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now that trump has tiktok, twitter, facebook and insta in his pocket, get ready for a massive wave of internet censorship. one of trump's greatest weapons has always been misinformation; it's going to become harder and harder to spread facts and criticism going forward. posts that aren't made invisible will be magically ignored by the algorithm. dissidents will have their accounts deleted and voices erased.

this is a suppression tactic. this is another stage of fascism.

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june 24, 2023

=== singlish rant === On Friday night Stewart said gonna go meet his friend "for a while" since he is leaving to work far away during football season. Ok can. End up got awakened by a phone call at freaking 4.20am ((in the MORNING)) that he fell & is bleeding from his head and is walking home. After staying up to check he's OK when he reached home, go back to sleep. knnb 7am his 3 alarms keep ringing. Break my sleep again. tired as shit. Then i have to wake up at 9am to feed his son. usually this is the case anyway, i wake up to do shit with/for his son but this time i am more understanding by it since he did have his accident. Then 1130 i find out he had passed out when he hit his head before being roused by a stranger and walking home. like ok..? he been passed out ages with so many hours missing and unaccounted for.. could have been dead or what good story but ok.. i choose to believe what he said. 12pm i started work. Got let off early at 9.30pm. AT NIGHT HOR. He'd been playing games n relaxing all day. Go home alr i see nothing's been done. As USUAL. Still need to have my dinner and be his mother phone the dr for him since i was worried as he did pass out for a few hours apPARENTLY after going MIA after a night out. He still can complain why i phone Dr, complain the rubbish smelly. He stayed at home all day and didn't take the trash out, didn't wash any dishes, of course smelly la 🙄🙄 i didn't say anything cuz give chance, c0nCusSiOn right. But even before this also this pattern, its not new to us and im doing everything. i know if he is telling the truth then i look like an over-suspicious gf lmao think im also super tired rn

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man cant be allowed out lol he was supposedly on the train on his way home and fell asleep on the train and ended up super far away. thankfully near his uncle's house so not buttfuck nowhere. came home the next afternoon.... what actually happened before he was at uncles house leh.

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i have been so unhappy for so long, but i dont know why i keep putting up with it. i dont love him anymore, there's no passion, no interest in his company, no comfort in this life. but i still love his son dearly and hope to achieve this qualification before i leave. or is that just what i tell myself?

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He went to football pure early today at 3pm and didn't come back til 10 pm and blueticked me. Wouldn't give me a straight answer and story kept changing. Didn't have a good time then he had a good time, apparently took so long n hard to get there n back but suddenly mention of taxi to come back m said was in stadium until 10 pm with no signal the whole time but earlier said taxi alr

Im so frustrated

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🙄🙄🙄 I'm building this ikea cupboard all by myself and he's so fucking unhelpful when i ask for help as to why something isn't working and just getting angry at me saying ikea is lousy etc. Well i spent more than £200 for our (his) fucking shoes so they're out the fucking way and it was my own money anyway

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Sometimes i feel like all Stewart does is bring out the worst in me

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Arthritic thumbs are going to be a problem when the texting generation ages.

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"El Alfa "El Jefe" - Singapur (El Androide)"

I was all, "ooh they have a song about us?? Ooh catchy" and then was so confused by the video until I read that it's basically word play with the slang word singa (have sex) so he's basically rapping about going to fucktown like ok 😔

Vamos para Singapur / let's go to Singapore

La vida en Singapur e' má' bacana (Wuh) / life in Singapore' s cooler (wuh)

Tengo die' mujere' de estropajo (Wuh) / I've got ten women to wipe the floor with (Wuh)

Chey

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Feeling so consumed by bitterness rn.

When we moved into his gran's he picked the most convenient spot for himself by the door. Sprang for it. Quickly set up all his gaming shit. At first i didn't mind cuz i thought it would be good since that seat is right by the toilet and i didn't have to sit and smell shit.

But then the my seat is by the window and im constantly complaining I'm too cold. His seat is by the radiator so he's constantly complaining he's too warm

Not complete brb

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Sometimes the thought of having to do a task is more draining than doing the task itself

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and i just got reminded of how this mofo been ignoring my constant reminders about smth he needs to plan for, then now his dad made the plans to take ryan out and then he's pissed cuz now his plans are ruined but then hes angry at me cuz i didnt talk to his dad when he said he would discuss with his dad istg

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same old bullshit

so out of the blue he tells me we're going out for dinner, (which is so uncharacteristic of him because he absolutely hates date night and always has a reason to not go)

and i scramble to get dressed blah3

the first half of the night goes alright and he starts talking about his new plan regarding us moving houses, which lead to us talking about his narcissist aunt whom i cannot tolerate, and then we start arguing.

he finally explained in detail what the goal is, why this is done the way it is etc, and then i say, "why didnt you tell me this before? now that you've told me this i know what to do now" because i was never going to blindly follow what people say, and the cheek of this mf to say, "i dont need to tell you anything, you should just listen to me and do it when i have said it to you before"

and i feel myself get tense like no, you changed the plan cz the amount of drama caused by your fkn aunt & co is getting to you, and also more imptly --you didnt explain to the same detail you did today why im expected to put up with her shit--,

mf responds with we alr talked about this blah3 im like this fucking mofo is just glossing over the fact he wasnt as specific as he was tonight he's just pissing me off now, and we're in a restaurant arguing for everyone to see and i feel ugly for it like mofo i fucking hate you right now

he starts a tirade about how he would just listen to me if i told him to behave a certain way around my family and starts the same old fucking story about how bad he felt when my mum was talking to him about being a dad to a child with a single mum etc but brah that was fcking what 3 yrs ago?? 4 yrs ago?? TALK SOME SHIT about me always having a go look at this jackass here

then he says i get defensive when talking about my mum and of course im too angry and disregulated to tell him that (on hindsight) he's obviously sniping at me here and choosing what pointers to trigger and distract me with so i cannot put forth a sound argument and im left just defending myself and we're now no longer talking about the fact he's indirectly said to me i dont deserve to know whats happening and he means for me to just blindly follow what he says

FML HONESTLY so now he's managed to turn it on me and its my fault now cuz im the dEFeNsiVe one that doesnt want to blindly take orders like a good lil bitch

swear to god this feels so much like the shit hk used to do, he liked taking ppl to restaurants to discuss whatever beef they had; he thought that being in a more upscale environment made the woman more conscious about "making a scene" and therefore making them more pliable to an outcome he wanted but fucking hell thats so manipulative - and then if the woman got angry at him for pressuring her and if she yelled at him he'd go mouthing off to others that this person was so horrible she yelled at him when he took her out for dinner like FUCK OFF why even bring someone to a nice place to argue - Who does that what the fuck -- he was complaining to me about his ex whom this happend with, and then some time later when we were arguing he did the exact same to me AND I UNDERSTOOD like tf

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He's passed it to me

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Ugly racist blonde bitch

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