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someday i’ll finish this song

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just two pals playing guitar at the same time, completely improvised, not giving a shit that what comes out is 8 minutes long and amateur 

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me not ruining a completely improvised piano track by trying to sing                                         

          (it's not good though)

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I guess I briefly dated a person who went out of her way to find this blog, and that’s all done now, so I’m at a weird state where I’m remembering this very old song I did, which was super improvised. As in, Ian’s on guitar, I have no idea what he’s playing. But these might be the best pure spur-of-the-moment improvised lyrics Ive ever done. And I know this person who went out of her way to find my songs will not find this song, but I’m putting it out there hoping she will.

Best lyric is most assuredly

“i don’t even dream of you anymore, your name is foreign as italian

and if you ever try to call my name, I’ll just say my name’s pretty common”

anyway, here’s a song from 7 years ago recorded in Omaha, Nebraska

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Old song, etc etc. These are some of my favorite lyrics though

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Hey! This is mostly instrumental! It’s fine?

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50% of this is okay 50% of this is super off key and pitchy and objectively embarrassing 

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normally i say “this is a bad recording”  where i’m like “i mean i kind of like it but i know i’m no like super singer or anything, but this is like, actually a bad recording. I’m posting it anyway because reasons?

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This is my first non-He & Him improv of 2019 I think? A thing happened the other day. As always, 100% of this is off the top of my head, and shhh shhh i know about my voice

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These last soft words whispered tonight/ i'm gonna tell myself i'm right/ before you leave me one last time/ I will weakly beg you to hold me tight/

hold out your hands once more/ hold me now former paramor/ you won’t hold me and that’s allright/ let's not end with a whimper let's end with a fight/ tonight

Hold our breath, the water rises up too high/ i'm trying to stiffle breathign I don't wanna die/ tonight

fading memories of your touch/ flee my mind/ soft sensations while you shudder/ feel so sublime/ I swear I want you as my wife/ but you don’t want me in your life/ I don’t want to sound dramatic/ but that’d be a lie/ cause you say your mind finds mine lacking/ cuz I’m full of dreams/ your mind is second guessing/ and mine only screams

tonight

I’m screaming at a canyon/ hoping for another side/ when it hits the end it echoes/ and I fall to my knees and cry

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this is a long improv and and its ian and me playing at the same time so enjoy

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5th caop Am , F, C, E

Half written scapegoats/ wandering into traffic/ the good Samaritan will lie and promise that it/ really happened/

You know everything/ so why do you ask questions/ that you already know/ slithering through high grass/ it’s Saint Augustine but you swear it’s corn

Our half tended fields are filled with embers/ of coalssss/ waiting for smoky breath to burn down this world

Ohhhh ohhhh ohhhhhh ohhhhh ohhh ohhhh ohhhhh*rising*

Our deserts were once oasises / till they dried up/ till they dried up

Our deserts were once a tundra/ till they died up till they died up

Our deserts were put right here/ each and every time/ and each time that we’d salt that soil we’d swear it’s fine it’s fucking fine

The soilllllllll was ruined anyway, the soillllllll looks better in shades of gray

Cause If life is a see-saw don’t let the ups and downs give you vertigoooooo/ life IS a see saw leave us be now, making crop circles

I knowww, Ohhhhh, I knowwww, WHAT DOOO I KNOWWWWW

I know I’m bad at singing okay at thinking decent at lyrics. Only good at 4 chord guitar songs that follow the same pattern. I know that I’m a good friend except for when I’m not. I know that I believe I think I hope I wish there was a Godddddd. Ohhh ohhhhh. Ohhhhhhhhhh. Ohhhhhhhhh

Focus on this scrawny greenery pushing up through sand particles, steal our breath to give us air while in a hopeless struggle, my words are therapy they’ll slowly cradle you to bed, the more hopeful your year the more it’s filled with dread

That carbon pit of pain you can feel in your chest/ Only shows us what we lost and what we have instead/ *go up* instead of greenery all we’ve got is sand/ Since the sun focused here for reasons we don’t understand/ But cast off your past at least this one last time/ Pretend your desert’s a jungle overgrown with vines

Don’t let goooo

Just don’t let goo ooo

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Two headed boy cover.

recorded before that whole thing went down.

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5th caop Am , F, C, E

Half written scapegoats/ wandering into traffic/ the good Samaritan will lie and promise that it/ really happened/

You know everything/ so why do you ask questions/ that you already know/ slithering through high grass/ it’s Saint Augustine but you swear it’s corn

Our half tended fields are filled with embers/ of coalssss/ waiting for smoky breath to burn down this world

Ohhhh ohhhh ohhhhhh ohhhhh ohhh ohhhh ohhhhh*rising*

Our deserts were once oasises / till they dried up/ till they tried up

Our deserts were once a tundra/ till they died up till they died up

Our deserts were put right here/ each and every time/ and each time we’d salt that soil we’d swear it’s fine it’s fucking fine

The soilllllllll was ruined anyway, the soillllllll looks better in shades of gray

Cause If life is a see-saw don’t let the ups and downs give you vertigoooooo/ life IS a see saw leave us be now, making crop circles

I knowww, I knowwww, I knowwww, WHAT DOOO I KNOWWWWW

I know I’m bad at singing okay at thinking decent at lyics. Only good at 4 chord guitar songs that follow the same pattern. I know I’m a good friend except for when I’m not. I know that I believe I think I hope I wish there was a Godddddd. Ohhh ohhhhh. Ohhhhhhhhhh. Ohhhhhhhhh

Focus on this scrawny greenery pushing up through sand particles, steal our breath to give us air while in a hopeless struggle, my words are therapy they’ll slowly cradle you to bed, the more hopeful your year the more it’s filled with dread

I don’t know where this stops and I don’t know if I’ll let

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Intermit memories fade like dreams/ waking up youll want to go to sleep

And intimate dreams fade even faster, of you of you

Hold me sweetly my whispered nothings, all nothings start from something

And something is like dreaming, dreaming, dreaming of you. Dreaming of you.

Hold on for us so we can hold back, hold back for us so we can have some slack, have some slack for us so we can take it back, take back take back that love that love

And you were too. And you were too too too too, and you were tooooo. And you were too.

Holy fallen, where’s this thought gone, holy hold on, holy hold on, this love’s gone, this love’s gone, and you were too. And you were too to to too. And you were toooo. And you. Were too.

*pick up*

Rusitic vibrations go falsetto, falsettoooooo. So ro blate and caroline’s fate were just made. To lose.

And you were too.  And you were too too too too. And you were tooooo. And you. Were too.

Hold on for us so we can hold back hold back for us so we can have some slack have some slack for us so we can bring it back bring back bring back that love that love

And you were too*****

*drop*

I record songs for when I’m sleeping, to drift off, so I can avoid dreaming.

Lyric stakes that say that I have made mistakes. And so did you.

 G/C/Em no capo

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so okay like

imma make a “third” EP of mine, and imma post it under my alias soundcloud account

so I wanted an improv piano song to close it out. So this is what I did. So here are the disclaimers

1- it was fully improvised. and after a few drinks. also I’m bad at singing and piano soooo 

2- like, an annoying thing about writing is that if you write something people will automatically assume it’s coming from this like, current place? Like this is a sad song that sounds like it’s about a relationship I think is about to end. And I HAVE recently gotten myself a girlfriend. This is in no way about her. She makes me whatever the opposite of meloncholy is. But the themes here are to address the other songs in the EP, which range from like 1 to 3 years old.

anyway.  “we know” from “Cops and Shrinks”

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we know

what you’re gonna say next

we know

how we will feel depressed

we know

where we’re gonna cry into

we know

how we will strengthen from you

we know, we know we know, we know

we know our soul 

in the song

And we know

that it will come

and we know

you will one day be gone

and we know

we know

what we dare not know

but we’re brave

‘cause we still carry on

even though we know

we know

the wrong thing to say

and we know

how to avoid it today

and we know

the sounds of the train

we know, we know

it’s somehow comforting 

we know

we know

that pauses can mean anything

as much as a broken wing

we know

we will do the best we can

we know that those we care about

will too

we know all that we want to know

we know

all we need to

and we know

that this song will end

and we know

you’ll make more friends

and we know

you’ll feel better

and worse

it’s what we call life

it’s what we know

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an old song