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when fp gotta go sleep

me: are you gonna sleep soon?

fp: yes, why?

me: just asking.

...

...

me: sleep is good for your health.

me: don't sleep

me: but you need to sleep, I dont want to keep you awake when you're tired.

me: don't sleep.

me: goodnight, luv u.

me: r u asleep?

me: hey?

me: -triggered- -cry in her pillow- -dont sleep- -send huge text about how he doesn't care about me-

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Dawn of the Final Hour: 60 minutes Remain

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If you let my soul out

Los Angeles, California

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I love this! This is too cute and carefree!

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 All Lives Matter?

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Sometimes, suicide seems like the only solution.

(via saveyourselfstayalive2)

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I’m just so mad that I can’t function normally. I’m so mad that I crave attention 24/7 and when I get it I’m petrified that I manipulated people into giving it. and I’m so mad that nobody can ever tell how much I’m dealing with in my head that I don’t share because I’m so scared of accidentally being abusive or lashing out. I hate bpd so much

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*compulsively apologizes for everything hoping that someone will tell me that i have nothing to be sorry for*

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im not asking for much. just your undivided, 100% constant attention. 24/7.

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being self-aware about bpd is so embarrassing, like you literally know how irrational you’re being and yet your emotions don’t get the memo. you’re stuck lashing out at people and asking if they’re mad and all the classic bpd symptoms, and you’re just cringing inside the whole time.

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twenty one pilots // ride

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When I ooze confidence it’s usually just me overcompensating for loads of insecurities.