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when you're too autistic to have the life you want but self-aware enough that you can feel it slipping from your grasp by the second

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>nothingburger

>small potatoes

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>everythingbagel

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Oh my god my mutual that I have a parasocial relationship with just reblogged my post, the world is good again for a moment

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people who are like "oh but you can just buy x thing online" are missing the point. its about the joy and journey

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every $30 purchase is like a razor sharp arrow stuck firmly in my muscular wearwolf back

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getting better but also becoming worse. u wouldn't get it

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I wish depression were an emergency. I wish someone could take one look at how sick I am and go “oh my god, we need to get you to a hospital!” and then when we get there I get rushed into surgery and the surgeons say “it’s a good thing you brought her here when you did, this is a seriously advanced case” and then they put me under and spend the next ten hours pulling metres of long, sticky black strands of gunk out of my body, throwing it immediately into an incinerator so that it can’t infect anyone else. And then they could stitch me back up and I could rest a few days, and when I leave the hospital everyone can see how much better I am and they congratulate me saying “well done, you’ve been so brave, I’m so glad you’re ok. I love you.”

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I feel like we need to talk more about how fucking boring depression can be. I pick up a book and can’t read more than a few sentences, a chapter if I’m lucky, before I can’t focus. I knit two rows of something and then can’t continue. I scroll through all the different options of shows I haven’t watched without clicking on any of them. I hop from app to app looking for content that will spark literally any single emotion. It’s not even 10am and I already feel like I’m just waiting until it’s time to go back to bed.

I hate it I hate it I hate it

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Pipe sprung a leak in the bathroom the other day and the cat came and bothered me about it and I can't stop thinking about it. She doesn't know what a towel or a mop is but she knew there was an unauthorised fucking Wet and she trusted my ability to rectify the situation

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mid-year resolutions:

gain 10 pounds

forget a language

spend more money on take-out

be less thoughtful

lose control of my finances

worsen my sleep schedule

etc.

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i would recognize that season of television by haircut alone

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the onion field……

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CROSS STITCH PATTERN - Windows 95 Glitch by ArtByRomShop

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happy salt air and the rust on your door month to those who celebrate

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drinking beverage. having to pee. drinking beverage. having to pee. what’s next? drinking beverage and then having to pee? fucking endless