mywrittingwonderland

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my dream as a fanfic writer is for one day, one of my fics to be someones comfort fic. like the fic that they reread when they don't feel good and want to be happy. i want my words to comfort someone one day

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this tells me all i need to know abt his personality tbh 🫶🏼

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huge shoutout to everyone who started their blog when they were teenagers and now they are in their 20s and 30s

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MCLAREN SWEETHEARTS.

Your and Lando's relationship has everything everyone wants; Moments of you two in the new Drive To Survive season.

pairing. Lando Norris x fem! reader.

warnings. est. relationship, slightly suggestive? Again, this is made up and doesn’t relate to the actual season!

[episode one]

Lando sprinted through the paddock, his race suit slipping dangerously low on his hips as he rushed to the garage, clearly running late. Meanwhile, you strolled leisurely behind, holding all his forgotten essentials—his phone, watch, and whatever else he’d managed to leave behind. There was no point in trying to keep up with his frantic pace.

The cameras caught the moment he stopped abruptly, patting his pockets in a panic. “Fuck, where is my phone?” he muttered, spinning around in confusion.

From a distance, you raised your voice, a hint of amusement in your tone. “I have it!” you called out, holding it up for him to see. His sheepish grin when he spotted you said it all.

“Thank god I have you,” Lando murmured, his voice warm with gratitude. Before you could respond, he leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to your cheek, a fleeting yet heartfelt gesture that said more than words ever could.

The Netflix editors cut to Carlos as he passed by, saying, “You would lose your own head if you didn't have her.”

[episode two]

Sitting in the McLaren hospitality with Lando's mum, the two of you chatted, stealing occasional glances out the window where Lando was busy giving an interview. He couldn’t help but look over at you both, flashing smiles and waving, his affection clearly shining through.

“Lando, please focus,” the interviewer gently reminded him, attempting to reel him back into the conversation.

“Yeah, sorry,” Lando apologized, shaking his head with a sheepish smile. Then, his expression softened as he gestured toward the window. “The most important women in my life,” he said warmly, pointing at you and his mum, leaving everyone charmed by his sincerity.

The interview clip went viral, fans saying, “Relationship goals.”

[episode three]

It was a relaxed afternoon in McLaren’s motorhome when you managed to—let’s say convince—Lando to try out a TikTok trend with you. The room was filled with laughter as he fumbled through the moves, his determination evident but not exactly successful.

“Lando! Can you do it finally right?!” you called out between bursts of laughter, tears of amusement almost streaming down your face.

“I’m trying, babe! I’m trying!” he replied, his voice desperate yet playful, only making the moment even more hilarious. The lighthearted chaos perfectly captured your bond and the fun you shared, no matter how ridiculous the task at hand.

“You dance like a maniac at parties but can’t handle this?” you teased, your laughter bubbling up again.

“I only dance when I’m drunk!” he shot back, his tone defensive but playful, making the whole situation even funnier.

The editors cut to Oscar laughing at Lando and Zak shaking his head in disbelief.

[episode four]

“Why is under every video an edit of you?!” you asked with a playful smile as you rolled your eyes, holding up your phone to show him the edit of him on your For You page.

Lando glanced at the video, his lips curling into a mischievous smirk. “You didn’t mind having me under you last night,” he quipped, his voice low and teasing.

Your eyes widened instantly, darting between the nearby cameras and him, caught completely off guard by his boldness. The amused look on his face only made it harder to keep your composure.

You couldn’t shake the feeling that you were part of some bizarre social experiment, but reality was far simpler—and far more ridiculous. Lando stood there, grinning like an absolute idiot, completely unbothered by the chaos he’d just caused.

Let’s just say, his PR manager worked overtime after this part dropped.

[episode five]

Lando stood before the mirror, his curls rebelliously framing his face no matter how much he tried to tame them. Frustrated, he let out a growl. “Fuck this shit. They do what they want,” he sighed, throwing his hands up in defeat.

“Come here,” you said with a knowing smile, pulling out powder and spray from your bag. With gentle hands, you worked on his hair, smoothing the chaos into something effortlessly charming.

When you were done, he looked at you with a grateful smile. “Thank you, babe,” he said softly, his voice full of warmth. “You’re my savior.”

The camera captured the moment, his eyes sparkling with quiet admiration as he watched you carefully fix his unruly curls.

[episode six]

Lando crossed the finish line first, securing his first Grand Prix victory. His happiness was uncontainable as he celebrated in the car, his voice alive with joy. Through the radio, he eagerly asked his engineer, “Is Y/n there? I need to talk to her.”

Moments later, your voice came through the earpods under his helmet, full of pride and emotion. “Lan, it’s Y/n here—you did it!!” you exclaimed.

A wide grin spread beneath his helmet as he shouted back, “Y/n, love, we did it!! I love you so much!” His words carried all the excitement and love he felt, making the victory even more unforgettable as he shared it with you.

The radio went viral, all the comments pointing out, “The way she’s the one he needs talk to. God, I want what they have.”

[episode seven]

McLaren had finally done it—the Constructors' Championship was theirs after an incredible 26-year wait. The entire team was overjoyed, the atmosphere electric with celebration.

You were casually chatting with Alex when Lando, buzzing with excitement, ran straight up to you. Without a word, he met your eyes, grinning mischievously, before effortlessly throwing you over his shoulder.

"Lan—what are you doing?!" you exclaimed, utterly baffled as he carried you through the paddock at full speed.

Before you knew it, you were in front of the jubilant McLaren team. Lando gently put you down, but before you could even process what was happening, the champagne started flying. Laughter and cheers surrounded you as everyone sprayed one another, Lando making it a point to douse you especially. You tried to shield yourself, but there was no escape, and soon you were drenched and sticky, unable to stop laughing at the chaos around you. It was pure, unfiltered joy.

Later on, McLaren and F1 posted the photos of you celebrating together with the team.

[episode eight; bonus]

During an interview for Netflix, Zak was asked, “Y/n is really often at the garage or motorhome since she started dating Lando. What do you think of their relationship?”—a slightly odd question, but Zak handled it with ease.

“Y/n is just a great person,” Zak said, smiling warmly. “I think she’s exactly the one Lando really needs by his side. Everyone loves them; they’re our sweethearts.”

The interviewer followed up, “Would you say Y/n is part of the team?”

“Yeah, definitely,” Zak replied confidently. “She’s part of our papaya family.” His words carried a genuine affection, showing just how much you had become a cherished part of the McLaren circle.

You saw that clip all over social media. It was nice to know they take you like part of the family. By dating McLaren’s golden boy, you became McLaren’s golden girl.

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5. Everything means nothing if I don’t have you

Some more fluffiness of my favorite couple.

Is someone even reading this? LOL!

Have fun! And I apologize for the mistakes in advance.

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June

Sophia hadn’t really left Shawn’s house much since they became official. They were unofficially living together, after the first week she had her own key, her own drawer and even her own working spot close to him. The first time they were apart was when Shawn had to go on a day trip for press, and neither of them were able to sleep that well that night. He was so used to her using him as her own personal pillow that he missed the way her head would always be laying on his chest, right above his heart. No matter how they would go to sleep without fail that’s how they would wake up. He felt unease and regret for not catching the 1a.m. flight after the red carpet and getting back to her sooner, he thought about calling her but he also didn’t want to risk waking her up. Just when he was about to give up and go read a book instead of sleeping he felt his phone vibrating.

“Hi Baby, I thought you were in dreamland when we hanged up” He said, remembering how he stayed on the phone with her to make sure she would sleep.

“Shawn” Her voice sounded trembly and he did not like that for one second.

“What’s up, Honey?” he asked switching the call so he could see her and make sure she was okay.

“I miss you”

“I miss you too, I will be home later today”. He said bitting on his lip and wishing he could hug her out of whatever was bothering her. “Did something happen?” 

“I had a nightmare” 

“You had a nightmare? Oh, I am so sorry, Lovey. Do you wanna talk about it?”

“You were coming back from the red carpet and someone shot you right before you entered the house. And then- then…” 

“Hey, I am okay. No bullets, I promise.” He said trying to calm her down. He also looked up the next flight he could take, since he had no hopes of getting back to sleep. “Baby I am changing my flight, I will be home in 3hs”.

“Wait, no Shawn, you should get some sleep. I shouldn’t have called you.” She said instantly getting worried.

“No, Honey, I couldn’t get to sleep without you anyways, don’t worry. We can sleep the whole day together with no nightmares.” He said, texting Andrew to let him know he was going home sooner, and getting up to get dressed and leave. 

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July

“So, are you officially living together or what?” Brian asked after crashing the couple’s breakfast for the 2nd time that week. Sophia had just left to go to the toilet so he jumped the question.

“Hm, I mean, no, not really”. Shawn replied, sounding a bit unsure. They hadn’t really discussed much about their living situation, although Sophia was not going to her house that much. Brian looked at him silently asking if he was sure about that. “She has her place with Connor remember?” 

“Do you remember?” He asked.

“Oh shut up”.

“Shawn, seriously, are you sure you two are not going way too fast? Don’t get me wrong, I know you haven’t been this happy since I have known you, but tour stats in a few months and I am just worried you might lose your sense of personal space or something” 

“Brian what are you talking about?”. He asked, really not understanding what Brian was up to.

“All I am saying is, it might be harder for you when you go away. I just don’t want you to have one more thing to be anxious over, that’s all.” He said, but before Shawn could think of a reply on how crazy Brian was sounding Sophia got back to the table and they dropped the topic. 

Sophia half heard the conversation and got a little self conscious, she thought she might be imposing her presence too much in Shawn’s space and she got worried about what Brian was saying. If he got back to touring and he was more anxious because of her she wouldn’t be able to forgive herself, so she made a personal note to go sleep home that night. Once Shawn was gone for the studio she made him a fresh batch of cookies, because he happened to mention he was craving cookies that morning, and then she got her book in the nightstand and her working equipment before driving for her house. 

“Hellooo”. She said as soon as she got inside, expecting Connor to be there. But then she remembered he would definitely be with Shawn in the studio, so she just ended up in her kitchen making herself some tea and getting back to writing. 

Shawn on the other hand finally got to finish his talk with Brian, this time with Connor also present while they were on their lunch break with takeout pizza, since Shawn didn’t wanna leave the studio and find a restaurant without paps.

“Connor, do you also think Sophia and Shawn are just going too fast?”. Brian blunted out making Shawn drop his pizza slice and look at him as of saying: not this again.

“As long as he has no intentions of breaking by best friend’s heart I think they are doing okay, you tell us Shawn”.

“I think Brian is way too invested in my love life all of a sudden”. Shawn said, getting a bit annoyed.

“Bro, I am honestly just worried about you”. He said putting up his arms in surrender.

“I thought about what you said this morning, and perhaps it was my mistake to not ask her to move in already. I know it might seem like we are going too fast, but I just really love her so much, and I wanna spend every single minute I can with her before we actually have to be apart for tour.” He explained. “And Connor I have no intention of breaking my soulmate’s heart, ever.” 

The boys continued to talk for a little bit before Shawn had to get back to rehearsals. Shawn was relieved when his day was over, he missed Sophia, and she hadn’t texted him the entire day, which was making him worry something was up. When he entered the house he immediately felt the smell of cookies in the air, it looked like she had just pulled them out of the over some minutes ago. 

“Babyyy, where are you? These are so good.” He said grabbing a cookie and going searching for her around the condo. He quickly noticed she wasn’t in any of her spots and her book and computer were also not in the house, so he grabbed the phone and called her.

Sophia completely forgot about her phone, she used to do that a lot whenever she would get lost in a book.

“Wait Shawn, I literally just got home. Phi, are you home?” Connor asked giggling between his keys, phone and camera bag. She wasn’t in the kitchen anymore, Connor went to look at her tiny library and found her very deep into reading. “Yeah she is here. Okay sure, I will let her know” 

“Oh hey Con, I swear I didn’t see you there”

“Yeah I noticed. Shawn is coming over by the way.” Connor said making his way to sit beside his friend. “He was super worried when he got home and your cookies were there but you weren’t” 

“Oh, that wasn’t my intention, I mean he did want cookies this morning, but I didn’t want to make him worried, I just thought I might give him some space today. Just in case. I have been over his house way too much”. She said, sounding a bit insecure.

“I personally don’t think he minds, but you can talk once he gets here”. He said giving her a kiss on the forehead and leaving her to get back to reading. Shawn was there in less than 15 minutes, and Connor opened up for him.

“She is reading”

Shawn walked inside and went straight to her library, he leaned on the door for a bit observing how focused she was in her book. Until she notice his presence and smiled at him making him instantly smiling back and getting close to her for a kiss.

“You got me worried, Missy” He said waiting for her to mark up her book before engulfing her in a tight hug.

“I am sorry, I just thought I might be way too much in your space, I don’t want to suffocate you”. She said making him frown. “I head a bit of what Brian was saying this morning.” She explained making him understand where she was coming from. 

“I am totally killing Brian tomorrow” He said making her laugh. “Baby you don’t suffocate me”.

“Are you sure? I mean I have been over a lot, and I know it’s not my house, and I don’t-” He interrupted her rambling by kissing her gently.

“I am sure. You could never suffocate me. And about that, I wanted to ask you something”. He said and she waited for him to continue. “Do you wanna just stay over indefinitely? Because, it’s no longer home without you.” 

“Really?”

“Mhm, oh and you can change whatever you want, let’s make it ours?” He said with a big smile on.

“Okay I think I would love that” 

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August 

“Sweetie, I am sure my parents will love you, in fact I am sure they already love you.” Shawn said trying to reassure his girlfriend.

“Still, Shawn we have to make sure to welcome them properly, so please help me out with what I should cook for them”. She said, half ignoring what he was saying and coming back into what Connor would call the wonder hostess mode.

“Phi, are you sure you don’t want to just order take out? I don’t want you to stress too much about this.” He said, worried that she was overdoing it.

“No, that would make me a very bad hostess. I am not having that. You know that.” She said looking up from the list she was making to make sure he understood what she was saying.

“Okay, fine. I think that your Ravioli al Pesto will make everyone happy”. He gave in, receiving a smile back from her. 

“How about Tiramisu for dessert?”

“That’s perfect, Love.” He kissed her forehead. “My only condition is that you let me help you cook, it will make me feel better”

“But Shawn, you don’t really know how to cook”

“Teach me, please?”

And teach him she would, over the months Shawn learned probable more about cooking than he had his entire life, and he really was up to making the extra effort because she was constantly making him small things, brownies because he seemed sad, blue cookies because she was re-reading Percy Jackson, and many other instances in which she would learn his favorite treats and home made them. He wanted to be able to do the same for her, so he took it very serious.

There was something he was right about though, his family loved her, in fact he thought they might love her even more than he loved her, if that was even possible.

“Phi, you have to come to my Hockey game on Friday, I wanna talk more to you before my brother’s birthday when we have to be with everyone.” Aaliyah said by end of dinner, while helping Sophia with getting dessert.

“Really? I would love to come!” She said getting excited while finishing to cut the tiramisu pieces.

“Can I ask you something?” 

“Yes, go for it” 

“Is my Brother treating you right? Because I swear if he isn’t I will beat him up for you”. Sophia have out a loud laugh at that which made Shawn join the girls in the kitchen.

“What’s up?” 

“I am just checking with her that you are being a gentlemen since she is just way too good, I won’t allow you to break her heart.” Sophia blushed at Aaliyah’s statement and all of a sudden she was a bit overwhelmed by the attention and love the new Mendes was giving her.

“Never, but I appreciate you also taking care of my Angel”. Shawn said grabbing Sophia’s hand for a kiss on her forehead. “Isn’t she cute?” He asked his sister while Sophia conveniently hid her red face in his chest for a second.

“Shawn she might just be my favorite sister, sorry”. Shawn smiled and hugged his girlfriend while still paying attention to Aaliyah.

“I am okay with that”. Shawn said looking at his girlfriend and noticing how her eyes were full of tears.

“You guys are making me cry”. Sophia said, not knowing how to handle the love she was getting. “Come here”. She said hugging Aaliyah. “Thank you, I also can’t wait to have a sister”.

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September

“So what’s your plan for today”. Connor asked Shawn, and he gave him a clueless look.

“Well, rehearsals? And probably call mom and dad tonight, why?”He questioned the blonde’s sudden interest for his day.

“Shawn you do know what day is today right?” Connor asked, and Shawn quickly revised his brain for something he might have missed, but nothing did come to mind.

“I have no idea what you are talking about Connor, where we supposed to do some external shooting for the doc and I am forgetting it?” Connor eyes widened in surprise for his answer.

“Dude, you are so screwed” 

“What? What did I do?” 

“Phi didn’t happen to mention today is her birthday, right? Why am I not surprised? She  never loved her own birthdays.” He said tapping his friend’s back in comfort.

“Connor, are you serious? Please tell me this is a prank?”Shawn asked fully entering panic mode when he realised he actually never asked his girlfriend when was her birthday, and it happened to be conveniently exactly a month after his, September 8th.

“I would never, here I sent her happy birthday this morning”. He said showing Shawn the text and Sophia’s thank you response.

“Holy shit, I need to go”. Shawn said, quickly looking around and gathering his things and his keys. “Can you smooth things with Andrew for today? I will talk to him later, and thank you, you are the best friend ever” He quickly said running out of the studio and into his car. 

He felt very bad, he never actually asked her when it was, and this week was very crazy with all the final preparations for the Global Citizen’s festival, and also Niall’s birthday coming up. 

“Fuck me, all week talking to her about Niall’s birthday and the festival”. He said gripping on the wheel, he remembered what she did for him on his birthday, she actually organised all the tiny details and baked his cake, he didn’t want anything big, so they all went with his family and the crew to a small retreat in her family’s countryside in London. She also had an amazing gift for him.

“Well, I know that you are allergic to dogs, so I thought maybe I could get you some other kind of best friend, plus Pinky was a bit lonely.” He replayed her words in his head and this new horse that was currently being taken care by her grandparent’s in their farm, and of course he was Pinky’s best friend. He remembered that she also explained to him that she had done a lot of research on anxiety after she was diagnosed soem years ago, and that Pinky helped her a lot, and that she wanted Shawn to also have that new kind of support whenever he had a break and things got too much. 

He quickly stopped at Sophia’s favorite flower shop on the way home. It was this very tiny shop owned by an Italian old lady, and he dropped by every week to pick her something, every time the previous flower was dying he would give her a new one. It was a nice tradition he started after hearing one of Sophia’s grandma story on how she fell in love with her grandpa because he would always bring her a flower, no matter if it was sunny or raining, everyday since they met he would give her a flower. He ended up getting a mixture of her favorites, little delicate white and purple daisies, scorpion grasses and lavender, wrapped with a classic white lace.

When he opened the door of their home it was already 17:00, so he was relieved to see music playing and the lights on. “Hi Baby, I am home”.

“In the kitchen”. She sounded happy, which was a bit of a relief to Shawn. He caught her finishing up the cake she had started the day before, lemon and rose flavoured, he remembered her saying when she asked him to test the filling. It didn’t crossed his mind that she was baking herself a cake, she was constantly baking so he really didn’t think anything different. “What do you think?” She asked, referring to her little cake, decorated with light pink frosting and some rose petals on the top.

“It’s very cute”. He said making his way to her and giving her a kiss. 

“Are these for me?” She asked noticing the bouquet with her favorite flowers on his hand.

“Yes”. He smiled back at her still amazed by the fact that she didn’t seem even the slightest mad at him.

“They are so pretty, thank you.” She hugged him and went to her vase to change her flowers.

“Your welcome, Baby.” He replied observing her untangling the flowers from the lace, taking the old ones, choosing a dying flower and putting inside her book, and then throwing the rest of them out. Without failure she would do that every week.

“Why did you get so many today?” She asked, noticing he got her way more flowers than he usually does. And he looked at her thinking that it wouldn’t surprise him if she forgot her own birthday, she was so worried about everything around her sometimes every so often she would need reminders that she was also important.

“Connor might have let it slip that today is someone’s birthday”. He said getting close to her and pulling the string of hair that escaped her braid out of her face. 

“Oh”. She looked guilty back at him.

“Yeah”. He smiled and gave her a slow kiss followed by a peck on her nose.

“I promise I was gonna tell you.” He giggled and hugged her.

“Happy Birthday, Baby. I love you.” He said kissing her one more time. “What happened that you didn’t tell me?” He asked softly keeping his hands on her back and his forehead on hers.

“After we came back from London, things were just so crazy, there was the iHeartRadio MuchMusic Video Awards, and then and you were so anxious about having to fly to Ireland and doing the festival in New York in a very short span of time, and also the finishing things for tour that have to be settled this until next month. I just didn’t want to bring up one more thing to make it even crazier.” She said explaining the reasoning behind her actions. Shawn immediately felt like she had somehow made him fall even more in love with her. “Also I am not the biggest on my birthdays, I much prefer other’s birthdays”. She bit her lip, nervously looking at him. “I am sorry”. She said, making his heart melt.

“I love you, you know that?” He said, giving her a big smile. “You truly are the kindest person I know”. He kissed her one more time. “Baby, none of these things are even a tiny fraction more important than you… -”

“Shawn… -”

“Wait, let me finish please?” She nodded. “I know things sometimes do get crazy in my life, and I really do appreciate every single thing you have done to support me these past weeks, I don’t think I could have done it without you. In fact I am sure I wouldn’t have managed it, at least not sanely.” He chuckled. “But I really don’t want you to think that you don’t have space to also share your important things, because I want to hear all of them, and I want to also help you get through all of them. You are as much important as I am in this relationship. And honestly, all of this, everything, it means nothing if I don’t have you. All of you.”

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4. Overwhelmingly in Love

Okay, so this chapter is just a bunch of fluffy and cute just to warm everybody’s hearts.

I apologise for mistakes in advance I was writing at 4:00! On a personal note: I have a feeling that Shawntumblr is kinda dead, and that I am posting this only to myself, LOL!

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Sophia felt the sun hit through the curtains and for a second she was startled by not being in her room, but soon enough she felt Shawn’s heartbeat and instantly melted back to her entangled position. She smiled when she noted he was mumbling something in his sleep. He looked so cute she couldn’t resist the urge of slowly running her small fingers though his face. Shawn felt her fingers running though his face in small soft movements and he instantly smiled and opened his eyes. She got a bit startled and immediately removed her hands in an apologetic way.

“I am sorry, I didn’t wanna wake you up”. She blushed and bit her lower lip, looking at his eyes. He frowned and shook his head while finding back her hand, kissing her knuckles and putting it back in his hair. She took that as a cue to continue her cuddle session and instantly made him smile and close his eyes. “You are cute”. She said after a few seconds, and he opened his eyes back at her. He caught her by surprise when he moved their positions to make sure he could properly kiss her good morning.

“I am cute?” He asked attacking her face with small kisses and making her giggle. “You are just adorable and out of this world” He said before properly kissing her and feeling how his lips would just mold perfectly to hers. “Good Morning, Giggly”

“Good morning, Cuddle Bug” She answered his nickname with a sweet nickname back. 

“Did you sleep okay?” 

“Yeah, your bed is very comfy” She said playfully. 

“Oh yeah? Just my bed, hm?”. He teased her, knowing that her body was 90% of the night on top of his, and 10% on the atual bed. She just blushed back and nodded. For that he gave her a kiss on the nose before re-wrapping her with him. “My Girlfriend is so adorable my heart will explodeeee” He squeezed her tighter making her giggle again.

“My Boyfriend is very cute in the mornings also, I can’t complain.”

“That’s good, no complaints, just kisses and cuddles.” 

“Can we include also breakfast in your amazing list?”. She asked.

“Of course my Darling, what do you fancy this morning?” He playfully asked jumping out of the bed and extending his arm for her. She promptly accepted and they both moved down to his kitchen. Shawn wasn’t the best cooker, but he knew how to make some very good gluten free chocolate chip pancakes, so he quickly gathered all the ingredients and was ready to start his magic.

“What should I do?” Sophia asked after washing her hands.

“Kiss me”. He said meeting her lips one more time before cracking some eggs into the bowl.

“Seriously, I wanna help” 

“Nop, today it’s my treat” 

“But - ” 

“No buts, my house my rules” 

“You really really don’t want me to help?” She asked looking at him with the most adorable eyes he had every seen her doing.

“Well if you make this cute face, how can I possibly say no?” He kissed her. “You sit back there and can help with conversation topics”. She laughed but didn’t discuss more, she moved to her seat on the counter while he swiftly prepared the pancakes.

“Shawn?”

“Hm?”

“Do you think we are going too fast?”. She asked making him stop folding the chocolate chips and looking at her.

“I don’t think we are, I think sometimes we just happen to find our soulmates, and that’s just so fucking rare, I don’t wanna lose a single second of it.” He reassured her. “I know it’s a bit scary, because I can say for sure that I have never felt anything like this for anyone else in my life, but also it’s so fucking good.” He said taking her hands in his. “Hey? Talk to me”.

“I guess I am just freaking out a tiny bit” She started and he did some tiny circles in her hands with his fingers to motivate her to continue. “Because, I don’t think I have ever felt anything like this either. Perhaps I thought I had, but definitely I didn’t have any clue, and it’s just very scary to think that I love someone I met not even a month ago, we -”

“Hey, hey, breathe. Breathe”. He asked taking her face into his hands, and grounding her. “Sophs, I love you too, you know?” 

“Really?”

“Of course I do. I love you actually doesn’t capture all that I feel for you. I am not sure if there is a rule for this things, or the correct protocol on this, but definitely, 100% I love you”. He said hugging her tight until he head a small sniff. “Hey, hey, why are you crying?”  He asked feeling his heart crunching. “Aw, Baby don’t cry”. He comforted her slowly forgetting the pancakes and caring her to the sofa.

“You are just so sweet” She said still sniffling .

“What? Nooo, you are crying because I am sweet?”. She nodded making his heart swell. “My Love, you are so so cute”. He said kissing her with all his love and hugging her tight until her sniffles were completely gone. “Do you feel better now, Love?”

“Mhm, I am sorry for crying, It was just a bit overwhelming. Not in a bad way, but I just really never felt this before.” She explained, while he ran his fingers in her face to clear up the last of the tears.

“That’s okay, don’t be sorry. I am always here for you from now on, we will learn this together, okay?” She nodded, feeling him kiss her forehead

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Toronto or London

Hello Everyone, Am I back? I am not sure, but I just really got stuck in my head these past few days, and well, I figured writing would help me. I didn't really proofread this, so I apologize in advance. I also don't necessarily love this that much, but at least it got me out of my limbo phase. Warnings: None really Word Count: 2,510 Summary: She has always been in love with Toronto; she just didn't know why yet.

Enjoy!!

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20/05/2018

“Toronto or London?” — Jimmy asked as the last question of the fast questions round.

“Toronto” — Emily replied, without a second thought to the question. Which got the audience and all her fellow colleagues to look at her by surprise. 

“Wait a minute, weren’t you born in London? What makes you choose Toronto?”

“Honestly? I just have always had a good feeling about Toronto, even though I never really got spend that much time there, I hope that at some point once I have a break I manage to go touring on that city.” — She replied, with an honest response. The truth is that she always had a good feeling when she was around Toronto, she just didn’t know why. - - -

12/06/2018

“Shawn, someone told me you wanted to tryout for a few acting gigs, and that Harry has been pushing you to do it?” — Shawn laughed at the question while nodding his head confirming the information. — “So my question to you is, if you had to work with any actor/actress who would it be?” 

“Oh wow, that’s a difficult one Jimmy, but I think I would have to say Emily Wilson, I just really love everything she does, like it would be such an honour. I am a huge fan! Honestly even meeting her would be a huge honour” 

“Well I was told she loves Toronto! So maybe it won’t be that hard to find her roaming around the city, you could just ask her on a date you know?” — Jimmy joked.

“I don’t think I would ever even dare to do that!” — Shawn answered, his face definitely a bit flustered.

“Well, but moving on to business Shawn, talk to us about your new album!”

30/09/2019

“So, Emily lets talk about your new film, you are now shooting in Toronto, right?” 

“Yes, and it has been an amazing experience to be able to be in Toronto for 3 months now, I really love this city so much!” — She replied with a smile on her face.

“That’s so great! I hope you managed to finally go to all the places you wanted to visit around the city, did you manage to have the time to do that?” 

“Oh, I really wish! We barely stopped during the filming process because I need to run to London right after this, we are starting to shoot The Selection series with Netflix, as you all know, so I manage to visit a few places but definitely have to come back.”

“So, if you had to choose between life in Toronto or London, which one would you choose?” 

“Toronto!” — She answer without second thoughts. — “Don’t get me wrong I love London, but there is just something about here that I can’t take my head off it.” 

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10/01/2020

“Girl I just loved your work so much! I mean you know I love your acting gigs but your song, I just don’t know how you didn’t win song of the year! It was my song of the year for sure!” — Billie said as soon as she spotted Emily at the Grammy’s after party.

“Come on! You are queen here today, don’t even start! You killed it!” 

“Thank you! It means a lot coming from you! I heard you are back to filming in New York this month? Maybe we can meet up for a coffee when you are around?”

“Actually, I just finished filming yesterday, I am heading to Toronto tomorrow, and then back to London for more filming.” — Emily said a bit sad she would miss the coffee with Billie.

“No wayyyy! Wait up, I will probably head to Canada for a few days too, Justin recommend me a very nice retreat in which paps won’t find me, and I am in need of some offline days, especially after this crazy night, I feel like I can definitely go for that!” 

“That’s amazing, if you want you can come with me in the plane and we have that coffee and you can tell me more about how was this masterpiece production”

“I am in girl! Let’s go!” — Billie answered before being dragged by her brother to answer to a phone call they had just got.

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11/01/2020

“Wait up! You have never talked with Shawn or Justin before? Even though you have been obsessed with Canada your entire life? How is that even possible? 

“You know I was nominated for a song for the movie I did right? I don’t actually sing B.” — Emily said laughing at her friend.

“Oh shush girl, you just won a grammy yesterday for best song for visual media, maybe you don’t want to admit but you are good in what you are doing” 

“Billie, I literally have one song out!”

“True! But still…” 

“Enough on me and my obsession with Canada, tell me more about what you have been up to! It has been so long since we had time to actually talk!” — Emily answered, eager to know more about her friend.

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12/01/2020

“Shawn there is an invitation for you to go to this interview tomorrow with Emily Wilson, I know it is last minute but if you want to do it, we can do it.” — Andrew said over the phone.

“Wait, what? Really? Of course I want to do it, should probably talk to Camilla first about it, but yes.” — He said, immediately texting his girlfriend about the interview as he knew she could become a bit insecure with Shawn going to an interview with his celebrity crush. But her response came out being super supportive which made Shawn at ease about going.

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13/01/2020

“Hello you guys, I was told you had never met! And honestly I didn’t believe it!” — The interviewer at the radio said making Shawn and Emily smile at each other before answering.

“I honestly just never spent enough time here to get to meet new people, I am always hanging out with the crew and it just never happened, but it is an honour to finally meet you Shawn!” — Emily said with a smile.

“No, please the honour is all mine! I just really cannot believe this is happening right now and I am not sure I know exactly how to properly behave, I am like your number 1 fan!” — He said, totally fingerling over her and making her giggle. 

“Normally Emily comes over to talk about acting, but today we will talk about song writing, and her process on writing and recording her song for a Disney movie! How did that happen?” 

“Well Kate, I don’t even know myself if I am being honest, I knew I would have to sing, but when Julia contacted me asking if I wanted to help with writing it took me a lot by surprise, it was the first time I ever wrote a song in my life, so I definitely was not expecting the response we got, honestly I really believe it was all Julia’s magic and I ended up being there with her by a struck of luck or something” — She answered.

“What do you think of the song Shawn? And how it is writing for you?”

“What do I think of her song? I wrote with Julia a few weeks after they finished recording and Julia couldn’t shut up about you and how you brought all the sparkles into the song, and I really think it is an amazing vulnerable song and that you really should give yourself some more credit, I really love it. And about writing, for me this song is an example of what I am trying to do every day, really just pouring my soul into it and making feelings into words.” — He answered making her blush a little. 

“Thank you Shawn, we don’t have a lot of time today unfortunately, so we chose one question from fans for you to answer: If you had to choose between writing in London or anywhere else in the world where would you choose to go?” 

“I really like recoding in LA, but London is on my top 5 places too.” — Shawn answered and waited for Emily.

“Toronto, 100%! If there is one place I feel the most comfortable being in such a vulnerable state is Toronto for sure.”

“Time is up, guys thank you so much! I hope I get to see more of you around Toronto Emily, and Shawn let’s please meet up soon! I will see you again tomorrow to talk about the process of filming Game of Thrones with Emilia Clarke!” 

As they left the recording room, Shawn finally had the chance to compliment Emily properly.

“I really really love your work so much, you have no idea! — He said in an exited way which made her smile. — Can I hug you? — He asked and she immediately nodded and was engulfed in his hug. She really had a strange sensation when they were hugging, it was the same sensation she felt whenever she would arrive in Toronto, it felt like home. “Is it too much if I ask for an autograph too?” — He asked, making her laugh.

“Of course, here you go.” She signed on his notebook.

They talked for over an hour after the interview, and he also left her his number for whenever she was around if she needed company to tour on his city. She knew he had a girlfriend but at the same time she couldn’t help but to wonder which is also why she promised herself to never text him.

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15/08/2021

“Our final question of the night” — Elen said with a pout and the audience also made a sound of protest. “I know, I know you love her, I love her too!” — She said taking Emily laugh

“And I love you all of course” — She said seeing a kiss to the audience.

“If you had to make a song duet, and I mean a real one, not one with me for this show. Who would you like to sing with?” 

“Shawn Mendes” — She said, very fast and without thinking too much.

“Oh wow, that was fast, is there something going on that we don’t know about? You definitely do make a lot of visits to Toronto.” — Elen said, leaving it open to her to interpret it.

“I just really like the way his voice sounds” — She said, bluish a little when she noticed how her response sounded. — “ And of course if we record in Toronto even better”

“Smooth Emily, I guess we all will have to let that slide since our time is up for today”.

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19/10/2021

“So Shawn” — Elen Paused —“Do you watch my show?”

“Whenever I can, I do.” 

“A few months ago we had an interview with Emily Wilson, and apparently she really likes your voice” — She said making him blush because he had no idea what she was talking about.

“I am not exactly sure what you are talking about Elen” — He answered, not wanting to mess things up with his favourite star.

“Here is Emily on this show, and what she said” — Elen replayed the clip, and Shawn immediately felt his blushing. “Adorable right?” — She said making him close his eyes for a second and smile timidly.

“I really like the way her voice sounds too, not only in music but also everything she has even acted on, she is perfect in everything she does” — He answered and bit his lip softly at the end, still embarrassed by the situation.

Later that night he was surprised when his phone received a text from Emily, as he hadn’t really talked to her in over a year.

Emily: I will be in Toronto next week, if you are around and want to meet for a coffee maybe?

Shawn: Text me your hotel once you have it and I will pick you up and show you around the city if you want a proper tour.

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25/10/2021

“Connor I am sincerely nervous for this. — Shawn said for the 100th time that day.

“It will be fine, honestly I can’t believe it took you guys so long to actually go on a date!” 

“What do you mean, Man I did have a girlfriend before remember?”

“Shawn, we both know your relationship with Mila started for the wrong reasons, and honestly the possibility of it evolving was very slim.” — He said referring to the publicity stunt they had agreed and that later evolved into a relationship. — “You love her, but only as a friend, whereas you have been fungirling over Emi for years, even before Camila.” 

“I am not sure if you saying that helps a lot to soothe my nerves at all” — He said adjusting the collar of his shirt and deciding it was time to leave.

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05/04/2022

“Okay, so since you are here, and we are being honest with each other, I though we might as well go for Spill your Guts or Fill your Guts!” — James said being filled by a round of a applauses. — “Everything in here is vegetarian, so you can eat everything, or nothing if you decide to answer the questions.”.

“Oh God, this does not look good at all, but yeah, I am ready, ask me”. 

“We are nearing the finale of your series with Netflix, are there any spin-offs of the series being prepared for later? Or is that the last of The Selection we will see? — He asked making her close her eyes.

“Come on James, that is really not fair, I can’t answer this.” — She said trying to sound a bit mad, but laughing at the end.

“That’s all right, you can always go for the onion and garlic tea.” — He said, and she took a sip making a lot of effort to not throw up in the process.

“My turn, James, is there any celebrity who you refused to invite to your show before?” — She read her question and smiled at him.

“She really knows what she is doing you guys, nop I guess olive pudding for me it is” — He said looking a bite of the disgusting looking olive pudding.

“Emily, some photos have been circling around the internet, and I we are all wondering if they are real, so I would like to read Shawn’s last 3 messages to you” — He said making her blush, they still hadn’t officially confirmed nor denied anything, but their photos of the grammy’s were all over the internet already so there was really no hiding to do anymore.

“Okay, I guess you can do that” — She said after verifying the messages quickly.

“Oh wow! I was not expecting that you guys! I really wasn’t, okay so let’s do this:

Hi Emi, I really really miss you. I hope James is not too mean to you, Love. Good luck, I love you, and see you later.

“Awww… you guys are melting our hearts right now.” — He said taking her phone close to his heart. — “IT’S REAL EVERYONE!” 

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3. Action!

Hello Pretty people!! Long time no see! I hope you had an incredible New Year and can forgive me for my absence! Enjoy some more of Sophia :) -----------------

“Hi!” Sophia smiled, answering Shawn’s call.

“Where are you?”. He promptly asked.

“I am home, why?”. She asked, confused. They still hadn’t have the time to talk about the kiss or the kisses that followed that night. Two days had passed, and Sophia knew Shawn was busy finishing up some last-minute changes in his album, so she understood the situation. 

“I was wondering if I could pick you up? I mean, I know it’s last minute, but I really wanted you to watch me recording my new single, if you want of course?” He said, already nervous at the thought of her saying no.

“I would love to go! I will just have change, when will you get here”. She asked, trying to picture an outfit for going to a studio. 

“Soooo… I am kinda here already”. He said, making her heart race for a second.

“What?” She asked instinctually and proceeded to walk to the door to greet him. “Hello”. She said, hanging up the phone and looking at a very flushed Shawn. He had his left arm resting on the entrance, and when she opened the door, he had a puppy-apologetic face.

“Hi”. He said, finally greeting her with a hug.

“What if I said no?”. She playfully smacked him on his arm, trying to sound mad, but little did she know in his mind she was being extra cute, and all he wanted was to feel her lips on his again.

“I don’t know, I just was driving to the studio”. He stopped to remove a string of her hair falling in her face. “And I got distracted, so I ended up here.” He said, getting closer to her, and touching their noses. “I guess my brain was unconsciously telling me that I had to see you…”. He completed his thought and briefly looked into her eyes, silently asking for permission to kiss her, which she granted with a shy smile. 

These two days without seeing her had been a tiny bit of torture to him, and all he could think about was to feel her touch him one more time. And he took his time caressing every inch of her mouth in a slow, loving, and much-anticipated kiss.

“Do you mind waiting a few minutes?”. She asked, nose still attached to him; he took some seconds just taking in her scent before calmly addressing her question.

“Of course not, take your time, although I don’t really think you really need to change, is up to you of course”. He said, feeling a bit nervous all of a sudden, butterflies back in his stomach. He wondered if she would always cause that effect on him. She pecked his lips before detaching from him, which caused him to involuntarily let out a soft grunt in response.

“I will be fast, I promise”.  

She proceeded to go to her room and decided to go for a comfy outfit, as she would probably be there with him for some time. “A skirt and a sweater it is”. She said to herself before she could start to overthink. She was out again in 10 minutes and ready to go.

“Wow, yeah… you”. Shawn said after looking at her, she looked very cuddly, and he wasn’t sure how he would be able to focus on anything but her. “You are very gorgeous”. He said, leaning in and kissing her again; she smiled into the kiss at how distracted he was around her.

“Thank you, but should’t we go? I don’t wanna make you late”. She stated, making him look at the clock.

“You haven’t, don’t worry, we have time to get there, but maybe we should stay just a bit longer…”

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As Sophia predicted, they did end up being late, but if she was being honest, it didn’t seem like Shawn cared, and she wasn’t caring much about it herself; she also had missed him. Of course, to make things even harder, he was getting distracted by Sophia being there, he couldn’t really focus on the camera, and he messed up the guitar's notes twice. Connor then made a proposition.

“Sophia, come here, I want you to do something”. Shawn could not hear what Connor asked her, but he could see her cheeks getting red while she was nodding to her best friend. They left the room together and didn’t return for another two minutes.

“Wait… where did you send her?”. Shawn asked as soon as Connor got back without Sophia.

“Calm down Romeo, she will be back in a bit”. Connor said, having fun of the situation. “In the mean time, I will start the song again, okay?”. Shawn reluctantly nodded and tried focusing for the 50th time. 

Sophia had a straightforward task which was to make him seem nervous, but she was finding herself in a very comic position as the thought of making him nervous made her nervous. The song was about them, and she really was not expecting that when he invited her. The thought of him returning home from their first date and writing a song about it made her smile to herself. She had to take a few deep breaths to steady her heart and head before entering from the back door and positioning herself behind Shawn’s chair. 

She instantly smiled to herself when she felt him shiver at the first touch of her hands. She moved to his heart and felt when his hand pressed against hers. She moved her hands thru his face and ear lobe, and she felt a small involuntary giggle escape his throat. Sophia could feel he was smiling, even without looking at his face, his heart was racing very fast, and he had never been so nervous in his life, he thought. She really knew what to do with her hands, and it all just felt so right and happy.

“Perfect! Perfect guys!”. Connor said after Shawn had let a louder giggle escape this time. “I think that’s a wrap”. He smiled at the footage in his hand.

Sophia immediately started to move her hands away from him and stand up, but he turned around and wrapped her hands into his. They looked at each other for seconds, wishing they were alone. And as if reading both of their minds, Shawn pulled her backstage and locked the door to prevent anyone from interrupting them.

“The song…”. Sophia whispered, hands still attached to him.

“Yeah… I just…”. He tried to form a coherent sentence but was suddenly lost in her blue eyes. “I…” He tried again, but then he just gave up and went for a kiss; he only stopped when he felt her smile and felt the need to smile too. “I would like to ask if you want to be my girlfriend?”

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2. I get a little bit nervous around you

Here I am, as promised, enjoy and please make me happy with your comments, I really want to hear from you all!

Prologue Part 1

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It was already two weeks after the party, Shawn was extremely busy with rehearsals, but still he would spend a big portion of the day either talking or thinking about Sophia, they had only managed to meet the day before, and his heart was still racing. When he got home he wrote an entire song in a single shot, they had have an amazing time, despite everything that went wrong with his plans of a perfect first date. It was not the first song he had written about her, but for sure that one had something on it, lately every single song he could think about was about her, and they were becoming more and more real and vulnerable every day until yesterday he manage to write something in less than 1 hour without even doubting the melody once.

“Dude this is pretty amazing, I think I wouldn’t make any big changes to it, it was all you and its so real, the melody fits right in and it literally make us nervous with you, this is so crazy, wow, I think this is a single opportunity you shouldn’t lose. I know you already send the album list last week, and that you are in a tight schedule, but if you could include this one too, it would be just perfect!”. Scott said making Julia agree, she was a special guest today in the studio, they were supposed to work out the song together, but Shawn somehow managed to make it all by himself. They worked on a few extra details, and changed a few words in the lyrics to blend it better with the melody, and by the end of the day everything was just right. 

“Wow, I love this song. I would dare even asking you to sell me it, for me to record it”. She said laughing.

“Yep, its perfect, while you were developing it I already contacted everyone to hold up the discs because we will have to include some last minute changes”. Andrew added.

“Sorry, I don’t think this one is up for sale!”. He said smiling at his masterpiece.

“I think I can speak for me and for Scott when I say that we are curious, I mean, the song is amazing, but what was the inspiration behind it? Because when we talked yesterday  morning you said you didn’t have anything yet.” She stated and he instantly blushed and looked down, a smile on his face.

“I met someone, and we had this very unpredictable but perfect first date yesterday…” He stopped closing his eyes and dazing off for a second. “But that’s all I am saying for now!”. He completed, wanting to keep their feelings only for themselves for now, at most he would  trust his closest friends, but that was it. 

“Ohhhhh, Shawn Mendes is love everyone!” Scott teased, making his team laugh and the colouring of his cheeks into an even brighter red. “That’s okay, we won’t insist on the details, I guess the song is enough for us to see how important she is to you”. He thanked him silently before stepping into the recording booth to start his session. 

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Sophia woke up with a smile on her face, what Shawn was doing to her was not fair at all.  She didn’t have any control over her feelings anymore. All she could think was that they were completely fit to be together, it never felt wrong, and yesterday was just the most non-perfect perfect date someone could expect to have.

They were supposed to meet at 14:00 and travel for 30 minutes to reach the Angeles National Forest, and everything was going according to Shawn’s plan, initially he didn’t tell her where they were going, he only said that it was a place where the paparazzi  would not follow them. He had rented a car, so they would not recognise him, and he even came in a wig which made her laugh so hard when she greeted him by the door. But soon she got into the mood and asked him to wait for a second, when she returned she also had a blue wig and a hat, and they were both matching to go on their journey. She did insist to know where they were going, but he made sure to not say a word. They were having fun and singing along the radio to some Taylor Swift songs playing. Shawn got distracted for a second on how her voice sounded, it was like she really knew what she was doing and caressing each note of the song without trouble. He was about to mention how she should consider recording a song someday, when they heard a pop.

“Oh, Shit!”. Shawn cursed, pulling over and getting out of the car.

“Can you change it?”. She asked, also getting out and getting aware of the current situation, the tire was struck by a truck nail, and it had to be replaced.

“I think so, let be just check for the spare one”. He quickly went to the back to get to the spare tire but there was nothing there, probably because the renting facility forgot to replace it after the last incident. “Fuck!”. He cursed again getting a little bit anxious, how the hell was he supposed to fix that? He was about to ruin the best thing that he had ever had.

“Oh!” Sophia said bitting her lips and frowning once she got where he was and analysed the issue herself. She took a deep breath, and before he could open his eyes and start to apologise she said, “Well, its okay, let's not panic, we have food and water, and we are not in a strange country we don’t know the language, so we will be just fine. Let’s try calling the company and see if they can maybe send us a spare car?”. She calmly said reaching out for his hand sensing that he had gotten anxious and needed some comfort. “Oh, I am sorry”. She apologised realising she might have stepped a boundary that was too soon to cross.

“Don’t…” He said grabbing her hands back and taking a deep breath himself. “Truth being told, I was terrified for a second back there, and I thought you would just start to hate me for giving you the worst first date of your life”. He said, and frowned when she started to laugh.

“Sorry, sorry. I know I shouldn’t laugh.” She said trying to stop and biting her lip before continuing. “Okay, so none of this is your fault, I am sure you didn’t planned it this way, but we cannot have control over everything, that’s totally okay. Plus, we are having so much fun so far, I don’t even know what you're worried about. Just imagine how funny this scene must be for everyone else passing by, two weirdos with blue wigs, back hats and rounded sunglasses stopped in the middle of nowhere because their car got struck by a trucks’ nail. I mean…”. She looked up again at him before they both stopped to burst into laughing. Shawn felt the anxiety dissipating from him and relief coming into his body.

“Okay, okay. So lady Blue, would you like to accompany me back to our non-functioning car while we try calling the car company?”. He asked playfully and extended her his arm.

“Of course sir Rock Star, it would be my great honour.” She accepted his arm with a smile waiting for him to open the door for her before moving over to enter back in the driver’s seat.

“Okay… don’t panic”. Sophia said as soon as he sit down.

“Well, now I am panicking”. He said looking at her while she was looking at her phone with a worried expression. 

“There is no signal here”. She said biting her lip, while he closed his eyes on another deep breath.

“Okay, well…”. He said, defeated. “I guess maybe we could try walking to the closest coffee shop or whatever store we can find some wi-fi?”. He proposed looking back at her.

“Sounds like a plan!”. She suggested that they took a sandwich and a bottle of water each, just in case it took longer than they were planning. Then, they moved on into walking for half an hour, if Shawn was alone he was sure he would have entered panic mode a long time ago, and would have lost some good minutes to calm down and continue, but with her, things were easier, she didn’t seem that worried, she was sure they would find a solution together, after giving him some comfort she changed topics and started to tell him a story of how she managed to catch the wrong bus in Poland last year, and ended up in a small village, where no one would speak English.

“Nooo, what? No!”. He said stopping for a second to look at her. “You are serious?” 

“Yep, believe me, it was one of the scariest moments of my life, because I didn’t know how to come back to my hotel, and the only think I cold pick up from the bus schedule was that the next bus was only the following morning. Plus, my phone ran away of battery.” She said, them both starting to walk again. “I was walking around trying to find a store or something, but there was nothing, it was a very rural area, and it was almost dark when this old nice lady approached me. Miraculously she also spoke English, and she was so kind to me I can’t even! She told me all about her life, and how she ended up in Poland. She was jewish, her mother and father died during the war, so it was just her and her sister. What struck me the most was that, she was not sad, she was hopeful, and grateful even”. Sophia said, her eyes getting glossy and her voice trembling remembering all the story. Shawn stayed silent waiting for her to finish.

“She told me how blessed she felt that she would still have her sister with her after all the horrors they experienced together, and how many families she used to know and grew up with, entirely died, or only one of them survived. She told me she didn’t thing she would still be here if it wasn’t for her little sister giving her the strength she needed to move forward and try to heal their wounds the best way she could. She was one of the most brave and resilient people I met, and I am everyday grateful to have gotten the wrong bus after meeting her. We still talk, she lives in a very far village, a small retreat from the world, but still she manages to email me every now and then”. She said with a smile. Shawn didn’t have any words he could think to describe how he was feeling. The way she told him the story with so much empathy, he knew that there was probably much more detail that she decided to leave out considering also the moment they were having together, but it all just struck his heart too.

“I would really like to meet her too”. He said, before embracing her on a tight hug he felt like both of them needed. They untied himself a little bit early than any of them would have liked, but enough to not leave any of them hanging in an awkward moment.

“Hmm… I think we are close”. She said, moving a step backwards and signing her head to a girl walking with a coffee cup in her hand. 

“Phew! Thanks God”. Shawn exhaled, his shoulders visibly relaxing.

“Were you annoyed by me already?”. She giggled playfully.

“No… not at all, but honestly I would much rather like to be with you having our picnic than looking out for a wifi signal”. He chuckled, grabbing her hand in an involuntary movement and running with her towards the coffee shop making her gasp but smile at his sudden movement. “Madame Blue, I hope you will find our simple café satisfying”. He said, smiling but when he tried to open the door his face changed to a frown. “You’ve got to be kidding me!”. He said, frustrated. But visibly relaxed once she started laughing. 

“Well mister Rock Star I believe we are too late.” She played, not letting the tension fill up her mind.

“Well, well, there is a gas station”. He pointed with satisfaction at the opposite side of the street, she made a motion of starting to walk in that direction but he stopped her. “Nop…”

“ No?”

“Just wait here okay? I promise it will be worth it…”. He said praying that these place would sell flowers, because it was the least he could do after that crazy unplanned day, and also because the café had very nice chairs available in the outside that they could sit and not be bothered.

“Fine, let’s do it your way Mendes”. She replied cheerfully, reassuring him with her eyes. He then moved forward to put his plan in practice, once he got on the other side of the road, he looked back just as if he was checking if she was still there and was satisfied with the image of her exploring the outside area of the café and choosing to sit on a double bench.

“Okay Shawn, let’s try to make this better”. Shawn got inside the store and asked for the wi-fi password, he moved on to calling the renting car company and explaining everything that happened. They apologised profusely, and told him unfortunately all they could do would be to send out a taxi to pick them up for free, as all the other vehicles were booked. Shawn was not happy at the answer, but he accepted it, thinking that they could always sneak to the park close to Sophia and Connor’s house and stay there for the rest of the day. It was not ideal, but it was a new and doable plan. He managed to buy two coffees in the convenience store, some vanilla cookies, and also a chocolate rose which was the closest he could get to roses. He then left and proceeded to get back to her. When he looked at where she was sitting, he noticed how she was looking at him, and suddenly felt nervous again. His heart was racing, hands shaking a bit while he tried to still them to make sure he wouldn’t spill out the coffee. Once he got in front of her it took him some seconds to get out of trance they both were in.

“Okay, ahem…”. He scratched his throat, and took a deep breath trying to slow down his racing heart. He had no idea why he was so nervous, but it was an effect she had on him, even if they were only talking thru the phone or texting, he would always get this mix of being exited and stressed out about saying the wrong thing. Once last week he had mentioned Sophia in one of his talks with Connor, and their friend let it slip that Sophia was worried he was working too hard, and the fact that she was asking about him and worrying about him made his heart beat so loud that he thought Connor would be able to hear it. It was almost like he had never done any of that before, and maybe he hadn’t, because he truly felt like he was falling in love with her and he couldn’t find any other moment in his life to compare to the feeling. He talked with Aaliyah, worried that he was just not doing things the right way, and asking her opinion on his idea for asking Sophia out. She was happy for him, and told him he had no reason to be not even a little self conscious about it, because from what she had heard Sophia was also very much into him. Even though that was supposed to soothe his feelings it made him even more nervous than before.

“Shawn?”. She asked when he seemed to have dozed out while looking at her eyes.

“Yeah…, so… here is the coffee”. He answered hoping she wouldn’t notice his shaky hands. “And, I tried to buy you flowers, but that was all they had, I am sorry.” Shawn apologised giving her the chocolate rose and making her smile.

“Don’t be sorry, this is perfect, I love chocolate”. She accepted the flower from him and sipped on her coffee. “Did you manage to call them?” She asked, worried that he wasn’t, able to, since he appeared even more nervous than before he left, or maybe she was more nervous? At that point she couldn’t tell anymore.

“Yeah, and about that, they said there is no other car available, but they will be sending us a taxi, it should be here in thirty minutes or so. I thought we could maybe go to the park near your apartment…, unless you would rather go home? I mean I would totally understand.” He stuttered, and looked down worried she might say no.

“I think it’s a great plan, we can see the sunset, do you ever tree climb? Because there is tree house there, I think it was meant for kids, but since most people living there are college students, it normally is empty. I go there when I need to be alone.” She proposed, and he felt his nervousness giving in to his excitement.

“Sounds great by me”. 

They kept talking until the taxi arrived, and for Shawn’s sake there were no other surprises until they got to the tree house, he was relieved something had finally worked out.

“This place is truly great, thanks for showing it to me”. He said looking down and seeing a bunch of trees and nothing else.

“It is great to see the stars too, but today is a bit cloudy.” Sophia was right, there was no way they would be able to see the sunset, nor the stars. “Still pretty though, I always imagine that this must be the view the birds have everyday when they are flying. I would like to be a bird I think. You would also be an amazing bird, good music every day”. He smiled suddenly feeling the need to be closer to her.

Before they could say or do anything a loud thunder woke them up from their wonderland. And they both decided maybe it would be better to go. Before they could reach the beginning of the park the rain caught them. Without much thought Shawn intertwined her fingers with his and started running the few blocks towards her apartment. 

“Oh, the summer rains”. She chucked once they got to the main door of the building and the rain was starting to fade away. “You are soaked!”. She stated looking down and realising she also was the same way. As her eyes were back up, she caught him staring at her and she bit her lower lip blushing and making him nervous again. “Come on… you should come in… I don’t want you to be sick”. They rushed inside without saying anything all the way, and meeting a very happy Connor once they got to the door.

“Sophiaaaaa, you are ba… Oh, hi Shawn!”. Connor gave them sorry look, feeling as if he had just interrupted something

“We were caught by the rain, do you think you can lend him some dry clothes?”. Sophia asked”.

“Yeah for sure, come on in Shawn.” Connor quickly guided him to his room, and Sophia made her way into hers to change.

Shawn was silent the entire time, the day playing in his head, and how everything just went wrong but still he managed to feel like everything was just as it should have happened.

“Ahem”. Connor stretched his hands out to him with some dry clothes.

“Oh, yeah. Thank you, Con!”. Shawn refocused, and took the clothes and the towel stepping into Connor’s shower.

He made sure to take a very fast shower, his thoughts going back to the moment of when it started to rain and thinking of how he should have just kissed her anyways, and not giving a fuck to the rain. She was just too perfect for him, he was still wondering if she was in fact real, because sometimes it all just seemed a dream.

“So… dude, I wanna know everything! I also need to tell you that you are not allowed to break her heart, okay?” Connor played with his nerved that were already on edge. Shawn took a few seconds to open his mouth, still thinking of how would it feel to kiss her, and if his heart could even handle it.

“I… I don’t know what to say. I won’t break her heart, I think I would just be breaking my own if I did it. We just fit to right together! Connor I can’t believe you didn’t introduce us before!” Connor laughed, happy for them both.

“I am happy for you Man! You really deserve her and she really deserves someone like you, I wouldn’t pick anyone better.” Shawn felt reassured, but still a part of him wondered if he would be enough. They didn’t think a lot though, because they could hear that Sophia was making something in the kitchen already.

“Just tea, I hope you like tea Shawn?”. She said giving him and Connor a Harry Potter mugs filled with her favorite tea.

“Let me guess, Strawberry with Vanilla seeds?” Connor asked already knowing the answer. “That’s her favorite tea”. Connor mentioned looking to Shawn, making sure he was memorising that piece of information. “I will leave you two lovebirds alone”. He said making both of them flush.

“This tea is very good”. Shawn broke the silence. Leaving the mug on the kitchen table.

“I…”

“I…” 

“You first”. Sophia waited for him to finish his thought.

“Although everything went to trash, I really enjoyed spending the day with you, and I hope… I hope we can do it more often”. He looked into her eyes instantly feeling the need to kiss her again. “Also I… I can’t stop thinking about you.” She stared back at him biting her lips.

“I can’t stop thinking about you either”. She said instantly feeling his lips embracing hers in a kiss.

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1. In Wonder

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Sophia woke up still thinking of the night that had passed. She knew that Connor would fill up her mind with questions later. A part of her wanted to answer them all, and unravel her feelings to her best fried, and a part of her wanted to just keep everything for herself, because she thought she had never felt so in wonder before.

Shawn and her managed to talk the entire night, he ignored everyone else at that party and she did the same, it was never so easy to talk with someone as it had been with him, and every time they switched topics randomly it felt right. She was a bit scared by the thoughts coming to her mind and how she just managed to talk to him like they had known themselves forever.

She smiled for herself looking up to the ceiling and feeling like a 16 years old girl again. She didn’t know where they would go with it, but she knew she had no intention of stopping whatever they had so quickly started the night before. She also knew he was leaving for a world tour next year and taking her best friend with him. Although that did not seem to matter at all when she didn’t think twice to give him her number when he asked to send her a new song he was working on, saying he wanted to get her opinion on the lyrics. Even though she made it very clear to him that her type of writing was more on a novel style, and not music. She did explain to him about what she was writing at the moment, and he quickly got fascinated by it, she had spend some time travelling around the world and she collected multiple fascinating stories of people which were now going all together in her first book. She also told him that style was not her first choice but that she felt like she had no choice after spending days thinking of how amazing these ordinary people were and how their stories should be told. She told him that before she travelled, she had half of a fiction book done, and that she still intended to finishing it up. He explained to her all the ways he got inspired by travelling too, and how that would influence his music, and that even though she had never tried to write music, her opinion would still interest him very much. And truth being told he also really wanted to get her number, and he didn’t want all the teasing that would come if he asked Connor for it.

She would have spent more time brooding about their conversation, if it wasn’t for the knock on her door.

“Come in, Con”. She said, knowing it was pointless to avoid him and his questions.

“Are we gonna talk about it?”. He asked, teasing her and making her blush slightly. “Blushing already?”. He stated, playful smile on his face while he sited beside her in her bed.

After a few seconds in silent, she took a defeated deep breath and turned her gaze to him. “What do you want to know?”

“Well, what are you feeling? Want to know what is inside your head of course.”

“I… It’s just a mess of thoughts… kinda crazy.” She said, but the little smile on her face was all the answer he needed.

“So love at first sight hun?”. He teased again.

“Is it scary that I feel like I have known him since forever? We just talked once, and also the tour is coming and you are leaving to other continents.”

She was being cautious, Connor knew her too well to know that she was fighting an inside battle to whether let her self be vulnerable and just get deeper into her feelings, or just blocking it all out.

“You liked him! And I have a feeling that he also liked you… and I know you are confused right now, but don’t run away from your feelings, you never know what it could become. Just give it a shot you know”. He told her and she nodded, she knew he was right, and even though she felt scared she decided to reply his text with the lyrics.

“Okay Con, if he breaks my heart though, you will be responsible to buy me ice cream and cookies, deal?”. He hugged her with a happy smile in his face.

“I will make sure he doesn’t break your heart”. He promised, even though she knew it was not up to him. She got her phone and looked at the notification again. Connor decided it was best to leave her to it, so he just silently got away to his room while she got immersed in her thoughts.

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Shawn woke up with a smile on his face, he moved his arms around the bed just to open his eyes and find it empty. He let out a grunt in frustration because it was all a dream but he truly felt it so real. He shut his eyes one more time thinking about her the night before, how they easily talked about nothing and everything at the same time, and how it just felt right.

“So…” he scratched his throat before continuing, suddenly feeling a bit anxious. “How do you like the party?”. He asked, not really knowing what to say to her.

“Well we just got here, but not what I was expecting to be honest”. She said making him frown. “I mean in a good way… Because you all just fit in like a family”. She said smiling and making him smile too.

“I hope you feel like part of it too, I mean… being Connor’s best friend and all”. He said cursing internally at himself of being so nervous, he had just met her, he should not be that nervous!

“For sure, it makes me more comfortable to go visit… Connor, go visit Connor.” She said taking a deep breath. They stayed silent for some seconds, looking at each other’s eyes before she broke up the tension with a question. “Are you nervous about it? I know it's not your first tour, but still, big deal yeah?”

“Yeah, well I love what I do, but of course I still get nervous, and I can’t say that I am at the best moment of my life anxiety-wise, but still I hope that I will manage all the dates, I don’t wanna disappoint any of the fans. And it will be the biggest tour I have ever done, so… sometimes I guess I do get insecure about it all.” He said, stopping and thinking how deep he had gotten into himself with only a few sentences.

“I have to admit that I haven’t heard most of your songs, but the ones I did hear left me in awe. So I am sure you will do your best during this tour, and it will most likely be your best one yet. Don’t forget to have fun too! Don’t worry too much.” She said, touching just the right spots to soften the anxiety that was building inside his heart.

“Connor mentioned something about you writing as well?”. He said, wanting to know more about her life too.

“Yeah, I mean, I am just starting. Never wrote any music though. Right now I am writing a book about other people’s stories. I travelled some places last year and I just got caught up with some of the things I heard. And I thought the world should hear them too” She explained with passionate eyes, slowly she unraveled some more about her travels, and how all of that touched her heart, Shawn could associate with that a lot since it was the same for him. They jumped from place to place telling each other all their experiences meeting new people and getting their minds inside of new culture frames. Not only that, but also the way it all would influence in how they would get inspired and reflect on their respective works. Shawn caught himself sharing some stories with her that he had never told anyone, and the way she would listen and understand just kept him going until it was time for him to give his speech.

“Hey Shawn, sorry to interrupt but we are already fifteen minutes behind the schedule, we need to move on showing everyone the overview of the tour and also you should say a few words to get everyone going.” Andrew said, interrupting them.

“Yes, oh my it’s already past midnight…, yeah Andrew I will be up in a minute.” He said, waiting for Andrew to leave them alone again before turning to Sophia one more time. “So… would you like to give me some feedback on this new song I am writing?” Shawn immediately cursed inside his mind, this was such a weird way of asking for someone’s number.

“I mean… I have never really wrote any song, but sure, why not?”. She answered, easing his thoughts a bit. “So… this is my number, just text me and we can brainstorm together, anytime”. She said showing him her screen, he took a picture of her number, and before he could think of saying anything else Andrew was looking his way and silently telling him to hurry up. “I think you probably should go now”. She said turning her head towards Andrew, making him follow.

“Yeah, well, probably, it was very very nice talking to you, I hope we can do it again.” He said and gave her a nervous quick hug, enough to make his heart skip a beat.

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Shawn sighted and smiled like he was back in his sixteens, his thoughts were drifted by Sophia's reply to his message.

“Wow, Shawn I think this song is one of the best songs I have every heard in my life, I am speechless”. She texted making his smile grow even bigger. Before he could stop himself he had already pressed the call button, and they were again wondering inside each others’ worlds.

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She Comes First P.3 (Sophia x Shawn)

Part 1 Part 2  Masterlist Hello pretty people, I AM BACK! I can’t believe I am finishing this! It has been a while, but hope you like it :) PS. Sorry for the mistakes, is 3am (I clearly can’t write during the day as you may have already noticed…) Word count: 3,026 Warnings: Mentions of PR and anxiety.

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“Yeah, I know. Come here,” He said, referring to how bad her anxiety was at that moment, and how she was trying her best to not lose control completely. “I got you, It will be okay.” He hugged her tight one more time and made sure to keep his breathing steady.

“What-what if it doesn’t?” She stammered, trying to not start crying again.

“Well, then we figure out a plan B, together,” Shawn reassured her, knowing that she needed it.

“Okay.” She agreed and took some deep breaths with his help.

“What do you need now?” He asked after a while of breathing, and after he could no longer feel her heart racing against him.

“Can you just hold me a little bit more.” She asked, and he sited down on the floor, putting her on his lap.

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Shawn never felt so nervous over a flight in his entire life. He tried calling Sophia again, even though he knew she would have turned off her phone after asking him to stay away for one week. But, Shawn didn’t even after giving her his word he would do it. He was sweating over the cold air of the private airplane, and he was so anxious that he didn’t even know where he was gathering the strength to stay calm any longer. He just kept reminding himself over and over that she would be okay, she would be mad with him first, but they would be okay. And she would be okay too, and he would be there in a few hours, making sure she was okay.

He didn’t notice he was crying until his vision blurred, and he couldn’t really see clearly from the windows again. He closed his eyes and tried to retrieve some memories of when nothing of this was on their way. Of course, he was blaming himself, but at the same time, he could listen to her gentle voice telling him, “You shouldn’t really put this one on yourself, we weren’t dating when you accepted it.” Those were her words when he first told her that, yep. She didn’t scream, nor fought with him, nor tried to break up. She was just supportive, even if that meant fucking up her life for a while. Shawn would give anything to have denied doing it, he would have paid the money in the contract without a blink even if that meant delaying a bunch of stuff, he would have done it. Of course, Sophia was never going to try to interfere with his dreams. Still, he was interfering with her life, her stability, her mental health, and she was trying to keep him out of it so he could still be focusing on his dreams. But the thing is 100% of his dreams had her on them now, and she was happy in them. He got distracted from his thoughts by a call from his sister.

“Hi Liyah, did something happened?” He asked, trying to sound like he was okay.

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She comes first (Shawn x Sophia)

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“Fuck you, Andrew! Why did you post that video before I talked with her?” He shouted, visibly stressed out. He got the phone and tried to call his girlfriend for the 3rd time.

“Shawn, you knew we would post the video. You should have talked with Sophia before. Don’t put this one on me.” Andrew said, making Shawn turn his eyes.

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She Comes First P.3 (Sophia x Shawn)

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“Yeah, I know. Come here,” He said, referring to how bad her anxiety was at that moment, and how she was trying her best to not lose control completely. “I got you, It will be okay.” He hugged her tight one more time and made sure to keep his breathing steady.

“What-what if it doesn’t?” She stammered, trying to not start crying again.

“Well, then we figure out a plan B, together,” Shawn reassured her, knowing that she needed it.

“Okay.” She agreed and took some deep breaths with his help.

“What do you need now?” He asked after a while of breathing, and after he could no longer feel her heart racing against him.

“Can you just hold me a little bit more.” She asked, and he sited down on the floor, putting her on his lap.

“Of course.” He said, giving her a kiss on the cheek and taking a deep breath. They stayed in silence for some minutes, taking in the presence of one another.

“I am sorry.” She said after a while.

“Well, don’t be. You did nothing wrong”. He said, sincerely, she had a habit of over apologising after she had a mental breakdown, even though he didn’t mind taking care of her at all.

“I didn’t tell you the truth”. She said, looking down and playing with his fingers.

“Yeah, I am not very happy about that, but I get it”.

“You do?” She scrunched her face, and he nodded.

“Mhm, I do. But I want you to know that you can tell me anything.” He said, and she looked down. “Look at me, Boo. You know that, right?” He asked one more time. “Even if I have a lot going on, you are as much important as I am.” She nodded and let a tear go down her face, one that he quickly caught.

“I am so sorry,” She said, again taking a deep breath.

“It’s okay Love, do you want to get out of here and go back to the house?” He proposed, feeling the chilly wind coming from the outside.

“Let me just lock her up,” She said, getting up and going to lock Pinky back, she then turned to him and smiled, making him smile back instantly. He really missed her, especially when she was smiling.

“I can’t believe you are actually here.” She stated, and he giggled, grabbing her hand, pulling her closer. He caressed her face for a bit, taking in all the little details he loved, in her mouth, nose, cheeks, all his favourite parts.

“I thought you’re going to be very mad at me for being here, I was freaking out the entire way.” He said, stopping to touch her and letting her open her eyes again.

“I asked to be alone, but I don’t really want to be, I just didn’t want to bother you. And I wasn’t planning on breaking apart on a phone call, I was just going to call you in the morning and tell you that I missed my Grandma and I was staying here for a week.” She said, sincerely

“You, Miss Rose, do never bother me, never ever.” He said, middle naming her. “And I would never just let you alone after you asked to be alone crying because I know you.” He said, making her smile again.

“Thank you.”

“Always, Baby.”

They walked back to the house in silence but glued to each other. They did that a lot actually, not taking for a while, and letting their senses take over. Some days it was enough to simply feel each other’s presence.

“Oh, you are back, Shawn you should eat something.” Sophia’s Grandma said as soon as they entered the door.

“I…” He looked at Sophia as if asking if she was okay enough for him to go.

“It’s okay, Grandma is right. I will take a shower, go eat.”

“Are you sure?” He asked, turning to grab her hand and turning her to look at him, she nodded and gave him a peck on the lips. “Okay, I will be up in a bit,” He said, kissing her a little bit longer this time. “I love you.”

“I love you.” She said backwards and went up the stairs. She probably stayed in the shower longer than she should have, because when she came out Shawn was already there, in comfy clothes, and with her favourite snack waiting.

“Hi.” He smiled as soon as he saw her.

“Hi.”

“Brought you cookies and tea.” He stated happily. “Strawberry with vanilla seeds.”

“Thank you.” She said sincerely. Remembering something her mother told her once about the fact that you should marry someone that remembers your favourite tea flavour.

“Can I brush your hair?” She nodded and handled him her brush. His hands were soft while brushing her hair, way more delicate than he would play the guitar with, and it made her relax and close her eyes feeling loved. “So, I asked Andrew to finish up the PR.” He blurted after a while.

“What?” She opened her eyes and looked back at him, making him stop brushing her hair.

“Yeah, it is not really settled yet and probably I will still need to have some meetings about some stuff, but no more weird videos that I can promise.”

“Shawn, I am sorry,” She said, looking down.

“About what exactly?” He asked, gently pushing her chin up so she would look at him again.

“I didn’t want to cause…” He put his finger in her mouth, stopping her.

“You didn’t do anything, so don’t be sorry,” He said and give her a quick kiss on the lips. “I love you, so, so, so much,” He said before properly kissing her.

“I love you too.”

“I am so sorry I made you feel like you were alone in all this.” He said, brushing his nose in hers.

“It’s okay. You had a lot going on I didn’t want to just add more to that, and be the annoying girlfriend.” Sophia said, closing her eyes, something she did when she was saying something that she didn’t want to get too real.

“Stop, no. Look at me.” He asked and waited until she was looking inside his eyes before he continued. “It’s not okay, this is a 2-person relationship. And your life was going crazy, and you didn’t tell me anything.” He said gently, he was not mad at her, but he wishes she would have told him sooner what was going on.

“I am sorry.”

“I am not mad at you, I am mad at myself. Because something inside me was screaming that you were not okay, but then every time we talked, you had that beautiful smile on your face and something fun about your week to tell me. So I just thought I was going crazy because I was missing you too much.” He said sighting in the end.

“I know I should have said something, but I didn’t want to make things more complicated than they already were.” She said, trying to explain. He loved her for putting him first always, but he really needed her to understand that she also comes first to him.

“Soph… You come first, always. I know I have been doing a pretty shitty job on showing that lately, and I am sorry. But you will always come first. I love you so much, so much. And I don’t want you to be alone while your entire world is crumbling down at once.” He said brushing away a tear that fell down her face.

“And I love you back, but I also know that you are facing a lot already.” She said one more time, making him smile at her kindness, he was sure it was impossible to find a bigger heart than hers on this universe.

“Yeah, I am. And you are facing the exact same lot with me because I pulled you into my mess. But then you also have more than that lot. And you were doing it all by yourself.” He said, caressing her face and making her close her eyes again, to feel his touch better. “I don’t want you to feel alone, I need you to tell me things. The bad stuff too, don’t try to protect me from your problems, especially when they are so much bigger than a PR playing or being alone from my family on tour. It’s not like you are hiding a cold Baby girl.” He said, leaving in and kissing her temple.

“I am sorry I didn’t tell you.”

“It’s okay, I am here now. And we are getting you better. But please promise you will tell me even the smallest shitty thing in your day from now on like I broke my favourite pen or something.” He said, making her smile.

“I broke my favourite pen?”

“Yeah, I want to know that.” He said, making her giggle a bit, and he smiled as an automatic response. “Seriously Baby,” He said, still smiling.

“I promise.”

“Pinky promise?” He asked, showing her his pinky and waiting for her to intertwine hers in his.

“Pinky promise.”

“Now, do you want to talk about it? My sister told me the headlines, but I want you to tell me. If you feel like doing it now. If not that’s okay too, we could go downstairs and get some of your Grandma’s hot chocolate and more cookies.” He proposed.

“We can talk about it,” She said. She got the brush from his hand and put it on her nightstand before she sits in front of him with her legs crossed.

“Okay, first let me say... you declining universities broke my heart. And honestly, I am feeling very guilty about this one.” He started grabbing her hands and intertwining with his just to keep them closer.

“Don’t. I declined all the Toronto ones because I wouldn’t be there for the starting of it, but also because I applied to one in London and I got in, and I have been thinking about going there since I am a child, so I thought it would be good. How do you feel about living in London for 4 years?” She asked, biting her lips nervously, they had talked before, and he told her to choose, so of course he was not mad at her.

“I have always wanted to live in England to know more about your world, so let’s do this.” He said, smiling truthfully at her. “And congratulations, I am so proud of you! And I am so happy you did apply somewhere else too. And please never do that again, because I would have ended that PR ages ago if you had told me.” Shawn said, embracing Sophia on a tight hug and making them both fall on the bed, him on top of her.

“I know you would, but then Andrew would have hated me forever. Like he probably is now.” She said and noticed how he laid down by her side and looked at her before answering.

“No, he wouldn’t have, and he doesn’t. If he does, he is stupid.” He said, making her smile.

“Shawn!” She reprehended him, even though she was still smiling, and that was all he needed to know that he said the right thing.

“What? It’s true!” He said, brushing his nose on hers. “Look, he created this entire mess in the first place.”

“True.”

“Yep.” He gave her a peck on the nose before continuing. “Now he will deal with the fact that I am moving to London.”

“If you don’t want to, it’s okay. I know you love being close to your family and…” She said, going back to putting him first as always.

“And you are my family, so yeah.” He said, interrupting her.

“Seriously, though.”

“Oh, I am dead serious. I mean, of course, I love being close because most of the time I am very far. Still, we can go to Canada when you don’t have classes, and honestly, my entire family would kill me if I didn’t come. And I don’t want to be more away from you than I am already. Of course, there will be times that I will need to go to LA and stuff, but that’s just one flight away, it will just be a little bigger of a flight.”

“So do you really want to come?” She asked emphasising on the “really”.

“I really do. Did you think I was kidding when I told you to pick up wherever you wanted, and we would work it out?”

“No, but I was choosing Canada then.”

“And you changed your mind, and that’s okay.” He reassured her.

“You know moving countries is harder than it sounds like.”

“Yeah? Good thing we are in this together then!” He said, giving her a soft kiss before letting her continue.

“Flake died.”

“Liyah told me, how are you feeling about this?”

“I was sad, but then my brother was with me, and we both talked a lot about it. It helped.” She said, and he nodded, he could see that she was still not 100% fine, but that she was telling the truth. “It’s been almost a month now, it still feels weird, but I am okay, I think.”

“I am sorry he had to go, but I am sure he is jumping around up there as much as he used to jump with us.”

“Yeah, I am sure he is.” She said, giving him a smile, even though her eyes got a bit glossy again, and she let a tear run down her face.

“Maybe we can have a dog, I am not allergic anymore.” He proposed. “I mean I don’t want you to feel like I want to replace him, because I don’t…” He quickly tried to explain, even though that never really crossed her mind.

“Yeah, we could have one. But can we wait a little bit more?”

“Of course!” He said, kissing her forehead. “I missed you a lot, you know! Like so much, I thought I would go crazy.” He said, caressing her face gently.

“I missed you too, and I missed talking with you.” She said, making him smile.

“Good, because you Miss, are telling everything from now on.” He said, and she smiled for a second before she got serious again

“Grampa is sick.” She said, and took a deep breath before continuing. “He needs heart surgery.”

“When is he gonna have it?”

“He won’t, he doesn’t want to have it.” She said pouting at the end and letting more tears go down her face.

“Oh, I am so sorry baby,” He said, hugging her tight and letting some of his own tears go down his face this time.

“I don’t blame him, but I wish he would try.” She said, and he nodded still hugging her. “It’s up to him, though.”

“I wish none of this was happening.” He whispered.

“Me too, but we don’t really choose those things.” She said, trying to make him feel better, even though it was his job to do that for her at that time.

“Yeah, I will be here as long as you need me to be. And if you want to come to tour with me while you don’t start university, you can.” He said, loosing up on the hug and looking her in the eyes again just so he would know he is serious.

“Shawn, I don’t want to mess up things more than they are already.”

“You won’t because I told Andrew to end the PR.”

“Shawn...”

“No, Phi. I don’t want to do it anymore.” He said before she could tell him he should just finish it and that she didn’t want to bother his work “And you know how I figured I loved you?” He asked, and she shook her head no “It was when I started to feel love to you more than what I felt for music.”

“What are you talking about?”

“All I am saying is that. Music is my dream, the one I have always wanted, and then when you got into my life you messed me up, in a good way of course, but things shifted. It’s just you are the dream I have never dreamed of before. I would give up anything for you, and that is scary, because I really love music, but if I ever had to choose I wouldn’t even think about it for one second.” He said, closing his eyes and brushing his nose on her neck to smell her perfume. “I could definitely fall in love for another profession, but I wouldn’t find another you ever.” He said, looking inside her eyes. “So, yes I am ending this PR, it doesn’t really matter to me if I will have to pay someone, or if it would be some steps back. It doesn’t matter.”

“I love you so much, Mendes.”

“And I love you so much… Every inch of you” He said, kissing her all over her face making her giggle. They stayed quiet for some minutes, just breathing and taking the presence of each other before he talked again.

“Phi?”

“Mm?”

“Did you talked with your therapist about the anxiety?” He asked, he didn’t want to push her too much, but he needed to know that she did that because it was necessary.

“Yes”

“What did she say?”

“That I may need to go back with my meds for a while,” She said, opening her eyes and looking at his.

“How do you feel about that?” He asked, grabbing her right hand and plating a kiss on it.

“Like I have somewhat failed, it has been 4 years, you know.”

“You didn’t fail though, It’s okay to need help, we need different things in different moments of our lives. It doesn’t mean you failed Sweetheart.” He explained, trying to reason with her mind.

“I think you are right.”

“I know I am, and I will be here in every step of the way, just like you were there for me”.

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