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Dear future husband,

a life with me won't be easy. past trauma has taught me to guard my heart. i talk back and i stand up for myself. my feelings are easily hurt. i overthink everything; often believing the worst case scenario. ill need you to be very straight forward and honest with me because people in my past proved to be deceitful and untrustworthy. ill need constant reassurance of your love through words, but more importantly through actions. im still learning how to love myself. to see my self the way God sees me. i fight the voices in my head each day that tell me im not enough. i fight anxiety and depression. some days i fight just to get out of bed. but, im a fighter. ill fight for your love and for your heart. ill never quit on you.

[ninedyaa]

may your next love be one that you don't have to heal from.

[ninedyaa]

Dear Lord,

Today, I give You every thought, every fear & every doubt. Every worry & every uncertainty. I give You my crazy over-thinking. I give You my heart and ask You to protect it. I look Your direction & I declare that I will walk into my breakthrough. In Jesus name. Amen 🙏🏻

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Dear Lord,

Today, thank You for constant reminders that I am enough. I don't have to push nor hurry the process, my blessings are on time. I praise You because I am fearfully & wonderfully made. May I walk confidently in my intent knowing who You said I am. In Jesus name. Amen 🙏🏻

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Dear Lord,

Today, may Your comfort and strength arise. At times my mind is not at peace and my heart is troubled. My concerns are too great for me to handle on my own. The “what ifs” bombards my mind, stealing the peace and gladness I once had. Kill it off. In Jesus name. Amen 🙏🏻

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at some point, you have to realize that some people can stay in your heart but not in your life.

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Don't confuse a woman's patience with her intelligence! She may not say anything, she may not do anything, but she definitely notices everything. A man leaves when his pride is hurt. A woman leaves when her heart is! One day she'll get tired of waiting for you to get your act together, so she'll get hers together. But when she does, you'll never see her again!

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How to keep a relationship

How to keep a relationship: Communicate. Talk about things, the good and the bad. Be honest. Be faithful. Be there for one another. Make time for each other. Leave the past in the past, especially ex’s. Know that arguments are normal. Know that you always won’t get your way. Don’t expect change. Appreciate the flaws. Appreciate each other. Become best friends. Lastly, love each other unconditionally.

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Stop Stalking to your Ex

Stop talking to your ex. Stop talking to your ex hoping your ex has become a better person. Stop taking to your ex thinking it might work out the next time around. Stop talking to your ex and giving your ex all of these chances because if they haven't changed after one or two chances, they're never going to. Stop talking to your ex when you're missing your ex or you're feeling lonely because you need to learn the difference between being lonely and being alone. Stop talking to your ex because you feel like no one else is ever going to love you when your feelings are a direct result of their inability to love you fully. Stop talking to your ex knowing that there's already someone new and you've been replaced. Stop talking to your ex when you know that your ex isn't good for you and there's a reason why y'all aren't together anymore. Stop talking to your ex while using that your ex was your everything as an excuse to not come to terms to how things are now. Stop talking to your ex forgetting that your ex is incapable of treating you properly and has made you more miserable than happy. Stop talking to your ex and expecting your ex to feel the same way for you just because you never stopped caring. Stop talking to your ex and believing that you should settle for someone who's broken you and would only keep breaking you if you choose to keep going back. I know it's hard to stop, but it's time to remember what you deserve because your ex made you forget that and that's something you should always know. Know what you're worth and be what you're worth.

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Fact

You went to a private primary school and I went to a public school, we both ended in the same high school. We both took the same course but, I went to a state college and you went to an expensive private university, we both end up in the same workplace and receive the same salary. You woke up from the soft bed and I woke up from the floor, we both had a peaceful night rest. Your outfits are all expensive, mine are all simple and cheap, we both still cover our nakedness. You ate fried rice and roasted chicken, I ate local made food but we both still ate to our satisfaction. You ride on your own car, I use public transport but we still get to our various destinations. You may be reading this post from your Samsung Galaxy 7 Edge, iPhone 6+ and I typed it with my Touch One broken screen, we still see the same message. Lifestyle is not a competition and there are different ways to get a lot of things done, different lanes all leading to the same destination. Just because your neighbor is doing things faster does not mean you are failing. Happiness doesn’t come from having everything, but making the best out of what you have, it’s all about how you see yourself. Happiness is not having what you like. Happiness is liking what you have and being content. God is the center of our life. Enjoy life and what you have.

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Cheating

One of the most worst things that you could ever do to someone. If you're not happy with who you're with, then fucking leave them. There isn't a use staying around when you don't even feel the same way anymore. Don't think about how much you're going to hurt them, of course it's going to hurt them. But cheating on them would be worse than just breaking up with them. By breaking up with them, you're giving them time, to get over you. By staying around just because you don't want to cause them pain will just give them false hope. Causing them even more pain. As each day does go by, you're only making them suffer more and more as they fall for you even harder as each day goes by, if you're not happy, then leave. It's as simple as that. There is no excuse for cheating on someone. If you did it, then you did it. The end. So do the one that couldn't handle losing you a favour, leave. While they're still capable of going on without you. Don't leave it too late. You never know what could happen to them. If you've been there for them for too long. They start to lean on you, you become apart of them. They make you their everything and once you leave, they'll be left with nothing. So leave, while they still have something.

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Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way to get the price. Everyone who competes in the games goes to strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore I do not run like someone running aimlessly; I do not fight like a boxer beating the air. No, I strike a blow to my body and make it my slave so that after I preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize. -1 Corinthians 9:24-27

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Our deepest fear is not that we are enadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that fightens us most. We ask ourselves "WHO AM I TO BE BRILLANT, GORGEOUS, TALENTED AND FAMOUS?" Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

- Nelson Mandela

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Our uniqueness, our individuality, and our life experience molds us into fascinating beings. I hope we can embrace that. I pray we may all challenge ourselves to delve into the deepest resources of our hearts to cultivate an atmosphere of understanding, acceptance, tolerance, and compassion. We are all in this life together.

Linda Thompson

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In my deepest, darkest moments, what really got me through was a prayer. Sometimes my prayer was 'Help me'. Sometimes a prayer was 'Thank you'. What I've discovered is that intimate connection and communication with my creator will always get me through because I know my support, my help, is just a prayer away.

- Iyanla Vanzant

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You can close your eyes to the things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.

- Johnny Depp