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who are you?

tired.

    Whatever it is, you don't want it anymore. You want to lay down with the pain, you want the pain to leave you quietly as you sleep. As you rest. Fighting is hard, giving up is hard too. You feel like you can't do either. You don't know what you need, even this question feels overwhelming. The word need scares you, it ties you down. You crave liberty from necessity.

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what the H E L L did you DO to me – ??

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                       I got my mother’s good looks & my father’s GREAT RAGE

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Don’t you ever underestimate my ability to crush you where you stand—

To demolish those you hold dear,

just to make you bleed in the most poetic of ways.

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          I don’t use the word friend lightly; I was raised           to never use it at all, so if I call you my FRIEND           you’re my F R I E N D I would do anything    for                         you. I would kill for you.

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who are you?

searching.

    You want to find something, you need to find something. Maybe it's a person, maybe it's a meaning, most likely it's a feeling. You want to feel at peace, satisfied. You want to stop looking, or rather, you want to not want to look. Sooner or later you always realize whatever you're looking for doesn't exist, not really. But that just makes you search even harder.

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     i know i have some more stuff to write but my brain only wants to think about young william

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who are you?

freezing.

     Feelings are a burden, not a weapon. You feel weighted down by them and so, whenever possible, you try to keep them away. Better to be apathic than miserable. Better zero than negative. You try to take it day by day, not thinking that much about the meaning of it all. People who wear their hearts on their sleeves annoy you. You may resent them, or feel contempt. Maybe it's the way they carry the pain, it seems more graceful, less raw and real. You have gone through something hard, something you shouldn't have dealt with all on your own. It isn't your fault though, and it's all right to feel angry at the world for the way things turned out. Right now though, you sense that you can't afford to care. Admitting that maybe what weights you down isn't the sensitivity, but the pain that is attached to it.

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                                                    sσмεтιмεs ιт нιтs мε  

   נυsт нσω ℓσηεℓү ι αcтυαℓℓү αм

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dont get involved with me ——

                                                           —— youll die

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                                   See the BLOOD on my hands?

                                         ——————   I never meant for any of it.

I NEVER MEANT FOR ANY OF THIS.

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      there might be a hell         w a i t i n g        for me LATER——

       but there is a hell        c o m i n g           for you NOW.

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                        You have the gall to call me w e a k?

      After       everything I have            survived              through?

                       Everything you have D O N E to me?

                         I am stronger than you ever were

                                  And I will break you

                                                                              Like you { broke } me.

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it’s alright. put down your defenses. take away your walls. push aside your  l o n e l i n e s s it’s okay. because you’re not ALONE anymore.

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                       he PRETENDS that he’s o k a y                (( but you should see him in bed, late at night ))

                        HE’S                     PETRIFIED.

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Please let there be light                      in a darkened room