nicolai-schafi-viktor

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

Hello! I have moved to

@warth-of-the-necrolamb

^^

Anyway I calmed down and found a great way to deal with my overreactions now so since I am a super happy sheep again I decided to pin this. \o/

( still I will probably do dysfunctional or obsessive posts and oversharing [since I seriously have no filter of what is appropiate to share or say] in the future but that‘s just a part of my life so määääääh )

And everyone who thinks they have to block me for being a narcissistic person that has done stupid shit in the past or because you think I should change my behaviour even more then I have already archieved during my therapy:

OK feel free to do so. I am annoyed by people who want to change me into becoming a conformist to morals anyway. My main guidance I have discovered is worth following is my own rules. Even though I may rethink and adjust them occasionally it is still me who is the only one to decide how I want to live my life.

Also I can‘t stand my own past so if you want to blame me or remind me for it:

No use. I am very well aware of my own faults. But I won‘t become a better person when people constantly rub it in or remind me why I should be hated. I‘m already doing this enough to myself. But in longterm I am more focusing on making decisions that concern the present moments as it proofs to give me a more balanced ego compared to my overreactions and pure hate then any criticism from a different person is creating in me.

So best way to deal with this sheep if it doesn‘t follow your standards is to make it do its own decisions cause they are quite likely to make the sheep step by step follow its therapy guidelines and leave its dysfunctional behaviour behind.

MÄH! \o/

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

GONE

(new account that I will hopefully barely use)

I hope everyone is happy now

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

Suppose I disappear to a new account probably once again although this doesn't change my absolute wrath at why I can't just be a person that can not do shit that makes the whole world ghost me or lie at me.

Also I hope I will NEVER care about a person again. (maybe besides Schafimama who for some reason likes me despite everything that others hate me for)

I HATE INTERNET COMMUNITIES I HATE THEM (no I hate social life in general I should just never interact with a person ever again that sounds like the only way for me to exist in a way that doesn't make people hate me.)

I hate tumblr, I really not just hate tumblr I hate the whole internet. I hate that people are never honest to me and just instead of simply honestly telling me they hate me for being an arsehole, they all just run away fuck you fuck everyone. And basically I bet that's what everyone else who used to be a friend of mine in real life does too, they always just disappear, which makes me get so fucking angry at this world. I am the worst person existing, ok, but it would be easier to NOT hate myself and society so much, when people weren't always stapping my back. I bet everyone in real life (and online) who I have ever talked to plans behind my back to get rid of me. I probably leave this stupid place such as I have left every community I used to have people who I for some stupid reason cared for before. It's no use for a person like me to try find a community, when I am basically the one person in the world who is doing everything wrong and is an annoyance / disgusting garbage, no matter how often I try to use the dbt skills I have learned during my therapy and start to change my behaviour to a more functional and socially accepted one. BUT LOOKS LIKE NO MATTER WHAT I DO IT ALWAYS TURNS OUT TO BE DYSFUNCTIONAL AND MAKING EVERYONE WANT ME TO DISAPPEAR!!!

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

I HATE INTERNET COMMUNITIES I HATE THEM (no I hate social life in general I should just never interact with a person ever again that sounds like the only way for me to exist in a way that doesn't make people hate me.)

I hate tumblr, I really not just hate tumblr I hate the whole internet. I hate that people are never honest to me and just instead of simply honestly telling me they hate me for being an arsehole, they all just run away fuck you fuck everyone. And basically I bet that's what everyone else who used to be a friend of mine in real life does too, they always just disappear, which makes me get so fucking angry at this world. I am the worst person existing, ok, but it would be easier to NOT hate myself and society so much, when people weren't always stapping my back. I bet everyone in real life (and online) who I have ever talked to plans behind my back to get rid of me. I probably leave this stupid place such as I have left every community I used to have people who I for some stupid reason cared for before. It's no use for a person like me to try find a community, when I am basically the one person in the world who is doing everything wrong and is an annoyance / disgusting garbage, no matter how often I try to use the dbt skills I have learned during my therapy and start to change my behaviour to a more functional and socially accepted one. BUT LOOKS LIKE NO MATTER WHAT I DO IT ALWAYS TURNS OUT TO BE DYSFUNCTIONAL AND MAKING EVERYONE WANT ME TO DISAPPEAR!!!

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

Nuuu 🙀 (xP)

these make me feel violently unwell.

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

\o/

I had to resize my video to get this close up, so it’s a little ugly but omg Sparky can heal Stan. This is beyond adorable. I forget how much I like Stan sometimes.

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

And even if we don‘t the power of headcanon will stay! \o/

@kernblabskis

DOES sound kind of similar to Garrison's tape xP

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

Basically, in case it started out as trolls, he might have noticed it is popular with "some" people (Garrison lol), so Ned could actually do this to earn money (more or less anonymously), so it would make sense to invest into different "international" voiceboxes x)

I'm dead that's so incredibly silly xD But that's the funny stuff about us fans: We can make up entire headcanons out of tiny details.

@kernblabskis

DOES sound kind of similar to Garrison's tape xP

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

Only that maybe Ned used a "better" more natural sounding voicebox OR he edited the audio afterwards to remove any irritating noises the voicebox does.

@kernblabskis

DOES sound kind of similar to Garrison's tape xP

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

@kernblabskis

DOES sound kind of similar to Garrison's tape xP

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

I bet he‘s got lots of hobbies he does in there but this weird scene adds to it

Whatever Garrison was listening to sounded like Ned singing. what the fuck?🤣🤣🤣

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

Maybe he‘s making a secret income with foreign-language fetish asmr 😂

Whatever Garrison was listening to sounded like Ned singing. what the fuck?🤣🤣🤣

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

And yes it kind of sounds like Ned saying „touch my body“ in a grammatically right but hard to understand German with an american(or english) accent.

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

„Berühre meinen Körper“

😂

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

Dead I just listened to it again and it sounded like someone saying „Berühre meinen Körper“ (touch my body) with a bad american(?) accent xP

And yes it kind of sounds like Ned xP That‘s so silly.

Whatever Garrison was listening to sounded like Ned singing. what the fuck?🤣🤣🤣

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

Enough SP for today. My mood is different now (at least I am surprised that I liked the plots more then I had expected this season so far)

I think I will rewatch the streaming wars specials next time :3 (although I am still annoyed by the design of pigbeargirl and I don‘t like Manbearpig wearing those human clothes in that episode)

[nicolai-schafi-viktor]

The Cupid Ye episode was good and super depressing for me at the same time. (mainly because it‘s fucked up to me that SP teaches me every single time that people in the US have even more stupid fucking stereotypes then I thought they would have. Most of those stereotypes I don‘t even understand where they are coming from and find annoyingly illogical. Also it was super depressing for me how Cartmans apparent psychosis of Cupid Me/Ye was being shown. )

Time to watch SP it‘s the only way to endure my bad mood (plus I want to see if Garrison hat a part of the plot last episode)