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my three year old nephew talks a lot now and this morning he was sorting out his toys and he said “oh shit” when he found one he really liked, and clear as can be too. i’m glad that’s not my problem bc it was so funny to hear at 9 in the morning

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congrats to whatever gay men were tapping that. wish they were me

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im a half mexican bisexual writer because i like an identity crisis i guess

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Pattie Boyd photographed by Nancy Sandys Walker, 1964

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“It was always you” is just so good. It was always you. The second we met, it was you. It was you even when I didn’t want it to be you. It was you even when it was someone else. It was you. It was you. It was you. I belong to you, even if you don’t know it yet. I will never belong to someone else, I only belong to you. Don’t you get that? It was always you.

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yeah

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Hey, I hope it's okay to drop you a message. I just found your blog, because I'm having a very intense Cary Grant phase in my life and I enjoy reading your posts and tags about him. I have so many questions - how do we know he was a republican? Could you elaborate more on his "masculinity" (or the opposite of it for the norms of that period)? His "involvement" with the LGBT? How he still viewed women? I have so many questions!! Feel free to ignore me, but thought I'd drop a message!

yeah it's absolutely okay to drop a message about this stuff, as i very much love cary still! i only wish you'd been around when i was knee deep in my cary grant era, because i would've been able to supply you with much better answers, but i'm still going to try! we don't really know he was republican, but there's evidence that his politics leaned that way. in 1976 he appeared at the national republican convention and he did support thomas dewey in 1944. while he wasn't as outspoken as his beliefs as jimmy stewart, he did occasionally deep his toes in those waters.

as for the masculinity - he was undeniably a masculine figure, but not in the way that leading men before him were presenting as. he was not the knight in shining armor, or the western cowboy, nor was he adventure hero who came in guns ablaze. he was debonair, better suited to sets inside rather than ones outside, and also better suited to leading ladies who could save themselves. he also challenged the conventions of masculinity at the time with his comedy; he dressed in a women's robe and jumped around, declaring he felt gay all the sudden in bringing up baby. he wore an apron with a bow on it as he cooked dinner for his childhood best friend (woman) and a professor he respected, uncaring of the way it made him in look in talk of the town. publicly, he lived with randolph scott on and off again for years despite the fact that that caused rumors.

as for cary grant's involvement in the lgbtq community, there's this lovely article called cary grant and randolph scott's hollywood story: "our souls did touch" which talks a lot about this very thing. i also recommend the biography cary grant: a brilliant disguise by scott eyman.

i think how cary grant felt about women was complicated, much too complicated to condense down to a paragraph, but i will say that it was not always positive. he was not a misogynist by any means, as is evidenced by the way his leading ladies come across in the movies (strong women, women who hold their own against him and sometimes even outwit him) but a man with five marriages is inevitably going to have his complications. he loved women and women loved him, but he was not always good at taking them just as they were. in fact, i think he rather liked molding them into who he wanted them to be rather than letting them alone, but he liked doing that with himself, too.

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i’d die for him

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Hi! Can I ask the name of the book about Rock Hudson that you were reading? I want to read it, too. Also, I just wanted to tell you that I’m excited to read your Javier Peña fanfic!

hi! of course! the name of the book was called all that heaven allows: a biography of rock hudson by mark griffin. i hope you enjoy learning about him as much as i did!

also i’m honored you want to! javi is one of my favorite little guys and writing for him was a lot of fun. (also—i love your url. that mustache means much to me).

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Joan Baez at the March on Washington, 28 August 1963, in LIFE Magazine.

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every time my nephew stays over i sleep on legos for a week bc he always takes them to bed with him. i love him sm

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accidentally took a sleeping pill before work today so the first four hours or so were great

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reminder that you gotta just dick around n write some sentences and doodle with words !!!!

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i love pushing my doomed lovers/soulmates agenda onto people but i hate being the victim of someone else’s massacre. i’d like to apologize for any damage i may have caused with my own doomed lovers. they’re gonna get married now dw

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I like this actor, I should watch more of his movies *opens IMDB page* he should be in better movies

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i was born to be two things: a writer and a chismosa. i’ve always known that to be true

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“but he made him gay” probably bc he knew he’d be really good at it ? maybe you’re not gay bc god didn’t think you’d be up to the task ever thought abt that. some bitches can’t hang like that

rock hudson was tall and beautiful with a full head of luscious hair and the ability to grow a damned good mustache, and yet homophobic people want you to believe god hated him. don’t kid me