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Help this Pansexual Transgender Single Parent!!!

Frankii is insanely struggling and needs financial assistance for basic everyday needs; food, toiletries, overdue bills, direly needed, necessary medications. Please click the link and help URGENTLY if you can! Frankii and their family would truly, deeply beyond appreciate it! Thank you for reading! Even if you can’t help, you CAN help by reblogging and sharing, in hopes that someone else will read this and help save their lives!

CURRENT UPDATE as of the early morn of 11/21/21!!!!

So far they’ve received approx. $76 on PayPal (after a small fee was removed on their end, the initial amount donated between the 2 donations was originally $80). They’re in desperate, immediate need of at least a decent amount of groceries IF POSSIBLE, a couple mandatory toiletries like toilet paper, hand and body soap, along with shampoo and laundry detergent; and necessities for Frankii’s 3 y/o daughter like diapers and such; along with their upcoming rent that has back due rent from last month (when they couldn’t afford to pay it in full and worked something out with the landlord to just tag it onto this months rent), they’re in crucial need of paying their overdue electricity, gas and water bills to get their electric, water and heat turned back on; especially with winter starting to decrease the temperature in Ohio day by day, it’s growing to become freezing, slowly by surely, so they’ll hazardously need their heat promptly; not to mention, they need their water on for basic everyday activities like washing their dishes, bodies and clothes, let alone when they’re out of everything to drink and falling dehydrated (kind of like their current state), they’d at least have tap water to drink still... and without the electricity; other than not being able to see at all in the dark at night, they also cannot use their microwave or stove to even cook anything even IF they did remotely have any sort of stock of groceries in their pantry or fridge to cook to begin with. or due to the lack of their fridge or freezer, they currently cannot store any cold or frozen groceries.. so please it’s IMPERATIVELY URGENT that someone can kindly and compassionately TRY to get their family and themself at least somewhat closer to their goal somehow. I know they’re pretty hungry (honestly probably closer to the brink of starvation at this point) and it’s perilously crucial that they acquire enough funds to manage to get their electricity, gas and water on as eminently quickly as possible and to be given the ability to to restore stability and consistency back to their everyday lives! You’ll never truly know just how genuinely much they’re legitimately gratefully appreciative and deeply thankful for all of your succoring supportive benefactions. Thank you again from their family to yours! ❤️♥️

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The original donation post being buried in the notes, I’m making a new post. I’ve had to spend money on food and transportation to escape from an emotionally abusive household, where my intimacy’s violated, and where I endure weekly financial abuse. I’ve severe OCD, which means I cannot provide for myself. I managed to raise 136$ out of 300$, and since I’ve had added expenses in the meantime, my new goal is 400$. If you can and want to help, you can do so through my Paypal ccd4t@virginia.edu and I have a donation button on my blog. If you feel like people in your online/in person communities are more deserving of help, feel free to direct your support to them.

So far, I have raised 136$/400$.

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So, I’m gonna try this again. Please please please if you see this please click the link to my little shop, it helps boost traffic which is super helpful for a new small business like mine 🙏🏻 It would mean the world to me if this blew up a lil bit😭💕

Take a peek into the apothecary ✨- verbenalune.com 🌙

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Help her reach her goal by donating or following and interacting with her tiktoks so she can get money from the creator fund

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new month.

new day.

new chances.

new obstacles.

new grinds.

new blessings.

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rip cicely tyson, the first black actress to wear her natural hair on television (east side/west side in 1949) 🕊

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Hi y’all,

I made a post the other day in need of donations but the donations stopped and I’m still in need I’m sorry y’all

“This is gonna be hard for me to explain but my mom lost her job and she’s having issues getting unemployment because they’re asking for certain identification she doesn’t have and won’t have until March so we’re assed out on my money for bills, food, etc so if anyone has $5, $10, or $20 or whatever to spare I’d really really really appreciate it a ton”

nikiluv0072@gmail.com (paypal and venmo)

cash.me/$mnchamb

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Blackfeet camp at night. Montana. Early 1900s. Glass lantern slide by Walter McClintock. Source -Yale Collection of Western Americana, Beinecke Rare Book and Manuscript Library

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she’s at 2450/12000

c/sh/pp: $debbiefcrankin

v3nmo: @TJ-Travis-1

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Hey I’m not sure if anyone is going to see this but I’m going to tell my story. My whole life I’ve had to deal with abusive and neglectful parents. When I was younger my mom beat me here and there but not anything different from what many african parents do. Things began to change when I was around the age of 8. My mom married and brought a man and his daughter from africa with almost all of her money sacrificing her kids eating and even her home cause we were evicted soon after she started the process. We had to go with very little food and lived in very terrible places. When he finally came to America it was shown to my mom that he didn’t truly come for her and he was using her as a gateway to a better life. When this happened a lot of problems arose in the household and my mom became even more broken. When I was around 11 we were finally able to move to the suburbs in a shabby little 3 bedroom apartment full of 9 people but this is when the serious abuse started. My mom was the only person working in the house which put her under a lot of stress. There was a division in my household my mom had come to despise the girl that she brought to America cause she was disrespectful but I felt bad that everyone ganged up on her and would usually try to stand up for her. This caused my mom and my two sisters to despise me and they would find ways to either get me beaten by my mom or make fun of it to me after the fact. Because of this I was the main target and usually the beatings would take place after my mom came home from work and they would be very severe. After years of this I decided that I couldn’t live with my parents after highschool and I would have to find a way out. I started working in my junior year as soon I was of legal age but my parents started taking my paychecks and telling me it was for my own good sometimes even beating me to take it. My senior year of highschool I was very excited cause it was finally going to be over and I was going to be graduating with a scholarship that would allow me to go school for free and get enough money back to buy myself a car. But things took a turn for the worst possible outcome when my stepdad graduated college and said that he was going to get a nice job in Connecticut. I begged my mom not to move or at least move after I graduated but she said no and that I could “get another scholarship” even though this is one I’d been working towards since freshman. My mom quit her job and put our lives in the hands of my stepdad someone who had never worked and didn’t understand how things really worked in America he moved us to a “nice” neighborhood that was in the middle of nowhere and impossible to go anywhere without a car so I usually stayed inside my room. Since now my stepdad was the only person with a steady stream of income our lives were in his hands and he said because he was paying the bills he never had enough money to buy groceries so we would go very long times without food. But in reality he was actually sending money to his illegitimate children in Africa and their mothers and it was all a lie. While this was happening my mental health took a severe toll cause I was completely isolated and hopeless and I wasn’t sure if I was ever going to be able to leave. I also lost my scholarship cause I left the school district and lost my job which even though my parents were taking most of my check I would a least scrape off 20$ so I wouldn’t have to go hungry. I would love to leave this place and I have a plan to I’m going to be getting my associates in biology in the spring/summer and I’ll be able to move away and get a real job. The only setback is that I don’t have a car and I can’t get a job where I live. The only place hiring around me is amazon but I can’t work there because they give 11h30m shifts that makes it very hard to do my schoolwork. I have a gofundme and I’m hoping that I could please get some donations so I can finally leave this hellhole and make a home for myself thankyou for taking the time to read this.

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13 things i learned in 2020

nothing stays the same. without a moment's notice, everything can change and leave you wondering what the hell happened. living in the present and appreciating the small things is important because nothing else is guaranteed or permanent.

we humans are not as important as we believe ourselves to be. when the bee dies so do the flowers. when we die the flowers grow back. if we are to build a better future, we must give back to the planet by changing the ways we live on it.

time is not real. there is nothing in the laws of physics that can prove it is anything other than a human construct.

power of the people will always outweigh the people in power. the 1% are scared of us realising this and acting upon it.

home is more of a person than a place. the way i see my family has changed. all that other stuff i thought i wanted when the true treasure was here all along.

distance does not lessen the value or strength of true friendship.

self-care is by far the most important skill to learn in life. being aware of my needs, how things effect me, and eliminating harmful inputs has gone a long way in improving my physical and mental health.

social media does not offer an honest or healthy way in which to view the world. like a toxic friend, it uses our desires and insecurities in all sorts of manipulative ways. being able to take a step back and reconnect with the real physical world can be both invigorating and revelatory.

simple acts of kindness cost nothing but are as precious as gold dust.

eye contact has become a new form of communication. with masks hiding half of our faces we have no choice but to look at each other's souls. we see each other more now and we offer strangers in the street smiles from our eyes rather than our mouths.

being lonely doesn't mean we're alone. everyone is going through something. even if they don't show it.

laughter is the closest thing there is to magic. watery eyes, burning chests and aching ribs from laughing too much are the most wonderful feelings in the world.

i am much more resilient and capable than i thought i was.

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Please forgive yourself for being exhausted.

The isolation and anxiety of this year is a weight that has grown familiar, but no easier to carry.

The long nights. The pressure of the holidays.

Remember to be gentle in your expectations of yourself.

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A black girl will be spending years in jail because she had a mental health crisis. PLEASE READ

Meet Sarya: she was experiencing a mental health crisis. Police came and tackled her. She is 15.

Saraya Rees is a 15 year old biracial girl from Coos County, Oregon. After being abruptly instructed to stop taking her antidepressants by a local pediatrician, Saraya went into psychosis. In her manic state, Saraya poured a small amount of gasoline on the floor. Her parents called Coos Health & Wellness in hope that that would send mental health advisors, Coos Health & Wellness sent the police. While still in psychosis, the officers arrested her, questioned her without her family or lawyers present, charged with attempted murder and assault, and sent her to juvenile prison for 11 years.

This is not justice.

This is inhumane.

WHAT YOU CAN DO TO HELP:

Call these people and demand that she be let go to the custody in her parents.

Please call Governor Kate Brown and Senator Jeff Merkely.⁠

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📞Governor Kate Brown: (503) 378-4582⁠

📞Senator Jeff Merkley: (503) 326-3386⁠

Follow @justiceforsaraya on instagram. You can find info on where to send her Christmas cards and get updated on progress.

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God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen (for Orchestra)

Let nothing you dismay

FINISHED! I’ve completed my God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen orchestration, which I shared four days ago when it was still a work in progress.

I know you all enjoy listening on other platforms so here are links and dates

Spotify: Tue December 15th, 2020 SoundCloud   YouTube: TBA

Bonus:

Score & Parts: TBA

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“I don’t believe in ‘best of’ books. It creates a hierarchy, and books are not hierarchy, books are medicine. We read what we need to heal us.”

— Sandra Cisneros (b. 20 December 1954)