myheart08

[myheart08]

Good night self,

I love you self - easter 2e

Heart beats fast

thought love always lasts

yesterday was a blast

today I'm in the kast

idea of unending care

feeling the warmest glare

Oh how nice bond and respect we share

now it's to be found nowhere

Small things, sways things

kindness be with kindness

all what I expect nevertheless

didn't see the sign of wilderness

Don't I see it coming

or too blind since I am loving

Now feelings been hanging

either I'll just sleep it out or cry it out when it's raining

[myheart08]

Second Chance

I gave “us” a second chance

thought the baby would heal us

like seeing you differently

but now seeing you even more badly

You try your best, you say

you do this and that you say

you bought a house you say

you pay the bills you say

Guess what, that is not just making a man

should be what way he’s treating his woman

is a very must you help

is very nice you give a hand

Money is not a problem for me

I pay my bills, do groceries and baby expenses

Even giving you money for your house

guess what, I still see it as yours since you keep saying “I bought“ “My money” “my house”

Commitment is very important

in a relationship to last

Trust is even a must

and a caring, humble heart

I gave up a lot of things

and you know that so please don’t

act like you know nothing

Im thousand miles away from my home

my goals, my job, my dream

sacrificed my body, comfort

and my freedom just to be with you

since you’re my everything

Where did I do wrong?

perhaps I loved you too much

even we don’t know each other for long?

gave you a baby to make “us” strong

but gave me more anxiety and more stress

since I mostly I do it alone

Hearing your friends saying I am lucky

well, pf course they’re dutch so they see money

but guess what I don’t see that you’re wealthy

since wealthy man treats her girl nicely

I fell bad mostly

since you are saying things that is not so nice to me

“let’s run DNA test you say”

you don’t know how it dig up my heart who loved and give you my life entirely

Why can’t you love me as how much I love you

for two years I endure and opened to you

been careful and took care of you

cooks, folds and iron your clothes,

clean the house as you say so

well, perhaps been too good that you don’t

see my worth as you ought to

During my pregnancy you lied

you would drive on the bike with other girl

and would shamelessly kiss me way back

guess what I know it all

since the begin and see you denied

babe I’m not stupid, just letting you off

since I don’t want to stress up the baby inside

My heart is aching

and it is so frustrating

since though I’m in pain am just smiling

so maybe you thought my patience is unending

Just so you know clock is ticking

my cup is down to filling

hope it slow down and see what people see you so admiring

for I’m already tired and was already seeing the ending

….

#clock #relationship #sacrifice #money #Worth #broken #hardships #culture #different #away #heartache

[myheart08]

My little baby boo

My little baby boo

My butter and my hue

to hold you tight and

feel your tiny toe

a hopeful dream

but may fail to come true

Mommy loves you

please know that I do

I want the best thing

but I am afraid

it is unfair for you

I am firm but is human too

commits mistakes and cries too

My little baby boo

My pumpkin and sunshine

Wish I had enough strength

to give you a fight

To raise and keep you

in my arms with full delight

Waited for you all this time

Thought I am ready

and will be fine

sorry my darling

things are not aligned

May you forgive me

as I bid you goodbye