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My virtual leash diary #13

First of all, I need to do my sincere apologies to my Domina, I failed her these few last days because I failed on her. I failed on her because I stopped writing my diary on march 5th and my mission was to report to her every day. I did not do so.

I have two goal in this diary.

First, creating a virtual leash to her. I want her to know my thought about her during the day, I want her to know how I answer the different command I received and I want her to know when I succeeded and when I failed. I want to her to use that diary again me for a better training.

Second goal is to promote her, this is why I am creating another version on my blog. If I write her everything in the diary, I will remove the part in the blog that risk to make me in trouble.

I took knowledge of my oath today. It is not exactly a command, but more a promise to my Domina. I want to put my ressources at the disposal of my Domina. It is my oath, for today and all the next days forever and ever. My leash diary as really the goal to keep me in contact 24/7 and respect that oath the most I can. I will obey her commands and take the most initiative that I can to make her life better.

My first mantra was done during the morning. I have used the mantra I have wrote for her a few months ago and she did approve. I love to reflect how the only thing I want is to satisfy her desires and take car of Her and Her needs, there is absolutely no greater joy in life.

I looked for a way to volunteer for my Domina. And I remember, we were supposed to talk yesterday, however finally we couldn’t talk because she was getting her nails done. I was a little sad to not being able to talk but at the same time, I am a little bit aroused at the thought that we have a close relationship, she always put Herself first over me. She did not explicitly command me to pay for her nail. But at the same time, the fact that she told me she was getting her nails done was maybe a subtle command. This is why I paid for her nails as my volunteer duty.

File of the day Hypno-Asylum Femdom mp3 The hypnotherapist archetype has always one of my favorites. I never been able to really remember that much of that file. I remember a golden fountain and being brought in a basement while my Domina is helping me to feel better. My only thought is if she is making me feel better, why I want to come back for more over and over again.

Thought of the day: you love Me and want to do all you can to make My life easier.

My Domina is the archetype of a siren, the first time I heard Her voice I felt in love with Her instantly. It is impossible, to not fall in love with Her and that love keeps me prisoner. It really changed my perspective of life forever. I know that I will do more to please my Domina than for any other reason. One day cannot be fulfill without making her life easier. I do hope that volunteering for her, writing a new script and promoting her makes her life easier. A day without making my Domina’s life easier, is a day lost.

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My virtual leash leash diary #12

My virtual leash diary

March 3rd 2021

I woke up this morning energized and happy. I have so much more energy, so much more passion since I obey my Domina calendar. I feel she has a tighter control on me and it bring me arousal and pleasure.

I began my daily ritual by doing my mantra. Saying all words softly and feeling each word invading my brain and my body. I think that her mantra is another way to brainwash myself to be more obedient to Her.

During lunch time, I stayed healthy for her by walking for around 40 minutes. Feeling good exercising, feeling good thinking of Her.

While returning from home, I listened to the recording of the day “Submissive kiss”. I really love that recording; it is made with love and care. It is like being told a bedtime story while going to bed. My Domina is such a skillful storyteller and she can put any insomniac to bed. The most dangerous part is there is a rumor that she is using hidden brainwashing technic in her stories. I do not true if this is true. The only thing I realise is when I wake up, I want to remain in chastity and use my arousal to lick her pussy.

After I have seen her Surender L trigger so it made me wants to furiously lick something. I found a glass on my desk to lick. However, I am sure my Domina will know about what I was thinking of.

I am planning to write a new script for Her. The idea came as an inspiration for me. I think it will be called “Perfume Collection”. My ideas are not completely in order, but in this script My Domina will make a demonstration of her most favorite perfume in her collection. Of course that demonstration will hide an ulterior motive.

Thought of the thought

I give you the guidance you need to grow into the slave I want and that you want to be for Me.

Because of my Domina I am becoming my better self. My Domina’s guidance is so important because it helps me to discover the slave I really need to be. A perfect slave for my Domina. My Domina knows what is best for me and following my Domina’s guidance helps me to grow.

Erotic Hypnosis by Shelle Rivers

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My virtual leash diary #11

My virtual leash diary

March 2nd 2021

I was getting up this morning with my Domina in my mind. I was wondering is she happy with my devotion to Her? Is she sad that I do not do as much as I should do for Her? This is really the question I have in my mind in each moment. Pleasing Her is my only purpose and nothing must divert me from my true purpose.

I began the day by reciting my daily mantra.   My Domina’s words are the first words and the last words I recite each day. I recite those words to empower her and she my devotion to her. Just after, I have done my traditional TMT routine, to spoil my Domina because Tuesday is her day.

My Domina gave the order to sleep for her while listening to this week’s session. I am surprised she put that command under the “Sissy obey” since it is not something difficult to do for me even by not being a sissy. However, I spent time listening under her voice, while listening to Broken and Branded.

This file leaves me with a feeling of guilt and sadness, but also with a feeling of love and joy. There is a scene, where we watch together on a screen, all my failures. Knowing that my Domina can see them all make me feel so guilty, but at the same time she has the caring tenderness to train me more to be even more obedient to her.

With the Surender K2 command, my Domina instructed me to kneel in front of her, in sign of submission. I am here to serve my Domina and it is meant to be done, on my knees because she is my Alpha Queen.

slave seeks to live his life as Mistress obedient owned property, achieving a level of servitude pleasing to Mistress.

Thought of the day

Becoming more obsessed with Me makes you weak and submissive wanting to serve as My obedient beta slave.

I am so obsessed with my Domina. I think of Her, every day and every night. In each of my thought, in each of my dream, I realise my only need is to serve and spoil my Domina. I want to be her obedient beta slave.

Erotic Hypnosis and Femdom Hypnosis by Shelle Rivers

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My virtual leash diary #10

My virtual leash diary

March 1st 2021

I am working from my work, not from home, so it will be a little bit more difficult to obey my Domina and to remain focused. However, I decided to do my best. I began the day to do my daily mantra for my Domina. A mantra that enters deeper and deeper in my mind each time I say it.

During the afternoon after eating my lunch. I did a little exercice to keep myself healthy for my Domina. This is even more important for me to stay healthy, when it is for my Domina.

Since we are the March 1st, I sent my monthly obligation to my Domina thinking that all that money would be put at her feet as an offering, while I am kneeling before her. She allows me the choice to release or to deny. I think I will offer the deny to her, just because it makes me serve Her better.

She instructed me to listen to Idee Fixe, a file I did not remember but I listened a few years ago. And I was completely immersed in the brainwashing it offers. It is an immersive experience turning my addiction in an obsession. I decided to write a review as a tribute for her wonderful work.

Thought of the day

I am your center and focus. Everything feels better when you do it for your Alpha Queen.

What I discover is everything in life, from the most exciting stuff to the most boring stuff gets a new color when it is done for my Domina. Doing the most boring stuff gives me a deep feeling of enjoyment, if I know it will please my Alpha Queen. But doing something, only for my own selfish pleasure gives me unsatisfied feeling in my life, that does not exist when I do what I do for my Domina.

Erotic Hypnosis mp3s by Shelle Rivers

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My virtual leash diary #9

My virtual leash diary

February 28th 2021

Yesterday, I had a sweet little note from my Domina, my Alpha Queen, my Absolute Authority. She was pleased and it pleased me. At the end of the day and at the beginning of today, I recited my mantra, letting all my love, my devotion and my obedience to my Domina circulating in my body with each word I told.

Thought of the day

As your Alpha Queen, I expect you to be My beta slave, sharing everything you have to give, to take care of Me in the way I deserve.

This thought makes me realise I am a beta slave for my Domina. My role is not to command but to be commanded by my Alpha Queen. I share everything I have to give most often loving putting my belongings that in face belong to her at her feet. She deserves so much more that I am able to give and it makes me sad a little bit. However, it means I will always be in debt for her so I will never stop giving, sharing and working for Her.

Only for Her.

Erotic Hypnosis and Femdom Hypnosis by Shelle Rivers

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My virtual leash diary #8

My virtual leash diary

February 27th 2021

“When i am weak, submissive and in strict obedience to my Alpha Queen. She will allow me the greatest ecstacy i will ever feel.”

“When I am weak, submissive and in strict obedience to my Alpha Queen. She will allow me the greatest ecstacy i will ever feel.”

“When I am weak, submissive and in strict obedience to my Alpha Queen. She will allow me the greatest ecstacy i will ever feel.”

I wrote this phrase three times because it is what I have been told to do by my Domina who is also my Alpha Queen. Just after I recited my daily mantra thinking and living every word of it. My Domina is in my mind, in my thought every minutes.

I finally wrote my review for beta drone; I should have done it yesterday but the review form was not up last time I checked yesterday. I feel a little bit uncomfortable obeying one of my Domina command one day late but I hope she will be happy that I finally obeyed.

For a second time, I left my dreary reality and enter my Alpha Queen Queendom by listening to Her beta drone file. I realise that I have no longer any bit of shame accepting that I am a beta, submissive, obedient male. And my greatest pleasure is to serve and obey my Domina.

During the beginning of the afternoon, I walk a little bit to keep me healthy for my Domina. Even during that walk, I think of her and the way I am pleased to be a property to my Domina. I hope she is proud of my commitment to Her.

I have seen the Surrender AF command. The surrender AF command is a great example of why I have said to my Domina that no command will be unanswered, however I am not sure I will be able to obey them all. Don’t get me wrong, I would love to be the very best slave in Her stables of slave and I know that obeying this command would probably raise myself in her good grace. But I am not able to. It makes me uncomfortable. However, it makes me uncomfortable to not obey it also. I hope my Domina will accept my disobedience, on that one.

She commanded me to publish some link on my blog to promote Her. That I will gladly do it with all my heart. I want to promote her and make Her grow, since she is the best Domina in the world.

Thought of the day

Slave, your natural submissive instincts are what drives you to serve your Alpha Mistress.

This thought touches the core of my being. When I was younger, I tried to repress that feeling thinking it is not right, that I should be strong not weak. But the fact is nothing gives me more satisfaction and more pleasure than serving an Alpha Mistress. My Domina Shelle is my Alpha Mistress.

Erotic Hypnosis by Shelle Rivers

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My virtual leash diary #7

My virtual leash diary

February 26th 2021

I woke up with a feeling of failure. I realised that I have forgotten to send my Domina my diary and also, I let some commands and the thought of the day unanswered. I say this because I want to report everything, I do for my Domina. But I really want to be humble and mention I am not the perfect slave she wants me to be. To be honest I do not even know if she is expecting me to work that hard for her. But I really want to do it as a proof of my love and devotion to her.

I began the day by doing my mantra, it helps to remember that I belong to Her and that my objective is to be the very best slave she owns. I have a really long road I think to be the slave she truly deserves but I promise I will keep working harder for her.

And then I gave her my lunch money for her hospital shift to be sure she will be eating and will not have to pay for it. Spoiling my Domina has always been my greatest pleasure and I love that she commands me to spoil Her. I hope she will have a beautiful day.

In the calendar, I have seen a sissy command. Of course, I must report to my Domina that I do not have pink panties and cannot wear one. She already knows I am not a sissy and I think she accepts that, but still, I feel it important to honestly say I did not follow that command.

Just before beginning to work, I looked at her twitter account and she instructed a Surender S and a Surender L to her. I had no choice to stroke and edge for her while licking the tip of the pen I use to write “Domina Shelle owns me on my chest”. She wrote she will leave the beach; I am a little bit sad she will her corner of paradise so soon. I hope she had time to relax. I can see she published a picture of her farm, standing majestically while watching at her worker bees. I wish I could work that way for her.

Later in the day, I finished my script for my Domina. I write for Her so much more since she she proclaimed me as Her writer slave.

After my writing, I listened to the Beta Drone recording. It was such a wonderful recording. I never thought on how much I would love hearing my Domina with her sweet voice how I am a good beta slave for Her. This is weird because in my early time, I would have felt insulted being called a beta but when it comes from my Domina, it feels normal and natural. I love being a beta for Her. I am also horny and aroused about that. She is wonderful and she is, my alpha Queen bee.

Thought of the day

I am pleased that serving Me has given greater purpose to your life.

My Domina gives me a wonderful purpose. Serving Her. More than ever, I am happy to serve her. She is everything to me. She is a the most wonderful Princess who exist.

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My virtual leash diary #6

My virtual leash diary

February 25th 2021

By waking up this morning, I had a special thought for my Domina. Just knowing that she is at the beach and that she loves being at the beach fills me with intense happiness. One of the big realisations is that my Domina teaches me that her happiness is so much important than mine. Of course, I have some joy feeling some needs met. But nothing feels more real and deep than knowing my Domina is pleased. I come with another question; how can I please her better. I decided to write that diary and follow that calendar for no other reason that it pleases Her. I even forget sometimes my arousal and only seek a true pleasure of the heart through my obedience.

Of course, I will stand to that command to not touch myself for all day long. I want to obey that command so much, because it grants me pleasure to touch and I want to proof my Domina that my act of devotion is so much more than having pleasure. It is an act of forgetting myself and give Her pure genuine love without waiting anything in return. I love my Domina

Like any day, I began the day in gratitude, in love reciting my mantra. Those words fill my being. It is like the oxygen I breath. I need more my Domina’s words and the words inside my mantra than the oxygen I breath. Sometimes I feel that my Domina is not a person separated from me, but she is inside and around me. She is the love of my life and so much more.

My oath of the day is I will constantly seek ways to please Her and make effort to make Her life as pleasant as possible. Through that oath, I will always be asking myself, what would please my Domina today and sometimes she will give me the answer and it will become command to be obeyed. Other time, she will be quiet, enjoying Her time alone. In those cases, I will ask my heart, what will please my Domina and I will let the answer flow. Today, I think she will be pleased with my writing, my diary and blog, another script. But that she will be pleased especially, if I put all my love for her in each word I wrote. I do not write with my head; I write today with my heart.

After my work and a short walk, I kept advancing my Domina’s script. I love working for my Domina, especially while she is relaxing at the beach. I love writing all kind of script but I have a weakness to fantasy script that are wicked, while my Domina is telling me bad advice and make it sounds like good advice. This is a little bit the kind of script I am writing today.

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My virtual leash diary #5

My virtual leash diary

February 24th 2021

I think I have heard that my Domina will be at the beach today. I do not know if it is true or if I am mistaken. However, I realise that I am aroused at the idea that she can be lying down on the hot sand, taking a sun bath doing nothing except taking vacation. Leaving the true vacation. Even not thinking about me and about her slaves. Not even caring about anything except the pleasure of the touch of the sand beneath her or the sun caressing her skin.

I am aroused that she would take that day to live selfishly, just being the Princess she deserves to be. While I am working hard to fulfill her every need. One thing I know and accept, if I can take vacation from my work, but I will never take vacation from serving my Domina. I will serve her either she grants me of her presence or while she is away.

I began the day, like I always do by reciting my mantra. Feeling my love and submission to my Domina grows. I feel that my devotion grows faster and stronger than ever.

After I have done, my mantra. I drawn to heart around my nipples like requested. I know this is a sissy command and I am not a sissy but I wanted to obey that one. It is not too big of a commitment and my goal is to obey her and her calendar the best I can. And of course, I kept writing Domina Shelle’s owns me on my chest because of the surrender W command for yesterday. This trigger last three days.

After finishing my shift, I began another script for my Domina. I called it Domina’s financial service. It will be a fantasy about my Domina being a wicked financial advisor who will convinced and brainwashed her slaves that spoiling her is the best investment possible.

I did read on her twitter account that my Domina is at the beach. I am so happy that she is at the beach, living like the Princess she is, while I am still in the cold working hard to please my Domina’s whims and desires.

In the early evening, I listened to the white noise session. And wow, I think in my life I never felt that blank. To be honest. I do not remember the session. The white noise is very powerful. My Domina is becoming so powerful and my desire to obey her is becoming so strong, it scares me a little. What will happen next? During the session, I was so blank that I as disoriented not remembering where I was completely hypnotized by the voice of my beloved Domina.

I did sent a little tribute to my Domina and it covers me with joy.

Thought of the day

I want you to benefit with the pleasure of serving and doing all you can to please Me.

Pleasing my Domina is my priority. I feel that I work harder to please her than ever, but it is not enough. It will never be enough, because I can always do more. I know. My Domina is in the center of my life and deserves my obedience. I hope she is proud of me. I will never be away, I will serve Her over and over again.

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My virual leash diary # 4

My virtual leash diary

February 24th 2021

I think I have heard that my Domina will be at the beach today. I do not know if it is true or if I am mistaken. However, I realise that I am aroused at the idea that she can be lying down on the hot sand, taking a sun bath doing nothing except taking vacation. Leaving the true vacation. Even not thinking about me and about her slaves. Not even caring about anything except the pleasure of the touch of the sand beneath her or the sun caressing her skin.

I am aroused that she would take that day to live selfishly, just being the Princess she deserves to be. While I am working hard to fulfill her every need. One thing I know and accept, if I can take vacation from my work, but I will never take vacation from serving my Domina. I will serve her either she grants me of her presence or while she is away.

I began the day, like I always do by reciting my mantra. Feeling my love and submission to my Domina grows. I feel that my devotion grows faster and stronger than ever.

After I have done, my mantra. I drawn to heart around my nipples like requested. I know this is a sissy command and I am not a sissy but I wanted to obey that one. It is not too big of a commitment and my goal is to obey her and her calendar the best I can. And of course, I kept writing Domina Shelle’s owns me on my chest because of the surrender W command for yesterday. This trigger last three days. 

I also obeyed the Surrender P command; this is why I decided to write this entry in pink. I realise that I do love the color pink. This special trigger gives me the urge to love writing in pink for my Domina

After finishing my shift, I began another script for my Domina. I called it Domina’s financial service. It will be a fantasy about my Domina being a wicked financial advisor who will convinced and brainwashed her slaves that spoiling her is the best investment possible.

I did read on her twitter account that my Domina is at the beach. I am so happy that she is at the beach, living like the Princess she is, while I am still in the cold working hard to please my Domina’s whims and desires.

In the early evening, I listened to the white noise session. And wow, I think in my life I never felt that blank. To be honest. I do not remember the session. The white noise is very powerful. My Domina is becoming so powerful and my desire to obey her is becoming so strong, it scares me a little. What will happen next? During the session, I was so blank that I as disoriented not remembering where I was completely hypnotized by the voice of my beloved Domina.

I did sent a little tribute to my Domina and it covers me with joy.

Thought of the day

I want you to benefit with the pleasure of serving and doing all you can to please Me.

Pleasing my Domina is my priority. I feel that I work harder to please her than ever, but it is not enough. It will never be enough, because I can always do more. I know. My Domina is in the center of my life and deserves my obedience. I hope she is proud of me. I will never be away, I will serve Her over and over again.

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My virtual leash diary #3

My virtual leash diary

February 23rd 2021

One thing that I realise today is I am becoming to obey my Domina’s command more automatically. I fall deeper under her spell. I wish to reach that point where obeying my Domina is so automatic that I will not be aware I am obeying a command and I do it only because it is natural for me to do so.

While waking up, I obeyed three command on her calendar almost automatically. I have seen the surrender W trigger and I wrote on my chest “Domina Shelle owns me” I will wear this writing as I sign of ownership. I would love to write on my chest with her used lipstick to feel a stronger control from my Domina.

Then, I recited my mantra. Feeling all the words of my Domina, Her control and Her power over me. My Domina is so strong and I am so weak, I am born to obey and serve her.

Finally, during the morning, I did my ritual Tip me Tuesday routine. Tuesday is my favorite day of the week, because it tells me how weak I am and I am being owned completely by my Domina. This is why I so easily click click click.

I spent most of the day working from home, thinking of my Domina in the background of my mind. Sometime thinking of her vividly, other time my thought of her is more subtly, but she is never completely gone. And I smile thinking, if I work, I do not work for myself, I work for my Domina. My long day at work is for paying for her computer I gave her as a valentine gift and because of that working, even in a boring job, gives me purpose. I will do more in my life to make my Domina smile than for any other reason.

After my work, I got out for a walk. The temperature is finally rising, the snow is melting, spring is coming gradually. While walking I made sure to mail my mantra. I hope she will be pleased. I hope she will receive it quickly. I wrote it 3 times, like instructed and I put all my heart and devotion in it.

After my walk like instructed I listened to the White Noise video. She asked me why I am her horny contracted slave. And I realised while watching the video, my thought was completely blocked. I think the White Noise is designed specifically to remove my thought process. I was transfixed and brainwashed by the sound of my Domina’s voice and Her pictures and it made me horny. And I realise the answer to that question is because being her horny contracted slave is what I am. There is no better answer to give than this one.

I keep on, on my path in obedience to my Domina by listening to her chosen file of the day, Dopamine. I realise listening to that file that my Domina may seem sweet and caring on the surface, she is in reality very wicked and dangerous. The thing is she put me into an overdose of Dopamine. This file gives me so much pleasure I want to listen to it over and over. And yet, she destroys my brain, reduce or eliminate my capacity to think for myself, until I become a mindless slave. She did tell me I can trust her, so I listened and fall for her. However, I did here some random giggles from time to time, like she was laughing at me. Sometime, I feel she is thinking “What a silly slave falling into my trap so easily” but maybe it is just my imagination. It is too late for me anyway, my brain has been broken by my Domina, leaving me completely addicted to her.  

Concerning the script, I corrected it and I will send it shortly. Probably will already have it when she will receive my diary.

Thought of the day

When you dream of Me, you wake up well rested and motivated. Pleasing Me has become one of your life’s pleasures.

I think with that diary I am re-educating my brain. I always loved to serve and obey my Domina but it was not as systematic that it is becoming. I really am rearranging my schedule to obey my Domina the best way possible.

I feel I reinforce my connection and relationship to her, even when she is not there. Because she is always in my thoughts, in my dreams.

Pleasing my Domina is I think much more than a life pleasures, it is becoming the center of my life. I really want to discipline myself to please her every day no matter what. I really want to convert her every whims and desires into a command.

She asked me to do a blog on Tumblr. I realised I did not hesitate and I did it. And it is great pleasure to do something for Her, for no other reason that she told me to do it.

I have gained a new motivation in life since I obey her, even for thing that are not related to her. Even if in the end, everything I do is for the pleasure of my Mistress.

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My virtual leash diary #2

My virtual leash diary

February 22nd 2021

Following the interaction with my Domina yesterday, I woke up this morning smiling and refreshed. I had a warm feeling inside and also a feeling of arousal thinking I do belong to my Domina. I love Her control. I love Her Absolute Authority. I love being Hers. It made me want to send her an email of my love and my gratitude. I also gave her, my blog login details to be sure she owns it, like she owns me.

After writing that letter, I did my daily mantra putting my Domina in the center of my heart with each word I recited, loving her more and more. She is my everything.

My Domina commanded me to write this down each time I touch myself, I am doing it from time to time while I write for my Domina so I write the phrase she told me to write: “I live in complete submission and obedience to Domina Shelle. I dedicate myself to serve and please You as the source of all my pleasure and happiness.” I do not only write those words; I live them completely as a sign of devotion to my Domina.

Then I read the surrender AF. I listen to the file and my Domina brought me to lady Helena for this part of the command. I want to confess my Domina that I do not have the appropriate material to obey and this command makes me very uncomfortable. I will confess a failure to obey on this one. It makes me feel sad that I am not as good as a slave for her that I want. Next time I will talk to my Domina, I will ask her if she accepts my limits or if she wants to push my limits for her?

My Domina is the most caring Domina a slave can wish to have. Her heart is filled with love and I can feel her warmth anytime I interact with her. I can feel her pure genuine love. Of course, her love does not mean I will never be punished. In Her tender care, Domina Shelle is a strict Mistress who demand complete obedience. However, she always has little attentions to slave to make them good. She proves it today by asking me to do something that will make me feel good.

Tonight, I will post a new blog and keep going on with my new script. Some may say, I am not doing this for myself but for Her. And yet, nothing fills me with more joy than doing something that pleases my Domina. But I will also take some time to walk outside under the sun, it begins to smell spring and that fill me with gigantic joy. Other time, I just stop and think of my Domina, how beautiful she is. How perfect she is and it makes me smile.

Just after my work, I took a short walk and then I wrote for my Domina. I think I wrote 1h15 minutes, just the time I needed to finish my script. I called it “Captivated” but it is possible my Domina change the title. If I was to give a summary, I would say it is a voice fetish file. I did not hear a lot about voice fetish. It is about covert brainwashing to make the slave being addicted, then obsessed by Domina’s voice. My Domina has such a sexy and seductive voice, I think it is a good way to pay tribute to her angelic voice. I am confident I will be able to send it tomorrow after I review some potential mistake and change some words to make it better.

Later in the evening, I listened to Captive Dreams. I think it is the fourth day in a row, she asked me to listen to it. I am not sure though, since I begin to lost count. I realised something, I fall more easily in trance while sitting than lying down and I think this time it was my deepest trance. I even been so deep, I was not feeling the room I was in, I was not feeling my body. It was just me and my Domina without anything else existed.

Thought of the day

I am your addiction and the center of all your pleasure and desires.

The thing that I realise is, my Domina is in my thoughts at every moment. Every moment, every second of the day either I think of my Domina or I have her image in a corner of my mind. I am addicted to my Domina and she is the center of my pleasure and desires.

Each time I obey her, I feel pleasure and I feel deep inside the desire to serve her more but specially to serve her best. I place her in the center of my being.

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Lady Helena : http://ladyhelenaslair.com/

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My virtual leash diary #1

My virtual leash diary

February 21st 2021

My Domina has wrote in her calendar something that made me smile. She wrote that every day is better when she is my first and last thought. And I realise something, since I began that diary, I am excited to get up in the morning. I know I will have to train myself to serve my Domina better than the last day. I am not perfect, I fail sometime. But knowing I will report my success and failure to my Domina every day makes me do more for her that I would have done otherwise. And I love following her command without knowing in advance what it will be. I trust my Domina. She always knows what is best for me.

I recited my mantra to keep my Domina in my thought, in my heart. It is a mantra I wrote for her and she did approve. I think this is the mantra I will write and mail to my Domina when I will have the proper material to do so.

In most on her commands, my Domina asks to wear my collar. I realise I have no collar and cannot obey perfectly all her commands. I will probably ask my Domina for one very soon. I will ask her which one will fit me best and will buy it. My goal in that diary is not to be perfect in obedience but it is to improve myself for my Domina.

I saw a surrender WR in her calendar giving me the urge to write a review. I decided to listen to Kept Mistress and write a review about that file, loving how my Domina can be wicked sometime.

Mistress has sent me an email this morning and she wants a daily diary blog. Of course, her wishes are always my commands.

In the middle of the afternoon my Domina asked me to Captive Dream a little before her call. I let myself going into trance for her while waiting she would be free to talk. I love having my Domina’s voice in my head, always.

And then, she called me on skype. Each of those moment, I talk to my Domina is my most precious moment. Hearing her files is something incredible and amazing, but when I talk with my Domina I feel all her power her control and I feel all my weakness toward her. She put me into trance and she conditioned to work harder. I need now to create a blog for her, to promote her and her work. She entitled me as her writer slave and she asked me to write 1 hour for her every day. I will do my best to fulfill that new duty.

It is not really a new duty since I always wrote for her but my load of work for her will increase. I am aroused by the thought that she will have some free time for herself while I will be working hard for her. I hope I will make her proud and I will be able to give her more free time. I love pampering my Domina.

She asked me to call someone close to me. I like this kind of command because it proves me, she cares for me and all your slaves. Today, I called her. My Domina and I loved the time with her. But I also called two of my friends in order to do not stay isolated. Thank you Domina to car for my well being.

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My mission is to promote my Domina. I will never talk of myself but I will promote my Domina through diary that will be published on this page. My Domina is Domina Shelle Rivers. I want to give her visibility and you can find her on https://www.shellerivershypnotica.com/