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imagine you're a French guy in the 60s putting your fist up a bald man's asshole (you're gay and you're at the bathhouse btw) and he turns around you see his face and it's Michel Foucault and he's like Ah, merci beaucoup

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Behind every massive crash out is the realization that you just got your period

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The Cook, The Thief, His Wife & Her Lover (1989) dir. Peter Greenaway

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it’s because you’re always living in that damn castle

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feeling better than i was the other day. I have to appear completely even-tempered and helpful around my mom, so when I'm alone, my emotions explode. she called me saying social services are gonna take her kids away, and I need to get there first. then she says to stay put. then she asks me to report her husband to the police for her and interview everyone in the family for testimony. then she wants me to hold it. one minute, i'm getting ready to jump on a plane with no recourse for my cats because it sounds like my siblings are about to disappear. the next, she's acting like it's a leisurely holiday visit. i know her circumstances are unstable, and I would never say this to her face, but it has been a complete emotional battering.

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being in love is fucked up. i'm two seconds from telling her "hey! why don't we go camping? why don't we cozy up in the cold and watch the color of the sky fade through the trees together?!" i've never willingly participated in a camping trip IN MY LIFE

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Clive Barker & Stephen King on the set of SLEEPWALKERS, 1993

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MOONLIGHT (2016) Directed by Barry Jenkins

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if i could just choose to be painlessly and cleanly disposed of, I would. This world is too hopeless to bear. I wish I hadn't recovered from anorexia. If I'd kept up the pace my heart would have probably failed by now.

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going to therapy feels so ridiculous when i basically still live in the haunted house. i'm a country away, and the haunted house still follows me. how am i supposed to heal? the very idea of healing is insulting. and what about my siblings? shouldn't they have had the opportunity to heal too? instead she herded them from one monster to another. we're trapped in a loop and we will never leave the house.

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begging someone for the martyrs music video set to fka twigs "home with you" that exists in my mind

i'm obsessed with martyrs (2008) and i don't wanna be

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i'm obsessed with martyrs (2008) and i don't wanna be

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Have you ever lied about your age? (not including checking an “over 18” box on a website or anything— actually telling someone you were a different age than you were)

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reblog for something t4t to happen to you this summer.