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"Right." He mused, pausing for a moment. Sometimes he couldn't help it, falling back into his default of wanting to keep everyone at arms length. Somehow Buck managed to keep seeing through it, calling him out when he needed it and deciding that for some reason Hunter was worth keeping in his life. It was a balance he didn't expect but didn't hate either. "A caring arsonist. Not the weirdest thing this city has ever seen." Looking back down at the file, Hunter read through it for a moment. "If we follow that theory, then they are most likely going to hit the construction site that just went up after everyone goes home, or one of the smaller shops that close early."

"Yeah, but not of your friends. That's just a little uncalled for." Buck replied, staring over at the other for a moment. He thought on what Hunter was asking, mulling it over in his mind. "Well, I mean it could be as simple as the ease of access. None of these things are occupied after hours, right? No bars open past ten, no homes people are living in. It's like he's targeting places that aren't going to necessarily cause human injury..." Until it did, of course. "Maybe he just needs to do it, for whatever reason, but he doesn't want to be responsible for hurting anyone."

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Of course Maddie was his voice of reason. She always had been, the one person in this world who had been there for him when it felt like no one else ever was. Still, that didn't stop him from spiraling every time he had to watch someone walk away, watch them leave. Logically he could reason that it wasn't him, that he didn't make them want to leave. But emotions and logic never go together and all he can think of is that he did something to make them go. That he wasn't good enough for them to stay.

"It's not even about romantic relationships Maddie. It's like people just keep walking away and leaving every time I start to think I can let myself trust that they're sticking around."

A gentle sigh escaped her as she sat across from her brother, eyes searching his face as she processed his admission. All of his life, Maddie had felt overly protective of him, desperate to keep him safe from anything that she had the power to. That said, keeping him safe from his own feelings was perhaps a little above her paygrade.

"Buck... I'm sure the right someone is out there for you. I want to see you happy more than anything, but sometimes these things take time. A lot of time in some cases..."

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"You might be standing there for a while." Buck spoke as he picked at the food in front of him. The truth was that he knew he couldn't hold out, especially not when Bobby there. He trusted him, the father figure he never had. "I could have saved her, if I just moved a little bit faster maybe she wouldn't have fallen when the floor collapsed."

@nctafraid asked: get out of here , i don't want to see you right now (buck @ bobby?)

✱˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐌𝐀𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐃𝐄𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐒 . | Accepting

"buck you can try and push me away all you want, but i'm not budging from this spot until you talk to me. you didn't give up on me when I fell off the wagon and started drinking again. i'm here and sober because of you and the others."

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I'm alive and have like 50 drafts on the multi and even more on Winn's blog. I really hope to start writing again I'm just so TIRED all the time rn that I'm trying to not overwork myself. Promise I love writing with y'all

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on my way home from a trip, so like this for a starter when I'm back at my computer. Specify muse or you'll get a random one!

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job interview today for a promotion, send good vibes

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Open Starter || Evan "Buck" Buckley

"No matter what I do, what I try, it isn't enough." Maybe it was his curse, just what he was meant to be. Just short of enough, close enough to barely brush up against it but to never fully grasp it. Because as he stood to look at the other, he wasn't sure what more he was supposed to say. "Every time I think I finally got it, every time I think someone is going to stay. They just leave."

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Happy Birthday Steve Rogers

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Who is gonna write with Carlos or Buck a thread based off the Rookie Day of Death episode?

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"That's the beautiful thing about stories, they are all good and different for a reason. I didn't ask to hear your ranch stories because to find out which one is better." Carlos smiled softly from his place at the counter. It was part of why he liked his job, to listen to people's stories. See what made them who they were.

"I do. I think my dad was expecting me to join the Rangers, but patrol is better suited for what I want to be doing right now. Out there in the world, with people and trying to protect them from the worst of humanity." He tilted his head slightly. "You tried out for the Seals? I might need more details on that."

"I'm sure you've got better stories," Buck replies good naturedly.

It'd been just a stop along the way to him. Just like Peru and Miami and all the other cities and small towns along the way. He'd met plenty of cool people, but nothing had stuck the way LA has.

"Do you like it," he asks now. Talk of ranches and time before forgotten in favor of Carlos. "Being a cop, I mean. I tried out for the Seals once. I don't think I'd make a good cop."

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Carlos followed as TK started to move, eagar to spend more time with the other. "Well, depends on the day. Some days I like to spend time on the beach, soak in the sun and the sound of the waves. Other times I like to find things that remind me of home."

"Let's both agree to leave the temptation to later in the evening. I am a gentleman after all." TK replied, a smile on his face as he leaned in to steal one last quick kiss, before turning away and beginning to walk along the deck towards the path. "So... What is it you do for fun around here then? What keeps an officer of the law sane during his time off?"

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"It's my job to assume the worst." Hunter countered as he leaned forward slightly. This was why he had asked Buck to come over, he needed someone who wasn't going to have the same perspective he did. Sometimes it felt like they were polar opposites of each other, and while it could be annoying it was a welcome balance. The world hadn't been kind to either of them, and while Hunter chose to shut the world out and be angry, Buck chose to love and believe in people. It was admirable really. "Okay. Going down the fire bug route, why these buildings? And why stay close to home?"

"Ok... You may have a point. But still... It's a little harsh to assume the worst, don't you think?" Buck raised an eyebrow, before letting his gaze fall back to the files, moving around some papers with his fingertips as he pondered what he saw. "I mean, it could just be a fire bug. Someone who has an itch to scratch and doesn't wanna go too far from home? Which would mean they live in the area."

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It didn't feel like he had done anything. He had done something stupid and reckless and had died for it. Had TK and his father not shown up when they did - he knew that he wasn't supposed to think about it. That he should be happy and grateful that he was alive now, alive to see another day and help put both of them away for everything they had done to those women. But he couldn't get himself to ignore the pain in his arm from the injection site, from how rough she had been with him.

"Actually it was TK that solved it." Carlos replied with a soft shrug. "My dad told me that he was the one that found the connection, that put the pieces together."

Silvana gave a small nod of her head to acknowledge that they had been arrested. She was glad, hopefully they would never see the light of day again, but if it were up to her, they would be six feet under by now.

"I don't know exactly. But at least a half-dozen, including Iris. They won't hurt anyone ever again, and that's because of you, Carlos. You trusted your gut from the second you found out about this, and as stupid as I think it was doing all of that alone, you're the reason that the cops were able to stop them."

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new carrd who this?

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I fear I will probably be adding Jimmy Collins from Smash back to the muse list, I love him so much

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Angst starter call because that's what my muses want right now, specify muse or I'll just choose one

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THE SOUNDS OF NIGHTMARES SENTENCE STARTERS .

a collection of roleplay / writing prompts , lifting quotes from " the sounds of nightmares " podcast based in the little nightmares universe .

" the look on your face says there's more on your mind . "

" would you like to talk about it ? "

" how are you feeling today ? "

" do you remember your nightmares ? "

" i remember ... everything . "

" i'm not sure that's true . "

" i woke up somewhere i didn't belong . "

" i don't quite follow . "

" can you try to explain ? "

" you can't understand . not unless you were there . "

" hey ! where are we ?! "

" they aren't children . not at all . "

" my mind was divided , and that's not fair to you . "

" everything is going to get worse from here . "

" help me ! please help me ! "

" who brought me here ? "

" i'll do everything i can to help you . "

" there's nothing bad inside you . nothing . "

" we're in this together . "

" take your pick . "

" sweets for my sweet . "

" do you know a way out of here ? "

" what are you working on ? "

" we're friends . friends tell each other things . "

" i'll play with you . "

" don't overdo it . "

" you were right there ! don't tell me you did nothing ! "

" you're upset with me , aren't you ? "

" are you going to leave ? like all the others ? "

" whatever you desire , it's yours . "

" everyone needs someone . "

" don't leave me alone ! "

" are you still angry with me ? "

" i'll protect you . "

" i hate being alone . "

" i understand more than you think . "

" you mean to escape , don't you ? "

" you're being unfair . "

" i can't help you if you hide things from me . "

" why did you bring me here ? "

" what do you want ? "

" why didn't you tell me ? "

" you promised me . "

" i don't feel like talking . "

" you never listen . "

" we can face these monsters together . "

" i need you . "

" i have nothing more to give . "

" take my hand again . "

" you abandoned me . "

" the more time you spend with someone , the harder it becomes to hide who you really are . "