!"

ANDD THEN ONE OF THEM WAS LIKE "when we get the trans surgery we're gonna DO THIS TO YOU!!"

I was like HUHHH???

nothing like your friend saying they're gonna gay sex you (JOKINGLY)

this was so funny omg

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

friday august 15 2025

hey did anyone else use to hear your mom calling your name?? but when you go downstairs she wasn't yelling anything?? and she doesn't know wtf you were taking about??

I need to know if anyone else had this experience

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

speaking of mizi, ohhh my god my tragic doomed girl

she's so real for losing hopee

I feel so bad for her like everyone she loves is gone and she has survivors guilt and thinks she's bad because of it and she's considered a witch

ALSO THEY CLONED HER,, image how violating that feels

I know Ivan and Mizi are good friends but imagine being a lesbian and they make a clone thing thats basically you and a man's child

the kid is cute but omg 💔

AND HER GIRLFRIEND GOT MIXED WITH LUKA. TWICE.

ohhh my poor boy Luka too HE'S LIKE 37 LET HIM REST 🫩

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

I'm like Mizi at the end of alien stage,, hope for humanity is lost

Like you could tell me millions of reasons to keep hope and stay alive and believe that the future would be better but it'll never work

You can't change my mind on this

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

Tuesday august 12 2025

It's 12 am right now

This kind of feels wrong to say but I really think everyone deserves to die painful and alone

Sure, there's good in this world. I know there is and I seek positivity.

But. I still think this way. There's no helping this world, it's already gone to shit. This is humanity's fault.

We don't deserve to live.

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

saturday aushust nine 2025,, 9:10 am

oohk my ngod do not stay up to 3 am for a dandys world update and play for 4 hours straigbt .

I'm still on. the clal right now,, I had dandy world call playing with friiends. h

it is.. 6. hour and 20 minutes lony. Help. Iwany yo beat my last call hours, 12 hour call . HUHHAHHHHH

only havoc left in call with me,, doing clicky comput3r thingssss the clicksss aaaAAHAHHHH

feelinst a bimt wooozy heha

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

I got soundcloud! spotify is becoming,, mid.

GAHHH I LOVE 1x1x1x1

I LOVE EVERY VERSION EVEN IF I DONT PLAY WHTEVER GAME IT'S FROM! I LOVE 1x!!!

the only game I play with him in it is like,, forsaken? theres probably more but I thought of forsaken first

I LOOOVE THE NORMAL 1x!

also,, people calling the younger version 2x2 lowk pmo

I'm not 100% sure on his lore yet BUUT I'm pretty sure

2x2 was the one who sealed him away somewhere I forgot

also isnt 2x2 just. a stud? like the thing that made every stud,, the adam and eve of studs

I've also heard that they just don't have a canon design,, or that every design is canon like miku

[my-dearest-diary-xoxo]

today I did hangout with my friends!!!

LOVE YOU SOAPY AND SHY!!

luv my gng

so epic dude..