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fucked up my last T shot so I've spent the last 5/6 days a stewing ball of anxiety and rage

can finally take my T shot tomorrow. I am so tired and so ready for proper hormones

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I am having. A very bad mental health day

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I've been seeing a LOT of xenophobia, Islamophobia, and sinophobia recently, specifically of people talking about how countries like China and Iran are "paper tigers" that are all bark and no bite

and the thought i keep having, swirling around in the back of my brain, is

maybe these countries dont WANT war?

maybe they're willing to give lots and lots of warning before they strike back in the hopes that opposition will back down and not start conflict? because they dont WANT to have to be in conflict in the first place??

not every nation is as thirsty for battle as western countries seem to be

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PRIDE

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when it gets to the part of the shift where you're like, welp! guess that's a problem for the me of tomorrow!

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got my vedic birth chart reading today and yknow? It's a bunch of stuff I already knew (but was VERY happy to have confirmed, even the not great stuff)

basically: my soul is old as mitochondria, I came back in this life to try to have a bigger and better impact on the world (to help others or radically shift society in some way), but in this lifetime I'm supposed to learn lessons like

you can't help people who don't want to be helped

no matter how noble your intentions, no matter how pure your hope is, you can't make the world into something it isn't

life is always going to be suffering

people will always find ways to disappoint you (as long as you have such high expectations)

so I guess thats where I'm at

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I don't know why, but America is the first supporter of Israel, as two days ago everyone in the Security Council voted to stop the war on Gaza directly, while America objected to this resolution against the veto. Is it possible that this is in our interest, or do they not want this genocide against us to stop?

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Inside Israel's Gaza 'Humanitarian' Foundation death camps.

A system of engineered scarcity to maintain control over a population through food and using starvation as a weapon.

Source: UN Media Library

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every time I see some bigshot scientist revealed as a fraud my knee-jerk reaction is "hell yeah elisabeth bik got 'em good" AND IM RIGHT

SHE NEVER QUITS!!!!

ICONIC!!!!

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I'd still trust you with my life doctor tbh

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6/7/2025

The National guard is being deployed to Los Angeles to support ICE.

Mask up. Black bloc. White citizens to the front.

ICE and the LAPD have been firing rubber bullets directly at protesters and utilizing weapons like tear gas.

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nevermind I heard back from that friend I was anxious about yesterday, all good

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paid a professional astrologer/spiritualist real actual money to draw up my birth chart and tell me why I'm like this and I'm deadass worried she's going to look at my chart and be like "actually you're annoying and weird and fake and ugly here's your money back dont contact me again :/"

and realistically I know thats not going to happen. thats just where my self esteem is at

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it's like I just punked myself

reached out to a friend I haven't spoken to in a while.

I said, "hey is this X?"

and he texted back immediately, yep, what's up

and I said what's up, it's me, asked him if he ever moved to Japan like he was saying he wanted to

.......no response

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reached out to a friend I haven't spoken to in a while.

I said, "hey is this X?"

and he texted back immediately, yep, what's up

and I said what's up, it's me, asked him if he ever moved to Japan like he was saying he wanted to

.......no response