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"Idk...he..just... ", she giggled, looking up at the ceiling, trying to cover her  tears. "He... the thought of him makes my heart ache. Every moment, every laugh, smile and conversations are now nonexistent. I guess that's how life works. He'll go his own way and I'll remain in chaos. He was my radiant sun but now I've made friends with the moon. I think he'll just forget the way we did the crazy things and all the laughter. And eventually he'd forget my name and the fact that I even existed in his life. Well, I guess I was just another fish in his pond ...but he was the goddamn ocean to me.

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Surprise||Jonah Marais||Imagine two♡

Summary: You visit Jonah on tour 

words:1314

Requested: To be posted on here, yes

Warning: None:)

Sleeping Jo-nah on the side(:

You woke up with a huge smile on your face. Today was the day you would finally see your boyfriend of two years for the first time in 3 months. As you lived in New York and He lived in California seeing each other had been a challenge since day one.

You laid in bed as you thought about when you had met him, you were in a book store with one of your headphones in, singing “say you won’t let go” quietly as you looked for a new book to catch your eye. Someone had started singing along with you, causing you to jump as you thought you were one of the only costumers in the store. You looked up and blushed as you saw a tall and extremely handsome man standing beside you who was looking down at you smiling.

“You have a beautiful voice” He said to you, causing an even bigger blush to spread across your face.

“You aren’t so bad yourself” You stated, making yourself look like an idiot but at the time you had no idea who he was, or that he was in a band.

“I should hope so"He chuckled, causing you to look up at him funny.

“Im jonah” He smiled, sticking his hand out for you to shake.

“Y/n” You smiled, taking your hand in his.

Your thoughts got cut short as the sound of a text brought you back into real life.

Jonah- Hey babygirl, I can’t wait to see you in a few days. It feels like its been a life time since Ive held you in my arms. I love you.

You smirked, if only he knew that he’d be seeing you in a few hours. You had set it up with Jack and August (the photographer). They had got to New York City this afternoon and you were going to surprise him while the boys were shopping. You had told him that with school and work you wouldn’t be able to see him until the night of the concert and you couldn’t stay. You living about an hour from the city knew that there was no way he could just “pop by” so you set it up with the two boys and they even asked you to stay for the week which you happily took off from work and you were doing online school anyways so you could just bring it all with you.

Being in a long distance relationship was extremely hard, no one had any idea how heart breaking it was to watch Jonah cry on facetime, knowing that he needs you but you can’t drive over to his house and hold him while he cries, you can’t always be the shoulder he needs you. He always tells you that when all his dreams come true the one he wants to be standing beside him is you and sometimes you aren’t there and its heartbreaking for both of you, but the love you two have for each other is strong enough to stand the distance because you both knew that one day there would be no distance.

You got up and started packing, putting all the clothes you would need for the next week in your bag, along with makeup, your laptop, two pairs of running shoes, Jonahs hoodie that you had taken from him last time you had seen him, It no longer smelt like him so you needed a knew one.

It was around 3 when you did a last check to make sure you had all the chargers, cables, headphones, or anything else you would need for your week away. Also checking for your book for the train ride before you walked out of the apartment, a huge goofy smile on your face.

When you got to the train station you sent a text to the group chat you, Jack and August had made and told them that you were waiting for the train to pull up to the sation. You three had all of this planed for weeks. The boys were gonna go shopping at the huge mall by time square and thats where you were going to meet august who will bring you to Jonah. Your plan was to walk up to him and tell him whatever he’s looking at that it would look good on him and then wait for his reaction.

You had ordered an uber a few minutes before the trained rolled into the station, hoping it would be there just after you got off, knowing you couldn’t handle the long wait. After 3 minutes of waiting(which felt like forever) Your uber pulled up and you got in, putting your bags on the seat next to you.

you- On my way to you guys, see ya in 20

You blushed reading the next, it was moments like this when you realized just how strong Jonah’s love for you was, as if the distance wasn’t enough to prove it. Your smile from there on never faded. As you got closer and closer to time square you could feel your heart pounding, you were only minutes away from being with him again, from feeling his soft lips against yours, from feeling his strong arms wrapped around you.

“Here you are miss” The driver said, pulling up drop off spot and letting you out. You replied with a ‘thank you’ and grabbed your bags, running into the mall. Jack had texted you telling you that they were in foot locker and that august was waiting at the front of the store by the doors, everything was ready, the time was now.

You being from New York you had been to this mall more than once and knew right where to go, making no stops and defiantly not walking slowly but you felt that you couldn’t walk fast enough, no matter how hard you tried. Your eyes lit up as you saw him standing there waiting.

“Hi August” you smiled at him before pulling you into a hug. He took your duffle bag and walked with you into the store, you gave him your phone and as you started walking into Jonah’s sight he started recording.

He was looking at a cream pair of adidas shoes, you chuckled at him as you knew he had the same pair in black but Jonah could never have enough shoes. You walked up to him, standing up at him but he still hadn’t looked up to see you.

“Im almost sure you have that pair in black” you laughed causing his head to snap up

“What the fuck” He said, shock covering his whole face as he pulled you into a hug. You started to giggle as you wrapped your arms around his neck as he proceeded to pick you up, causing your legs to find their way to his waist.

“How are you-what are you going here?!” He asked, refusing to pull his face away from your neck, scared that if he did this would all just be a dream and you wouldn’t be next to him.

“Im here to surprise you” You said before he pulled away and smashed his lips onto yours. God you had missed this.

“YES MY PARENTS, MY SHIP IS SAILING” Jack yelled causing you to laugh into the kiss which caused Jonah to smile. By this point the whole store was staring at you but neither of you could care less. You were back in your safe place, in the arms of Jonah where you belonged and nothing you ruin this moment.

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To all you long distance lovers ❤️

Here’s to you. There is nothing harder than being miles from the one person you wish you were an arms reach from. There’s nothing more difficult than sleeping on FaceTime instead of sleeping in their arms and losing connection when your wifi sucks. There’s nothing harder than squeezing your pillow when you want to be squeezing them. There is nothing worse than going out with your friends and wishing they were sitting right there by your side enjoying the same moments and making the same memories you were. But these sad moments and lonely nights build the strongest relationships. You learn how important communication is and how nothing can stop you from loving the one person who has broken down your walls. you cherish the moments you have and take in the everything that others take advantage of. You build the most successful relationships and one day the distance will no longer be a factor and your love will never leave your arms. keep pushing until you get there and never let the distance win. love is stronger. You’re stronger.

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Does anyone know how painful it is to only say goodmorning and goodnight over the phone. How frustrating it is to see the one you love in agonising pain and all you can do is comfort them with a txt or a phonecall. Does anyone understand how hard night times can be when you can’t sleep and your loved one is asleep already but they are in a different city, state or country….

Tenari Ioapo // based on a true story. (via tenari-ioapo)

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They say distance is a barrier But do they realize how beautiful it is? When you can't see the other  but yet, you love them and trust them. Why complain? Distance only gives a reason to love harder The miles doesn't matter as long as the love is real.

N.H // unapologetical_words

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Besfriends turn into strangers, lollipops turn into cigarettes, soda becomes alchohol, homework goes in the trash, people become drugs, innocent ones turn into sluts.    What has happened?  Remember when getting high was only was in playgrounds? when cuts and scratches were only when you fell while playing? when protection meant wearing gloves and helmets? when your enemies were your siblings? when your mom was your hero?  when wearing short skirts were cute and nothing more? when racism was only about who did the work first? when the only drugs you knew were panadols? when all friends were like besties? when hugs were a big deal? when the only goodbyes were until tomorrow?       We said we couldn't wait to grow up. Now what?

N.H // @unapologetical_words

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Girls who are soft and strong hide their feelings. They don't want anyone else to see them sad because they don't want their sadness widening. They want to be a source of contentment. They want to illuminate the place. And despite the many hardships they go through, they keep smiling. Their pain has contrived them tenacious. And they've become warriors. Girls with soft hearts think more than they should. Instead of conceding what's bothering them, they look for answers within themselves. They persist. Sometimes, even their closest ones have no idea how much they go through, and how much they're hurting. They win battles with themselves. Girls with soft hearts are pure beauty. They're the ones who hear sob stories. They're the ones who seek for every opportunity to help another. They remind others of their worth. They act confident on the outside and insecure on the inside. They are the ones who encourage others, but also the ones who are not sure if they are doing right. They are the ones who keep boxes of memories, but also the ones who spend midnights thinking about the lost loved ones. Girls with soft hearts see beauty in almost everything, but also are unsure if they're beautiful. They are the ones who show people extraordinary in the very ordinary things. Girls with soft hearts are strong but fragile. But they appreciate the little moments, afraid it won't happen again. They're happy with whatever they are, but insecure at the same time. Girls with soft hearts are beyond beautiful. They make the best of friends, girlfriends, daughters, etc.. They're the kind of people anyone are lucky to have in their lives.

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It was really hard, because out of all the people I’ve been with, he has been the one who was with me throughout, from season one to season seven. He alone was episodes of adventure. He’s been the backbone for me. So to say goodbye to him was pretty hard, because life imitated art in a way, and I never imagined losing him . Our love was intense. But eventually, everything collapsed.. It was this weird parallel, and an emotional and heartbreaking.  We weren't together anymore. And it hurt. And am choking water from the time drowned me.

N.H // @unapologetical_words (via instagram) 

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"Do you still love him?" they asked. "Ofcourse, I do", she said. "He made me genuinely happy. He made ordinary things look extraordinary. He saw the world like it was a spectrum play of colours. He gave me the kind of love every girl dreamed of having. We evoled, together. He irradiated my life. He loved me. I loved him. He showed me showed and unveiled the true beauty of love and life. He made me believe in one true love. And he was the very person to destroy it. But am pretty sure I'd still find a part of him in every person I meet. His bewitching features and mannerisms. I'd search for him. I don't think I'd ever come across someone who made me believe I'm very important. I'd always find him. Always.

N.H

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Nobody is superior. Nobody is inferior either. We are all equal.

N.H

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your mother did not spend nine months growing you a fierce heart just so it could stop beating  the moment love leaves it

N.H // @unapologetical_words

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Am from Sri Lanka.

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When you look at the mirror, you see yourself. But that's not the real you. Ofcousrse , you see your eyes, your curvy smile, your eyes and the cute nose. But that's not all that's in you. You have much more than what your mirror shows. It doesn't show the battles you've fought. It doesn't show how you inspired others. It doesn't show how many lives you've touched. You're not seeing how strong you are. In fact,  The battles fight and your strength is invisible, hidden beneath that smile. You are much more than what your mirror shows you. You're not a reflection itself. You have more in you. You're beautiful, complex, brilliant, intelligent and wonderful. And the mirror just can't show all that. It shows only one star in the galaxy, one tree in a forest and one flower in a garden. And darling, you're much more than that.

N.H

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When you are the girl who's there for everyone, you feel  lot. You have depths in you. And you dive deeper than you should. You have an ocean for a heart, and you fall for people who are afraid to swim. You dive to the depths on people and try to find the pearls in them. But you get hurt. Your heart aches, wondering if anyone will ever give you the love you deserve,. The love you give everyone else so freely. And when you love, you only see good in them and love them with all your heart. But sometimes, that doesn't happen. And when it doesn't, you try to love what you are. You try to heal yourself. You find pearls within you. And you dive deeper into yourself, drowning yourself in thoughts. You find hope in your dreams. And peace in other people's smile. You tell yourself you don't have to be saved by others. And that, you can save yourself. But see, sometimes the girl who's always there for everyone needs someone to be there for her. The girl who tries to make everyone else smile, wants someone to make her smile or laugh uncontrollably.  The girl who smiles the most, holds more pain that you've imagined. The girl who saves everyone else, needs someone to save her from drowning. The girl who gives hope to everyone else, needs a spark of hope too.  And the girl who loves others, no matter how many loves that have failed, wants to be assured she will find love. And well, this kind of heart is rare. You are diamonds. You're the precious pearls you find hidden inside a shell, in the depths of the ocean or sea. You smile like they've never been hurt. You find good in people, and ignore the bad. You calm storms in people. You acknowledge the pieces of people most ignore. You give hope, they inspire, they build fire in people. But hey, don't let yourself think that you should be always the fixer. You are human, you can ask for help too. You may not be able to save all of them. But you try your best. And darling, you're special. You're wonderful and loved and amazing. You're galaxies and wishes combined.

N.H

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And all of a sudden, everything comes crashing down. I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know what I should be doing. You know, in a tsunami, the water comes at high speed and nobody can do anything about it, so they let themselves drown, helpless. That's exactly the way I feel right now. A tsunami of thoughts come crashing at high speed and I can't stop, so I let myself drown until I no longer cn feel myself. And like glass, when it shatters and breaks, we can't fix it back, no matter how hard we try. I feel that way now. I am the glass and I am shattered and my heart is broken into pieces, and I can't fix it back. And am alone in my chaotic mind. There's no map. There's no road. It's like the world had drained me for everything I had. My life is falling apart. And I am fading.

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Girls who are soft and strong hide their feelings. They don't want anyone else to see them sad because they don't want their sadness spreading. They want to be a source of happiness. They want to brighten up the place. And no matter how many hardships they go through, they keep smiling. Their pain has made them stronger. And they've become warriors. They think more than they should. Instead of admitting what's bothering them, they look for answers within themselves. They persist. Sometimes, even their closest ones have no idea how much they go through, and how much they're hurting. They win battles with themselves. Girls with soft hearts are pure beauty. They're the ones who hear sob stories. They're the ones who seek for every opportunity to help another. They remind others of their worth. They act confident on the outside and insecure on the inside. They are the ones who encourage others, but also the ones who are not sure if they are doing right. They are the ones who keep boxes of memories, but also the ones who spend midnights thinking about the lost loved ones. Girls with soft hearts see beauty in almost everything, but also are unsure if they're beautiful. They are the ones who show people extraordinary in the very ordinary things. Girls with soft hearts are strong but fragile. But they appreciate the little moments, afraid it won't happen again. They're happy with whatever they are, but insecure at the same time. Girls with soft hearts are beyond beautiful. They make the best of friends, girlfriends, daughters, etc.. They're the kind of people anyone are lucky to have in their lives.

N.H