pearlbelongstobucky

[pearlbelongstobucky]

Aaja Piya, Tohe Pyaar Dun.....

POV- Bucky, the formal Winter soldier, who never thought he'd ever be worthy of anything good in his entire life because all of the blood that he has on his hands, seeking comfort in arms of someone who he considers as his home.

Warnings- None

Alotssss of Fluff and soft Bucky (Shh, let him have some rest common)

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~Kis liye tu, itna udaas?...Sukhe sukhe honth, ankhiyon me pyaas~

Bucky, who had lived his life as a monster, defined by the horrors of his past and the monster he himself and the world saw him as. But when he spilled his wine on her dress at the party, everything changed. The moment he set eyes on her, he felt a sense of peace and connection he had never known before. He was genuinely scared about this, he was undeserving of it all right...."What if I hurt her?" or "Will she even want to talk to me?". It was as if she was the missing piece of his shattered soul, bringing light to the darkness that had consumed him for so long. Being with her, he felt at home in a way he had never thought possible. She was his safe place, his shelter from the storm.

Aside from all the blues of his past and overthinking and self doubts that often consumed his mind.....Here he was again.....Bucky stood outside of her door, his body and mind still reeling from the chaos of the mission. He was battered and bruised, both physically and emotionally, but all he really wanted was to feel her soft touch and hear her soothing voice. He knocked softly on the door, his fingers shaking slightly. His heart raced as he waited for her to answer. When the door finally opened and she appeared, his breath caught in his throat. Even though he was a mess, she was nothing short of perfection in his eyes. Just a sight of her always felt like a soothing balm to his aching and weary soul. Her eyes were like the hot cup of tea he always preferred when he was low, her smile like the small moments of happiness he feels after realising that yes.... She's real..... She's with him.

"Welcome home, James.", she said softly as she let him in, knowing damn well that he needs to feel safe, he looks tired and weak, he needs her.

Bucky silently lets himself inside her apartment, which was his safe place now, after every mission he found himself right here, again and again, with her, where he belonged. He just stood by the couch as she sat down, she looked up at him with pure affection and devotion in her eyes that it made him want to just crumble and let it all out.

"Rough Mission?", she asked, her voice low and almost careful, to not bother the comfortable silence of the room.

"Yeah.", his voice gruff. "Nearly lost it there, I was too close to save him but.....", His voice broke, he couldn't shake off the guilt of his mistake, he knew it wasn't his fault that the team couldn't save the victim but he couldn't stop himself from blame. He thought and knew that he was the one wrong here, even if he was not.

"Oh Love", she said and opened her arms for him, Bucky finally gave in and quickly got into her arms, her body resting on the couch while his face hidden in her chest, he let her hold him, he let her run her fingers through his hair and he let himself be vulnerable in her presence. Afterall, she was his home, he felt safe here.

"Thake hue in haathon ko, Dede mere haath mein. Sukh mera lele, main dukh tere leloon. Main bhi jiyoon...tu bhi jiye."

"I'm here bubba, I'm here. Always. I'm so proud of you." Her words were like a dagger to his broken heart, he hid himself further into her chest, trying to avoid those words. He knew she's too kind to him and he doesn't deserve it, but hearing it from her, it felt right. Only if she knew that she was fixing something that she never broke in the first place. He wanted to try again, for her, for his sake, for his home. He knew it all too well that no matter where he goes or where he is lost, he has to come back, to her. His mind finally relaxing and holding her a little tighter, trying to savour her and her presence, her touch, her voice, her everything. He finally looked up at her, taking in her features, looking into eyes that always made him go weak in the knees. She smiled softly at him, pinching his cheek gently, "You deserve it Bucky, give yourself a break, let me take care of you."

It all felt unreal to him, years of self doubt and disgust and now that she was in his life, he felt.....Better? God what type of witchcrafts has she performed on him, he was feeling better than ever and never wanted to return back.

"I'm a mess, Darling", his voice barley above a whisper.

She chuckled, and that sound felt like music to his ears, the real form of music that maybe the Gods loved.

"I know bubba, but you're my mess, aren't you?", without any hesitation, she placed her lips softly on his lips. Bucky felt a warmth spread throughout his entire body. It was as if he had been missing something his whole life, and now he had finally found it in her arms. He wrapped his arms around her waist, pulling her closer to him. He couldn't help but feel a sense of safety and comfort in her presence, and he realized then that she was his own personal safe haven.

He is not a religious man nor does he pray, but in this moment, he felt like all his prayers were finally answered by God himself.

"Baithi hoon main tere liye ho, Aaja piya.."

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(Hi everyone!! This is my first time writing something 😭😭. I was actually listening to one of my favorite songs and got this idea. If there are any spelling or grammatical mistakes then please forgive me and lmk, English is not my first language. Let me know your thoughts about this one. Bieee ilysmmm mwahh<3)