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is this ‘Amaranthine’ by Caprelloidea? I think it is but there may be another story. Read this anyway! It’s excellent! Caprelloidea is very talented, I enjoyed all the OUAT stories. Hope this helps!

Hi there’s this doc I read agesss ago and I really can’t find it. Emma or Killian, one of them is cursed so if u touch them you die. There’s a scene where they kiss through a scarf. Do u which one it is?

Doesn’t ring a bell. 

Anyone?

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Those people who constantly reblog your stuff but you never really talk:

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saying “be safe” like a spell that’ll protect them

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Would love to read more of your work.

Calling all Captain Swan shippers who still exist here on Tumblr!

I've been working on this damn story for eons at this point (like, Obama was president), and while I'm keen to finish it, I'm not sure anyone's going to read it. I never publish any fic that isn't already finished, and I update on a schedule, so if I were to post it, it would not end up abandoned. The Zelda inspiration impacts the plot structure heavily but all characters and concepts and settings, etc., are all OUAT.

Please reblog if you're a past or present member of the OUAT/CS fandom, I'd love to get a good read on this before I force myself to finish writing this chapter I've been stuck on.

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Calling all Captain Swan shippers who still exist here on Tumblr!

I've been working on this damn story for eons at this point (like, Obama was president), and while I'm keen to finish it, I'm not sure anyone's going to read it. I never publish any fic that isn't already finished, and I update on a schedule, so if I were to post it, it would not end up abandoned. The Zelda inspiration impacts the plot structure heavily but all characters and concepts and settings, etc., are all OUAT.

Please reblog if you're a past or present member of the OUAT/CS fandom, I'd love to get a good read on this before I force myself to finish writing this chapter I've been stuck on.

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This is lovely. Thank you.

Been thinking some deep thoughts today... Mostly, or at least starting out, with the song "I Will Always Love You" and how it might just be the greatest love song of all time, not in a romantic sense, but in a true, spiritual love sense. Specifically for the bridge lyrics:

I hope life treats you kind And I hope you have all you've dreamed of And I wish to you joy and happiness But above all this, I wish you love

It's not a song about being together, about needing someone or wanting someone or getting it on or any of the usual romantic nonsense. It's about genuinely loving someone and wishing them all the best in life - including - no, especially - love.

Even if that love is with someone else. That is the crux of true, unselfish, spiritual love. It's unconditional. It requires nothing. It demands nothing. It doesn't even ask for anything. It doesn't need to. It just is. And it's what we should all aspire to have in our lives, and to give to others, and to give to ourselves - which is often the hardest part.

Which then got me thinking about what Colin said during the Austin Galaxycon panel, about regrets he has and trying to be a better person to make up for them.

There's that old adage, "To err is human, to forgive divine." But I don't think it's quite right. Erring isn't something that's innately human. Animals also err - often with deadly consequences. Nature itself makes mistakes. No, to err is... natural. Universal, perhaps? Unavoidable, definitely.

I think regret is what makes us human. Apologizing is one thing; it's the right thing to do when we wrong another. Asking for actual forgiveness is a step further. But when we truly regret something we've said or done, it proves our actions were contrary to who we truly are as a person. We not only wronged someone else, but we wronged ourselves by letting our more baser impulses override our basic nature and lead us astray.

But forgiveness is divine. That part of the adage is correct. Forgiving others for the mistakes they make, seeking and accepting forgiveness from others for the mistakes we've made... and, hardest of all, forgiving ourselves.

We can forgive others more easily than we can forgive ourselves, because forgiveness is an act of love. And it is SO much easier to love others than it is to love ourselves. Most of us don't truly love ourselves anywhere near enough. Many of us don't even know what that means (Hint: It has nothing to do with egotism!). But if we loved ourselves, valued ourselves, as much as we love and value those who mean the most to us... We'd find forgiving ourselves to be so much easier of a task.

There was a song lyric somewhere... I've forgotten the song and even the exact wording of the lyric, but it was something along the lines of "I wish you loved you as much as I love you" and it resonated with me, because it's so relatable. I wish everyone loved themselves as much as I love them and I remember at the time I waxed poetic on this very blog about how much we all love Colin and how much I wished that he could see the wonderful things we see in him and love himself as much as we love him.

And I still do. I probably always will, same as I'll always wish for all the very best for everyone I love in this life - including all of you, the people who take time out of your lives to read my silly little words on my silly little blog and think about them a little. I wish all of you joy, happiness... and love. So much love! If you can't love yourself just yet, that's okay. You can work on it. Just don't forget that someone out there thinks you should!

And forgive yourself. You are a good person.

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Buffy!  Beginning of fandom life for me

Wait a minute.  The whump was probably earlier but I didn’t know what to call it then.

BtVS 3.20 | AtS 1.08

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Thank you for letting us know. 

I’m just doing reblogs for Wh*mptober. Not original/new content.

There is no new content, lol. 😭

But all of these themes make me fondly remember Killian’s adventures and how blessed we were with all of the whump and spills and chills we got from him. What a wonderful character. What a wonderful actor playing him. Ah, the glory days of the Colin fandom.

Lately, I’ve been thinking about (and missing) a lot of our old friends who have disappeared and moved on to other horizons over the years. I just noticed that SherlockianWhovian deleted her account here, so all of the stories she posted under “Read More” links are completely gone 😭 Such a loss. She still has her AO3 up, thank goodness, but so many of her drabbles and one-shots and even some of her longer fics were never posted there.

Please, friends… If you move on… leave your blogs/content up for those who come after you and those you’ve left behind. It’s still valid. It’s still beloved. And, in the absence of your sparkling self, it’s often all we have left of you!

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Looking for a Captain Swan fic

I am looking for a CS fanfic, alternate universe, modern setting, one-shot.  Killian is David’s friend and is invited to the friend group activities by David.  Emma doesn’t like him because he brings cheap wine and doesn’t go out to dinner at nice places or participate in holiday activities. Then she sees him volunteering at the soup kitchen and understands.  It was sweet and I liked the way Emma opened her heart to him.  If you could reply that would be great!

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I found this on AO3; ‘Intercession to Saint Anthony’ by Lady _T_220

https://archiveofourown.org/works/29156313/chapters/71579103

It’s in the White Collar fandom, it’s complete and it’s very good. 

Do you know of any good amputation whump fics?

I know I’m missing some and it’s killing me that I can’t remember them and I’ll probably remember as soon as I post this but here are some of my fav fics with amputation. If I think of any other ones I’ll reblog and add them :)

Tony Stark

Irreplaceable by aliaoftwoworlds

Summary: Leaving a man stuck in a dead suit in Siberia had some lasting consequences, ones that could get his teammates in a little bit of trouble—or a lot. Three different scenarios in which the reinstated Avengers find out about Tony’s injuries.

Evan Buckley

There’s a Dog in Your Heart (It Tells You to Tear Everything Apart) by adhdbuck

Summary: Ask buck what he remembers about that night and he tells you he wouldn’t be able to tell you. He’ll tell you he was in too much pain to register anything, his brain stored all the memories away into a neat little box. That’s not the truth. (Buck's leg is damaged beyond repair, the doctors have to amputate. This is the aftermath.)

a sweating, unexploded mine buried deep in his mind by GaiaMax

Summary: A traumatic event can be defined as an event that poses a threat of serious injury or even death to the self or others, bringing with it feelings of profound fear, powerlessness and terror. So just because you left the event, doesn’t mean the event is going to leave you. Because of The Event, Buck lost a leg and so much more, leaving Eddie unable to get away from the after effect of having to make the decision of taking Buck’s leg and the mother of his child dying.

phantom pains by transbuck

Summary: If there's one thing Buck's learned since losing his leg, it's that phantom pains are a bitch.

Leonard Snart

A Hand of Metal and Wheels by areyouarealmonster

Summary: Leonard shatters his hand trying to get free of the cuffs that Mick--Chronos--left him in. Gideon can seal the open wound, but no more than that. Leonard has to come to terms with losing his hand, and to deal with the inconvenient feelings he has for the man making him a prosthesis. Ray, however, is still with Kendra, which makes Leonard's feelings even more inconvenient and pointless. There's no easy fix for his feelings, or for learning how to use a mechanical hand. It's tough, and it's frustrating, but at least Ray Palmer keeps touching him, so he's got that going for him now.

In This Life by Jael

Summary: In one Earth, Rip didn't time-scatter the Legends--he sent the Waverider spinning through the multiverse, damaged, its crew trying to find a way home. And when that Earth's Sara and Leonard approach another Earth's Waverider, they'll find out just what a life and a destiny can turn on.

Takashi Shirogane

The Body Burns Away by Carrionflower

Summary: His arm was gone, replaced by inorganic machinery that clicked and whirred, but the physical memory of its loss remained burned into his nervous system. It translated as a haunting pain that spiked and ebbed but never fully receded, always constant like a needle digging into his brain. Shiro's coming apart at the seams and Keith is the only one that can see it happening.

He Thinks He's Alone In This by sad_ghost_kid

Summary: Sometimes Shiro hurt himself. He couldn't always control it, compulsively slashing at the metal of his prosthetic arm, scratching at the skin of what was left until his hand was covered in blood. It became a nervous habit, twitching and picking, the frequency and severity getting worse with every nightmare, every flashback. Or, a story in which Shiro struggles through his PTSD all alone, until he breaks. The others try to put him back together.

Killian Jones

Sit, Stay, Feel by: ScapeArtist

Summary: Modern AU: Emma Swan is the owner of Pet Saviors — a dog training/walking/sitting service. Killian Jones, and his dog Gale, are her clients. When Emma & Killian finally meet, the fur flies.

When The Beat Of My Drum (Meets The Beat Of Your Heart) by: threadfinjack

Summary: Just a little ficlet based on a prompt from tumblr. Pro-surfer Killian Jones loses his hand in a shark attack. During his rehabilitation, he meets physical therapy student Emma Swan. She makes it her quest to help him return to the ocean where he belongs.

The Absence of You by: SLimac

Summary: AU When Emma Swan, a young social worker, stumbled into Killian Jones's hospital room looking for her mischievous son she never thought the encounter would go farther. But she'll soon come to realize that Killian needs her more than she knows. And maybe, she might need him too.

A Scar is Worth the Pain by: ramblingkitten

Summary: Emma and Killian bond over scars... Okay summary sucks just click read i promise its better than it sounds.

Lucifer Morningstar

Faint by: chashkieh

Summary: The pain of injuries and amputation never really go away. When Lucifer cut off his wings there was likely phantom pains of a lost limb in the immediate aftermath that faded as he adjusted but occasionally rears its ugly head on a rainy or hot/humid like most injuries. One day it flares in the middle of a case and is aggravated by one of Dan's casual clap on the back.

Knives and wings don't mix, Luci. by toby_or_not_toby

Summary: Lucifer groaned again, then inched the blade further into his traitorous muscle. Nearly there, just a bit more- The demon blade hit a clump of nerves, and Lucifer's vision whited out as he screamed.

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Do you know of any good amputation whump fics?

I know I’m missing some and it’s killing me that I can’t remember them and I’ll probably remember as soon as I post this but here are some of my fav fics with amputation. If I think of any other ones I’ll reblog and add them :)

Tony Stark

Irreplaceable by aliaoftwoworlds

Summary: Leaving a man stuck in a dead suit in Siberia had some lasting consequences, ones that could get his teammates in a little bit of trouble—or a lot. Three different scenarios in which the reinstated Avengers find out about Tony’s injuries.

Evan Buckley

There’s a Dog in Your Heart (It Tells You to Tear Everything Apart) by adhdbuck

Summary: Ask buck what he remembers about that night and he tells you he wouldn’t be able to tell you. He’ll tell you he was in too much pain to register anything, his brain stored all the memories away into a neat little box. That’s not the truth. (Buck's leg is damaged beyond repair, the doctors have to amputate. This is the aftermath.)

a sweating, unexploded mine buried deep in his mind by GaiaMax

Summary: A traumatic event can be defined as an event that poses a threat of serious injury or even death to the self or others, bringing with it feelings of profound fear, powerlessness and terror. So just because you left the event, doesn’t mean the event is going to leave you. Because of The Event, Buck lost a leg and so much more, leaving Eddie unable to get away from the after effect of having to make the decision of taking Buck’s leg and the mother of his child dying.

phantom pains by transbuck

Summary: If there's one thing Buck's learned since losing his leg, it's that phantom pains are a bitch.

Leonard Snart

A Hand of Metal and Wheels by areyouarealmonster

Summary: Leonard shatters his hand trying to get free of the cuffs that Mick--Chronos--left him in. Gideon can seal the open wound, but no more than that. Leonard has to come to terms with losing his hand, and to deal with the inconvenient feelings he has for the man making him a prosthesis. Ray, however, is still with Kendra, which makes Leonard's feelings even more inconvenient and pointless. There's no easy fix for his feelings, or for learning how to use a mechanical hand. It's tough, and it's frustrating, but at least Ray Palmer keeps touching him, so he's got that going for him now.

In This Life by Jael

Summary: In one Earth, Rip didn't time-scatter the Legends--he sent the Waverider spinning through the multiverse, damaged, its crew trying to find a way home. And when that Earth's Sara and Leonard approach another Earth's Waverider, they'll find out just what a life and a destiny can turn on.

Takashi Shirogane

The Body Burns Away by Carrionflower

Summary: His arm was gone, replaced by inorganic machinery that clicked and whirred, but the physical memory of its loss remained burned into his nervous system. It translated as a haunting pain that spiked and ebbed but never fully receded, always constant like a needle digging into his brain. Shiro's coming apart at the seams and Keith is the only one that can see it happening.

He Thinks He's Alone In This by sad_ghost_kid

Summary: Sometimes Shiro hurt himself. He couldn't always control it, compulsively slashing at the metal of his prosthetic arm, scratching at the skin of what was left until his hand was covered in blood. It became a nervous habit, twitching and picking, the frequency and severity getting worse with every nightmare, every flashback. Or, a story in which Shiro struggles through his PTSD all alone, until he breaks. The others try to put him back together.

Killian Jones

Sit, Stay, Feel by: ScapeArtist

Summary: Modern AU: Emma Swan is the owner of Pet Saviors — a dog training/walking/sitting service. Killian Jones, and his dog Gale, are her clients. When Emma & Killian finally meet, the fur flies.

When The Beat Of My Drum (Meets The Beat Of Your Heart) by: threadfinjack

Summary: Just a little ficlet based on a prompt from tumblr. Pro-surfer Killian Jones loses his hand in a shark attack. During his rehabilitation, he meets physical therapy student Emma Swan. She makes it her quest to help him return to the ocean where he belongs.

The Absence of You by: SLimac

Summary: AU When Emma Swan, a young social worker, stumbled into Killian Jones's hospital room looking for her mischievous son she never thought the encounter would go farther. But she'll soon come to realize that Killian needs her more than she knows. And maybe, she might need him too.

A Scar is Worth the Pain by: ramblingkitten

Summary: Emma and Killian bond over scars... Okay summary sucks just click read i promise its better than it sounds.

Lucifer Morningstar

Faint by: chashkieh

Summary: The pain of injuries and amputation never really go away. When Lucifer cut off his wings there was likely phantom pains of a lost limb in the immediate aftermath that faded as he adjusted but occasionally rears its ugly head on a rainy or hot/humid like most injuries. One day it flares in the middle of a case and is aggravated by one of Dan's casual clap on the back.

Knives and wings don't mix, Luci. by toby_or_not_toby

Summary: Lucifer groaned again, then inched the blade further into his traitorous muscle. Nearly there, just a bit more- The demon blade hit a clump of nerves, and Lucifer's vision whited out as he screamed.

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Life lesson from JJ Sneed though… if someone tells you they’re not a good person, believe them. If someone tells you they’re a bastard, a liar, a bitch, a cheater… believe them. Take them at their word. They know themselves best, after all.

It’s a bloody clever bit of manipulation, though. Because he’s telling the truth: he’s not a good person. He comes across as sincere and trustworthy overall because sure, he lies to her, but in between the lies, he also keeps telling her the truth. He’s an outlaw. He isn’t a good guy. She shouldn’t get involved with him. All things he says, and all true. And while he lies nonchalantly, shrugging things off, he very much focuses on the truths he tells. He gets earnest about that.

And Maddie is a good person, and she does what a lot of good people do in this situation: she reaches out. Surely, someone so honest can’t actually be bad, right? Bad people deny what they are. Not Sneed. He seems so honest. He’s so open. Because he is.

So she thinks oh, he’s just down on himself. He just doesn’t believe in himself, in his own goodness. He doesn’t see it. But she sees it. And she wants to make him see it too.

People do this all the time, it’s a human impulse. Your friend says they’re a bad person? You tell them they’re not. You say you suck? Your friends tell you you’re awesome. I say my drawing turned out crap? People tell me it’s great - even if they haven’t actually seen it. Purely because they want to make me feel better.

But Sneed’s not putting himself down - he’s just telling the truth. Like me with my drawing that turned out crap. It really is crap. And he really is a bad guy.

The difference between me and Sneed is that I realised how people interpret and respond to my comments, so I stopped saying it, because I don’t want to be assured that my crap drawing isn’t crap. But Sneed? That’s exactly what he wants. That’s how he gets and keeps Maddie’s sympathy. Aww, this poor guy, trying so hard, thinking there’s no way he can ever be good even though he wants to be. She wants to fix him, help him, redeem him.

(Note how he never actually says he wants to be good. She just assumes that, because surely everyone wants to be good, and he’d be happier if he was, right?)

It’s a really common impulse, wanting to reassure someone. It’s also common for people to take advantage of it - not always to the extent that Sneed does, but they do it. It’s a great way to get the attention and reassurance you want, even if you’re not actively trying to manipulate people. Oh, I’m so bad at [insert activity here], I’m so unlovable, poor little me, have sympathy for me, tell me I’m wrong, persuade me I’m wrong, give me all that attention. It’s just taken to the extreme here. Maddie wants to help Sneed to see the good in himself, to be a better man, and Sneed knows it, and uses it.

Add to that his moodiness. He’s fun and charming at first, and then he gets taciturn and shut-off. Of course Maddie wants happy Sneed back, she knows that side of him, she likes it, so she works for it. He makes her work for it. And she’s willing to go to greater and greater lengths to make him happy.

This is how you end up in that kind of relationship/friendship where you’re constantly getting mistreated while trying to build the other person up. That’s how someone like Sneed will get you to constantly invest time and effort into building him up, trying to persuade him that he’s a good guy, trying to get him to see it, all while taking a backseat yourself and ignoring your own needs and always, always putting him first. That’s how he gets all the attention while giving very little in return.

Because he is not good for you, and you should’ve believed him when he told you.

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This is wonderful!  Thanks for coming back to it.  Best wishes always.

something like you love me epilogue ff.net | ao3

She knows him well enough by now to know what that shuttered look in his eyes means. To recognize the tension in the line of his back.

He’s hiding something from her, and she doesn’t like it.

The past year has been great. Better than, really. Being with him is – it’s everything she hoped it would be when she allowed herself to think about it. They still spend their evenings at the bar, huddled together over baskets of fries while he forces her to taste test his latest experiment. And he still shoves peanut butter protein bars in her glove box for when she has late-night stakeouts and forgets to feed herself. But now she comes home to him in her bed, his boots stacked neatly by hers at the door. Now she gets to crawl on top of him and wake him up with her lips at his throat, her cold hands pressed beneath his shirt to find his sleep warm skin.

He’s still her best friend. He’s just – everything else, too.

[ Emma decides the best way to get Mary Margaret off her back about Walsh is to say she already has a boyfriend. Except she doesn’t. That’s where Killian comes in. Fake!Engagement fic.]

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I am in tears.  He is so strong.

It appears as a swirling mass of dark clouds, a twisted plume of smoke that shimmers with glints of green the same shade as her eyes. His grip falters for a moment before his fingers tighten on the dagger, held up in front of him like a shield.

David stands a few feet away with the queen at his side, Regina has her magic already crackling in her palms even though they all know that her power will be no match for the one they are attempting to summon with the silver blade. His heart beats too fast in his chest, a rapid staccato that seems to echo in his ears.

Swan. Swan. Swan.

Henry is not present, he had utterly refused to do this in front of her boy and he is at home reluctantly with her mother and brother. The lad had never seen the Crocodile in his reptile skin, he had not quite realized that she might not look the same now as she had, before. She might not love him, anymore, or any of them for that matter.

His heart breaks a little at the thought, the cadence under his breast shifting and stuttering into a new, ominous tune.

Dark-One. Dark-One. Dark-One.

A plume of smoke slithers from the mass towards him like a snake, curling around his wrist and tugging ever so gently. He’d sailed his ship into many a storm and none made him quail the way the cloud on this horizon does. He moves forward and feels it envelop him, pulling him into it’s midst and blocking out all the light. 

Not all.

Something catches the curve of the dagger, he tilts it and sees another flash of green reflected in the gleaming metal.

Her eyes.

Something that feels like a feather touches his cheek with the lightest of brushes and a voice whispers in his ear.

“Killian.”

His eyes had closed without realizing it and he forced them open, blinking as he saw her at last. White face, red lips, hair slicked back as if she had just arisen from the sea, born of the foam and spray like a goddess of old. She’s entirely different and entirely the same and whether she still loved him or not, he still loved her with all his heart and soul and whatever other pieces of him she wished to claim. She bound herself to the darkness, and he wanted nothing more than to chase the moon and sail away from the sunrise forever in her wake. But he couldn’t, he had to navigate them both back home. The smoke curled around his ankles, his waist, his shoulders, like she was embracing him head to toe and he felt his hand start to open, the slide of metal against his palm.

Emma Swan

The name engraved on the blade snapped him back to reality and he hefted the dagger back up, seeing disappointment and anger flash across her face before it was gone.

“Stop this, Emma. I command you to stop this.”

He hated himself for that but hating himself was old hat, he could loathe himself to his heart’s content later, but now he needed to keep her safe.

“Don’t call me that. Call me what I am now, Hook.”

The smoke started to clear and light began to pierce through the cocoon she had wrapped them in. Emma flinched and glared but he held firm.

“No. You’re Emma. You will always be Emma. I lost myself for too long, told myself that Killian was gone for good when I put this,” he raised his hook, “on, but it wasn’t true. You saw that even when I didn’t, and now it’s my turn. No matter what is written on this damn blade, no matter the darkness that is inside you now, you are Emma Swan. Henry’s mother. Snow White and Prince Charming’s daughter. Sheriff of Storybrooke. My happy ending. Always, Forever. And I love you too.”

She said nothing as the last of the cloud vanished and they stood in the sunlight at last, but for a brief moment she almost smiled and right now that was enough. He slid the dagger inside his jacket, hand brushing his chest and feeling his heart settle back into the familiar rhythm, the one it had beat to ever since she had put it back into place.

Em-ma. Em-ma. Em-ma.

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Qqueenofhades has been removed from tumblr, and her followers do not know why.   Please restore her blog.  She is talented, generous with time and talent, a good person.  

PETITION TO BRING @qqueenofhades BACK

@staff @support

Her blog was unfairly and without warning deleted (as were many other blogs) and it’s been almost a month and she has yet to get her blog back despite her many emails and emails from friends on her behalf. So now we have a sort-of petition.

Please reblog this while @ing staff and support so that they will get a lot of notifications. Restore her tumblr. BRING BACK OUR QUEEN!

Note: Permission was given by qqueenofhades to do this, original idea came from this ask here. Be polite when you reblog, rudeness will get us nowhere. Thank you!