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'Little sister, please trust that I wouldn't say this to just any woman I was meeting for the first time. But as you don't seem the shy type —' Zhu took the purse from her belt and hefted it enticingly. 'How much for your clothes?'

Never over the fact that when Ouyang, who almost has a breakdown on the first occasion he thinks Zhu wants him to disguise himself as a woman, later manages to do so, it's specifically as a sexy nun.

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Stumbled upon this old gem on twitter while I was looking for something completely different. SPC originally posted this before SWBTS came out. Sadly the picrew link no longer works.

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yo dudes so i'm currently making a tma book for my friend!

it's basically the tma wiki but in book form :)

(highly inspired by what pricklypearviking on reddit did just much less cool)

current status: i run out of printer toner and im in pain so decided to share this to pass the time

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Ouyang + ethnicity 2: Mongol

second part of my compilation for @radiantemperorweek day 7: free space

So. Having spent most of his life immersed in Mongolian culture... against his will, how much did he actually absorb of it? Did he think himself more Mongol or more Nanren?

His conversations with general Zhang are a goldmine of this: they have so much in common, yet it's clear that Zhang perceives Ouyang as being more ''Mongol" than himself - even though Ouyang neither does confirm nor deny this. This is when his balancing on the fine line between belonging to one culture or the other shows the most, in my opinion.

The impression doesn't really change when Ouyang visits the Zhangs: worth noting that here, ''us/we'' pronouns refer to the Zhang family, not the Nanren.

The Mongolian customs Ouyang adopted (on his own volition or not) shaped his whole bearing, from his outfit/hairstyle to his mode of transport and what he ate.

Zhu's observations indicate how he was complying with the style:

...and Ouyang himself doesn't feel much of connection between himself and the ''filthy Nanren peasants'':

And then there's Ouyang's military career: having spent his life in the Yuan army and in the way that being in the army was his whole life, it's not surprising that this is where his allegiance - to the customs, but not the banners - shows the most. It's also pretty telling this is where his conviction about the superiority of Yuan army is the most visible: his remarks about the more modern/effective warfare methods, the speed with which the army travels, the archery skills the opening quote alludes to - all this highlights that for Ouyang, Mongolian army meant competence.

Zhu also sees this and uses it, of course:

And then there's the language. Even after Ouyang kills Esen, makes his speech to the soldiers in Han'er and thinks that he may never speak Mongolian again, he still curses in this language. And his accent still gives him away immediately.

It's interesting to me that at the point when Ouyang meets Baoxiang in Khanbaliq, his attitude towards Mongolian is much the same as his attitude towards Han'er at the end of SWBTS: both languages feel like something out of place, something belonging to the past long gone. Does it mean that he became more comfortable with the Nanren part of his identity? Or does it mean that he lost any sense of belonging? Or maybe it was just all the same because his personal identity, and especially him being an eunuch, was far more significant.

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*in the middle of a breakdown* Omg wait. this is just like the character

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Spring championships 2006-2007

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how I imagine Kevin joining the foxes

alr posted this on twitter but it’s too funny to not post here too

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jean moreau :

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the lipstick stains in her cigarette smoke

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Back again to expert cursed book hunting duo, Gerry and Mike, cause I just enjoy having an excuse to get the avatar and avatar-adjacent characters to interact. ✨ Also experimenting with short hair Jon, I realized I've never actually drew him like that.

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gives you a badjob. a weirdjob. doing some unusual shit to your penis.

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i am never drawing gerry again

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Waking up in a cold sweat realizing I never posted the original DoorKeay / my first TMA fanart 🖤🌀✌️ (or the one that came after it but patience…)

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Please…

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