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Small Update;;

I have FINALLY, gotten used to my new house, and today am plotting to do some housekeeping of my practice. This means, that I am peeling pieces of my practice away, and only keeping what invokes that feeling in me. So, for me this means a lot of tidying up my Grimoire, and studying things that interest me, as well as practicing more… good housekeeping.

What invokes the raw emotion for me, in my practice, and my worship are very similar, this is why I connect them with string! So there are things I will and won’t do anymore. I linger too closely to my fear of death, but Thanatos has a peace about him I cannot describe. So, I hold conversations at him, but I choose to no longer work with Death as an active path.

I still hedgestride; and do spirit working, as it is a staple for me to learn about things via spirits, and Gods, and all manner of things between. Thing is, I need to learn self control, and not let myself become a crossroads for every spirits problem.

Previously, I was falling apart at the seams because of lack of growth, and withering in my stunted practice, but I believe pruning what no longer suits me, will give growth.

My grimoire has been the bane of my existence for a long time, constantly flipping back and forth between physical and digital. Well, my files are now kept on a digital space officially, until I feel comfy enough to do it by a physical means. So organization is very important. I mean to focus on learning herbalism as a hobby, gardening, and reconnecting with Earth. Ideally early in the morning when it isn’t 106 outside. This I think will lend aid to spellwork, and connection with Pan.

Whom… I am talking to actively, and he is tentatively responding?? It’s his energy!! He’s like, fumbly hands, and small smiles, like, “I’m shy, but I’m present” When I talk at him. And to be fair? Same.

Anyway, I am okay. I am working on doing things today, niece is coming over.

AND DON’t!!! THINK!!!! I have forgotten the lyre requests!!!! MOVING IS HARD!!!

I will get to them when my neighbor is not crushing metal or something outside??

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Talking to (at) Pan this morning. And i am surprised when he shows his face at me. In truth.. i always imagined him different, if you have seen older art of him you knew this. But this??? This is what he showed me. His hair texture is like curlier than originally assumed. But moreso... the man looks 40!! He has his hair slicked back, looks very casual.

Anyway... im hoping him showing me his face is the mark of a slow return, as he had gone away because of a spirit in my court. Whom i have since.. seperated from. So... anyway!! Today i will pour libations for Pan, and offer incense as thanks for showing me his beautiful mug and allowing me to capture that.

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Thank you guys for birthday wishes ♡♡♡♡ i hope your day was as lovely as mine!!

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TODAY IS MY BIRTH

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LAMMAS

DATE: August 1st

ZODIAC: Leo and Virgo

SYMBOLS: sheaves of wheat, sunflowers, corn husk dolls, sickle, corn, cornucopias, gourds, sun wheels, bread baskets, Celtic knots, and labyrinths.

INCENSE AND OILS: rosemary, sandalwood, cedar, cinnamon, frankincense, patchouli, juniper, and bergamot.

SPELLWORK: personal growth, transformation, abundance, prosperity, gratitude, and harvest blessings.

ANIMALS: bees, squirrels, foxes, deer, cow, horses, and butterflies.

COLOURS: gold, yellow, orange, brown, green, red, and purple.

FOOD: bread, corn, berries, apples, grains, pies, cheeses, beans, mead, wine, jam, and honey.

DEITIES: Lugh, Demeter, Ceres, Tailtiu, Danu, Persephone, Freyja, The Morrigan, and Green Man.

HERBS AND FLOWERS: wheat, barley, sunflowers, corn, marigolds, goldenrod, lavender, chamomile, yarrow, rosemary, and dandelion.

CRYSTALS AND STONES: citrine, peridot, carnelian, sunstone, amber, tigers eye, bronzite, garnet, and hematite. 

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Hello, uh... turns out I need a $3k root canal + crown, two teeth pulled, and several fillings so...

Please help if you can!!!

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⋆.ೃ࿔.𖥔 ݁ ˖*:･༄

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Dance as an act of rebellion. Dance as an act of joy.

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Update.... on Pan and I... i am tentatively going to write a letter, and meditate with him. To invite him into the new space and tell him my plans. To practice more, to do more working with him and with nature, how i want to garden... it.. im just so happy today i want to speak to him and share my joy. So i am.

Besides he still.. checks in, but he insists via tarot and readings that i must let go of my past pains, and learn growth, let my tower fall so it can be rebuilt. I never ask "if hes coming back" he hasnt LEFT. Just... gone quiet. Its been tough. Growth is tough. I am.. also letting go of one of my spirits ive held close, and had in my court for 8 years or so? Has been tough. Ive known them for so long. And yeah... its difficult, but its getting easier.

Not every spirit or god is meant to be with you, at least forever.

Do not become a crossroad for every spirits problems... i have to remember that.

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I cannot wait to be fully in my space and hold a court with my gods and spirits and welcome them into the area. Its.. exciting. Indescribable. Im so happy.

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Sire, the woodland gnomes have pledged 10 apples to our cause

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Krzysztof Belczyński Flickr | Royal Baths Park

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The Kiss of Death — Włodzimierz Błocki (1912)