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Bothersome beast, comforting friend

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I love my parents. I love them from the bottom of my heart. It hurts alot when i hurt them.

But sometimes their actions hurt me alot. So much time to forgive them, become normal with them again. I hate it when i ignore them but i Don't know or can't think of what to do with them when they hurt me. I Don't know. I really wna know. Keeping distance or ignoring them is so hard for me at the same time i Don't wnat myself to get hurt by them. I do forgive them and they repeat and i forgive them. But sometimes it becomes so unbearable that i wna escape. I want them beside me at the same time dont.

I hate this. I hate this situation.

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World a manus ase ekta reason a

Example hisebe ase amr kase lage

Ami aschi as example of useless

Fruitless

Worthless hisebe

Kothao chole jaite partm

Onk kosto hoitase

Vlo lagtase na

Likhteo kosto hoitase

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Kanna paitase

I wish amk kew love krto, bujto, shunto, share kra jaito

Amr kew na

Room full of people

Kew nai

Ami ashao kri na kew asbe emn

Humanity r upr trust ute gese

Kew pashe asbe na

Expectations kre lav ki hurt hoite hobe abr

Void

Void pura

Prithibi chere chole jaite ichcha krtase

Sobai k chere bt who is sobai

None

Kew nai

Kew nai mourn krar

Khushi hobe sobai

Burden gone

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Ami amr nijeke onk hate kri. Age onk love krtm, onk proud feel krtm. Ekhon nijer existence nijer kase ghinna lage. Ik nijeke love na krle k krbe na bt idk. I can't stop hating myself. Ami amr sob hate kri. Nijer face, nijer chokh, nijer kan. Nijer pa, nijer chul, nijer nokh. Nijer whole existence. Nijer voice and kotha bolar dhoron. Ami er jonno kothao boli na. Vlo lage na. I wish ami ager moto nijeke onk love krte partm. Idk ado possible kina.

Ami jodi nijeke dekhtm onno karor perspective theke amr face hatred n rage a vore jaito. Ghinna lagto nijeke dekhte. Bissri ekta manus

Na ase rup, na ase height, na achievement, na skill, na smartness na kisu.kisui nai. Blank. Ekta manus eto ta useless kmne hoy idk. Ghinna lage. Bissri lage pura. Amr more jaite mon chay. Bt ami parbo na as haram. I wish haram na hoito. Ki lav amr moto opodartho k diye. Beche theke ami ki krbo. Na nije happy hoito parbo na onno k. Nijeke acid diye mere fela jay na?

Kono accident hoito or kew murder krto. Bt amr death voy lage. There’s no going back. Tar thekeo voy pore ki hobe. Ami prepared na.

Amr nijeke vlo lage na. Ekdom na. Ekdom e na. Ami jibon a konodin chinta kri nai nijeke eto hate krbo. Nijeke onk.hug krte ichcha kre, maya lage bt hate kri. Vlo lage na. Koto ta hopeless ami.

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Goto porshu baba amr face niye comment krse. Bolse amr face dekhle baba r osthir lage. Amr onk kanna paitasilo bt amdr basa ta emn shanti te kadbo tar kono way nai, kono privacy nai. Ei 2 din amr mood off. Ami ma baba r sathe kotha boltasi na, samneo jai na, osthir lage naki amr face dekhle. Amr face acne te vore gese, age konodin emn hoy nai. Amr vlo lage na nijer kase. Ma baba k onk bar indirectly bolsi j eita niye kotha bolte amr vlo lage na. Bole lav hoy nai. Accha manus bura hoile ki etoi dumb hoy, idk. Amr ekhono kanna paitase, echo hoy baba r word gula. Baba k amr dekhte ichcha krtase na. Ma keo na. Vlo lage na, kothao paliye jaite mon chay, ekta escape. Job hoito Allah r rohomot a, tahole hoito basa r toxic environment a thakte hoito na. Amr r vlo lage na, 2 years almost ghore bose, hapay gesi.

I wish ma baba amk bujto. Bujbe na. Ami to ma baba students or vai bon r meye na, bujbe kno

Bujle to r ei kotha bolto na. Ekta manus r pase jokhn ma baba o thake na tar theke hoto vaga kew nai. Ajk ami ma baba r sathe 2 bela khai nai. Vlo lage na dekhte, tadr company vlo lage na

Ik ami cold behave krtasi bura ma baba r upr bt maje moddhe kra uchit. Peace. Moner shanti, peace drkr, i am desperate for it.

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Don’t think about what can happen in a month. Don’t think about what can happen in a year. Just focus on the 24 hours in front of you and do what you can to get closer to where you want to be.

Eric Thomas

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“I was looked at, but I wasn’t seen.”

-Albert Camus, “The Misunderstanding.”

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Biden Biden you can't hide

You're committing genocide

Listen up and listen well

You will rot in fucking hell!

(source)

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8 months of Genocide and, 15,500 children killed

30,000 orphans

35,000 child amputees ( Gaza has the largest population of child amputees in the world)

and there are people out there still justifying this??? like are you not human enough?

DO NOT STOP TALKING ABOUT PALESTINE!