neonlemonpie

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What is going on with tumblr

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I’m going to log back into my old blog now @yyukine

If you want you can follow me on there 🫶🫶🫶

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Wow I hope this person is right bc bf threw 2 glass beer bottles outside yesterday and I need something to happen

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When people describe misogyny as the hatred of femininity and not the hated of women… literally a spit in the face to so many

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I’m high

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oh my god im going fucking crazy *continues to live exactly the same*

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I wish i was different i wish it all was different . *cleans and does laundry *

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Well……alright

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Bf is 4 years older than me and I’ve known him since I was 15, so he was 19.

Anyway another time I was a fucking IDIOT STUPID STUPID STUPID

I was hanging out with my best friend (who just so happens to be bfs little sister, which is how we met), it was the end of my senior year of high school so I was already 18. We ended up going over to her dads house for the weekend and bf was there! (Before he was my bf…..lol)

So at this point, I’m 18, he’s 22. And we’re obviously flirting as subtly as we can in front of his sister and their dad.. until that night he looked me dead in the face and said “so Marisa. You’re legal now 👀”

He meant it in a funny way. Just like sending me a random message saying he wants to get me pregnant 2 years later. It was “funny”. I thought it was funny at the time.

That’s why I liked him. He was tall and goofy and cute and always joking around.

But those really weren’t jokes. They were just huge red flags I ran face first into and I didn’t care bc I was horny for his dumb ass

And now he’s got me. 8 years after that Facebook message I have his baby.

To think this all could have been avoided if my mom had spent any time while I was growing up nurturing me and my innocence and building up my self worth and self esteem. What a world of difference that would have made.

Now I’m thinking of that post I reblogged recently about having high standards from the very beginning. I wish I would have loved myself enough to know I deserved better.

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I’m an idiot and I’ve made many mistakes, god. If only I had radblr back then. I would have never went out with a guy that tried to hit me up by saying “I want to get you pregnant” on fucking Facebook of all places………..

Not even hi. No. That’s was it.

And I melted bc I liked him for so long but FUCK THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish radblr had saved me

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followers: what is the worst thing anyone has said when trying to flirt with you?

a guy I met on a dating app tried to call me hot by saying "if I was your dad i'd be in jail".

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sometimes your silly little brain will convince you that you need to dye your hair and change your entire personality and style to something that makes you uncomfortable but is more appealing to whoever you want to get close to. remember, this is the devil talking. AND I AM STILL LISTENING UNFORTUNATELY

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Oops lost my shit again last night

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today is the first day I feel kinda positive so ofc my appetite is bacj and maybe this diet will be harder than I thought lol

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Oh I see.

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We are watching frosty the snowman