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REBLOG IF YOU NEED TO LOSE 40+ POUNDS

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Eat for the body that you want, not the body that you have.

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🐍🌙Neon Orchid

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You’re healing every time you

get out of bed because there’s something you’re excited about.

don’t think about people who left.

clean the clutter in the room and dishes in your sink.

smile at yourself and random people.

do something kind and out of the blue to make someone happy.

work out or meet with friends even though you have no energy to.

calm yourself down when you’re thoughts race.

remember to drink water.

don’t dwell on things you can’t control.

do things good for yourself, even though you have no motivation.

tell yourself that you’re growing from this, and you won’t feel like this forever.

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Why is it so easy to gain weight and so hard to lose it?!

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“How do you keep your nails so nice??”

Me: *thinking about all the times I’ve shoved my fingers down my throat, covered them in stomach acid and half digested food then washed them in the sink vigorously to try to get the smell out and then repeated the process*

Me: Lmao I honestly have no idea

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How pathetic. I run a thinspo blog and only post pictures of perfect body’s. But I’m the fattest, ugliest monster I’ve ever seen.

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me: i wanna die.

friend: what’s wrong?

me: nothing thats just my default setting

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You can’t live with an eating disorder.

You can survive. You can breathe and fake a smile and function, but you can’t live.

You can’t have fun, you can’t relax, you can’t enjoy food, you can’t succeed, you can’t dance, you can’t go to parties, you can’t do the things everyone else is doing, you can’t do the things you love, YOU CAN NOT LIVE.

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do you have those memories that are really cringey and you never speak of and something triggers the memory and you want to fucking wash your brain out with bleach

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sometimes I get so jealous of other people’s social skills. like damn. they can talk to people?? and people like them?? look at all those people who like them. wtf. illegal

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do you ever see the fat on your body and all at once it’s just suddenly way too overwhelming and you’re practically screaming get it off get it off gET IT OFF!!!!

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Brain: lets go eat some hot cheetos and whoppers, and lets not forget the fries!

Me: no we’ll gain weight and I don’t have the energy to purge

Brain: okay, well let’s go make a smoothie so we are less hungry and therefore less likely to binge

Me: no, because what if I eat and then I break down and binge anyway. Then I’ll have wasted my safe food and my money

Brain: but what if you don’t..?

Me: bUt WhAt If I dO??

Brain: so we’re not eating?

Me: guess not

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I am so fat and ugly and disgusting at the moment it’s a wonder that my man will even look at me. I’m covered in blubber like a bloody whale and I’m gorging on disgusting foods all the time. What is wrong with me. Help me get back on track please 😭

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Concept: We are lying here together with my head resting on your chest. You trace your fingers down my arm and interlace your fingers with mine. I look at you with the strongest feeling of comfort and security. We are lying here together, and we are happy.