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What about kisses while hugging from the back for kendis x nate if you're taking prompts?

i, in fact, am! very tentatively. you get to be my writing for the day. yay you! .... or sorry.

Nathaniel didn't like to consider himself an impulsive man --- for the fact of the matter, he's spent the entirety of his lives cultivating the exact opposite image.

His fingers flexed into a fist after he placed his hand against the doorframe, the strength of his focus was so ensnared by the sight before him that it didn't register to him that his fingernails were eating into the meat of his palm.

It was on her neck. Nate squeezed fingers even tighter together as ... something, some feeling ... some sensation .... caught in his throat. Here at the entrance of the Warehouse's kitchen, after a long and tense day at the Agency, he found boundaries of his patience being tested ...

By the large streak that had managed to find itself on the back of Kendis' neck.

His body remained rigid, stiff as the feeling lodged inside of him, as he attempted to keep himself from just grabbing them into him. He knew ... thought made him stiffen even more, but he knew that it wasn't just his touch that Kendis shied away from. Yet the thought he made them uncomfortable for some reason made him want to push further, instead of falling back. He felt as if he didn't ... he didn't crowd her than she would slip away from fingers that they didn't dare let reach them.

That was unlike him. She made him so unlike himself at times, that he hated it. He hated it so much, he thought; and the corners of his lips flowed into a smile and the frustration he'd been feeling melted away. He couldn't help but picture all the possible reasons for the flour at the back of their neck.

He found himself stepping forward, easing away from the doorway, and giving into the temptation and desire to jerk her close to him. He really wanted to. He knew he could just ask for the touch that he badly needed but Kendis being Kendis there were worse things they could say aside for 'no'. And 'no' was already devastating in it's own right.

Before he could give into the temptation, she turned partly as if she sensed him. The corner of her eye flickered toward him before she turned back toward the counter, set something down, and turned back fully toward him.

Their eyes trailed from his not-at-all artfully tousled hair and took in the wrinkles on his shirt that he hoped he had smoothed away effectively as well as the scuff on the shoes that had been polished when he'd left earlier in the day.

"Whoa. Farah wasn't kidding. You look like --"

"Please," He sighed, tired for various reasons, "don't finish that."

She scoffed but despite that a smirk tilted her lips crookedly before she teased, "Hey. I coulda hit you right off with what Morgan said. But sure." They shrugged. "Since you had such a donkey's crackhole of a day," Nathaniel resisted the urge to wince as they continued on, "I suppose I should cheer you up. An' play nice. Whadda you want? I think the dogpark's still -"

"A hug." The words slipped out before he could stop himself.

He wasn't sure if he hoped that she hadn't or that she had heard his words.

Given her sudden stillness -- a stillness that was an absence of movement that almost rival a vampire's -- it really didn't matt what he hoped. What he wanted.

It felt as if minutes crawled by and he found himself agitated again for another moment in this extremely long day -- agitated in a way he'd never really been since he was a boy .... Perhaps the was the correct term was antsy.

Perhaps that was the feeling that kept itself stuck inside of him, under his skin. Kendis often had a way of making him feel antsy.

His typically quick tongue, adept at smoothing things over felt rigid in his mouth.

And she just kept staring at him. She truly did make him feel so unlike himself.

"Sure."

The word was stated so simply, without any argument Nate would have thought it was his imagination - he likely would have missed it if he hadn't been a vampire - until she opened their arms for him to step into.

"I -"

"This has a time limit so you better hop to it."

It was his turn to stare. Then blink. Then slowly his lips curved into another smile as he caught the impatient wiggling of their fingers.

He felt as if he were slipping free from the weight of the day ... and something extra as he fell into their welcoming arms. He felt almost delirious. He felt so very light as he took the opportunity to in turn wrap his arms around them.

"You know," he started, "for someone who dislikes hugs you are quite --"

"Your luck. You're pushing it."

"I wouldn't the man you -- you cared for if I didn't." Clearly he'd become a man possessed.

Kendis let out a loud snort near his ear and pressed a soft kiss at his temple; so, of course, Nate took the opportunity to place one at the corner of her lips. They rolled their eyes.

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I saw another edit of TWC and was reminded of this Adam route edit I found on YouTube wayyy back. I think it's really worth checking out. (not mine, just liked it a lot)

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Also speaking about routes, I finally went through Adam's

Scenes below the cut :) Spoilers for all books ahead !

The first two slides are always on my mind, it irks me

Also that shirt had to go- sorry not sorry

He simultaneously pisses me off and makes me love him <3

These all of a sudden confessions need to stop, pick a STRUGGLE SIR.

Lies, you never replaced the desk you broke a literal edge off of (He's going to keep breaking things until they're together, I'm convinced)

GIRL FOCUS ON THE ROAD. Arguing with him isn't worth dying over! I love how she gets under his skin, deserved (I'm also realizing I didn't take as many ss of book one as I thought I had, whoops-)

Telling her to stay out of something she's apart of is crazy work on his part, the back and forth is going to be the end of me

He's such a sap underneath all the scowls and callousness, why can't he be like this all the time

Adam, everyone in the room heard that. I swear to god. Subtlety is not your forte😭 (You'll always catch me finding ways to include Falk I fear) I FORGOT TO SCREENSHOT WHERE SHE COMES OUT, UGHH

Once again doubting her capabilities, I'm sooo done with this man

I love the sarcasm between them and all the retorts and MASONN I love him as a best friend

THE SMALLEST ADAM MENTION and it's all because of the things he's broken, I'm dead💀 I love the little detail of even though they aren't together, she still thinks of him

The passive aggressive care is so very fitting (might not be the right term but y'know what I mean)

His sudden bursts of affections are going to give her whiplash and withdrawals

I love how Mason's very straight up about it, right to the point. I went through with the kiss even knowing the devastation that would follow, I'm weak (I fear I don't have as nearly many ss as I thought I did)

I'm now in the trenches with the rest of the A mancers after avoiding his route for so long

Even made a playlist for him while the others don't have one yet (it's got 2 songs to it's name)

The last route I need is the lt route.. and I'm not strong enough for that as we speak :P next playthrough probably

Will need to post about my detective soonn

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The Wayhaven Chronicles Book 4 - Final Demo Trailer

Exclusive Patreon Access: 28th June 2025

Public Release: 3rd July 2025 _ _ _ _

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My father has been in ICU for over a month, and is fighting for his life against an extremely rare and dangerous autoimmune disease known as TAFRO, which only has a 30% survival rate. The medical bills have started coming in from the last hospital he was at, and my family and I simply don’t know how else to keep up on them to get him the care he needs to live. If you can, please share this fundraiser to help get the word out, and any amount that you can afford to give is incredibly appreciated! Thank you so much for all of your support 💙

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Okay but tickle fights that end with MC trying to get away by kissing the RO and then running away? :DDD

Lol :D Hm…

Ok, so I couldn’t stop myself writing little scenes to this. I got carried away before I realised…

Keep reading

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This...technically isn't writing, but I feel like it still fits in on this blog.

I've been tooling around in RPG maker, just trying to figure out how it works. So here's a little...spaghetti-at-the-wall game I've put together.

Currently I'm only using the assets available, but I do really hope to learn how to put in my own assets so I can make everyone look a bit more...like themselves. If I can really figure this thing out, I'd love to recreate some of my favorite scenes from book 1, or maybe my own fic? Not sure yet. In any case, I'm just eager to play with it more.

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Martha Gellhorn, from a letter to Adlai Stevenson featured in The Selected Letters of Martha Gellhorn

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The state of affairs

Rating: Mature (18+) Relationship: Sai/Adam Warnings: Description of explicit acts, infidelity

Half a year after the events of the masquerade, Adam finds himself in front of Sai's apartment building, hoping to talk about their relationship.

Half a year - a long time for some - yet nothing in his already long and suffocating existence.

He tried, Adam thinks to himself, as he stands in front of a familiar apartment building, tense about what might come next. He tried to hide his own feelings, as he did before. He tried to forget about everything that happened between them, although he could still feel Sai's touch upon his skin, burning hot. He tried to avoid him, as much as he could, considering their forced proximity during patrols, trainings and assignments from the Agency. He tried to look away whenever their eyes met across the room, afraid of what might happen otherwise. He tried to forget that he wanted him more than anything else in this world, for both of their sakes…

But Sai Batra was not a man so easily forgettable. Adam learned it the hard way.

The more he pushed away, the more he found himself needing him. The agonizing days turned to weeks, then months and still he needed him. Nate announcing their engagement seemed like a hellish nightmare that Adam wasn't able to wake up from, knowing that now, it was all too late for him to confess his feelings, it was too late to…

"Adam?"

He looks up, pulled away from the contemplations of his actions, to see Sai standing right before him. To hear his name upon his lips, spoken so softly and with such confusion, hurts him more than anything else.

"Sai." He drops the mask of a cold and distant commanding agent, calling him by his name in turn. There's no one here to question why he does it, no one to cast doubt on the meaning behind his choice of words and Adam doesn't feel like putting on an act.

"What are you doing here?"

"I heard you needed a ride to the Warehouse today." An easy enough excuse, considering everything that has happened lately. Sai's car finally broke down and although he sent it to a mechanic right away, the car was old enough that it needed time and more than a couple of repairs. Which meant that until the Agency could provide him with a suitable replacement, he would have to rely on Unit Bravo to give him a ride every now and then. It would've been easier for him to move in with them for the time being but Adam refused the idea, quickly regretting it afterwards.

"So you… Volunteered? To take me there?"

"No. Talking about it and trying to figure it out would've been a waste of time. I just left and drove here." He wasn't exactly lying, but he wasn't telling the truth either. Mason was supposed to be the one to give Sai a ride but he was easily convinced to let Adam do it instead. If he remembered correctly, the other vampire gave him a shrug and instead of getting in the car, pulled out freshly acquired cigarettes, going for a smoke without asking any further questions.

"Does Nate know you're here?" Sai asks after a moment of hesitation, looking to the side, nervousness written all over his face.

"If you're asking if I told him where I was going, then no. He doesn't know."

Silence is all that follows. The cold wind howls around them, the sun lazily rising over the horizon. Spring was almost here yet the biting frost and gloomy weather persisted, clinging desperately to the last remnants of winter - yet somehow, while looking out the window at the snow falling, Adam understood, finally, after all this time, just how hard it was to let go.

"I…" Sai stops himself before he can even begin, his expression shifting to a mixture of sadness and uncertainty. "I suppose we should be going then." He walks up to the car, snow crunching beneath his shoes. Adam moves to the side, waiting for Sai to get inside before he follows suit. The atmosphere inside of the vehicle isn't any better, heavy tension and so many unspoken words hanging over their heads, Adam hesitating for just a moment before clearing his throat at the sight of Sai plugging in headphones to a small music player, catching his attention.

"I'm also here because I wanted to speak with you," he says, his words making Sai put his belongings back into the backpack he brought along.

"With how our conversations usually go, I doubt we'll have enough time." Sai's words make him smile, the rumble of the engine forcing him to focus on the road ahead. "It's not a long ride."

"We won't be taking the usual route," Adam says, before backing out of the parking lot.

Wayhaven in winter was truly a sight to behold, the fields and forests sleeping under a heavy coat of snow, nearby rivers frozen in time, waiting for their turn to welcome spring with open arms. As they drove, Sai kept looking out of the window, his eyes focused on the beauty beyond, as was his habit to do. Adam felt guilty at the thought that slowly creeped into his mind - this time of year meant so much to him and what did Adam do with it? Nothing. Sai's birthday came and he didn't say anything. Their eyes met for just a moment before Sai kissed Nate as another year ended. He ignored him, pushed him away, stopped himself from doing that which would mean the world to him.

"You said you wanted to talk." Sai's voice once again pulls him away from his own thoughts, Adam blinking them away. He can only nod, before turning yet another corner, making the car stop on the side of the road. Sai looks around, visibly confused at his actions, before letting out a silent sigh.

A moment passes. Then another. And then, Adam's words cut through the uncomfortable silence, making Sai almost choke on air.

"Do not marry him."

"I'm sorry?" the sheer absurdness of Adam's request makes Sai's body shake where he sits, from anger, from confusion, from all of the emotions that he's been trying to hide while Adam once again pushed away from him.

"Do not marry him." Adam repeats, as if his words didn't reach Sai's ears in an instant just a moment before. "I've known Nate longer than you have. This… This engagement is a mistake." He's not looking at him, while the words spill out of his mouth. It's too late to stop them, it's too late to hold back now.

"A mistake? Why would you… Is this what you wanted to talk about? My relationship with Nate?"

"No but it's-"

"Why? Answer me, why? Why do you take me out here, why do you pretend like…" Sai chokes on his own words, yet Adam's still not brave enough to look at him. "I almost accepted it, you know? This thought that maybe, after all that happened, you finally decided. That you finally let me go, even after I made it so clear that…"

A cruel memory resurfaces at the crumbling shores of Adam's mind, a painful reminder of yet another failure. He told him then, he told him of his deepest desires, he told him that he wanted him, needed him. And still, when Nate walked into the room, rushing toward Sai, Adam didn't find the strength to say or do anything. He could only watch and weep.

"It's not my intention to cause you any more pain." He can feel Sai's emotions, he can smell the rage and resentment deep inside of him, yet so many other things tell him to keep going, to say what needs to be said.

"Then what IS your intention, Adam?"

"For you to reconsider." That much, at least, is true. "I don't want you jumping into something that you'll…" That you'll regret, that you'll curse yourself over for the rest of your life. "I can tell that you're unhappy. I can tell that this is not what you really want and I…"

"So this is what you want? For me to uproot my entire life and chase after you? Again? To tell Nate that we can't be together for what? A chance?" Sai's words pierce through him like a bullet, filling his soul with anguish because at the end of the day, he's asking exactly for what Sai's accusing him of. They sit in silence once more, Adam feeling Sai's gaze burning into him.

"Then… What do you want, Sai?" Adam asks, uncertain of his own words, before finally turning his gaze to the other man.

He looks as if he's about to cry, his fingers nervously reaching for the engagement ring upon his hand. He takes a shuddered breath, looking back at Adam.

"You know what I want… But you won't give it to me."

His words send a shiver through Adam's body.

"What if I… What if I could…" The sight of Sai turning away to wipe away tears forming in the corner of his eyes makes him halt his words.

"Adam, you… You can't do this to me, not again." Sai's voice is but a mere whisper, as he keeps looking away from him and Adam feels his heart, his soul, shatter. Should Sai ask, he'd give the world to him. He'd do anything, say anything. He'd be the most ideal version of himself that he buried under the earth over nine hundred years ago, when his emotions cost him everything. He tried so hard not to act on them and still, it was his emotions that made him drive to Sai's apartment in the first place. It was his emotions that made him say things he only dreamed of saying. And now…

"This time… This time, I…" he reaches out, slowly and as carefully as he can, grasping by Sai's trembling fingers. He doesn't pull away or tell him to stop, instead looking back at him.

Looking up into Adam's icy green eyes, Sai feels as if they're back in that car again, a moment that now felt so distant, looking at one another. Something changed that day - for both of them - a feeling, a thought, that never left their presence. He can feel it still, pulling them toward one another, calming their nerves, soothing their heartaches, as if reassuring them both that they are where they're supposed to be. With one another, away from prying eyes of those who would deny them their feelings.

"This time, I'm not going anywhere." A newly found confidence surges through Adam's body, pushing him to say what he wished to say for so long: "This time, I'm staying. Here, with you. I promise you."

Sai doesn't respond, but Adam can hear his heart beat a little faster, telling him all he needs to know. He wants this, as much as Adam does and that's all that matters…

He leans forward toward Sai, capturing his lips with his own, suddenly and without a second thought. And Sai, for all of his sadness and hesitation, returns the kiss, making it all the sweeter. It's tender and sensual, Sai's lips tasting still of his favourite tea that he drank this morning, Adam's breath catching in his throat at the motion, afraid to stop it. After a moment they pull away from one another and Adam dares to breathe once more.

A part of him wishes to start the car back up again and continue on their way but before he can even suggest it, Sai unbuckles the safety belt holding him in place. Quickly and clumsily, he pushes himself onto Adam's lap, bumping his head against the roof of the car. Adam lets out a laugh at the motion, almost involuntarily, making Sai laugh as well, as he wipes the last of his tears, before leaning forward and kissing him once again. Adam's hands wrap around Sai's waist, pulling him closer, in a move so desperate, he's worried that he'll overwhelm him. But Sai only hums at the motion, his fingers tangled in Adam's hair, each kiss more desperate, more hungry, given and taken with such urgency.

Adam can feel Sai's breath against him, as they break yet another kiss, the skin on his lip now broken from Sai's teeth biting onto it. He feels almost delirious from the sensation, letting a moan escape his own lips as he feels Sai's hardness push against his own, painful against the material of his trousers. From the corner of his eye, Adam can see the engagement ring on Sai's finger glisten in the light but Sai quickly brings his attention back to himself, as he grinds against him, making Adam all but lose it.

And then, in the midst of all the lust and longing, a sound. A soul piercing, faint sound, of Sai's phone ringing to the side, on the passenger seat. They both freeze in place, their heavy breaths out of rhythm. The phone keeps ringing, making Sai glance to the side, seeing the one name that could bring him back to earth from this ecstasy.

Nate.

This time however, the usual pang of guilt and nausea is absent from Sai's stomach, as he turns his gaze back towards Adam, the sound of the phone slowly becoming a muffled background noise, as they both lose each other in the depths of their eyes. Sai's expression says it all: Focus on me, only on me - his gaze tells Adam, as his fingers reach underneath Sai's coat, pressing against the delicate fabric of his shirt. Just me and you - his gaze commands, as Adam leaves the trail of kisses and bruised up marks against his skin. Just us, against this cruel world, this cruel fate, that bound us together - his gaze whispers, as Adam draws out a moan out of his lips, a sound he was so desperate to hear after all this time.

And the phone continues to ring.

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a du mortain who would never admit it but feels mildly offended when they don't get the chance to open the car door for their detective

a du mortain who checks if they've eaten, takes an interest in how to prepare their favorite foods and becomes invested in the detectives longterm health, often to a fault

a du mortain who grips their arms with care as they're guiding a tipsy detective across the parking lot, fending off clumsy affections with a flustered smile before buckling them in and taking them home

a du mortain stern and worried as they stress the importance of car maintenance while fixing up the hatchback yet again after coaxing it back to life on the side of the road earlier

a du mortain who would never admit it, but enjoys the warmth of human life around them as they follow the detective dutifully to any social function they've been dragged to. Sits by their side glaring off unwanted suitors half the time, and spends the rest trying not to wax poetics about the way the detectives thigh is pressed against theirs in the booth where they're sat side by side

a du mortain who rests one hand on the wheel, and another on the detective while driving. Their thigh or hand or otherwise, they like to show off. The sun highlights the hair on their arms and hair which casts them in a fiery glow, eyes bright and unburdened as they glance over at the detective in the leather seats of the car they fixed up together as a project.

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(So horny it’s not even eliciting a physical reaction anymore) now draw them in a strained but ultimately polite professional relationship

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Watching a show where the slow burn stretched on for 4½ seasons (4½ years in-universe) and was reminded of A

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The new unseen scene has me like

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*kisses you directly on the lips* That doesn’t mean anything. *tries to walk away but my ankle rolls and i break it so now you have to put me down for ethical reasons*

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thinking about slow dancing with A to a sad song

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I finally bit the bullet and played the love triangle route. And ohhhh my god, this scene hurt me (okay, to be fair, the entire route hurt me).

(I vowed going in that I would pick both Adam and Nate options, but no, Amelia has chosen Adam at every opportunity. Sorry Nate.)

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The Wayhaven Chronicles—Update 13/June/2025

It was a bit of a write-off week this week, unfortunately. Rather deflating after smashing through for so many weeks! But it all started with a boiler breakdown emergency, then a lingering vet issue (which is now resolved and all fine but was a bit scary for a few days!), and then Nai got pretty ill at the end of the week (she is now also slowly recovering!).

So yeah, it was a bit of an intense week!

I’d planned on social media days this week as well as getting through my edits on the chapter I finished. Instead, I gathered up the edits ready from the editor in prep and also printed out the plan for the next chapter and went through it.

As with all the chapters in Book Four, this next chapter is a serious doozy to write, lol! Lots of variation and branching for a specific choice. It was a bit overwhelming to look over what with so much else happening, but I took a breath and started chunking it up into smaller, manageable scenes. That helped a lot!

And now I’m also seriously excited to get writing it, hehe! :D

But I will do the sensible thing and get the edits done first! My plan for next week is edits and social media days. Then I can jump right back into the next chapter, which is quite the set-up chapter for something very dramatic and very intense to come in the one after that…

And after the (wonderfully amazing) response to the Chapter 5 opening snippet on Patreon, I think I’ll be releasing the next two chapters in one go. So that’ll be out later this month! That will be the final section of demo to be released for Book Four :)

Hope you all have a fabulous weekend! The poll for the gems will be over next week, so I’ll finally be able to post the results and fill out the choice set I had to skip over.

I’m so excited to see what the results are already! :D

We’ll be offline as usual, so I’ll update you all again soon! <3