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Dumb Fanfic moment: His eyes scanned the crowd then locked with mine

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how dare my skin break out just because of my terrible diet and total disregard of regimented skincare

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What the fuck are people doing when they’re in the shower for 30 minutes

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You were there?? How was it??

it was just……. really moving and i cried but i also danced and sang and was really happy because that’s what louis wanted and that’s what he did for the crowd

i got the impression that not everyone (maybe not even the majority) knew about johannah before simon’s speech, and so the performance itself was just so uplifting and upbeat and the energy in wembley was unreal and like…… louis did that. louis brought that joy into the world. i cant fathom the strength it took but i also cant imagine a better tribute to his mum. he made people happy in a time of immeasurable sadness for himself, and like…… that’s the most louis thing i could ever think of

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small details about louis today that i absolutely adore

-that small confetti stuck in his hair -his white socks -the folds on his pants -every single time he points up -his endearing :> face -the lil hops and bops he does as he commands the stage =the twinkle in his eye whenever he reaches a high note =the soft tears he dedicates entirely to his mother

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its just so fucking sad cause you KNOW jay would’ve been gushing about how amazing her first born was on instagram and twitter, she would’ve been so jay like & over the top and so proud … it hasn’t even been a week yet and i already miss her.

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not to be soft but i like how positive and nice every1 is being about louis, no petty digs at his voice or anything bc ppl can see the bigger picture, can we just be like this all the time please it’s so much better for my blood pressure lets leave being mean for no reason im 2016 (im including myself in this) 

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if louis wants to disappear for awhile after this, i’ll make him camouflage from scratch. if he wants to continue on with his work and make more amazing music, i will be first in line to buy everything.

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how do i send a personal thank you card to everyone who has ever made louis feel loved

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what amazes me is how widely different music the boys seem to be making like niall’s song is so stripped down and simple while louis’ is more up beat and edm and then you have liam working w rappers and niall talking about harry’s rockier sound like they’ve made 5 albums as one direction and now they’re able to go off on their own and try new sounds they wouldn’t have been able to as a group and i’m so happy for all of them?? they’re all so talented and amazing both as a group and as solo artists wow

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to make sad art out of sadness is beautiful. to make positive art out of happiness is beautiful. but to make positive art out of something so sad and tragic is just… it’s just the ultimate tribute to someone you love. he’s amazing. i’m crying. god.

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The X Factor final 2010 / 2016

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You could see the pain in his eyes and in his face and every move of his body but he got up there and he did it. He did Jay proud. Brave and vulnerable and so, so full of love.

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i am so beyond proud of you

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he looked so young and small, but so incredibly strong and brave

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That performance was full of life. It was lights. It was colors. It was energy. Its goal was to make you jump and enjoy.

It was a celebration, cause that was its purpose: to celebrate Jay´s life.