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i really need everyone to trust me and watch hundreds of beavers on tubi. do not look anything up about it. just watch hundreds of beavers. carve out 2 hours, watch hundreds of beavers. get some friends to watch it with you. it's, an unreal movie. it's so fucking ridiculous and great. watch hundreds of beavers.

you're gonna think "sloane, are there really hundreds of beavers?"

i'm gonna tell you now. there ARE hundreds of beavers, and you will not believe what happens with all those beavers

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the predatory wasp of the palisades just landed on my fucking arm

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I’m genuinely curious about what you mean about not being able to engage in abortion discourse since having one yourself. I had a surgical one also, and while it wasn’t a physically mental or easy time in my life, I would still always pick that over the pain and emotional toll of pregnancy, and it solidly made me even more pro choice. You’re pro choice, presumably, so I’m just curious about what aspect of discourse is difficult. No need to answer if that in itself is difficult to talk about of course.

I think you misunderstand what i meant and that’s my bad because i wasn’t very clear, i just meant it was traumatic for me and most of the posts and stuff surrounding abortion at least that i see are just too flippant or removed from the real experience for me to join in, but i also didn’t want to talk about my horrible experience in case it came across like fear mongering or put other women and girls off who need abortions. I worried i was in such a minority with how it went for me, but I’m really glad i did say something now because so many women have also joined in this conversation and agreed it was the most painful thing they’ve ever experienced, and that’s been really validating for me and i wish now I’d talked about it sooner.

I am of course pro choice and i wouldn’t change a thing in terms of me terminating that pregnancy, i just think there needs to be a bigger discussion in abortion activism about raising the standards and how what we currently expect women to endure (often alone, often with no pain relief) is unacceptable. Sending women along with these pills and without adequate pain relief and expecting them to go to work, look after families, etc immediately after this procedure is in my opinion medical malpractice that’s completely normalised because it’s women and because it’s abortions. But i haven’t been able to talk about this until now because I’ve NEVER seen anyone else talk about how awful and painful it was for them and i thought well i guess i just got unlucky. But i can see now that actually no I’m not a minority, millions of women are going into these procedures unprepared and left to deal with it and the aftermath without the right support. That needs to become a priority in abortion discourse, the focus is always on access access access but even when we’ve got that access the standards are subpar. If it were men who got pregnant and had abortions the entire practise would look completely different.

And ultimately the point i was trying to make though in hindsight i wish i worded it differently was that the way people talk about abortions (mostly in leftist internet spheres but that includes radblr) is too flippant and unserious and it has the effect of making abortion seem like not a big deal or not a serious procedure when it absolutely is. I just couldn’t put my finger on what needs to change or what needs to become part of the conversation until i really interrogated what my experience means about the way abortions are handled and experienced for other women too.

We see a lot of posts about how abortion is life saving healthcare, a fundamental human right, how removing abortion access kills women, etc and that’s all great that’s imo the appropriate serious tone. There’s just information missing from the conversation about what it really is, what to expect, and what needs to improve. 1 in 3 women in the uk will get an abortion and 1/3rd of women should not be expected to endure that level of pain and discomfort in silence the way we currently are. Women who have had abortions should be a much greater voice of abortion advocation. And as much as we talk about the right to choose, there is still a culture of silence, women do not feel comfortable disclosing the fact they’ve had abortions or discussing what it was like, and while that’s the case things will not improve.

Recently i told someone “i was pregnant at the time, i didn’t keep it, obviously” and i could tell they were surprised and not expecting me to say that but for me even just saying that was such a relief, it was a major life event that effected everything at the time, and i want to be able to talk about it. i want abortion to be truly normalised, we may think it is bc it’s talked about online, but in the real world it’s not.

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please do me a favor and look up "dovekie" on your nearest image searching tool at your earliest convenience. for me. thankyou.

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worst day ever

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FRANKENSTEIN (2025)

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gonna be a lover for a minute, reblog and put in the tags the last movie that you LOVED like intensely loved like 5 stars on letterboxd LOVED

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"You wanna walk with me awhile?" "Yeah. Yeah, I do, Pete."

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COOPER HOFFMAN and DAVID JONSSON photographed by Marie Tomanova for GQ

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thinking david corenswet is hot is the most embarrassing reputation ruining annoying thing I could have done tbh like ohhh my god really? tall big muscles dark hair and blue eyes kind man is hot? god fucking really. are you fucking stupid I hate myself. oh you think superman is hot? fucking superman? groundbreaking type shit going on here oh my god he’s tall should we tell everyone he’s tall and his jaw is nice wow she thinks the attractive man is attractive. you and everyone else. is pizza your favorite food too. fuck you. everyone look at her she thinks SUPERMAN is hot boundaries are really being pushed over here should we get her a medal because she thinks Mr Smile is easy on the eyes. “hear me out” and it’s a fucking marching band. should we call people magazine. vanilla. I DISGUST myself. summer blockbuster. I should be killed

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HUNDREDS OF BEAVERS (2022) dir. Mike Cheslik

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Just browsing through Cassiel’s Servant and it really is OT3 food in a number of ways I’d forgotten. Joscelin really does care about Hyacinthe and watching him surrender to his own imprisonment is devastating for him not just because he knows how much Phedre loves him. But it’s also the little things like

Phedre, in Kushiel’s Dart: “Someone had put a blanket over us.”

Two decades and change later, Jacqueline Carey: hehe come on, of course it was Joscelin 💕

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Every time I get to make a new relationship tag on AO3, an angel gets its wings.

Fandom: The Long Walk - Richard Bachman Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Jan/Priscilla, Ray Garraty/Jan, Peter McVries/Priscilla Characters: Jan (The Long Walk), Priscilla (The Long Walk), Ray Garraty, Peter McVries, Original Female Character(s) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Role Reversal, Canon-Typical Violence, Body Horror, Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault, Implied/Referenced Underage Sex, lesbian subtext, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Sexual Harassment, Character Study, Angst, Canon-Typical Pain and Misery, Psychological Horror, Past Relationship(s), Girls’ Walk, the girls are walking, the girls are in agony 

Summary:

When the boys return to the front, the nation’s favorite past time must go on.

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Personally, I think the secret to the magicians (S1-4) is that the pathetic main character is actually pathetic. He's not secretly powerful or chosen or given a level up through a training montage. He just cares so, so fucking much about everything and everyone that he becomes the main character. And the way that he cares is not ideal. It's painful and selfish. Its so painful and selfish that it feels real in a way that few other shows can truly master because their main character must be 'good' and a stand in for the general audience. (Which is why killing him was not some subversive win for the underdog like the writers toted. Like...killing Ned Stark was subversive. Quentin's existance is already fucking subversive. Him choosing Eliot over Alice would have been fucking subversive. Alice getting a plotline/personality outside of Quentin would have been fucking subversive (that scene in season 4 where she talks to herself is soooo good. Why would more of that depth require Q's death?)) Killing Q just took away a vital aspect of what made the Magicians special and added nothing.

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i'm gonna cry

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Still thinking about that scene in chapter 10 of the long walk where Geraty asked McVries what's eating at him and he says

"the fucking price of grain in South Dakota"

Funiest shit ever