mymultiverseofmadnes

[mymultiverseofmadnes]

Nah - I didn’t mean to curl up and sob. Thank you 🥲💔

[mymultiverseofmadnes]

Family dinner

Pairing: Natasha Romanoff x f!reader, Kate Bishop x Yelena Belova, platonic!Kate Bishop x f!reader

Warnings: a very poor attempt at humour

Summary: your best friend Kate needs backup after a mishap with Yelena's family

Masterlist

“I need you here yesterday!”

“What?” You whisper-shout, looking around the office to make sure no one noticed you ducking away to take a call from your best friend.

“Please, I'm desperate! I can't do this alone, they're like sharks and I just spilled blood!”

“Kate, what the hell are you talking about?”

“Yelena's family! They're scary as shit on a good day, but now we messed up real bad, and I think they're gonna decapitate me,” she whines.

“Okay, let's backtrack. What did you do?”

“...”

“Kate?”

There's shuffling on the other side, a deep sigh and then, “Melina found the handcuffs. With the fur. They were still attached to the bed.”

You snort, loud enough to attract annoyed looks from your coworkers. “Happens to the best of-”

“And the whip. It was on the bed too.���

You chortle, this time not caring about your surroundings, and swiftly move further down the hall. “She knows Yelena's a big girl, she can ha-”

“Natasha was there too!”

You stop in your tracks. Now that's interesting.

“She'll never let you forget it,” you say with all the confidence you have, even though you've never met the woman before. You know just enough from what Kate and Yelena told you to be sure of that.

“She's not letting me forget it now! She got all sneaky and secretive, whispering with Melina and looking at me, and now I'm on my way to a family dinner. A family dinner with my girlfriend's family, while said girlfriend got called away on some emergency mission,” she huffs angrily.

“There's no emergency mission, is there?”

“There better be!”

You chuckle, shaking your head. It's never a boring day with Kate Bishop.

“So,” she starts, aiming for a nonchalant tone, “I'm downstairs.”

“What?”

“Yep. Waiting for you at the front. Better hurry, parking is expensive as hell.”

“Kate.”

“I'm your bestie. And my girlfriend's mom found the handcuffs. I need you.”

You check the time, noting that the workday is nowhere near it's end. With a sigh, you head for the elevator, not even bothering to come back for your bag.

“I love you.”

“I haven't agreed to-”

“I know what that sigh means!”

You groan. “Yeah, yeah. You owe me.”

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Turns out, Yelena's family is even scarier then you imagined.

“So, Y/n,” Melina starts, looking at you like you're one of her lab rats, “Do you usually leave your… sexual… stuff after you're done?”

You turn red, choking on the wine. Kate sends you a look of pity.

Natasha smirks.

“I don't… I'm not sure- Um. Well, no.”

Melina hums, nodding to herself. “Good.”

She digs into her food, and you exhale in relief, feeling like the worst part is over.

“So where do you keep your stuff, Y/n?” Natasha asks over the rim of her glass, her eyes full of mischief.

Kate slides lower in her seat, boring holes into her fork.

Melina perks up, once again regarding you like one of her subjects. “I would also like to know. To pass the advice to my daughter and her girlfriend.”

You gulp.

“Well?” Natasha prompts.

You shudder from the intensity of the look she's giving you.

“Can we move on?” Kate whispers, looking around nervously.

“Yes, of course,” Melina nods, her eyes lighting up like she was waiting for a subject change.

Natasha sends Kate an amused smile, and you relax slightly. Now the worst part is over, you're sure.

“So, Y/n-”

Fuck.

“-are you single?”

You nod, shoving a forkful of some meat salad - which mostly consists of mayonnaise - to avoid talking.

“And you're gay, correct?” Melina asks, peering into your very soul.

You nod again, chewing fast.

“Why are you gay?”

You choke on a piece of potato, wheezing and reaching for a glass of water. Kate almost falls of her chair in haste to smack you on the back. Natasha just looks at her mother, unimpressed. “Really?”

“What?” Melina shrugs. “I'm a scientist, I'm conducting research.”

The redhead groans, rubbing her eyes. “Of course.”

You feel a little better now that Natasha is annoyed.

Melina still looks at you, expecting an answer.

You sigh, “Are you gay?”

She blinks, looking like an owl. Natasha chokes on a laugh, sending you a look of appreciation. Kate mutters something about bathroom and darts out of the room, hopefully to call Yelena and fix all this mess.

“Well,” Melina starts, deep in thought. “I suppose I've never given it much of a thought.”

You nod, feeling accomplished in swaying attention from yourself.

“Natasha.” The older woman turns abruptly. “You are gay.”

The redhead groans, sliding down in her seat. “Mother, please.”

“She's gay, and you're gay. You're both miserably single.”

“Huh?” You frown, affronted.

“Fuck my life,” Natasha mumbles into the table, her face pressed tight against it in a feeble effort of disappearing.

“Yelena's on her way!” Kate walks back into the room, triumphant.

“Finally,” you sigh, pointedly looking at the ceiling to avoid Melina's penetrative gaze. “Where's she, by the way?”

“Hiding, probably,” Natasha snorts, shaking her head. “Escaped the scene of crime and left her girlfriend to pick up the mess.” She raises her glass in Kate's general direction, “You're doing good so far, Bishop. Even brought reinforcement - good thinking.”

“Yes-yes,” Melina nods, her eyes darting between you three. “Yelena's a bit of a coward in that regard, but we have an important matter to discuss.”

Natasha glares at her mother. “No, we don-”

“Natasha can cook. Well, she can microwave.”

“What did I miss?” Kate frowns, settling back into her seat. “Actually, no. I don't want to know.”

“As I was saying,” Melina clears her throat, paying no mind to the murderous look Natasha sends her. You'd feel gleeful at that - Natasha's plan came back to bite her in the ass - if you weren't the other victim in this scenario. “Natasha can cook. She's excellent with knives. She's an excellent shot. She can dismantle a bomb in a matter of seconds. She's a… a catch.”

You smile at the miserable expression on Natasha's face, her cheeks dusted with pink.

“Oh…” Kate whispers, looking at you from the corner of her eye. “Well, actually, Y/n is-” she yelps loudly when your heel connects with her toes, and turns bright red at the shooting pain. “-a bitch. She's a bitch.”

The look in Melina's eyes turns gleeful. “That was excellent.”

Fucking hell, no matter what you do, your grave turns deeper and deeper.

Natasha snorts, chugging her wine like it's water. Melina's mouth opens again, and you say a stupid thing to save yourself from further embarrassment.

“Can we go back to Kate's handcuffs, please,” you mutter with a sigh.

The look of betrayal your friend sends you doesn't work the way she intended, because you don't feel guilty at all.

Melina's mouth snaps shut, her eyes widening. The sight alone tells you you said the wrong thing.

“Have you and Kate ever-”

“No!” you both shout, before the older woman can finish the question.

“Sounds defensive,” Natasha chuckles, reaching for the bottle of vodka.

“Wha- What?” You hiss, glaring at the spy.

“She's- Y/n’s not even my type! And I'm not her type either!” Kate splutters.

“Mhm,” Natasha hums, “that I can see.”

You gape, not sure if you're supposed to be offended. “What?”

Natasha smirks, planting her chin on her fist. “You need a firm hand. Your best friend is anything, but firm.”

Her eyes trail down your body, pupils darkening ever so slightly. Your cheeks burn and, suddenly, it's hard to breathe. You clear your throat and gulp down the last of your wine, carefully avoiding her gaze.

“O-okay. That's- okay, yep,” Kate mutters to herself. “Fuck my life.”

“Am I wrong?” Natasha husks, reaching across the table to play with the golden bracelet on your wrist.

Really, right in front of her mother?

The front door opens with a loud bang, and you jump up, relieved to see Yelena. The feeling doesn't last long, because a second later you notice the bleeding wound on her torso.

“So that was an actual mission,” you mumble, missing the way Natasha snorts in your haste to get Yelena to the couch.

Kate looks pale, but swiftly starts helping Yelena undress. Melina's ready with the first aid kid by the time they finally tear off the shirt.

“So?” Natasha whispers into your ear, sending goosebumps down your skin. “Am I wrong?”

Apparently, not even her bleeding sister can stop her.

“No,” you reply, “you're not wrong.”

She hums, satisfied. “I am miserably single, you know?"

You let out a loud laugh, not even bothering to quiet down when Yelena sends you a murderous look.

“I am miserably single, too.”

She smiles, nodding to herself.

“Want to fix that?” She asks after a bit, her eyes glinting in the soft evening light.

“They'll never shut up about it,” you groan, stepping closer to her.

“Yeah,” she hums, her grin stretching wider. “So?”

"A little help?" Yelena wheezes, glaring daggers at the two of you. "Hello? Your sister is dying."

“Yes,” you reply, not taking your eyes away from her green pools.

“Perfect,” she breathes, before pressing a gentle kiss to the corner of your mouth. “I'll pick you up tomorrow at six.”

"Fucking unbelievable," Yelena mutters and yelps when Melina shushes her with a pinch and a hissed "don't ruin my hard work".

Kate just looks like she's about to faint.

You grin. "I can't wait."

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Multiverse Madness

Summary: one day you’re the girlfriend of Scarlett Johansson for a couple of years now - and suddenly you’re trapped with Natasha Romanoff - after something terrible went wrong with the multiverse. What could go wrong?

Pairings: Scarlett Johansson x fem!reader , Natasha Romanoff x fem!reader

A/N: sooo as a few of you guys seem to like the idea I’m trying to catch up with this story as regularly as possible :) if there are any thoughts on it - just let me know :)

Part 2

„Cut! Aaaand that’s a wrap for today! Great job everybody! Now let’s get some rest and celebrate yourself - you all did good today!“ the director spoke though her microphone. Scarlett immediately felt her whole body relaxing. She let out a deep breath and stretched her arms a few times whilst slowly walking towards the crew area. Her co stars already at the buffet. She didn’t felt quiet hungry - at least not for food. „Scarlett - come on! You’re missing the good stuff!“ one of them gestured her to join the rest. She just shook her head no. „Not for me - I’m heading to my soo comfy trailer. See you later, ok?“ with that she was already around the corner before she could even hear any response. As soon as she closed the door to her trailer she had her phone in her hands - already hitting for a face time call - not before she got rid of her pants and shirt, placing herself on the bed.

„Natasha - please.“ „Shh….“ the red head was gently brushing her thumb over your cheek, along your jawline, resting on your chin to tilt your head a bit - forcing your eyes to stay on hers. And you couldn’t help but linger at her soft lips for a bit too long. She smirked. Knowing that she already got you right where she wanted to have you. Her other arm placed besides your head - your body still pressed against the wall by her own. You couldn’t help but feel her soft breasts against your own. As well as her heartbeat - nearly matching yours - but not as unsteady. It felt like it was about to burst out. What on earth was going on? You still weren’t able to wrap your head around what Natasha just tried to explain. And how could you? Your mind was already spinning - drunk on her view, her smell, the way she was looking at you. As she was about to lean in - slower and without any hesitation this time - your phone went off in your hand. Natasha didn’t even blink. Neither taking a step back. You shifted your body - trying to get a look at the screen - and your heart dropped and got even more speed as you saw Scarletts number popping up - a face time call. „Who is it? Can’t be important enough to even consider taking the call…“ Natasha nearly whispered- her voice low and husky. Gosh. This voice. You blinked rapidly before you freed yourself under her arms and took a few steps into the hallway - answering Scarletts call.

„Honey - finally! Thought you’d already be asleep - I’m so happy you picked up - are you ok?“ her gaze changed within seconds as she saw your face. You slightly shook your head. „Yea- no. I — I don’t know. Scarlett - something happened- wait. Are you wearing my favs!?“ you tried to get a better view of her - noticing pretty well what she was wearing and probably what she wanted to use this call for. „Yes I do - but - wait - is there someone with you!?“ she shifted, grabbing a blanket, covering herself. Her eyes glued to the screen. You turned your phone slightly - feeling Natasha approaching behind you - slowly - as if she was hunting. „I— oh my, how do I explain this? Ok - honey wait!“ Scarlett got up - shaking her head. Her eyes full of horror and disbelief. „Who? How long?“ she nearly shoots at you. „No! Scarlett, listen. This is totally crazy and you probably won’t believe me. Wait! You need to look. Don’t hang up! Nothing happened! Just — look yourself…“ with that you pointed your camera directly at Natasha - who froze in her movements, staring at the screen. She tilted her head. Raising a hand to slowly wave at Scarlett. „Hi.“ Scarlett nearly dropped her phone. „What the fuck!?“ „Pretty much what I am thinking the whole time….“ you murmured from behind the camera before turning it back to yourself. „I I don’t how what’s going on myself. Nat said something about the multiverse and Strange messing up with the infinity stones. And - are you ok?“ Scarletts face color nearly matched the white curtains behind her. „What the fuck…show her again. Please.“ you did as she asked - grabbing Natashas hand to pull her to your side - now both of you on the screen - so Scarlett could actually see that this wasn’t a crazy AI thing you pulled at her. „What the fuck…“ „Is that all she can say…?“ Nat barely was able to stop herself from rolling her eyes. „I— I’m coming home. Now. Give me 2 hours. I’ll text you when I’m on my way.“ with that the call was over before you could reply to her. You let out a deep breath you didn’t even notice you were holding. „Shit.“ you murmured. Already typing a message - you know she wouldn’t pick up again. Not when she was in this state of mind. You could see it in her eyes. „Scarlett at least don’t drive by yourself! Call Max or even Jane. Please! I want you to get home safe!“ you hit send - and with that Natasha took your phone out of your hand. Dropping it to the floor. „Now - where were we…?“ before she could press you backwards you shifted and took a few steps away. „No. Natasha you need to stop! I have to make sure Scarlett will make it here safety. She’s - not in a good mood. And that makes her a very terrible driver. I need to make some calls…“ Natasha crabbed your writs as you were about to reach for your phone. „She’s a big girl. I think she can handle this herself. And she said something about 2 hours - we can make a lot with that time…“ own eyebrow raising up. Her lips curled into a dangerous smirk. Her thumb brushing over the back of your hand. Your own eyes glued to hers on you. You shook your head again. „No. Natasha stop. This - this isn’t going to happen. I get that you’re confused and somehow think that you - I don’t know - think you like me in some way. But - gosh you don’t even know me. This is the multiverse messing with you - us! Scarlett and I share a deep and loving relationship. I’m not willing to risk this just because some colorful stones and a Dr. who loves to mess with his powers. I know what those stuff is able of! I’m not taking any risks here.“ your eyes found hers again. „Please. Let me make those calls. Maybe try to reach out to Tony and Steve? As good as they are they probably already have a plan to get all of you back…“ she tilted her head again at your words. Not letting go of your hand. „Well a since you seem to know pretty much about infinity stones and all of us Avengers — you could do some explaining here.“ with that she leads you into your living room. Placing you on the couch. Directly beside herself. „I’m all ears here. What do you know? And how?“

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Multiverse Madness

Summary: one day you’re the girlfriend of Scarlett Johansson for a couple of years now - and suddenly you’re trapped with Natasha Romanoff - after something terrible went wrong with the multiverse. What could go wrong?

Pairings: Scarlett Johansson x fem!reader , Natasha Romanoff x fem!reader

A/N: this is just a step in into this idea - it sounded quiet fun in my head 😅 so maybe it’ll be worth continuing. Let me know :)

(small) Part 1:

„Natasha - no….please. We - I can’t do this. You need to stop.“ her eyes dark, filled with so much at the same time. „Why? Because I have her face?“ her body pressed against yours - trapped beneath her and the wall behind you. You barely shook your head. This whole situation totally slipped out of control. Whatever it was that forced this whole multiverse thing to happen and crash into your already crazy enough life - THIS!? Was just insane. Here she was - Natasha Romanoff - THE actual Black Widow. Fierce and attractive as your girlfriend - the one who actually portrayed her in freaking movies and not in real life god damn it!

Scarlett didn’t know about this whole situation yet - she was out of town for at least two more days - filming.

And you!? Were trapped with Natasha - who turned out to be as attached to you as Scarlett - since somehow her feelings for you also settled in Natasha. Whatever this crazy rules of multiverse included - if there were even any rules, really.

It all happened about a few hours ago. You just hung up the phone - previously talking to Scarlett. Catching up on how her day was going, if she’d already be done for the day and that you miss her like crazy.

As you were going to head for your shared bedroom you nearly crashed into the red head. Standing in the middle of the hallway - eyes darted to you. She must have watched you the whole time. „What the- Scarlett? How did you - what the hell!?“ your eyes flickered between her and your phone in your hand - with which you just had spoken to her. „Who?“ the red head didn’t flinch. A pure poker face. „What kind of trick is this? Not that I actually mind seeing you in your Black Widow suit and also wearing your civil war wig…“ you smirked - Still not sure what was going on. „Wig? I am sorry but what are you talking about? And most importantly who the fuck is Scarlett?“ your eyes widened in disbelief. „Honey that’s kind of creeping me out - are you ok? How did you even manage to be here that fast? You just told me that you’d still have to shoot at least for 2 more hours because of the light…what are you doing!?“ as you were talking the red head approached you - eyeing you carefully - intense. „It’s weird - besides I clearly have no idea how I got here - you feel so familiar- so…like home…“ as she was coming even closer pictures of you and Scarlett on the wall caught her attention. Her head nearly snapped towards one of them - Scarlett holding you close - placing a tender kiss to your lips. „Who is she?“ she snarled. You couldn’t help but blink rapidly. What on earth was going on!? „Scarlett please, stop this. You know how much I like it when we’re into this Black Widow role play thing - but you’re really starting to scare me. What’s wrong?“ the red heads gaze shifted back to you. „You need to stop calling me that.“ you raised an eyebrow at her words. „But…what?“ one of her fingers found a loosened strand of hair - pulling it gently behind your ear. „I bet you do know my name since you’re pretty aware of my Avengers part. I feel like I have amnesia - but you? You’re part of me, right?“ she whispered. Getting closer. You could feel her breath against your skin. You laughed a nervous laugh. „So what? You want to tell me that you’re actually Natasha Romanoff and not Scarlett, trying to play with me?“ her eyes locked on yours. „Would you mind telling me who the hell this Scarlett is? And why…“ she gestured towards the picture. „Is she kissing you? That’s my part to play…“ with that she leaned in - placing her lips on yours. And gosh it almost felt like Scarlett really was home with you. But still - something felt different. Before anything more could’ve happen her phone goes off. And of course - just to match all this madness - it was no one else than captain America himself - asking about her status and trying to explain that something with the infinity stones and the multiverse had totally gone wrong and know she was in a different universe - along with at least him and Tony.

She listened closely- and after Steve hung up tried to explain to you what was going on. You didn’t understand quiet a word. Besides the fact that somehow your girlfriend now had a doppelgänger. And of course it had to be an assassin - the hottest for sure. Who now tried to make sure you’ll know how much you were affecting her.

As you tried to get your head around all of this - Natasha had other plans. Her own emotions totally out of control. That sudden deep bond she felt with you - as if it was second nature. And the fact that there was a women looking exactly like her who actually claimed you.

After some back and forth of questions and tried answers you decided it was going to be just fair to call Scarlett - but Natasha had other plans. With a quick motion she was back at pinning you against the wall.

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Isn’t she the cutest 🥰

WandaVision (2021) 1.01: Filmed Before A Live Studio Audience Agatha All Along (2024) 1.02: Circle Sewn With Fate / Unlock Thy Hidden Gate

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Help me out please!

Is there any of you so so talented folks out there who would do me the favor and turn this pic into an I phone wallpaper? Pretty pretty please?

Help a witchy gal out, please 🥺 💚

[mymultiverseofmadnes]

A loud silence

There was this idea that I had to get out - this piece is kind of a sneak peak of it :)

Summary: you moved to NY. A city you don’t know but fell in love with living in it shortly. Until one day, when you’re being met with the cruelty of paparazzi, social media and the lack of privacy when it comes to being slightly known - and mostly when you’re falling for an a level actress after defending her infront of said paparazzi- and her falling for you, too.

Pairing: Scarlett Johansson x fem!reader

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„Are you sure you’re willing to sign up for this? Do you really think you can handle that?“ her voice was shaking. Her eyes started to fill up with tears. Your own heart was racing. The emotions you felt were driving you nuts. All of it boiling inside you. Pushing you to the edge of almost breaking. You let out a deep sigh before you grabbed her hands. „I honestly don’t know. I don’t know what it’s like to live in this world. I don’t know what it’s like and I even don’t know if I want to know how it feels to really live in it.“ you felt her breath stop for a brief moment. „You know all of the parts for almost your whole life. You know the bright side but I guess even more you know the dirty, shitty parts.“ Scarlett let a dark laugh escape her mouth. „Oh believe me - there’s no way to describe it…“ you just nodded. „I can’t force you to stay. I can’t force you to leave either because it would break my heart. It would shatter me into a billion pieces.“ now you felt your own hot tears cover your cheeks. „Please stop…“ it wasn’t more then a whisper. Scarlett grabbed your face in both of her hands, rubbing her thumbs softly up and down. „I love you. I do. With all my heart. There’s no way that it could be a lie. There’s nothing I want more than to have you by my side. Than to show the world how much I love you. To show you how much I do. But I also know what a chaos it would cause. It will cause. The world is a cruel and mean place with no sense of privacy. They don’t even stop when it’s about kids.“ her eyes darkened. „Scarlett please…“ „I need you to believe me. I need to know that you believe me that I do love you so much-“ „But you’d still rather hide me.“ now it was her who was shaking her head. „No! Stop putting words in my mouth. That’s not true and you know it!“ her voice became a bit louder. Eagerly. „Scarlett you know that I do love you too! And I am willing to show it! I am willing to commit to all of it! Shit, Scarlett I met your kids - I love them! If you’d ask for it I’d build a home for all of us! Damn I’d even start to try for one of our own!“ a small smile shadowed her face. „Are you really sure you want this? Even after what you - what we already went through after we met?“ a frown. Of course you remembered the time you met THE Scarlett Johansson - the time you both immediately fell for one another - and all the messed up shit that came with the most wonderful time of diving into a new love - when dating an a level actress was the one you choose to love.

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Pain.

•Pure angst

Your heart was racing.

Your breathing was heavy.

Your hands were shaking.

You felt like the whole world was turning and standing still at the same time. That burning pain building up inside your chest and all you could hear was a sharp ringing inside your ears. Her words spinning around in your mind. With a sudden thud you bumped into the wall behind you. Trying so hard not to collapse. „Honey, please let me-“ you shook your head and tried to back up even more. The tears streaming down your cheeks started to blur your vision. Scarlett reached out her hand, trying to grab yours. „Don’t. Touch. Me.“ „Please…I am so, so sorry. Please believe me!“ her words sounded so desperate. You just shook your head, trying to get ahold of the situation. Scarlett finally grabbed your hand and dropped on her knees. „Please…please let me explain…“ „What….? What could there be to explain?“ your voice felt and sounded so weak. „Didn’t I already hear enough, Scarlett?!“ now she was the one shaking her head. „I am so sorry! This wasn’t suppossed to happen - it was dumb. A stupid mistake. Please just-“ with a sudden movement you ripped your hand free and tried to move around your love. But she was as fast as you and tried to hold on to your leg instead. „Leave me alone! I don’t want to hear it…just leave! I can’t …“ you felt so weak. Your breath became more and more heavy and your heart seemed to jump out of your chest whilst hurting like hell. You felt that you were way to close to a panic attack. One hand flew to your chest, trying to hold yourself up right. Scarlett immediately noticed the switch and signs and nearly jumped back on her feet. She again grabbed your free hand, placing it on her own chest, pulling you closer and forcing you to look at her. „Baby you have to breath. In. Out. Focus on my heartbeat…“ she spoke with such a calming voice, familiar to your current state. How often did she guide you trough this shit? How often couldn’t you be more thankful for her. But never had she been the one causing this. As much as you needed her and her help - you couldn’t let her do it. Not after what she had done. With the last piece of strength in you you pushed her away, cutting eye contact. „No. Don’t. Please just - Go!“ „I won’t leave you like this! You need me!“ „YOU DID THIS TO ME!“ Scarlett slightly jumped at the raise of your voice. Even you were shocked yourself about that sudden explosion. „Leave me alone! If you won’t go - I will!“ you grabbed your keys but Scarlett placed herself right in front of the door. „I won’t leave you like this. And I won’t let you leave like this either. You will get hurt!“ „Oh believe me, there’s no possible way I could get hurt much more than you already did!“ you spit the words. Scarletts cheeks were covered in tears. Her eyes filled with fear and guilt. You never thought that looking into that green eyes would cut like a knife right through your heart. „I won’t let you alone.“ you let out a desperate scream and dropped to the ground. Within a second Scarlett was beside you, holding your sobbing body, whispering calming words, rubbing your back. „Just leave me alone! I can’t stand you right now…why won’t you go? I bet Colin will be more as pleased to console you!“ Scarlett froze in her movement. „Don’t say that…“ „Oh come on! YOU are the one who fucked her ex. No need to be pissed now!“ you tried to stand up, still shaking. You hated that your body betrayed you like this. All you wanted was to run away as fast and far as you could. But all you could do was trying not to break down completely.

„Scarlett what’s wrong? You’re creeping me out…“ your girlfriend was nervously fiddeling with the hem of her shirt, avoiding every chance of eye contact. She was acting off for two days now. You thought the whole strike situation and the stress at the office of her brand caused her to be this distant and locked up in her mind. But you started to feel like there was more behind this. „I made a huge mistake…“ she started to whisper. „What happened? Can I help?“ she let out a soft laugh. „Oh my sweet girl…“ her eyes finally met yours - and your heart dropped. „Scarlett…“ „I slept with Colin.“ that bomb hit you hard.

Out of a sudden you jumped up, your keys still in hand. It caught Scarlett of guard and she felt on her back. That one movement gave you a chance to get out of here. You opened the door and ran out on the streets. You knew she was following. With a quick turn you tried to cross the street, a short look above your shoulder - bang - out of a sudden you were lying on the floor, feeling a harsh pain washing over you. You couldn’t sense where it came from. But it completely filled you. And shortly after there was a welcoming nothing which let you drift of into a darkness. The last thing you saw before blackness were Scarletts green eyes.

Scarlett was running after you, calling out and trying to catch up. That black SUV came out of nowhere. She heard the crash before her brain could really take in what happened. She screamed out your name before dropping on your side. She placed your head on her lap, holding your hand. „Please, please, please stay with me, Y/N! Please…oh gosh open your eyes, please! Someone call a fucking ambulance!“ her thoughts were spinning. She left everything at your shared home, so she couldn’t call for help herself. When she tried to adjust you a bit she noticed her hand - covered in blood.

Everything after felt like it happened in slow motion and high speed at the same time. Someone called for help. An ambulance arrived. Doctors took you with them. They took Scarlett too. She was in shock. Unable to follow them herself. Someone took care of her as well. She didn’t know how long it took them to get you in an ER. She got something to calm her.

They fought for your life for hours.

Scarlett waited for you to come back for what felt like an eternity.

She didn’t even had the chance to tell you what really happened. That she didn’t mean to hurt you. That she just wanted to get to manage a good solution for her kids and him to get along after their break up. That she couldn’t even remember what exactly happened and when it all went totally wrong that night. That she was so god damn drunk. To drunk to drive home.

All she knew was that she couldn’t loose you. That she wouldn’t be able to handle the loss of the love of her life.

This is just a little something and I don’t know how to feel about it - please let me know if you like it :)

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That‘s what she said

• just a little something that came to my mind whilst watching Endgame.

„…yeah for a stupid motherfucking and god damn ugly orange stone!!!“ your voice broke, your sobs made them hard to understand. Your body was shaking and your cheeks were covered with tears streaming down uncontrolled. You even stopped trying to cover your face. All you did was shake your head in disbelief, anger and a heartbreaking pain. „Calm down, please. Honey, breath, ok? It’s ok…“ „THAT‘S WHAT SHE SAID!“ you shoot back. Which earned you a light chuckle and a tight hug. „I know. I know. I was there, remember?“ you looked up at her green eyes. Your own filled with hurt. „Wow. It is really that hard for you, isn’t it?“ the blonde asked, holding you tight. You nodded. „Damn it - they killed of the best! THE. BEST! And…you broke my heart with that performance. You still do. Every goddamn time.“ Scarlett gave you a gentle kiss on your forehead. „You know what? Let‘s just not watch Endgame again.“ „Ever?“ „Maybe.“ „But that‘s one of my favorites!“ „And the one that always leaves you a sobbing mess. And soon enough you will start blaming me for it, too.“ „No I won't…“ you whispered, still sniffling. Scarlett whipped away a fresh tear. „No more Endgame.“ „You’re mean.“ „No, I‘m reasonable.“ „THAT‘S WHAT SHE SAID!“

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Something

Sarah was running.

Running away. That’s what she’s always been used to. That’s what she knows best. But this time there was no way she could end any of this by running. It wouldn’t bring her sister back to life. It wouldn’t change the fact that Cosima was gone. Forever. Even if she did try so god damn hard to protect her and all of her sisters. From Dyad, from Topside. From Castor and even Neolution. But she just couldn’t protect Cosima from this. And now that this brilliant science monkey is gone, maybe none of her sisters is ever going to be safe. Except of herself. And Helena. The twins who are immune. And cursed. Cursed to watch all of the sestras die if they won’t find a way to a fucking cure.

With a loud cry Sarah’s voice breaks the silence of the dark night. As this sound leaves her mouth she breaks down on her knees. Covering her face in her hands. Feeling the wet cold ground underneath her. Her whole body shivers. She just feels so exhausted. Alone. Done.

“Come on, you’re going to catch a cold if you will stay here.” Sarah nearly jumps to those words coming out of nowhere. “Holy shite! You just scared me to death!” she answers without getting up. “No, obviously I haven’t. And now, would you please get up and come in with me? Please…” the last word nothing more than a whisper. Sarah hesitates for just a second before standing up on her feet and following that tall blonde woman.

Delphine heads right into the bathroom, catching a towel and handing it over to Sarah. “You should change clothes, too.” After a quick look down on herself Sarah just nods. She turns herself a bit, looking through the hallway of the small flat Delphine calls her own for a few months. It’s nice, but there seems to be less personal touch. Of course, she didn’t spend this much time in here. Since she has mostly been working with Scott and…Cosima.

But still it’s clearly the Frenches home. Softly, carefully Sarah takes a frame placed on a small counter. In it one of her favourite pictures of Cosima. It shows her bursting out in laughter. She couldn’t even remember why her sister was laughing so hard in that moment, but Felix did catch this moment on camera – and Delphine framed it and put it up.

“I miss her so much…” the voice of the blonde cracks and Sarah is too afraid to turn around. She feels her pain. Her whole presence is screaming it right into her face. Yes, Sarah misses Cosima, too. And there is no way to even try to describe her own pain of this big loss. But she can’t imagine how hard it is for Delphine.

So, Sarah just nods and puts back the framed picture. The silence is loud. But gets interrupt by small sniffs.

“Yeah, I miss her too.” She slowly turns around – facing a crying Delphine just a few inches away from her face. The taller woman focuses her. Her eyes slowly looking all over her face. Sarah knows what she’s trying to find – but will never find again – ever. No matter how many faces like hers Delphine will see. There won’t be what she has seen in Cosima.

“She’s not here anymore. No matter how hard you’re looking for.” Sarah whispers. She wasn’t supposed to but still it sounds more aggressive than she wanted it to be. “Just shut up.” Delphine responds and puts Sarah’s face into her hands. Softly stroking her cheek with her palm.

Sarah stares back at her. Watching every little change in her view. Those hazel eyes wandering all over her own face again and again. Searching. “She’s not here anymore.” “Shh…” “Delphine, you won’t find what you’re looking for.” Nothing more than a whisper. Still Sarah slowly is moving a bit more forward. Feeling the breath of Delphine. “Please. Don’t say anything…just let me…” with a slow movement Delphines thumb moves over Sarahs lips. The brunette drops the long forget towel, puts her own hands on Delphines. Tries to get eye contact. “I just want to forget about this. I just want to have her back. I just want to feel something else than this life sucking pain…” with a quick movement Sarah presses her own lips against Delphines. Pushing her against the nearest wall. Forcing her tongue to be let in. After a short second of confuse Delphine lets her do so.

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„Cause at the end of the road- I will break your heart.“

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You didn‘t know how you ended up here. How everything turned into this big fucking mess. All you knew was that she kept her „promise“.

Natasha Romanoff broke your heart.

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„Oh wow - ouch - sorry!“ out of a sudden you were nearly knocked off your feet. You didn‘t pay attention to your way or anything or anyone around you when you bumped into that woman. She was shorter as you, a redhead. Her green eyes looked confused and at the same time focused on everything at once. „Are you ok?“ her raspy voice stuck with you from the second you heared it for the first time. You nodded - lost in her eyes. The woman seemed to scan you - like she could sense any lie right away. „Uhm- Are you?“ you asked back. „Yeah, sure.“ she gave you a quick smile and looked around, grabbing your bag which must have fallen off your shoulder. „Here you go.“ you took your bag and smiled. „Thanks - and sorry! Again. I was a bit lost in my thoughts…“ you mumbled - more to yourself when she gave you the cheekiest smirk you could imagine. „That had to be some pretty interesting thoughts. Wanna share?“ you felt your heartbeat fasten and your face burning and blushing. It had to be nearly as red as her hair. She took your shy smile as a welcoming yes, grabed your hand and both of you ended up sitting in a small Café, sharing thoughts, coffee, cupcakes and much more.

This was the beginning of you falling deeply in love with Natasha. It was the beginning of two hearts beating for each other.

It was one week before your first shared kiss.

It was the beginning of a love that grew with every new memory. A love that bonded not only two hearts but also two souls.

It was six years before she kept her promise.

A promise she gave you one month after you first met.

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„Shit, shit, shit!!“ you were late. Of course you were. The whole day you couldn‘t think of anything else- seeing Natasha again-finally! She had a mission and was out of town for nearly one week. And now you were late and could punch yourself for the fact that you made her wait.

When you finally arrived at the small park just a few minutes around the compound Natasha was already waiting. „I am so, so sorry!“ you nearly yelled, out of breath. She just smiled and took you into a tight hug. You closed your eyes and got lost in the moment- standing there during the sunset, holding Natasha in your arms and just feeling complete. „Damn…I think I am falling- really hard.“ your words weren‘t more as a whisper- but they made Natasha freeze. „Y/N - Look at me.“ she took a small step back and grabed your shoulders. „What is it? Are you ok?“ you looked her up and down. Worried. Something had changed. Natasha took a deep breath. „Listen - I know that we don’t know each other for too long. But I know that we get along pretty well. The last week was awefull and I hated every second I had to spend without you.“ „Nat - please. That sounds too much like it will take a turn into something I don’t want to hear…I am already lost. I fell in love with you the moment I bumped into you. Whatever you wanted to say- please. I don’t want to hear it.“ you felt the upcoming tears and the burning heat on your cheeks. Natasha now grabed your hands. Her eyes locked into yours. „Listen to me, Y/N. I am not an easy person. I am a mess. Besides the fact that being an Avenger makes me being away for an unknown time and keeping secrets is a daily routine.“ „I‘ll take that. I can handle it.“ you felt how desperate and nervouse you sounded. Natasha shook her head. „This would be such a diffucult road to take. And I don’t know if this road will be the right one for you. Cause at the end of the road-I will break your heart.“ she nearly whispered the last words, now looking at the ground. You gently grabed her chin, forcing her to look up again. You shook your head before you replied: „This road will have so many turns- and maybe we will miss the exit of a heartbreak and just drive into an happy ending…“ Natasha couldn‘t help herself but crush her lips onto yours.

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„Natasha? Nat? Natty!?“ you rushed trough your appartement. No sign of your love. You felt the panic boil inside. That couldn’t be real. She couldn’t be one of them. She had to be ok - she had to still be.

When you couldn’t find her you ran out of the house straight towards your car, hoping to find her at the compound. Gosh you hated missions. You knew they were a big part of her life but with every new mission came more and more fears. Your hands were shaky and you dropped your keys when your phone started ringing. An unknown number. „Yes?“ „Y/N?“ „Yeah - who am I speaking to?“ the man who called cleared his voice. „Steve Rogers. When you arrive at the compound tell the guards your with the Avengers. Whatever it takes. They will guid you through.“ without and explanation the call was over. „What the fuck was that?!“

You - of course - knew Steves name. And the fact that he was Captain America. But you never had the pleasure to meet him - as well as you never had the pleasure of being allowed to actually take just one footstep onto the Avengers compound. Natasha wanted to keep you away from the world she worked in. The other Avengers knew you existed and that Nat was driving home to you every night she left. But she wanted you to be safe. Not to be a secret, but safe and safely away enough from all the mess she had to deal with everyday. Especially when that purple titan maniac decided to show up.

You felt like you would faint. That couldn’t be a good thing.

When you arrived you were already greated by two guards pointing a gun towards your car. You let your window down and told them what Steve said before. Without anymore questions you were quided to some sort of conference room, already filled with a small group of people. „Where is Agent Romanoff!?“ your quenstion sounded so desperate. But as soon as you started to look around you were rushed into a familiar tight hug. „Thank god you‘re still here!“ Natasha bursted into tears and did hold you even tighter.

They told you about what had happened in Wakanda. And all over the world.

It was the beginning of the end. It was a turn in your and Natashas road that lead to another turn.

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You sat in a chair, rocking yourself, lost in memories.

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„Blonde suits you.“ you said with a small smile. Nat just nodded. She was quite after all what had happened during the last time. Being confronted with the Avengers getting divorced, Budapest and the rest of her own past. You tried to be there- as good as you could from afar. You always missed her like hell and you knew she felt the same - or even worse. You became her rock. The one she could count on no matter what. And you would never fail to be there when she could finally walk through the door and be home again.

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„Did you hear me?“ you jumped at the touch on your shoulder. „Sorry, I didn’t mean to.“ Natasha placed herself on your lap. You couldn’t help but just wrap your arms around her waist and pull her even closer. When you buried your face on Nats neck you recognised a small moan. „I miss us…“ you hummed, eyes closed. Natasha nodded. „I do too. And I am so sorry that I am this busy. That I am not really here.“ she placed her hand in one of yours. You couldn’t find an answer. Yes, she was busy. And she never realy was here- with you - when she wasn‘t at the compound, too. After the blip Nat blamed herself. She made it her priority to fix what that purple dickhead ruined. She was desperate to bring everyone back. And it got even worse when she found out about Yelena being missing as well. You tried to be supportive. You never complained about lonly nights when she stayed with the rest of the Avengers instead of coming home. You still stayed out of all the Avengers-buisness. Because Natasha asked you to. You were familiar with the once who came back with your love. And now after Iron Man himself was back from space you now and then did spend some days at his place, playing with Morgan or chatting with Pepper. But your redhead was always deeply missed.

„What where you saying before? Sorry I was a bit lost in my thoughts….“ Nat smiled. „That must have been some interesting thoughts- wanna share?“ you giggled. „Maybe later. What‘s going on?“ Natasha took a deep breath and switched her position so she could face you. „Scott is back. From the Quantum realm. And he dropped the idea of time travel. Bruce is already on some ideas and tomorrow Cap, Scott and me will give Tony a visit. Maybe he‘ll be helpfull and well - willing to help.“ „Bugman?“ „Excuse me?“ „Scott - the guy who got back from the dingdongrealm - is he bugman? Ouch!“ Natasha shook her head after she slammed your arm. „Antman. But who cares? Did you listen to what I was saying?“ „Yeah, sure. Timetravel. That‘s a tough one…you think Tony will be supportive?“ „I don’t know. Honestly. But we owe it to everyone who isn‘t here…“

You didn’t want her to leave. If it was because Tony wasn’t willing to help or the fact that Bruce was way too excited- you couldn’t really tell. But after her talk with Tony you seemed to be more afraid then ever to watch Natasha go. „Stay. Please? Just a few days. Let‘s just stay home. Order junk food, play movies we don’t pay attention to while we make out. Or let‘s Go to the beach…just- please stay, Natalia. Please.“ Natasha knew you didn’t mean to be a clinchy girlfriend. Calling her Natalia made it obvious that you were scared- and in a bad place. She knew you in your darkest hours. And she was aware that you weren‘t good in being with yourself during such times. „Milaya - I‘ll be back early- I promise. And we order something and do the rest of your really thought trough plan. But I have to go.“ and the sadness in her eyes proofed that she meant it - even if she didn’t come home until midnight - telling you Tony figured out timetravel.

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„I love you. With all my heart. See you in a minute.“ Natasha kissed you passionatly.

You watched her step onto that thing that should let the Avengers travel trough time wihtin a minute. Safe the world. And be back.

You didn’t see her in a minute.

You didn’t see her again after that last cheeky smile and her cute shoulder-shaky-dance.

She kept her promise.

This was the day Natasha Romanoff broke your heart.

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- english isn‘t my first language, it‘s my first (finished) time writing for Natasha.

Please let me know if you liked it / if you didn’t :)

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Natasha entering the room where Y/N sits

Natasha pointing at her: what’s this?!

Y/N: well, I did as you told me, I went to therapy.

Natasha eying the fresh tattoo:

Y/N:

Natasha: That’s not…- WHAT DID YOU DO?

Y/N: I went to therapy!?!

Natasha: that’s supposed to be like seeing an actual therapist and not a tattoo artist!!!

Y/N: The artist was a pretty good listener!