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Cambrian Period based racing anime. I wanna see invertebrates do sick drifts while outrunning anomalcaris

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feedist kinktober 27 : boozy belly

this was one of the first things i wrote about em. i'm not the best at writing dialogues so i hope it's not to clunky, enjoy!

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New kinda guy just dropped and I’m here for it

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So true

I lost my wallet. It is in my apartment

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some nice clouds from the manga

Drifting Dragons by Kuwabara Taku

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tumblr discourse after 13 years on this fucking website

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Therapist suggested writing stuff down again since I keep stopping. I don't know if it's been helpful in the past I've never stick with it long enough to tell.

I'm not doing well again. Mentally. I know it shows through in my actions too. Not sure why this specific episode happened but I've been in a "depressive episode" for a couple weeks I guess. Sometimes its bearable sometimes it gets worse. Generally I don't have the ability to fall apart or feel it all the way I have to push out ignore it and then it just sticks around longer probably.

What the fuck do I even have to be sad for? Or depressed about? I've got a roof over my head and food in my stomach. Almost all the time anyway I suck at eating I hate it.

The scratching started again ill need to trim my nails and file them dull. The impulse in my muscles starts in, like when you see a rock on the ground and your leg just automatically kicks it. Except it's my nails on my arm when I'm anxious or whatever you call this congealwd blob of emotion.

And yet I still don't think it's enough. The emotions seem like theyre lacking. Whatever it is, a joke that makes me laugh or spending time with friends or feeling like trash and not human at all. It always seems like there's some aspect im missing from it. Can't ever put my finger on what it is, just like how I'm not sure what's wrong with my face when I look in the mirror even though I know somethings off.

Still not a man. Don't wanna be a woman. At least in terms of gender. Im still figuring it out cause I have the desire to be more feminine shaped in my body and hate the way I'm built like a 2x4. Gender and biological sex are different that much I accept. Although I have no clear answers for how to proceed. I've just always been me but the last year and a half this rejection of self started settling in. Maybe there were signs earlier and I just didn't know. Not like I had the capability for self expression or figuring that shit out when I was younger.

Went to the gym for about an hour. Couldn't think of anything else to try to help. Video games weren't working as a distraction. Music to go with it wasn't helpful. Don't know what's going on so can't talk to anyone, not that there's anyone around to talk to anyway. Gym didn't help, but hey excersize is supposed to be healthy right?

And afterwards I got scolded like a child for not being able to talk clearly or explain what's wrong when someone wanted to help. What am I supposed to do with that. I'm not well and can't make full sentences how do you expect me to explain it to you. I didn't ask for help and that's why. But hey you berated me into taking a sleeping medication and some allergy meds to try to get me to sleep. Can't wait to be yelled at tomorrow, er, today for not being awake.

I think I need different glasses. Mine work but I hate the frames they don't help with the masculine face.

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Hiccup is such a dramatic person like hey DAD remember how you said I need to kill like a singular dragon to be cool well what if I killed the biggest fuck off mountain sized dragon and ended a three hundred year war that will stop about 76% of your current problems AND get permenant life insurance in the form of an extremely angry night fury. What if huh??? What if?????

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I don't think women can be funny. I wouldn't consider myself a misogynist or even transphobe, as so often comes with my ideology (All genders deserve equal pay and voting rights of course.) Transgender people in my eye are a little complicated because there is nonbinary and such, but generally "binaries" in regards to transgender people fall into their cisgender counterparts' categories. This is also a possible way to determine someone's "true gender" (if a man is not funny it is likely she will come out as transgender in the future.) I have seen female comedians and such but they have a different way of carrying themselves that tells me they do not know how to make a joke. Discovering your blog has been interesting to me because you seem to understand comedy much better than other females. Maybe you're not quite to the gold standard that men have achieved and perhaps your prowess is due to the Internet being a different medium but you have merit that many don't. Consider a career in screenwriting.

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A master to his action-hero trainee says, "Your movements are sloppy. You lack awareness of your body when you fight. Your hands move and yet you do not hold them in your mind's eye. Come. We will remedy this."

And then the master paints his trainee's fingernails and orders the trainee to complete a series of complicated tasks without smudging the nail polish.

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your honor if you had seen supernatural you'd understand why i did it

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your honor if you had seen supernatural you'd understand why i did it

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