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Tipsy, but @jimxhalpert is brilliant~! 🥰

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I know that it will probably never happen, but on my wanted list to write/rp against:

~ Roy Anderson ~ Ryan Howard

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no amount of employment could stop me posting on tumblr dot com

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“ well, at least one of us is. ” she raises her glass in a little toast before taking a drink.

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Keep it together. Keep it together, Pam...

Even as Pam repeated the mantra in her mind and tried to keep her expression neutral - she didn't want her to know that her remarks had gotten under her skin - she couldn't help but second guess herself.

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Send "mutually inebriated" for a starter where both of our muses are drunk.

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what was your favorite plotline in the show? least favorite?

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Favourite? I'll probably have a new one in time, once I've distanced myself from my recent first-time watch... but I had so much fun watching Threat Level Midnight - so silly, stupid and fun! 💥

Least favourite? While I understood why the writers went there, the 'Brian the boom mic guy' arc could have been interwoven into the show in a better way... Also, how Andy’s character took a nosedive in season 9 irks me a bit 🤷‍♀️

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“ you sure sound convinced. ” the sarcasm is heavy.

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"Well, I am."

Pam's voice was firmer this time. Her new coworker was nice, but then she would come out with comments like this, and it touched a nerve.

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“ do you ever feel like you’re settling ? ”

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"No... Not at all. Roy's great, and my job's great."

Pam found herself gazing over to where Roy stood, engrossed in something with some of the warehouse guys.

"Not settling at all."

She took another sip of her drink.

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Pam shrugged a little.

"I wouldn't... Like is a strong word."

She chuckled a little. "Once you understand what this place is like, you can find ways of getting through the day with your sanity still intact."

As if on instinct, her gaze drifted to the chocolate bar in her hand.

"For example, Jim and I try to find ways of treating each other with little surprises when we least expect it - I'm getting this for him."

She smiled to herself for a moment, before continuing, backpedalling quickly.

"We're friends - best friends. My fiancé, Roy? He's downstairs in the warehouse. What I'm trying to say is... Find someone here who can make the time pass faster for you."

Suddenly aware of how much she had been talking, she turned her attention back to...

Had she forgotten this woman's name already?

"I don't think I properly introduced myself - I'm Pam."

She gave a little wave.

"I don't think I caught your name before?"

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she thought after so many years she’d seen it all, that there were no surprises left for her. and then an idiot summoned her by mistake trying to decorate for halloween, panicked, and tried to hand her a job. normally she wouldn’t have stayed. normally, she’d have made him regret wasting her time . . . but if she was being honest, this place was just so damn weird that she had ended up playing along.

well, for a certain definition, anyways. he was still too terrified of her to ask her to do anything (it was for the best, really) and she got the feeling he didn’t even know what kind of demon he’d summoned.

most of the people here were bizarre, yes, but not in a way that really held her attention. more like zoo animals, something to observe from a distance, and quickly move on from. there were a few she’d pinned as having the right mix of ambition and lack of foresight to sign first and think later, but even after her centuries of hell, she wasn’t certain she could endure enough conversation with kelly kapoor to get to that point.

there was, however, one in particular who had caught her eye. something about the receptionist . . . she couldn’t quite pin it, but there was something there. maybe it was that she seemed like the only real person in a sea of cartoonishly exaggerated caricatures. or maybe she was just fun to toy with, all wide eyed and innocent, humble and kind. (the very things the monster in her was attracted to, yearned to break)

her gaze tracks pam’s motions with the lazy intensity of a predator tracking prey. “ i’ve seen crazier, ” she offers, lips twitching into an amused smile. “ strange is more the word i’d use. do you like it here ? ”

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my muse thinks Pam is cut out for bigger things than this

"Well..."

How does she even respond to that?

"I know that being just a receptionist shouldn't be the endgame, but... I just..."

There it was. That familiar tightness in her chest. The fear. The uncertainty. Roy's advice fresh in her mind.

"I'm fine. I'm happy here. Why wreck a perfectly good, stable job by risking it all on a dream?"

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tell my muse what your muse thinks of mine on anon! Anything goes!

bonus points if you leave little hints

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❛ somehow, you're always on my mind. ❜

@ofcrossrcads Pam didn't know what to think. Apparently this woman was the new temp? Michael had never really explained the situation - just that she was working there now and it was totally normal. A 'Halloween surprise', he had called it. Whatever that meant. She had stopped trying to figure out her boss a long time ago.

However, as the days ticked by, Pam couldn't help but grow suspicious.

She couldn't put her finger on what it was, but there was something off about her.

It was little things. Like the time that Pam glanced up from her desk to notice that she was being watched. Or right now, when her new coworker had given her a compliment that vaguely sounded sinister?

Pam picked up her chocolate bar from the vending machine, slightly confused by her demeanor. Maybe she was simply nervous about being new in the office?

"Thank you...? How are you settling in? Things can get pretty crazy around here, but it's not too bad."

Maybe she just needed a friend.

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for muses that are getting to know each other

❝ what's your favorite color and why? ❞

❝ can i come with you? ❞

❝ you have a nice smile, has anyone ever told you that before? ❞

❝ how do you take your coffee? ❞

❝ sorry, what was your name again? ❞

❝ it just occurred to me i never asked you what your last name is. ❞

❝ actually we've met before. ❞

❝ i've heard a few things about you. ❞

❝ care to join me? ❞

❝ i'm not really sure why i trust you. ❞

❝ i don't usually talk this much, it just feels easy to say stuff when you're listening. ❞

❝ i know we don't know each other that well but if you wanna talk about it... ❞

❝ could you help me with something? ❞

❝ do you like it here? ❞

❝ are you new around here? ❞

❝ you can ask me anything you want. i promise i'll answer truthfully except the things i feel like lying about. ❞

❝ i don't mean to be too forward, you just seem like you could use a friend right now. ❞

❝ you can come with me. i mean if you don't have anyone waiting for you. ❞

❝ we're friends now. you can ask me for help. ❞

❝ do you like this music? i can change it. ❞

❝ what are your favorite snacks? ❞

❝ really? i wouldn't have guessed that about you. ❞

❝ do you mind if i ask about it? ❞

ACTIONS:

VISIT: for sender to go to receiver's home for the first time

VISITED: for receiver to go to sender's home for the first time

CRYING: for sender to see receiver cry for the first time

CRIED: for receiver to see sender cry for the first time

BEGIN: sender and receiver are on their first date together

TRIP: our muses go on a group trip but end up stuck together, away from the rest of their friends.

SITUATION: our muses are acquainted because one of them is their friend's roommate. muse a shows up when their friend isn't there and ends up hanging out with muse b one on one.

GO: our muses go to a zoo or theme park together and get lost.

INVITE: sender cooks for receiver for the first time

INVITED: receiver cooks for sender for the first time

TOGETHER: our muses spend the night for the first time

TRY: our muses hooked up and are hanging out the next day

COMFORT: sender is going through a break up and receiver offers to cheer them up

COMFORTED: receiver is going through a break up and sender offers to cheer them up

OFFER: sender gives receiver a ride to the airport/picks them up

OFERED: receiver gives sender a ride to the airport/picks them up

AID: sender helps receiver redecorate

AIDING: receiver helps sender redecorate

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🐝  *  ―  𝑷𝑰𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 / 𝒀𝑬𝑨𝑹𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

❛  i can't stop thinking about you even when i try.  ❜ ❛  every time i see you, it's like my heart skips a beat.  ❜ ❛  i never realized how much i needed you until you weren't there.  ❜ ❛  do you ever feel like there's something missing ... like a piece of your heart is somewhere else?  ❜ ❛  i wish i had the courage to tell you how i feel.  ❜ ❛  if only you knew how much you truly mean to me.  ❜ ❛  do you ever wonder what it would be like if things were different between us?  ❜ ❛  sometimes i wonder if you ever think about me the way i think about you.  ❜ ❛  i had a lot of dreams about you recently.  ❜ ❛  somehow, you're always on my mind.  ❜ ❛  i think i've been in love with you since the day we met - scratch that, i know i've been in love with you since the day we met.  ❜ ❛  my biggest wish is to hold you close and never let you go.  ❜ ❛  all my life i've felt like a part of me was missing, but with you i've finally found it.  ❜ ❛  you deserve better than who i am right now, but i'm gonna keep trying to become someone you do deserve.  ❜ ❛  every time you smile at me, i get this flutter in my chest.  ❜ ❛  do you think i'll ever be worthy of your love?  ❜ ❛  i want to be the person to make you happy. the one person you can always come to with whatever you need.  ❜ ❛  will we ever get another chance together?  ❜ ❛  you were the best thing that's ever happened to me.  ❜ ❛  my biggest regret is ever letting you go.  ❜ ❛  i'm still in love with you ... and i honestly never stopped.  ❜ ❛  when i wake up in the morning, you're the first person i want to see.  ❜ ❛  every time i wake up, i check if you wrote me another message.  ❜ ❛  i wish i could be as important to you as you are to me.  ❜ ❛  it hurts when you don't talk to me like you used to.  ❜ ❛  i miss everything about you, your touch, your laugh, your smile. i wish i could have that back.  ❜ ❛  i want to fall asleep wrapped in your arms.  ❜ ❛  hold me closer; i always feel safer when you're with me.  ❜ ❛  there's so much i wish i was able to tell you.  ❜ ❛  i know things aren't easy right now, but i want to remain a fixture in your life. after all, you're one in mine.  ❜ ❛  i miss the way you always made me smile.  ❜ ❛  you're the reason i keep holding on.  ❜ ❛  maybe we're supposed so to remain a case of 'right person, wrong time' forever.  ❜ ❛  if only you knew how i feel about you.  ❜ ❛  i'm yearning to hold your hand in mine.  ❜ ❛  i think you are the one for me, and i hope one day i'll be the one for you, too.  ❜ ❛  do you think i'll ever become more than a friend to you?  ❜ ❛  my heart belongs to you, always and forever.  ❜ ❛  my first instinct is to protect you, no matter the cost.  ❜ ❛  i've been thinking about us a lot lately.  ❜

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Pam had so many things on her mind. She knew that none of them really mattered, but they occupied her thoughts regardless. It didn't help that Michael was being especially excitable today - like a five-year old high on sugar. He kept pulling her away from her desk - insisting that she aid him in adjusting the feng shui of the office to accommodate the new workers.

Things had been pretty uncertain around the office recently. All this talk of branches possibly closing down - and in particular whether Scranton would be getting the chop - had all of them on edge. However, the worst had never occurred. The Scranton branch of Dunder Mifflin had been spared, with the compromise being that the Stamford branch would be closing down, and more importantly, merging with Scranton. Which meant that at some point, Jim would be returning.

Michael had reassured the gang that any new employees from Stamford would be settling in on a staggered basis - something about easing each person into their new workload individually? They had already met a few newbies, including Karen - Pam liked her. She seemed... normal, which was a refreshing change around here.

As Pam finally freed herself from Michael's current expedition - going to multiple stores to look for office plants to purchase - she managed to slip away from him in the parking lot, retreating back to the safety of her receptionist's desk.

However, once she entered the office and glanced up from the documents that she grabbed from the photocopier on the way to her desk, a sight made her stop in her tracks.

"Jim?"

Her voice was quiet, as if she was in disbelief that he was there. Sitting at his usual desk, leaning back in his chair in that trademark Jim way - all casual and carefree. It was a sight she never thought that she'd see again, and so many emotions crashed into her in that moment.

So many things had changed for her since that night - Casino Night. She found herself forming a different perspective on quite a few things, and she would have confided in Jim about them, but playing phone tag from different places hadn't been as fun as she had imagined.

"Michael told us that you weren't back until next week?"

She could feel the grin spread across her features. Sure, there were a bunch of things to unpack when it came to the two of them, but she didn't really care right now. Her best friend was back!

Her arms were around him before she could stop herself, enveloping him in a big hug.

"Welcome back!"

Another glance at the clock only led to a groan as Jim let his head drop back against his desk chair, his neck grazing the edge of what ended up not being as comfortable as he had hoped.

He knew that there was no right for him to be wondering where Pam was, but he'd be lying if he said he didn't feel the pang of dismay that built in his chest when he saw that she wasn't at the reception desk when he got in.

Which was strange, come to think of it...

'Not your place, Halpert.' Jim mentally reminded himself, even as he worried. He had literally just moved from the haunted annex that he'd been banished to upon his "homecoming", something he didn't think would happen from the get-go to begin with, back to the desk Ryan stole from him.

He'd left Scranton because there was no possible way for him to continue each day living with the fact that he was about 99% sure that he was in love with liked his best friend in a way that would get him decked by her fiancé.

Settled down in Stanford, did the whole uprooting and moving thing, even as a part of him was still in disbelief at the entire situation. Jim shouldn't have kissed her.

How could he not have kissed her, though? It was Pam. He had to. Even though her response killed him.

It was his 'first' day back and he didn't know if anyone knew he was coming back; based on the fact that he almost had to fight Ryan for his damn desk, Jim was pretty sure he knew the asnwer to his own question.

Still, that morning, he couldn't stop himself from the nervousness he felt, not knowing what he'd be walking into at the office.

Out of the corner of his eye, Karen caught his attention, and despite the internal spiral he faced, he didn't regret trying to move on.

It's just... being back here, seeing Pam's handwriting on the memo board, the jellybeans she insisted on putting out, even though Kevin would get them all before the day's end... he knew he failed. How could he have thought he'd be able to move on?

The realization that he couldn't do this to Karen was glaring at him, and it was taking so much effort to push it aside because, as far as he knew?

Pam was with Roy. Pam was happy with Roy. Pam had chosen Roy.

He needed to get over his feelings for the sake of everyone involved in his life, if he still wanted them to be a part of it, and God knows, he did want Pam to still be a part of his life in whatever aspect he could manage, despite the pain it caused.

So lost in his own thoughts, the sound of the office door opening and shutting, the little pitter-patter of steps had gone unnoticed as the very person causing this termoil made her way into the room.

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