pastel-kin

[pastel-kin]

Don’t mind me I just gotta rant somewhere and this is the one place my boyfriend won’t see it because he doesn’t know about this blog.

But goodness is he kinda making me miserable lately. He doesn’t live in the same state as me, so we just meet up every once in a while and last time he came to my house.

W e l l ever since he left he’s been like

A lot different

And it’s just really emotionally draining.

Thinking I’m gonna leave him, replace him, get bored of him, and it’s been fairly frequent since he left that it’s making me imagine these things and like

I don’t want to leave him?? But him thinking all these things all the time, I feel like he lacks any trust in me.

My anxiety and depression can get really bad and all of this just triggers it hardcore and makes me feel like I can’t like

L i v e

I can’t have certain friends over

I feel like I can’t be close to certain people

I have to give up some things in my life to please him. I’ve become a shut in because whenever I go to see my friends he gets miserable for some reason.

And he says it’s because he doesn’t know them, but then when he’s here he avoids me trying to get him to meet them at all costs.

This lifestyle that I’ve adapted because of my relationship has just made my depression worse and I’m just

Really not very happy anymore

The activities I used to enjoy with him, I don’t really enjoy anymore. And I’m already going through a lot in my personal life with my family and school and just my own emotional termoil

And I’d probably be alone without him, which on top of just being too afraid and full of guilt, is one of the only things keeping me with him.

I love him

But all of this is jusy weighing me down

I’m almost twenty and I feel a little trapped and held back from doing what I want. Especially since we’ve been each others firsts for a lot.

But I’m just quickly growing to not enjoy how my future might turn out with him. If this is how he is when we’re just dating, how will it be when I’m his husband?

I’m just

A a a

So conflicted

I don’t know what to do

[pastel-kin]

Anxious Lithuania aesthetic for anon!

do not reblog if you’re not aph Lithuania and do not remove the caption to make it non kin.

- mod Norway

[pastel-kin]

Hhh

[pastel-kin]

Commonwealth of Saxony, Poland, and Lithuania Rzeczpospolita Saksonii, Polski i Litwy Vereinigtes Königreich Sachsen, Polen und Litauen Sandraugos Saksonijos, Lenkijos ir Lietuva

[pastel-kin]

[pastel-kin]

Maybe Shuu was always watching over Kanae while she took care of the roses..

[pastel-kin]

Listens to Lithuanian music while doing homework because it helps me feel productive.

[pastel-kin]

you guys should tell me what your first impression of me was~

[pastel-kin]

Yes good Finding more Hetalia kins is good. I need to find my Lenkija. And just like Anyone is cool.

[pastel-kin]

How do so many fictionkin not understand that, in order to be any character you're kin with, you would have to follow the Multiverse theory, and that means there are /plenty/ of universes that aren't yours where someone had a similar life to yours. You cannot be the only person kin with a character. There is no such thing as being "the real [character]". Stop invalidating others, jeez Louise!

[pastel-kin]

[pastel-kin]

_                               (_)                               _ _ __ ___     __ _  __ _ _   _ | | '_ ` _ \   / _` |/ _` | | | | | | | | | | | | (_| | (_| | |_| | |_|_| |_| |_|  \__, |\__,_|\__, |                __/ |       __/ |               |___/       |___/

[pastel-kin]

“If the battle is over but everyone is dead, how do you know it’s over?

© { ɪɴsᴘ }

[pastel-kin]

when you love your friend so much but they live far away from you

[pastel-kin]

Halloween Asks

Bat: If you could transform into any kind of animal, what animal would you be?

Black Cat: Are you superstitious? If so, what are you superstitious about?

Broomstick: If you could travel anywhere in the world where would it be?

Candy Corn: What food disgusts you the most?

Cauldron: What is your favorite thing to cook?

Cobwebs: One place you would never want to get lost in in the dark?

Coffin: Are you claustrophobic?

Demon: What is your worst flaw?

Eerie: One thing that always creeps you out?

Fright: What is your biggest fear?

Ghost: If you could be reincarnated, would you come back as another human or an animal? If an animal, what kind?

Gravestone: Ideal way you'd like to die?

Haunted House: If you could be roommates with anyone of your choice, who would you pick?

Hocus Pocus: What is the most ridiculous thing you've ever heard?

Howel: Your favorite kind of dog?

Jack-o'-lantern: Do you have any scars? If so, how many?

Monster: What is your favorite scary movie to watch in the dark?

Mummy: Would you rather be buried or cremated when you die?

Potion: What is your favorite thing to drink? Alcoholic and non alcoholic?

Pumpkin: What is your favorite food around the holidays?

Scream: Easiest way to scare you?

Skeleton: Tell me one of your biggest secrets?

Spooky: What was your last nightmare about?

Trick or Treat: Tell me about the greatest prank you've ever pulled?

Vampire: Which one are you? Early bird or night owl?

Witch: If could have the power to cast any kind of spell, what kind of spell would you cast?

Zombie: What is one food you always overeat?

[pastel-kin]

eyy im yam an ive been waiting to hit 1k for like 5 weeks but im still stuck at 980 can i get a promo bls thank

links 

[pastel-kin]

Lives near the beach Tru tho

What Americans are thankful for?