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06/14/2018 "Are You Ready For The Trip?"

I had a dream about Kait. She is someone I really think highly of so this dream really had some emotional twist and turns in it. She is flying out and visiting me in the Bay Area. She arrives and I give her the biggest hug and etc. Just to summarize the dream, random things kept coming up so we couldn't really hangout with each other (She was oversleeping, waiting for her phone to charge, family talking to her too much). I felt like 2nd place every single time I tried to hangout with her and when I ever feel out of place...I like to run. When I run, Its the only time I really feel like im at peace. This is where the dream takes a weird turn. The dream changed up a little bit. It was about Snakehead Island in Hawaii (I have no clue what the hell Snakehead Island is in real life). Someone asked about it and my mind was recreating all the dangers of the hike for them and the Island on Googlemaps looked like an actual freakin snakehead. Yeah...weird. Anyways, I go back to the original dream and I start runniing. Im running through all the neighborhoods in San Jose. Time is passing by quickly. Seconds to minutes to hours in dream time. Its kind of like that sensation when you when your talking to someone and you guys are texting back to each other rather consistently...but you havn't received a text in like 5 minutes. So you put your phone away so you wont be so anxious. Running in this dream is like putting my phone away. I felt good. I felt free. Im now home and ready to see my friend. Turns out she has to go home a couple days early. For work or school or something of that nature. I only got to see her for maybe 5-6 moments.

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08/20/2017 "Let's Have a House Party"

The dream was such a happy dream and it transfer to me waking up. It was a pretty long dream but i'll keep the summary short. For some reason I converted this abandoned building into an egyptian musuem. I know that sounds absurd but it set up pretty fun adventures and meeting pretty cool people. I hired college students with artisitic talent to help decorate the musuem. The museum ended up being my house. Lots of people in my past were at the party. My whole family was at the party and it was crackin as hell. People were asking to hang out left and right and I never felt anymore loved lol. There is so much more details in the dream but im too lazy to write it.

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5/30/2017 "Be Apart of the Love Club"

There was a concert in a very small venue. It was about the size of the Catalyst but looked more like a school cafeteria with the stage. I don't remember the first 2 bands but the closers were Andrew Mcmahon and the Wilderness and finally Lorde. I wanted to get to the front but there was too many dang people. I ended up walking out to a find a restaurant with my friend because he was hungry. I was slightly annoyed because I might of missed some of the show. The place we walked into was a minor league hockey game and the whole venue was popping. It was weird, I ended up at the arcade but the games were old and cheap. Order of events: 1) Concert 2)Food Search 3) Hockey Game and 4) Cheap Arcade. It's crazy because I ended up with Burger King but never ate it. We walked back to the concert and Andrew McMahon is on. We are in the far back and there is a technical issue with his show. People starts dispersing and the whole front area became clear. I saw alot of people I knew. Past relationship girls, some old homies that I havn't spoken too for a while, current crushes and some family members. I then had to pee. I went to the bathroom then rushed back out and damnit. It was full again and I lost my original spot. I eventually scooted all the way near the front middle from the side. Andrew McMahon was done and I couldn't believe that I made it too the front to see Lorde!!! I was beyond excited. I see her prepping in the back and I kept yelling how awesome she is. Skipping lots of things because im lazy to write but she let me come up on stage and say a few things. I don't know if this is the purpose of the dream but I remember hoping that a particular person would notice. Idk

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03/23/2017 "Put a Smile On"

I had another one of those dreams. First I woke up at 6 then when back to sleep again. I was working at a amusement park at a food court. I was a new employee and had a pretty easy job just greeting people for the food court. Then the supervisor said that 2 people were no shows for the Mcdonalds there. They assigned me over there. It was completely fucked up because there was a line with over 100 people and I had no training or clue what the hell I was doing. This Mcodonald was an outdoor Mcdonalds and it was huge. All the supplies and cooking tools were at completely different spots. First receipt comes in. Quarter pounder with curly fries and coke. Im like when the hell did Mcdonalds have curly fries. The people that ordered it has been waiting for 40 minutes in line before they even gave me the order. No asshole showed me when the buns, patty, or anything is. I ran around like an asshole trying to find the ingredients and nobody told me about how long to cook it. It took a little time and there was alot of stress but I finally made it and gave it to the person. I think I have burgers and fries figured out. Next order comes in and its a lady. She hands me her receipt and its the worst. 1 banana 2.99. 1 banana void. 3 piece Bok Choy. 5 apple spring mix. In my head im like what are you thinking lady. This is fucking Mcdonalds. We didnt have 2 of those things and she still complained. I found Bok Choy for her some how. Stressful as hell working here. The next one is the worst. A samoan guy ordered Saimin (Hawaiian Ramen) and a Cinnebun. I asked the old man where the hell do I find this and how to cook it. He just gave me a vague ass direction and it was pretty far. I found it, you cook all of it at a churro cart. I remember seeing the cart completelt empty with the raw or frozen food. I figured out how to cook a cinnebon, ate one of the churros and it was delicious. And had to pull the raw noodles to make the Saimen. I had no clue wtf I was doing. Intresting though

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02/07/2017 "My Auntie, The Hero"

I'm just going to write a condensed version of this dream. First dream was strange as hell. I was a cocaine smuggler and I had cartoon animals as my partners in the drug business. Next dream I had the whole family over for a party that was thrown in honor of me. I'm not sure if it was a birthday but it seemed like a very special event. The day felt odd because that party was just a precursor of what we were going to do next. We are all thinking Jack London square in Oakland. I've been single my whole life so I never show intimacy to anyone in front of my family. My friend comes and I hold her and she sits on me. It's different. There is a whole back story to this dream but I don't want to get into it. Long story short, I go to my Uncle's room and it is completely empty. The blinds are only opened 5% at the end of them. I'm going to get busy with her and I see my Uncle look and makes a big scene with everyone outside. Thus cockblocking me. I was furious, the girl was embarrassed. I go outside and had a verbal confrontation with him. I felt that he only said and cockblocked me because I was "me". If it was anybody else, that wouldn't have happened. All these other arguments arises. The family seemed to take my side but I was already hurt. I go inside...ready to cry and my Auntie Kim pats me from behind. She said, don't listen to him you will be okay. I rested my head on the metal fridge while standing. Ready to cry. Then I woke up. Thank you Kim.

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I have always loved this song. It makes me feel all type of ways. I hope it does the same for you all. Cheers to a wonderful day and an even better year. #thelumineers #brokenmirror #amazingcompany @lestephy (at The Grand)

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12/12/2016 "Stolen Car Shenanigans"

This was a multifaceted dream and I completely forgot where it starts. Generation 2 of pokemon came out which meant that PS2 games and any other video games and systems with the number 2 in it was released. I had to swim through the ocean with one of my kids with 2 playstation controllers in my hand so we can play 4 players across the ocean at Universal studios. I know that makes no sense while reading it but im just stating everything that happened in my dream. Not sure if this is before or after but I wanted to run for some cardio. It's night time and we drive up on his car to a place that looks like a well lit and cracking high school. It has a track and there was a whole bunch of people around. I go outside and get ready for the run but out of nowhere it all turns into this Mayan pyramid thing you have to climb. Im like wtf! Kids are climbing it no prob but im struggling and throwing up. Next part of the dream is the strangest..from the people I meet to the whole premise of it. I get back home late but there is no parking. I parked my car at a 7/11 amd walk home. It is about 3:00 am when I park. Its the next day and I get a ride to my car and there are a whole bunch of police officers now at the 7/11. My car was also not in thrle same place I parked but from afar, it looked fine. I get up closer to my car and someone drove it and wrecked it on the fence at 7/11. Plenty of more details im leaving out because im tired but to conclude everything I ended up struggling calling insurance. I end up at Universal studios and have more stupide adventures with my little brother. And I need sleep. It really is 3 AM.

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"Life as we Know It" 11/17/2016

This dream had many different storylines and interesting characters from the past but I just wanted to focus on one facet. My Grandpa. We are back in my old apartment on Cruecero. It was a cold rainy night and I was looking at him on his bed. His face seems distraught and he just wasn't happy. He had his yellow walkman and headphones listening to his favorite Cambodian tunes of the past. I recieved a box from Honda for some reason and they gave me free headphones from Samsung. I tried putting it on my head but they didn't fit so I thought I would give it to my Grandpa. I go to his bed, talk to him for a little bit and old people complain about everything! So it took a little work to give him the headphones. He eventually caved in and I plugged it in for him. He cracked a little smile and it made me ecstatic that he actually liked it. I go back to my bed in the livingroom and in the corner of my eye I see him walk out the front door...in the rain, right before dawn. I go outside and he's happy just sitting on the balcony in the rain. I'm confused and ask him whats going on and get no verbal reply. I go inside and get him an umbrella. [Note, this apartment is a 1 story apartment but we are a floor off the ground. It requires stairs to get up]. I bring him the umbrella to shield him from the rain. He sits back up on the balcony fence. This is my dream self imagination...so sort of like a thought in a dream. I imagined he purposely fell back to end his own life. I saw myself crying and not sure who to call in this situation. Then flashback to the real world of the dream if that makes sense. I see my Gramps, happy with his walkman..sitting on the balcony fence. I give him the biggest hug I can give and said I love you. Then I woke up.

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I miss you Christian. 4 years today man.

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07/06/2016 "Deadpool"

I had a dream where I was very similar to Deadpool with his regenarative ability. It was all pretty new so I didn't know how to master it or fully hone it yet. It was night time and I was stuck in a warzone. The area looked like a school. I had two experienced deputies by my side and they told me to stay down in the vehicle. Lights and shots were going around everywhere. I was getting super anxious and scared. I wanted to help but didn't know how. They kept telling me to stay down. The lights, smoke, and noise got closer and closer. Pretty soon without me realizing it...the deputies were gone. This beautiful Harley Quinn looking woman just got into the carseat next to me. Then I saw it...she was the one causing all of this destruction. Her hair was fire red and her eyes were menacing even though she was beautiful. She had knives for finger nails and dug it right into my arm. I was screaming in agony and she went deeper into the wound. Then I woke up. It's 5:30 am and I have to be up for work in a couple of hours.

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07/03/2016 "Everything Has Come Full Circle"

It's been such a long time but my first big crush ended up back in my dreams. The setting of this dream was kind of crazy. My coworkers and superiors at work are like my teachers in community college. In retrospect, this was a pretty long dream but I won't write too much about it. I had random friends over the years in this class. My boss was my teacher and out of nowhere I see this girl I used to be so head over heels for. She talks to me but im super cautious because she has broke my heart a couple times before. There is some program to help out some special needs children in Santa Cruz but it is super full time for 3 weeks. She gives me a pamphlet with all the information. I'm torn about it because I don't want to strain my work relationship with my boss and this particular girl was pretty persuasive. We talked and caught up. We were in line for something later in the dream and she put her hand in my pants. That is pretty damn persuasive I reckon. It kind of fast forwards, I knew she has a boyfriend so I don't know why she is doing this. Questions arrise quickly. Does she miss me? Is she just toying with me? Is this just to get me to sign up? The dream continues and class is in session. After class, she wanted to come over to my new place because in reality....I finally moved out! Her car was parked on some secret mountain side part of the parking lot. I don't really know how to explain it but if I re-read this dream, i'll remember. We drive to my place and i'm don't exactly remember if we did the deed or not. I just remember being able to text her casually and being closer. Other flashbacks of other girls came up. I had a memory of Andrea in this dream and realized....she never really liked me. It was all complete lust. A sort of dream within a dream sequence again. Later in this dream, the date gets closer of that program and me and this particular girl are texting less and less. That's all I can remember.

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05/30/2016 "One For The Ages"

It is currently 3:56 am and I been up for the last 10 minutes. I knew I have to write this one because of how important it is. This dream is based on a whole collection or storyline of dreams I had previously over the years. That scary moment when you finally know what it feels like to die. This sounds weird but it's true when I read this elsewhere on the internet but I was dreaming about having a dream..it sounds meta as hell but I don't know how else to describe. The setting of my dream felt like something that only comes out of a movie. For some reason, I knew that I only had one day left to live. I lived life regularly but I knew there would be some epic battle. It's like my life had a script and whatever written for the conclusion is already set in stone and my character was written off the show. I'm not quite sure what universe I was in and some details are kind of blurry but It allowed for some moderate super powers but everyone and the world was mostly regular. It's all coming back to me know. There was this great super being or creature that came down to earth. Claiming people aren't worthy enough and everytime me or some other person around the world gives a solution, this being would shoot the idea down. The look of the extraordinary being looked somewhere like Groot but slightly burning and the ability to change sizes and it gave off an eerie aura of power...not necessarily fear but something you must respect. In the dream and in real life. I felt that I was about 82% asleep and 18% awake. If a sensation or a slap happened to me reality for example, I know it would transition into my dream one way or another. The world is going to end and I have no idea what it's going to happen. I didn't have a sense of remorse or an achy tummy and was just waiting to see what will happen next. Night time passes and I know my end is coming soon. Dawn is here and there was a polictical figure making an announcement outside my window. He is speaking to the general public and roughly a football sized field away. There are 10s of thousands of people outside. The polictical figure whoeever it maybe makes an announcement that imagine if you can ask any animal to kill for you...and it will do it. Regardless of the animals being present when the demand takes place. He then said...well you can. Slowly but surely, the whole place and area is complete choas. The guy outside my window and just looks at me. He told me I sent a mother bear to kill you. It's coming now. Im running away. I ended up outdoors/kitchen hybrid. I grab a knife and it wasn't animals killing people. The choas that ensued was people killing each other. A violent mob came in and I knew how this will end. I knew how I was going to die. Going back to the top, you know how I said that this feels like a movie? Well, I felt that I could change my script. I fight my way out of it feeling like im in the clear of this great unknown feeling of death in a dream. The dream started to literally get blurrier and darker. The lines that seperate reality and dream world started to get meshed together. I wasn't afraid of dying. I accepted my fate in this dream. I don't know how I died..but I remember the feeling. Everything gets dark and my stomach has a slight burning sensation. I know that in this movie/dream of mine that I am dead. My eyes are closed in reality and I know im still in that 80% sleep 20% awake stage. My consciousness is there but there was no thought. It was just vast emptiness. This sensation lasted for a good minute. I actually had to tell myself to wake up because I was officially dream dead. Strangest yet most surreal sensation I ever experienced. I havn't wrote down my dreams in a blog for a long time but this one is for the ages.

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04/19/2016 "The Itis"

It's 6:32 pm and I just had a nice nap after eating my Mama's pho. I had a dream about a time in the early 2000s when we as a whole family would visit Christian's house. I also had a thought about what perfection looks like in my own household. Memories of visiting Christian's house was dominating my dream. All the kids were running around the night in the evening having our own little adventures. The men were all in the livingroom watching sports and the women and elders of the family were in the kitchen drinking wine and exchanging stories. My heart grew completely warm just to remember and dream of moments like these. I had a dream right after or during this same this dream. I'm not to sure how dreams work but i'm pretty sure they don't work linear. I had a dream about my own future household. It was a neighborhood that looked similar to my cousin Tims old neighborhood around Bikini Ave. I was coupled off with some girl but Im not sure who it was. We went on couple dates to my cousin Jacobs and Claudette's house but if didn't feel fun or authentic. All we did was talk about a show on netflix we were watching and there was only 4 of us. I scrapped this dream and this was the best part of what I remember from the dream. I think it's my deepest fantasy but I was in my little 2 room apartment. Chilling with all the guys in my family watching the Sharks game. There were so many kids around having their little adventures and the women were all hanging out having a great time. I havnt felt this good about a dream in a long time. I need more of this.

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02/24/16 "How I Feel"

Something has been bothering me for about 2 months now. I just havnt been able to approach you. It's on me to finally just pop up with a random text asking how you're doing. I just haven't, I'm scared of the result. I'm scared that you don't want me in your life anymore. I had a dream that I did text you and poured my heart out. IIRC, it began with saying that I don't care what relationship you are currently in. I just want you happy and if it's alright if I can step right back into your life and just reset our friendship. I think what bothered me the most was that there wasnt any bad blood. It just stopped.

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02/07/16 "Andrea"

I had a nigh..well I guess it can qualify as a dream. This is pretty straight forward. In my dream, I was surfing facebook and you had the cutest picture of your newborn as your profile picture. 200 likes, tons of comments. Someone wrote something clever and witty as a comment and I clicked like. Turned out to be your baby daddy's comment. Didn't know till later in the dream. I snapchat a few things in my dream hoping you would notice but it's lame ass stories like city lights and tall buildings. I watch your snapchat and you're in the snow with your baby, baby daddy, etc. All smiles and having a good time. I was happy for you. Then I woke up at 7:30 am. This is probably the last dream I will have of you. I got it out of my system. I do hope you have a great rest of your life Dre. It's been a hell of a ride. #OnMyBigGreenTractor

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12/30/15 "That One Time I Met Ben Gibbard"

[Morning Text] I had the craziest dream Brina. I was back in high school and we were having an assembly in the cafeteria. Hella tables were set up and all the kids were there. The principal said what he had to say and told the kids if they wanted to go home they could. But they had a live musical performance if they decided to stay. A whole bunch of kids left and I see freakin Ben Gibbard setting up band equipment by himself on the stage. Im like oh shit...it's Death Cab! But people were still leaving like they didnt know who the heck this guy was. The principal was putting away empty cafeteria tables when Ben Gibbard was performing but I ran to the empty one in the front and told the principal I would put it away once the performance was done. Death Cab was freaking amazing and I snapchatted it and sent it to you lol. His equipment malfunctioned so they had to put their set on hold. A little bit of more people left. There was a really long pause and a few people tried taking pictures with him. I finally got to him and said bro! Im such a big fan, I need a picture! The attempted picture taking took like 5 minutes because apparantly Dream Version of Ben Gibbard is horribly non-photogenic. He kept fucking up the picture by making it blurry or doing a weird pose that causes retakes. I then snapchatted you and posted it on to my story oh so happily. I was so freaking happy and the dream got even better. Death Cab finished their set......and guess who was on next. HELLOGOODBYE!!!!!!!! I was like fuck..best fucking concert ever. They sang that "Give me the creeps song" then.............. I woke up. I woke up super freaking happy right now before I texted you this long ass dream haha. I saw I had a couple of snapchat notifications. So I checked my snapchat in hoping that my dream really happened in real life. Lol...It honest to god felt like it happened but as you might guess. Their was no snapchat stories of ever meeting Deathcab. Its okay though. At least we got to see them live :)

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10/27/15 "I Was Pissed"

This dream is weird to explain but I was in the bed with one of my best friends and we were close. She was just chilling and I was right up against her. It was comfortable for the both of us especially with a blanket over. I got off the bed and went to do something real quick. Another good friend (In real life, I have no idea who this person is) says hi to the both of us and gets in the bed with my best friend. He puts his arm around her. I know we're all just friends...all of us. I pretend to be okay with it but he then puts the blanket over both of them. I hear them giggling but still conversing with me also. It made me angry. I felt like in honesty, I'm going to kill this guy but I hide my feelings. I woke up angry and scared. I honestly don't know how to feel about my best friend. I don't.