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*puts him in a skirt*

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Nine Inch Nails - Behind the Scenes of Closer (1994)

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Reblog if I can go on your page and write stupid things in your ask box whenever I'd like to.

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Trent Reznor in the pusheen artstyle :)

Second photo is for @miercoles-wednesday!

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Content warnings keep flagging my shit😫 if I have to retype that fucking essay I swear to god

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I keep this photo of Trent Reznor on my desktop computer so when I’m working and need a little something to take the edge off I just… pull one of these…

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Trent's side profile in the hand that feeds music video

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haven't seen this clip on tumblr in a while, so here's trent reznor covering 'eyes without a face' in the 80s

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damn keyboards must have shat themselves when they saw trent approaching I think not one of them survived a show

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gonna put this photo in my wallet the same way soldiers would put photos of their wife in their helmet

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Head Like a Hole / Meet Your Master / Big Man with a G*n

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Using the stylized “N” from the Tron Legacy graphic in the NIN logo for Tron Ares was a stroke of pure graphic design brilliance

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you can really Feel the 80s here…

also, i can’t stop thinking about purest feeling and how it has a completely different vibe compared to what ended up being phm… i think it’s mostly because it sounds way more like ‘80s synth pop.

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LOL

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No one will care about this but I just wanted to throw it into the void.

The new song finally grew on me, and even though it’s not my usual taste, I think it’s a certified banger.

I blasted it like 3 times in a row at max volume and jumped around my kitchen while double fisting two Root Beers because I forgot I already had opened one. (Not an important detail ultimately but you might appreciate the visual.)

And it occurred to me that it felt like something inside me was responding to it on a cellular level. Like somehow I was born with NIN and Trent in my DNA, and it lay dormant for most of my life until I heard them for the first time nearly a decade ago.

After the third listen, I had sung my heart out, and jumped so much, I was out of breath. I can never be “chill” with music in general. I get so into it, that sometimes it feels like it takes something out of me. Like I need time to recover. Sometimes I don’t listen to anything all day because I know what it does to me, and I just don’t have the energy.

But other days I listen and re-listen, and every cell in my body responds. I clutch my heart, I feel on fire, because I feel it so intensely.

I was too slow to turn off autoplay, so next came Happiness in Slavery, then Every Day is Exactly the Same remix, then Terrible Lie. And the same thing with every song.

And I thought of how many times I had done that. How many times the walls of my kitchen have seen that. (And my roommate when they walk in on me.)

I wondered what it would look like if there was a video montage of all those moments. The same stupid rhythmless pogo dance, the same heart clutching, the same smile, the same disbelief that anything could make me feel this way, this overcome.

It feels like I was programmed to love NIN, to respond to the sound of Trent’s voice (in all its evolutions, though yes I have my favorites).

And I felt kinda lucky. How lucky to feel so strongly, to be so passionate, to love something with every fiber of your being, to experience such genuine joy.

If it weren’t NIN/Trent, maybe, maybe it would be something else. I guess I’ll never know. But I’m glad I don’t live in that alternate universe.

I’ve had the thought many times that I wish this for everybody. I wish for everyone in the world to have something they love this much, and cherish this much, and that evokes this kind of response. That makes them feel like their heart is going to burst.

I wish for everyone to love something the way I love NIN and Trent Reznor.